Hey peops!

First of all: Happy (late) new yee to you all! ~ ♥
I am sorry for having been so ultra quiet, but I've never been as busy in my life as during October-January this time. Here's the good news tho: It's finally over !
After 2 super hardcore years I finally got the part time job I spoke about before and will move back home in 2 weeks to get my life back. Before I blabla too much here, I will give you a short, informative version, then a personal one, for the more curious ones of you.

Short version:
I just passed all exams forever in my life and immediately got a job offer for a nice part time job. This means I can now not only digital art again, but my full focus can be art for ~3-4 days a week! <3
I will elaborate a scheme that balances out personal art with commissions, but I am not quite sure how yet. My assumption is that it will be similar to now, where I draw commissions for things that both you and I enjoy, to get the most joy out of it. There are some online forms I liked, where a commissioner makes various suggestions and the artist picks one for example. If you have ideas, feel free to share! :>

Long version:
When I said "2 super mega hardcore years" what I meant was that my life was really, really shitty haha. But the goal was too important to just quit.
Ever since I picked up a pencil my dream was to art freely and see awesome ideas come to life, have fun with people who share the same interests. Art is love for me. But because it was difficult to support my life while arting, I had decided to do a career path where I can work not too many hours, but will still be able to support my life. The problem is, I am just a stupid lizard pff.

Some of you know that I was sweating blood and tears regularly, especially for the last couple of months. The worst for me was to not be able to art digitally or much traditionally, either, which turned the plan kind of ironic. I didn't talk about it in detail, because it would have not been useful to whine. Afterall, I chose this path on my own and felt immensely responsible to finish what I started. Since October I didn't take a single day off work, I was just working and studying and doing other preparations every day from morning til night, sometimes very late night. The exam was "Live or die" in a way.

Now I didn't tell you this either, but you only get 2 chances for this exam and last time I tried, I failed it. I was ready to give up and do something else, because I felt like there was no way I could do it. I was so far from meeting the requirements despite my greatest efforts. I felt that doing my best was all I could ask myself for, but since I got another chance, I couldn't walk away. A lot of people told me to stop when I worked myself to my breaking limits, but I couldn't do it, because I felt like I would only blame myself if I didn't do my best. On my exam day I slept for a whole 2h because I was so nervous haha, but add the adrenaline rush when you wiggle all day before a committee and it somehow worked. It was the worst and the best day of my life. When the committee announced my results after 6h of examinations (no joke), I couldn't and still can't quite believe it. The feeling of being free after 9 years is so intense. On the same day I got the contract I talked about since forever. It's like getting my life back suddenly and I am quickly recovering from the most stressful phase of my life.

So what does this mean for you? I now work 3 days a week and a little bit at home. I get 3 months of vacation a year. So, I can almost <FULLY> focus on practicing and doing art now. No exams, no other studies. Those 4 days a week I will fully dedicate myself to art, friends, games and whatever else is fun. In 2 weeks I will move back home where I can do digital art, so no more weird pencil drawings (unless I feel like it lol). I also got some oil paints and want to attempt to learn doing something with that. Once I move back to my home, you'll see me stream a lot more again, like I used to during the holidays and such, when I had time and didn't have to hang out at my crappy 1-room apartment.
There will be some sort of commission scheme that I didn't fully shape out yet. I also think about a Patreon/Subscribestar that doesn't do anything but a lil support. Don't worry, there will never be "exclusive" content or something like this from me of course, that's against my motivation in art that I just told you about. But maybe I could also show you a thing or two when my skill gets better and I know what the hek am doing haha.

That's it from me! I hope you have a nice day as always! ♥