so for that past i wanna say 4 months i have been talking with a fur and sharing a lot of personal details with him but the more i talked to him (even though he was straight) i fell for him pretty hard and he considers me his best friend and maybe more but hes so uncomferble with the whole being gay senario that i feel hes been distancing himself and i have noticed it and not said anything cause i dont by any means want to change him but i just love him so damn much and.. i cant let it go no matter how hard i have tried..i even brought the idea up as usoing my female chara's for rp and he found it ok i guess but i think he was still seeing me so it wasn't anything special like i wanted it to be .. but anyway im just at a lose.. why do all the nice guys have to be straight.. i mean alot of the gays i know are just in it for a fuck and go... not a relationship.. sighs.. idk what to do but be his friend and love him silently and afar... so with that i say thank you.. this song from celine dion describes it..

Down and out, all alone
Sitting here, sad and ooh
The sun is now going down
It's kinda cold, seeking refuge

I trust a friendly face
Or maybe just a smile
Someone that understands
What I'm going through right now
And just before I…

Lay me down to never wake
I look up and I see you
So with everything I am

Thank you…
Thank you…
Because you didn't have to
Thank you…
Thank you…
With everything I am
Thank you…

For the real sacrifice and the truth
Behind your giving heart
And how you'd never judge or faulted me
Helped me 'cause you wanted to

And for your friendly face
And for just your smiles
Simply understanding that
What I'm going through right now
And just before I…

Lay me down to never wake
I look up and I see you
So with everything I am

Thank you…
Thank you…
Because you didn't have to
Thank you…
Thank you…
With everything I am
Thank you…

'Cause when no one else would care you did
And when no one else was there you were
Now I am so aware
You're a blessing to me
What did I do to deserve…
To deserve you…
There's no words
That could describe
That could describe
How much I…

Thank you…
Thank you…
Because you didn't have to
Thank you…
Thank you…
With everything I am
Thank you…

For everything I am
Thank you… Thank you… Thank you…
Thank you…
With everything I am
Thank you…

i mean it.. thank you....