I know just how you feel. I've been in a long rut where I've started a lot of creative projects for the sake of trying to put something out there, only to just give up on it sooner or later and play videogames which I then feel guilty for. It happens from time to time, with me I'm pretty sure it's my depression. All I try to do is remember that it's not me feeling so lazy and lost, it's my depression making me feel that way. Just keep trying to go at it and I wish you the best of luck and a Merry Christmas~

Did you try seeking professional help?

Yes, I have medication.

Does it help at all? Maybe you could try another medication if the one you're taking doesn't actually do much?

it does help. But depression is something I have struggled with all my life and probably always will.

Medication can only do so much. It can't take away the fact I'm a broke piece of worthlessness who struggles all the time.

No need to apologise Howl, if you're not feeling great then you can't be expected to be super productive and pumping out art. Hopefully you'll feel a bit better soon and you have a bit of good fortune over Christmas :)

If there is one thing that I have learned how to do in life, is to have patience. You take care of yourself first.

I know how you feel, just as most of other artists that make this gig their full time job. It happens, those moods come and go.

Unfortunately the only thing I can tell you is that you need to keep at it, regardless how you feel. Problem with the comfort of working from home is exactly that- it's comfort. It's very easy to slip into a funk that tries to push us into procrastination. We're not supervised, we're not clocking in at an office or a factory. We are our own bosses and we are accountable to ourselves alone. This makes it very difficult to maintain a professional workflow. But again- you mustn't allow yourself to be swayed by the funk. You wouldn't have this luxury at a normal job, as you would risk getting fired. And you deserve the same amount of respect and preservation instinct from yourself as some crappy temp job would.

I know this might seem like a silly exercise, but it works. Consider yourself your own employee... think if you'd allow for such action if you paid yourself wages. If you focus on this mindset, you'll see that you will begin to question your actions more and it will become easier to push bad impulses away. Keep working, keep motivated and on schedule. This might be the key actually- getting a healthy rhythm at least for now. Set a specific schedule you work with daily until you become self-disciplined.

In any case, in the past I have allowed my emotions to wreck my finances and force me into past due state with my bills... not a fun place to be in and it makes your leisure time even less so to the point when it's a self-perpetuating drama. Break the cycle, control your own emotions. I swore myself I would never allow my mood to burden me with late fees and embarrassment of being broke during important holidays and meetings. You can do it too ^^ Just as most of us did =)