Everyday I try and I try and I fucking try for a fucking job... I want a job... so much... and yet... I'm getting nothing in return. I want a constant stream of commissions but I get nothing in return... I wanna put some iron in my mouth and pull the fucking trigger... end my worthless fucking existence...

So, I have been hella busy, trying to get comms and find a job. I have some drawings I've been meaning to upload and for that I say... I'm sorry. FA is not all that too important to me, so that's why I haven't been so hyped with uploading comms I do.

Expect a upload dump here. Also, here's a poll I'm doing for fun
https://strawpoll.com/BJnXVx31KZv

I have finally figured out that I am extremely depressed! Yep, it's official, I am such a depressed little bitch that I can't handle most things properly. I try to he a good lover to my bf, and I somehow fuck things up! Sometimes it isn't even close to being my fault, and yet I say it is because I'm so fucking sad and pathetic that the only way for me to feel validation is by taking the blame for others! So many days go by where I wanna slam my head through a wall and hope to god that I die! I just wanna make everyone I love and care about happy, because even though i am trying to work on my well being, i am also trying to keep everyone else happy!

I know I barely post, and I'm sorry. I have been doing with more important things in my life. The most important thing in my life... is my lover. He no longer resides on FA but he's still on DeviantArt
https://www.deviantart.com/cyber-panda/posts
I know that he may seem like a mean guy but... that's because others and life have been mean to him first... I have been trying and trying to help him... but I can't do this alone... all I can do right now since I'm not with him in person is help him financially. He... has lost all motivation to draw and... please, please just help me help him.... I need him in my life... I need my lover.... so please... please see just... help him. I just want my lover happy....

I am open for Commissions. Instead of letting someone determine the price, I will now off offical prices.


Sketches : 5$

Line art : 10$ - 12$ (increases if color is wanted)

Shading: 15$ - 20$ (increases if shading detail if very specific)

If the drawing is supposed to be related to something else or is just a redrawing but with your character, then I may consider doing the lower prices for line art and Shading

Payment is to be delivered to my dearly beloved's PayPal, for I want to help him out with money

If you're intrested, message me through Notes or through my Discord: ash_the_cat

I seriously need money, I just finished High School and need money for needs and wants

I am open for Commissions. Instead of letting someone determine the price, I will now off offical prices.


Sketches : 5$

Line art : 10$ - 12$ (increases if color is wanted)

Shading: 15$ - 20$ (increases if shading detail if very specific)

If the drawing is supposed to be related to something else or is just a redrawing but with your character, then I may consider doing the lower prices for line art and Shading

Payment is to be delivered to my dearly beloved's PayPal, for I want to help him out with money

If you're intrested, message me through Notes or through my Discord: ash_the_cat

I really don't fucking get the art on this site nowadays... my boyfriend would tell me how back in the day, art was something to be praised. But now it's just... either it's a fucking annoying YCH with ridiculous prices or it's nothing but smut and stuff to make someone think with their dicks rather than their head. My boyfriend has so much shit to deal with nowadays and is trying and trying to make art and all I could beg for is for people to actually notice it and like it. I want art to be a way my boyfriend can sustain himself and for him to enjoy... I don't want it to be something for him to just use only to cope with the stress of life... and right now, it feels like it's starting to fail... I'm really trying to help him... and it feels like no one cares... he is my boyfriend and he makes art to be enjoyed, not to be something to wank off to!

It my birthday today :3

As of right now, artist who make the most horniest of art pieces get so much money and praise... and the people who make art that is just cute or nice or wholesome just gets outright ignored...

I'm making this Journal in hopes that the over 100 people who watch my basically dead account will wake the fuck up. Wake up and stop thinking with your dicks. The world as of right now is nothing more than a goddamn shit hole. And I gotta be honest... I wanna fucking die right now.

I wanna just kill myself, hang myself, stab myself, beat my head against the wall until my brain matter gets splattered all over the walls and floor. The only thing, THE ONLY PERSON KEEPING ME FROM KILLING MYSELF IS MY BOYFRIEND!

As of right now I'm just... fucking tired of it... my bf has to deal with a shit job that barely pays and is a pain in his ass. He also has to deal with manipulative brother and his brother's wife's bullshit. He goes through a lot... AND FOR FUCKING WHAT!? LESS THAN 100 VIEWS AND A SHITTY 9 FAVS!? COME THE FUCK ON MAN!

My bf is the only reason why I'm goddamn here and why I haven't ripped my throat out of my neck...

And you guys just over look him... not even fucking caring....

He's right.... this world is fucking doomed...

If you wanna try and be a good person... donate him some money... his truck is a piece of shit so he will need some funds to make sure it's at least usable...

