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So, I'm still dead...
14 years ago
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...and it doesn't look like it'll get any better.
As if it isn't obvious enough, art blocks have been punishing me greatly. Mostly they stem from college difficulties, family nagging, etc. Awful depressive spikes are included.
On college, I'm probably going to fail the entire semester. Mostly because this city's computer engineering has -nothing- to do with computer engineering. Mostly high-end chemistry, calculus, social studies, environmental law. Worse, my class is comprised 1% of computer engineering students and the rest of electrical engineering. Yet, my parents are do damned desperate that they're willing to force me to finish electrical engineering just to have a majoring, any of them. Especially since this 1% is getting smaller. One of them, which was a nice friend, is leaving for a different majoring next week. Me, I decided a different venue: pursue a career in art and design yet again, since when I last tried it, the only graphic design majoring was 2 hours away from my city...that daily commuting was killer.
If not, I'll force myself back to a commission mindset. After all, with my current price, 10 drawings a month would be the equivalent of a decent paying job here. Except for now I'm trying to solve all the stuff that's constantly bringing me down and causing my art to become gory, satanic and unexplainable. Fun, really.
...I had more stuff to write, but I've forgotten. Must be a morning effect.
Guess 'crawling somewhere dark and die' is a decent course of action to be taken now.
Till I next show any sign of activity...
As if it isn't obvious enough, art blocks have been punishing me greatly. Mostly they stem from college difficulties, family nagging, etc. Awful depressive spikes are included.
On college, I'm probably going to fail the entire semester. Mostly because this city's computer engineering has -nothing- to do with computer engineering. Mostly high-end chemistry, calculus, social studies, environmental law. Worse, my class is comprised 1% of computer engineering students and the rest of electrical engineering. Yet, my parents are do damned desperate that they're willing to force me to finish electrical engineering just to have a majoring, any of them. Especially since this 1% is getting smaller. One of them, which was a nice friend, is leaving for a different majoring next week. Me, I decided a different venue: pursue a career in art and design yet again, since when I last tried it, the only graphic design majoring was 2 hours away from my city...that daily commuting was killer.
If not, I'll force myself back to a commission mindset. After all, with my current price, 10 drawings a month would be the equivalent of a decent paying job here. Except for now I'm trying to solve all the stuff that's constantly bringing me down and causing my art to become gory, satanic and unexplainable. Fun, really.
...I had more stuff to write, but I've forgotten. Must be a morning effect.
Guess 'crawling somewhere dark and die' is a decent course of action to be taken now.
Till I next show any sign of activity...
Though cheerin's always good :P
Anyways, here's hoping there is some bright side to all this unnecessary frustrating goofiness you're going through. Take care.
Another issue with the degree is that even later on for us there are interdiciplinary studies and more options. Kind of distracts from the degree as well.
If you don't feel doing Engineering is for you then I think it would be best to do what makes you happy ^^ honestly, I know a couple people who were in Engineering and ended up hating it. They're happier now in their other feilds
in any case, I hope you feel better soon hon
The biggest problem though is, as you said, it requires the ability to minimize art block. You don't need to never get it, but you do need to discover a way to give you just enough control to keep it from completely eating you alive. Because art block attacks each artist differently, everyone has their own solution. It sounds like your life situation is unacceptable to you, so changing your career direction makes sense. Your family will pitch a fit, but maybe if you show that you could do something that sounds "corporate" enough like designing business websites or something they'll lay off.
My advice is the cheesy oft-repeated, "do what you love". Worry about the details later. If for example right now there's a class or two you're doing well in that is relaxing or interesting, see what degrees it leads to.