depression pushing me to suicidal thoughts.
13 years ago
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my depression has been bad this last week. and its getting worse every day. now suicidal thoughts creep in as i get news of my best friend that i knew since forth grade died in a car accident today. some friends of mine offered no support and said for me to get over it. i'm wallowing in a sea of sorrow and pain, suicide is possible in my near future.
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I am truly sorry for your loss, it does not get any easier as you go on in life... you will love, you will see life come and go, and you will feel pain and sorrow. If you are looking for someone to tell you what to feel and do, I am not that person.
If you need a ear, you have it... I can not truly give you a hug pat you on the back and say it will be alright... but with time comes joyful moments... with time comes learning to cope when your cup is full or empty... learning to fill it or empty it some to get balance back is the key... its truly yen and yang... and when things are out of balance so to are we.... one day you may be like me and playing it forward to someone who has come upon the same as you and your write words that helps that soul find some balance...
This is your story in life.... when you pick the pen up to write, what sort of ending do you see... one of happiness or one of tragedy...
Like I said I have lived a long time... and know things that most will never experience... both for joy and sorrow. But along the way if I would have wrote a final chapter early in my life or along the way... ( and oh yes there were many ) I would not be writing these words to you now....
The people in the fandom gave me Hope, and Hope is my center for now and always... I do wish hope upon you every waking day.. My ears are here if you ever need to tug on em... I do hope you write many more journals for years to come... but it is your story cousin, your road to walk...
Wrabbit...
I use this story a lot,,, because it resides in my soul..... We are swords being forged in life.... if the blacksmith is to hard we can shatter and break.... and be no more.... but if we hold strong,,, and take the things that come along and are forged into us... we will become stronger for it...
Hope to you cousin....
We're all here to support you through this.