And... stop liking only the horny shit... try something that actually has love put into it...

Bye...

May your woes be few, and your days many... except for you.... you know who you are... the one who hurt him so long ago...

As you all know,  derppus is my dearly beloved hubby and.... has and still is going through a lot of shit in his life...
Today his drawing tablet broke and it won't work anymore... I'm tired of him suffering. I wanna help him until I'm finallyoving with him.
So please, for the love of god, please donate some money to his PayPal so that way he could buy himself a new and better drawing tablet. Please, oh please people.... This is his last straw and I don't want him to stop drawing... it's not fair that he doesn't get enough recognition for his amazing art... and it's just more salt in the wound if he can't even draw
So please, donate to my hubby. Those that donate will get a draw from me personally, it can be whatever it can be. Just... please... this is really all my hubby has left...

So for those that don't know, there's a confirmed Borderlands movie and.... jesus fucking christ do I hate the actors they picked

https://m.imdb.com/title/tt4978420/

Look, this movie would be better if the movie was animated, I feel it would give it more character. But NOPE! We gotta stick with classic shitty adaptations. There have been more shitty adaptations to know that this is a bad idea. And if you look into the list of actors and you know borderlands, then you can freely join me in being pissed. I'm willing to give the guy who's playing Hammerlock a chance just because I feel like that since he's British, he can at least match the accent of Hammerlock. BUT WHAT I'M NOT COOL ABOUT IS WHAT THEY DID TO KNOXX! Go ahead and call me a goddamn sexist because I hate it when a character just gets randomly gender bent and there's no reason for it.

Also, other problem WHERE ARE THE OTHER MAIN CHARACTERS!? Where's Angel? Where's Brick? Where's Zed? Where's Mordecai? Where's Athena? Where's every single other main character that's a main character or is relevant to the plot?

I'm sorry but I have low hopes for this movie if they can't even get a good casting for the main fucking characters -,-,

Free derg: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/52484918/

Ok, so I barely post stuff and I seriously understand and I do apologize deeply about that.
I have like two commissions I haven't even posted yet and I'm planning on posting some art my big makes as a means to post his profile up a bit because I feel like people should at least give him a try. He's been wronged by so many exs and have fallen into many great depressions. The only reason he's here now is because if my promises and the hope I bring him, that hope being a better future. Yes he can sound "edgy" at times but that's most likely because of one of two reasons.
A, he's in a "mood." He's bipolar and can sometimes go from feeling good and even a bit happy to straight up pissed off at the current state of the world.
Or B, something happened. With his current living conditions, he has to go through a lot of bullshit just to get through the day and he doesn't get much days off where he can truly enjoy himself.
I love my hubby so damn much and it sucks that he has to deal with a load of bullshit in life and I feel bad because I haven't been able to get to him. Why? Well, that's between me and my bf so I recommend not bothering me about it. Please, and thank you.
Now believe it or not I've been getting commissions with my weird system. Here's the deal with that stuff.

So the way my commissions go are as follows.
1. Get the commission idea
2. Tell the commissioner what sorta payment I'm looking for
3. Do the art.
4. Set a minimum price based on what I had to do (as in you want a sketch, 10$, the whole sh-bang)
5. Get the payment in the form of a credit card.
6. Rinse and repeat

Now you're reading this and probably going "why the fuck would I pay with a gift card?" Well I'll tell ya... I find it more simple plus, it helps me limit myself. If I were to use PayPal, I would accidentally buy shit before I would realize that I need that money. Soooooooo, Gift cards were the next best solution to me. The main two I ask for is Xbox and Google play. Both for games and sometimes apps.

Ok- fucking- Wow.... that was a lot to unload *looks at my now empty brain* Huh.... well, I hope y'all commission me soon, my bf's page and PayPal are on my bio page and uh... I guess I'll just go this *disappears to the meme part of Even Flow by Peral Jam*

Hey guys? I have a question. If you had to live in anyone's stomach forever, as in full size and everything and that person wouldn't mind you being in their stomach and you didn't have to worry about digestion unless the both of you want that or that person was getting too old, who would it be?
This is relating to irl people, not furries or and OCs.
The person has to be alive as well

I love the Resident Evil series, my all time favorite being the original RE4. But I just tried the new live action show..... fucking hell was that shitty

And the worse thing about that.... is that I was correct to assume it was shit. Literally in the first 10 minutes I stopped watching it because it was just slow and completely shit.

