I’ve had people here especially discord ask me to commission them. With all due respects I need those people to understand that money is not something I can do. Arts I have are stuff friends were very generous to do for me, trades I’ve gotten from stories, or raffles I was very fortunate to win.

People like me also don’t feel comfortable because of the fact that this practice is very common on discord and many times these people are either bots or scammers. I personally wouldn’t mind writing a story but even as of now I don’t consider my story qualities to be “peak” but those who do them with me I always have ensured their wants and desires are met and they get exactly what is fair to them if not even more than they expected. But even then I am nervous because of recent times of being scammed.

Hard to believe now I’m back in collage working for my bachelors in computer science and tomorrow I’ll be 23, it’s been quite a personally messy year but it’s had a lot of ups as well!

Hey guys there’s a chance to win a raffle here!
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/61254087/

Sorry guys I haven’t posted in a while, irl has been busy but also admittedly I’ve been lazy posting here as it’s much easier to share on discord servers I’m in XD

I’m going to try to soon post some stuff I’ve gotten recently too. But we will see, I’ve been working to rework my sona, Blizzard and hopefully soon in the future have a more finalized ref. As well as working to go back to collage and get a bachelor’s in computer science.

My mother had a CT scan to examine her collapsed lung, we were confirmed today she actually doesn’t have collapsed right lung.

This is a huge relief, now to focus back on her fusing spine.

Yesterday my Mother got her MRI results which was going to inspect the condition of her spine that has been fusing. We discovered she has a collapsed lung.

The issue is after we checked her symptoms because this was so out of the blue it’s probably been there for years now. It’s concerning because she’s had multiple appointments before now and the fact somehow doctors haven’t acknowledged this is infuriating.

I’m personally unsure how to feel as I don’t feel too bothered as my mother looks and sounds ok but I’m also enraged from the failure of our doctors (and this isn’t the first time either).

Now I’m concerned about what to do next. But I may not be 100% in the best mood I plan to also do whatever I can like financially assist because we have no clue what her options are yet if her lung is even fixable or has to be replaced.

I do have a discord server. However, because I’m not the best at being technical on severs my discord is specifically for only friends or people who’ve I’ve gotten to know enough. If any of my friends who aren’t in there want in or something please let me know!

Edit: also people who want to chat or anything on discord I can share my user!

My friend  UltraDrago just got word his mother has passed away from a severe car accident.

Times understandably have been hell for him and any support I’m sure he would appreciate greatly. I can’t even begin to imagine how he’s feeling right now.

Journal: https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10943811/

Gotta say no idea what the goal the hijacker had but if what’s been said is true he really shot himself in the foot. Doing hateful acts out of pure anger never resolve anything and acts like this really do come with bad consequences.

Remember people, God tells you to love your neighbors AND your enemies.

I might be deciding on doing this soon, only reason though it’s not a guaranteed things is because I’m busy irl as I am setting up a business profile to find jobs, car hunting, and working full time. My only concern if I did open is taking too long on the stories and I do not want to cause inconveniences especially if that person offered something in exchange.

Side note I’ll probably be uploading more of my oc’s here with bio’s to them soon!

After graduation I finished my trade (completely)

After the courses I have earned:

Dean’s list (3x)

Magna cum Laude (2x)

Honor society

This was definitely a lot of work to get here! For one I give credit to God because basic courses was hard considering I at the time had seizures with no diagnosis and having 4 ER trips didn’t help either. (Note this is PNES.) if it wasn’t for the lord I’d definitely would not have gotten this far.

Current courses was better since I had better control. But there was challenges in the aspects of doing wood work, finishes, handling metals and browning metals, etc.

Regardless, hard work pays off!

After 10 agonizing months of basic courses then 10 more of my advanced courses I have finished my trade!
Now it’s time to apprenticeship and begin my path in the industry.

Time flies it seems! A lot has changed since last year getting a whole new job, my last week in my trade school almost over. I wonder what holds for the future now?

I’ve been very social lately, if anyone would like to chat and get to know each other more let me know in notes! I can share my discord with you too!

So in a couple more months I’ll finally finish my trade! I will not publicly say what however.

But anywho, when I do finish and get more open time I finally plan to open story trades/requests!

It’s something I’ve been wanting to do and hopefully get better overall. So when I do open them I can absolutely do it for free as experience is needed but I’d happily clap my feet together if people want to offer anything like arts or gift cards (I cannot do payment apps)

But when I DO open I’ll show my mini policy on it. I’ve already in the past done a few for friends especially a Bday gift to a friend.

