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Should Have Known Better
11 years ago
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I'm not terribly vocal on this site, but I think this merits some sort of musing. If only for the purpose of unpacking my own baggage for myself.
Writing about the escapades of Roger, et al. has been a long endeavor, and it's one that I'm not certain I can, or want to, finish. This story arc is, and has always been intended to be, the final one. The latest episode has been a labor, as they all have been to one extent or another. That's writing, for better or worse. It's what makes writing rewarding in the long haul. But this episode has been especially bloody, undergoing pointless revision after pointless revision, drunk and listening to Sufjan Stevens. It's all a mess, going nowhere, more an idiotic navel-gazing diary entry than anything meaningful or interesting. In the past, the area of drunken existential crisis has led to writing that I can be variably proud of. But that well has dried up.
I'll be leaving Seattle and all that is familiar soon, for a night position at a large medical center elsewhere in the Northwest. And as everything familiar in my life starts to fall apart, I'm not certain I have the energy or the drive to continue these stupid stories.
I started to write this story arc with the pretentious and lofty goal of saying something profound about the futility of life. But I realize that doesn't matter. You can't take bullshit fetish material and transform that into Art. Writing about awful relationships and a sense f purposeless emptiness is all well and good, but why look at any of that when you can stare at the umpteenth picture of an anthropomorphic animal fucking the planet. So I might continue. But I might not. I really don't know.
If I do, it will be at a slow pace, as I'm certain the three people who give two shits about what I write know. If I stop, I'm terribly sorry, but that's how it will have to be. I would rather end prematurely than gasp out a resigned and half-assed conclusion out of some bullshit sense of obligation. Should I stop, I will publish all of my extant material, writing, notes, or otherwise, so that anyone who is interested may have some idea as to the conclusion of this silly arc.
Thank you.
Writing about the escapades of Roger, et al. has been a long endeavor, and it's one that I'm not certain I can, or want to, finish. This story arc is, and has always been intended to be, the final one. The latest episode has been a labor, as they all have been to one extent or another. That's writing, for better or worse. It's what makes writing rewarding in the long haul. But this episode has been especially bloody, undergoing pointless revision after pointless revision, drunk and listening to Sufjan Stevens. It's all a mess, going nowhere, more an idiotic navel-gazing diary entry than anything meaningful or interesting. In the past, the area of drunken existential crisis has led to writing that I can be variably proud of. But that well has dried up.
I'll be leaving Seattle and all that is familiar soon, for a night position at a large medical center elsewhere in the Northwest. And as everything familiar in my life starts to fall apart, I'm not certain I have the energy or the drive to continue these stupid stories.
I started to write this story arc with the pretentious and lofty goal of saying something profound about the futility of life. But I realize that doesn't matter. You can't take bullshit fetish material and transform that into Art. Writing about awful relationships and a sense f purposeless emptiness is all well and good, but why look at any of that when you can stare at the umpteenth picture of an anthropomorphic animal fucking the planet. So I might continue. But I might not. I really don't know.
If I do, it will be at a slow pace, as I'm certain the three people who give two shits about what I write know. If I stop, I'm terribly sorry, but that's how it will have to be. I would rather end prematurely than gasp out a resigned and half-assed conclusion out of some bullshit sense of obligation. Should I stop, I will publish all of my extant material, writing, notes, or otherwise, so that anyone who is interested may have some idea as to the conclusion of this silly arc.
Thank you.
Illas
~illogical
All I can say is, thank you for all the stories you have written. I really enjoyed them.
MortosofUSSR
~mortosofussr
I wish you luck at your new position, and as illogical said, thank you for the stories! I also personally apologize for falling out of contact.
DTF
~dtf
You shouldn't be writing this if it doesn't make you happy. On the other hand, if writing this does make your happy, then who cares if its serious art. Maybe you should take a break from Roger & Co and do something else for a while (*wink*wink*nudge*nudge).
