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11 years ago
Follow me on twitter, yo! https://twitter.com/ZavrynZanuldeir Well, I'm not really sure why I'm writing this to be honest, but oh well. Just sort of an update on things.
I want to apologize about being all down, especially on my birthday. It's just that you kind of expect your friend who lives in the same apartment building to at least make an effort to stop by and at least wish me a happy birthday, but oh well, whats done is done. I'm done worrying about that. Just wanted to apologize. :p
Welp, if you haven't noticed both my commissions and my own artwork have come to a halt. (Most of the artwork thats not mine in my gallery lately has been gifts, lol) As far as the fandom goes, I feel like I've been a bit... disconnected... lately. I'm not sure why, though. I just kind of lurk nowadays and don't say anything. I really wish that there was some way that I could get involved with the furry community besides just talking to people online. Lol. I wish I could find a furmeet or something at least nearby to where I am, but the closest one is an hour and a half away, and its kind of hard to make it out to meets that far since I have to share a car with my brother. Oh well. Maybe eventually I'll have my car to myself. XD Maybe then I'll go to a meet, but still, it'd be stepping out of my comfort zone which is hard for me to do. I do have one semi-local furry friend. Maybe I'll convince him to go with me sometime. :P
As far as my own art goes, I've been slacking. I've been moderately busy, but I think I could have made a little more effort into drawing stuff, even it would have just been doodles here and there. As I said in one of my other journals, I'm still having a hard time with drawing. Still feeling scared and the fear of failure stops me at times. But I really need to get over this. I have fun while drawing, and I really think that I need to find that motivation again! So, with that said, I'm going to try to art SOMETHING everyday, even if it just be something as simple as a hand, just for practice. I think this should do me well, and also help me not get so rusty. I've got a commission to start working on (hopefully later today I'll be starting it) and then I plan to start doing some personal work (maybe start working out the details of this comic that I've had in mind for a long time) and I definitely owe some gifts to some of my awesome friends on here.
Another thing I want to talk about is... my physical fitness and weight. OMG is it so easy to just say, "okay, I'm going to start exercising and eating healthier" but man is it so hard to follow. I don't really say this to many people (though its kind of obvious if you know me) I really do have trouble starting on something and keeping up with it. A lot of the times, starting is easy, but the follow through is terrible and doesn't last long. Its been this way with my artwork and its been this way with losing weight. I start off strong and then withing a week I get to the point where I'm just like "fuck it." I don't know why but its just so terrible. Like, do I just truly not want it bad enough? I don't know, I don't really think that's the case, because I really want those things. Maybe I just don't want to work that hard to achieve and get depressed that I'm not good enough? Maybe.
Now I really want to implement these things into my life, but I don't think that its probably a good idea to do both at once. As much as I want to lose weight, I think it's going to be easier to start off with trying to get some sort of schedule and daily drawing done. It's something that I enjoy, yet neglect so much. I think once I can get that on track, I may be able to start a routine for exercising and then after that, maybe try to watch what and how much I'm eating. I'm still not sure how I'm going to go about all this, but I want my life to start looking up. I'm really lonely and I really want to be with someone, but who wants to be with someone who isn't even proud of themselves for anything? I really need to shape up and be happy with my life before I even think about dating. I think its possible that because I'm not happy with the way things are the longing for someone is taking presence more than it should. I mean, who doesn't want to find that special someone? But it tends to be something that I dwell on too much. (I think) I've been told to make sure that you are happy with your life before you start a relationship with someone or that tends to be your crutch and your only form of happiness (which is definitely not something that I want in the long run).
Well that lasted a lot longer than I really wanted to. If you actually read this, once again, thanks. But these are the things that (if anyone cares to read or want to know a little bit more about this green wolf) I need to and want to work on.
I want to apologize about being all down, especially on my birthday. It's just that you kind of expect your friend who lives in the same apartment building to at least make an effort to stop by and at least wish me a happy birthday, but oh well, whats done is done. I'm done worrying about that. Just wanted to apologize. :p
Welp, if you haven't noticed both my commissions and my own artwork have come to a halt. (Most of the artwork thats not mine in my gallery lately has been gifts, lol) As far as the fandom goes, I feel like I've been a bit... disconnected... lately. I'm not sure why, though. I just kind of lurk nowadays and don't say anything. I really wish that there was some way that I could get involved with the furry community besides just talking to people online. Lol. I wish I could find a furmeet or something at least nearby to where I am, but the closest one is an hour and a half away, and its kind of hard to make it out to meets that far since I have to share a car with my brother. Oh well. Maybe eventually I'll have my car to myself. XD Maybe then I'll go to a meet, but still, it'd be stepping out of my comfort zone which is hard for me to do. I do have one semi-local furry friend. Maybe I'll convince him to go with me sometime. :P
As far as my own art goes, I've been slacking. I've been moderately busy, but I think I could have made a little more effort into drawing stuff, even it would have just been doodles here and there. As I said in one of my other journals, I'm still having a hard time with drawing. Still feeling scared and the fear of failure stops me at times. But I really need to get over this. I have fun while drawing, and I really think that I need to find that motivation again! So, with that said, I'm going to try to art SOMETHING everyday, even if it just be something as simple as a hand, just for practice. I think this should do me well, and also help me not get so rusty. I've got a commission to start working on (hopefully later today I'll be starting it) and then I plan to start doing some personal work (maybe start working out the details of this comic that I've had in mind for a long time) and I definitely owe some gifts to some of my awesome friends on here.
Another thing I want to talk about is... my physical fitness and weight. OMG is it so easy to just say, "okay, I'm going to start exercising and eating healthier" but man is it so hard to follow. I don't really say this to many people (though its kind of obvious if you know me) I really do have trouble starting on something and keeping up with it. A lot of the times, starting is easy, but the follow through is terrible and doesn't last long. Its been this way with my artwork and its been this way with losing weight. I start off strong and then withing a week I get to the point where I'm just like "fuck it." I don't know why but its just so terrible. Like, do I just truly not want it bad enough? I don't know, I don't really think that's the case, because I really want those things. Maybe I just don't want to work that hard to achieve and get depressed that I'm not good enough? Maybe.
Now I really want to implement these things into my life, but I don't think that its probably a good idea to do both at once. As much as I want to lose weight, I think it's going to be easier to start off with trying to get some sort of schedule and daily drawing done. It's something that I enjoy, yet neglect so much. I think once I can get that on track, I may be able to start a routine for exercising and then after that, maybe try to watch what and how much I'm eating. I'm still not sure how I'm going to go about all this, but I want my life to start looking up. I'm really lonely and I really want to be with someone, but who wants to be with someone who isn't even proud of themselves for anything? I really need to shape up and be happy with my life before I even think about dating. I think its possible that because I'm not happy with the way things are the longing for someone is taking presence more than it should. I mean, who doesn't want to find that special someone? But it tends to be something that I dwell on too much. (I think) I've been told to make sure that you are happy with your life before you start a relationship with someone or that tends to be your crutch and your only form of happiness (which is definitely not something that I want in the long run).
Well that lasted a lot longer than I really wanted to. If you actually read this, once again, thanks. But these are the things that (if anyone cares to read or want to know a little bit more about this green wolf) I need to and want to work on.
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~shizlgizngar
If you want to lose weight, lower your carbs, eat more protein, and do a mix of running and weightlifting, you'll notice a đifference within a week
