Ugh. It just sucks so much to be me right now.

Yesterday I was exercising, just slowly walking laps around my parents place. We then take a trip over to my place to get some of my clothing. I get to see my cats. They kept wanting me to come to them for snuggles, but they haven't figured out that I can't do that right now.

As we were getting finished up at my place, my back muscles hit their limit. Very quickly I found them spasaming more often than them doing what I wanted. My mom got me back home and inside safely. Holding onto things to keep myself upright, I got myself into the recliner.

Today, my muscles are extremely weak and stiff. My back muscles even stiffer and weaker than before. The big elastic band I have to wear around my abdomen because of the spinal fluid leak makes breathing a real chore. My whole day has consisted of going from the bed, to the recliner in the living room, to the recliner in the basement. (With bathroom breaks mixed in.) I'm pretty groggy, mentally, as well. I slept for much of the day.

This just sucks so much, being so weak and fatigued. Just having to sit around and be useless. Of course, to top it off, I'm working on getting off the pain meds. So I'm going through the withdraw and all the other crap that it brings. Sooooo, if I seem irritable and loopy when interacting on Tigerdile or elsewhere, you'll know why. I'm of course gonna try to not let myself say stupid things, but who knows what the future holds.

Throughout this whole mess I have to thank my mom, for getting me to the hospital in the first place and for then taking care of me all this time. I've been trying to need her as little as possible, I want to go to my place so much. We will have to see if I can convince her tomorrow.

Stay well everyone.