And no, I'm not gonna watch it because that'll just make it worse if I watch it. If I hate watch it, then it'll continue

Ok so look, the xbox one I got is currently in mechanical hell and I ain't got no job and no car. But I still live with my parents. Now you're probably thinking "well, if you live with your parents, why not get a job like that? Plus, you gotta have a debit card at least." Well my parents have more important shit to worry about, plus I'd rather not use money I would need on things I merely want. That being said I have a proposition for y'all I still have a working xbox 360 with an xbox live account. I want xbox gift cards and a reason to become more motivated with making art, and the 100+ people watching and possibly you who is reading this, want art. So the lowest xbox gift card there is, is 10$ with the highest being 100$. Now don't get me wrong, I'm not gonna make y'all pay me 100$ Unless y'all want to so the maximum will be 25$ so that's the price range, 10$ - 25$ the lowest will get you a sketch and the highest will get you a fully colored with some details that I will experiment with and all that jazz until you till me that it's worth it

If you wish to contact me, here's my discord.
Discord: Ash-the-cat#2051
We will talk there and what not. Also, if you've asked for a request done before the making of this, I will get to that. But I will close requests as of now, merely due to the lack of people asking

How the hell did I get 100 watchers!? SOMEONE EXPLAIN IT TO ME! I'M STILL BEHINF ON ART AND I GOT 100 WATCHERS!?

♡♡ derppus♡♡


This is my dearly beloved panda! Please go and give him a follow becausehis art is beautifuland great! His commissions are pretty low.and that'sa great deal for great art! Plus he needs more recognition because he's just the fucking best! And he is also the reason i am still alive!

And Thank you my dearly beloved panda♡♡ you deserve the love and positive recognition! I live you more than anything in this whole world!

TODAY IS MY BIRTHDAY!

LESSS GOOOO!

And it isn't something Irl

So I have been getting a weird kink of being permanently digested or staying as fat for a long time.... and there's one person in particular I want to do it with, and that is my papawolf  k9manx90

I wanna be Gurume's belly pudge... forever♡♡♡ I love my papawolf so much and.... I wish he wasn't so busy because I love him so much

But why become Gurume Gattsu's belly fat forever you ask? Well I just wanna stay as his belly fat for at least 2 months. That's all i want right now♡ can anyone help me in my dream to be my papawolf's belly fat for a long time? Pwease?

THERE BE A NEW RAFFLE!

GO GO GO, NOW NOW NOW!

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/49612564/

Look just don't go to this guy  Lizardguy. Go ahead and call me a bitch but know this. This guy, gal, whatever the fuck they are. They think it makes since to take my comment on their journal out of context

He replied to my comment and deleted it but I'll give you the basic summary of what I said and meant. Here's the journal https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10365853/

So basically I was saying that people are so fucking petty and bitchy that they'll whine at a company to fucking change something just because it doesn't fit their needs or is racist, homophobic, or sexist. An example of a source of media like this is the game Resident evil 5 where the game takes place in Africa, where is I'm not mistaken, where the natives there are Africans who are black. I was pointing out the fact that people need to stop being so fucking petty but this person takes it as me being a communist and calling me a red? The fuck?

And he brings up how I said I'm gay and that I have a say. What my original meaning for that was "I'm pointing out that I'm gay so don't immediately think I'm a religious, homophobic white man and try to cancel me for my fucking opinion." And yet they took it as "I'm gay and I can say whatever the fuck I want to say." Which is very far from the god damn truth. And he brings up Nazis like that's relevant to what the fuck I said


Now before you ask about what I said, don't bother. I'm too tired to remember and they already deleted my original comment so don't fucking bombard me with "HOW DO WE KNOW YOU'RE MAKING YOURSELF LOOK LIKE THE VICTIM, HMMMMM!?" because I have no way to show proof if they removed my only piece of evidence.

So please don't bombard me with some stupid questions. If you want to question someone, question  Lizardguy and why they immediately assumed shit instead of Asking

Fuck me and I just wanted to share my voice. Last mistake I'll fucking make

(Please note that the server is a work in progress and was just made but will gladly accept help from people in the form of suggestions and junk)

I'VE MADE A DISCORD FOR PEOPLE WHO LIKE AND/OR LOVE  k9manx90 OR THOSE WHO'RE LOOKING TO IMMERSE THEMSELVES IN MY PAPAWOLF'S GREAT ART! JOIN NOW OR ELSE RISK BECOMING FOOD TO THIS KITTY! >:3

https://discord.gg/2vVbKhzv

So I only use notes for rp but here's the deal-io. I'm bored as hell and wanna rp with someone who's a very dominant pred. I'm realizing that I'm a submissive prey who wants to be dominated by some preds. If you wanna, hit me up in notes. If not, share this to someone you know who will or just ignore me

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/47694192/

🎶raffle, raffle, raffle time, raffle time, raffle time, raffle time, join now before it's too late!🎶