So, on older journals I talked about having PNES. Understandably, most are going to ask “what the fuck is PNES…?”

PNES is psychological non epileptic seizures. This is a cause of build up of pressure that is not released. Now to better explain this, most people when under lots of pressure would release this through rage and other activities, in my case I do not. Because of that, my body resorts to a rather harsh way to release that. Going motor.
PNES is often misdiagnosed as epilepsy because until brain waves are checked and someone knowledgeable of PNES the symptoms look almost identical.

The main causes of this is often associated with people who have went through traumatic experiences in their lives and this of course expands to many many areas.

Now, to clarify I am not terminally ill. This is very treatable and as of this year since diagnosis and after some events last year I’ve worked on my issues.

Often best solution is to read about it and then work on ways to release/reduce the anxiety and my solutions have been socializing with more friends, reading books, and scheduling my day setting some consistency. Until I can finish my trade I’ve also been intrigued by story writing, I’m rusty without question but it’s become a fun thing I’ve had and a way to offer something on my FA account and do something for people weather by a trade or in exchange for a gift card and so on. But until my trade is finished I’ve taken more focus on that especially since my school does not go easy and does not give an F weather it’s the first week of school or literally the week of Christmas.

Why do I post this here? Because my diagnosis to friends has been noticeable at times FOR THEM but for me, I may have several moments in the snap of a finger where I’ve been gone for several minutes. So at times a heads up is something I need. Despite me being able to cut the chances of one happening to near zero it never will be zero. But this is a clarification too because days it happens it will be noticeable to some that I may not be 100% myself sounding tired and or lost in thought.

Basically this is how my head goes in this video at 2:04 when I have an attack

https://youtu.be/HV04X-3ING8?si=rGVTXFIO05P8Hm_X

Alarm replicating my mind going blank while either locking up or going limp while conscious

The post effects I feel like I haven’t slept in two days and don’t have an idea what I’m doing in the room. But this isn’t a severe attack like in the shows and movies portraying seizures.

One of my friends named Rieen is in the ER, he’s been having breathing difficulties and so far as of the last 5 hours has gone silent. I’m unsure the situation is for him yet but any prayers or support for him is significantly appreciated!

I’m a very social guy, if you wanna chat with me and get to know each other I’d be happy to! And eventually I can share my discord with you too!

Just been feeling very social lately

Fang’s origin story I might cancel-

It’s been in the works for over a year but the problem is that I don’t have many people to work with on ensuring the story is polished well, or that a specific character is accurately depicted and due to this and other things it’s depleted my motivation to.

It’s possible I might get help or something soon but I don’t see the point in doing so under current circumstances.

A good friend of mine named  reporterr who has been a friend of mine for a few years. While I’ve had some events my good friend has..unfortunately lost his father.

His father for a long while has been having a rough internal war with many illnesses. And as of today his body could fight no more..

In regards to his father he is saved by the lord so comes the relief to know he will never remember pain or suffering that he experienced in his life. But now I ask my friends to pray for reporterr and support him. This isn’t an easy situation without question and any help he can get is greatly appreciated!

Remember God loves and God saves!

Work was..not great today not just because things hit the fan but something more.

You see, people who know me well know I’m very caring person. It doesn’t matter how little I know you I treat you equally as a friend.

This morning..a usual customer who comes in often, an older lady I knew had a medical emergency. While I was at work EMS was called immediately.

We often joked around and talked some here and there. Sometimes she was a tad grumpy but often cheerful. No issues whatsoever!

But I’m worried for her, and I ask that if others could we could pray for her please..

For those who have been following for a while or know me personally I’ve finished my basic courses last year

Due to success with those and doing super well despite medical crisis I am starting my advanced courses the 20th!

In theory doing well with that and apprenticeship soon can open much more opportunities especially considering most who do my job are double my age.

Hey! So for those who don’t know my other account

I’ve been working on a origin story for Fang for a while!

Due to events im planning to change Fang’s trainer to Jacob aka Creature Unknown since he has influence over my Pokesona and been part of his raffle

However I also hold my stories to a high expectations so I also am asking for anyone or friends as well who can help with ideas and such! And at minimum read through it and suggest anything too.

I want to ensure this story turns out as best as possible as this story is also reflecting Creature and it’s important to me this accurately portrays him but also the story doesn’t age like milk