Heya, resident dark derg here.

About six months ago, I had posted a journal that aired out how I felt about 2024, and how I felt about 2023. I was mentally just in an ABSOLUTE awful place. That is to say, I'm still dealing with some of the things mentioned previously; there's the pile that's still being chipped away at, and there's still the matter of ADHD. There's also still the self-isolation.

...But now they're not as bad as they were. ADHD is STILL kind of a bitch, but I have an approach for that now. Same goes for the pile of stuff I owe. As for the isolation, It's become less of a way to shut myself out and more of a way to, just, lock in. So that's what I've been doing the past couple months. I told myself this would be the summer I get it together, and the summer I start tearing away at the pile full force (or as full a force as I can do with being a retail worker help me get off this hellish ride) in hopes that I can at last put 2023 behind me. And it's. It's ACTUALLY been WORKING. I recently finished up a big project I owe, in the process of drafting out another owed larger project, and moving on to smaller owed comms in between. I'm not seeing the light at the end of the tunnel yet, by ANY MEANS but IT'S FINALLY A START.

I FINALLY feel like I'm moving forward. I've already slowly started leaking my presence into some other Discord servers again, so gradually, it seems like things have a faint glimmer of hope. I still intend to make noise, but in the end, I made noise in MYSELF. Weird wording, but whatever. This feels like a vast contrast to the previous journal. Where I was a burnt out, done and tired mess that just kept yelling at walls, now I feel like I'm actually renewing a vigor I mentioned, but I'm not forcing myself to. It just took some time. Well, A LOT OF TIME. But now, it feels like progress is actually happening.

My money issue, despite this up turn, is still pretty crappy though, lol. Probably worse even, at least when it comes to rent. This is another ride I wanna be off of already. That said, I can't openly take commissions and won't just yet. However, regarding new approaches, I have SOME alternatives.

For one, there's adopts. I wanna try making some adoptables and see how it goes. It would also give me a good excuse to flex my creative muscle and see what I can do. Only problem is...Idk where to start, haha. Rather, I don't know WHAT to start with, what species I should do, stuff like that. If anyone has input or suggestions, I'm happy to hear!

ANOTHER alternative I have is donations. In addition to rent near the end of each month, I also have a trip coming up next month that I'd really like to have muns for.
For that reason, I finally made a ko-fi that caters to this account. I'm not going to force anyone to donate if they can't, I totally get it! To those that can donate, I appreciate it and any little bit helps!

As for any larger donos, I can AT LEAST offer up sketches similar in style to warm-up sketches I used to do back when I first started here, but that's IF any large donos come by. Again, not expecting it and not forcing anyone!

Here's the link if you wanna donate: https://ko-fi.com/grimblydergpawz

Remember, I WILL get to you if I haven't done so yet. I haven't forgotten, and I'm not quitting. It's just A LOT of overdue stuff, but it finally doesn't feel like it's a huge terrifying obstacle anymore. Thank you, to all I owe, for ALL of the patience. I'll figure out how I wanna go about posting here in the meantime, but that'll happen in its own time as well.

Til next journal, where hopefully the pile will be nothing more than a mere molehill, and no longer the mountain it became.