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Posted 5 years agoGRS and recovery
Posted 5 years agoThis past Thursday, March 5th, 2020, I Finally underwent my long awaited-for GRS with Dr. Martinez here at the Mayo Clinic in Rochester, MN, and so far, I can't be happier! I"m still in recovery in the hospital, but maybe will get to go home sometime tomorrow or Wednesday at the latest. All depends on if I can pee and poop when they take the catheter and stent out tomorrow. At last they took the big bolster off that has been sewn between my thighs since around 2 PM Thursday and what a relief that is, let me tell you! Sitting on that was not fun at all!
Upcoming Wedding 4-25-2020
Posted 6 years agoAnyone who really wants to come to our wedding in Rochester, MN, please IM me your mailing address so I can get invitations sent out when the time comes.
Vixen getting married!
Posted 6 years ago
spectrafox Brianna and I have FINALLY decided, after 14 years of being together, to get legally hitched for the rest of our lives!The date of the wedding will be April 25, 2020, here in Rochester, MN. Official invites will go out in due time, but, for those of you who think you'd like to attend, and aren't sure if you'd get an invite from us, please, feel free to IM me on here or email me, and we can discuss. I'm pretty open to anyone who wants to come, and we don't expect any gifts or anything, just the pleasure of your company for an afternoon and evening.
Now, since we can't afford a whole lot, this will not be a big fancy affair. I'm looking into booking a small but nice local hotel and banquet room for the wedding and reception/dance, and will therefore have hotel rooms available at reasonable prices. A lot of our friends live quite a ways off we realize, but there are a few close friends we would really really really be so happy if you could make it. i think you know who most of you are, but ask and I will be happy to tell. Also, I plan on inviting some of my close friends from work, as they are good friends too, and some of my newest friends, the local folks in the trans and rainbow communities that I have become close too in recent months.
We are also reaching out to both of our genetic families and inviting them to attend. My Mom has already started she cannot because of her age and difficulties in traveling at age 87, which I understand. Most of my family will be in similar situations sadly. Therefore, I m hoping to be able to Livestream the wedding itself, and parts of the reception too, and record as much as possible and later upload to YouTube.
Also, I'm very happy to announce that my dear heart sister/partner Jade
fyremane Foxx has volunteered to become an ordained person and perform our ceremony with us, and for this I am eternally happy and grateful. She means as much to me as Brianna and I am so happy she has asked and is wanting to be included with us on this happy happy day! This old gal is going to be in happy tears for a long day I fear. I think I need to invest heavily in some grade A waterproof mascara for sure!Long, True story of my life.
Posted 6 years agoOk, so bear with me. This is going to be rather long.
Many years back, around 1986 or so, I finally figured out a name for what was, or at least what i though was, wrong with me: Transgender. I'd been feeling like I wasn't really a boy for years, all through high school and then on into college, but for lack of better knowledge, just figured I was some weird dude who liked to wear women's clothing to feel better and keep it all a big secret. Well, I found out there were others like me, and did what I could to seek some help. It was a long journey of several years, and along the way, I met a couple of others who introduced me to the world of sex with other Tgirls, and then on into being with a guy or two. Now, I never really liked the guys part, but hey, fun is fun, right?
Let's fast forward a couple years now. I was living at home yet, in the middle of north central Illinois, and seeing a Psych Dr. in Chicago who dealt with trans folk. Now, when I went to see him once a month was about the only time I could get out dressed as Michelle, the name I went by at the time. But the hard part was getting ready at home without being caught by my parents. My Dad was a retired farmer at this point but my Mom still worked full time as a bookkeeper at the local grain elevator. Now, I know Dad took naps quite regularly, as I'd figured out how his day went. I was working full time during the days at a local Lawn and Garden store, and farming at the same time at home.
Well, he caught me dressed up on the way out finally one day. It did not go well. He beat me pretty badly and told me to basically get the fuck out. I had no where to go, and no real close friends either, just a few acquaintances that I'd met through the past couple of years. He gave me a month to find a place to go, and to get all my stuff out. So, I found a cheap apartment in the larger town, at least larger to me at the time, about 1/2 hour from home, and moved in there.I also decided that this was the time to go living full time as MIchelle. This was in 1991 or 92.
Well, as one can imagine, being this time period, in a town in teh middle of Illinois, no one would give me a job. And I tried, boy did I try. But no one would hire the weirdo queer in the dress, as they seemed to all put it. So I was in a rather hard spot, between that proverbial rock and the proverbial hard place. So what does one do when one gets desparate? Well, this one turned to sex work, as i couldn't think of anything else short of turning to crime, which I did not waant to do at all. It started with doing phone chat/sex for pay per minute with some Trans sex line, and after a few month, I finally decided to actually meet up with one of my clients for some personal one on one time at a local motel. I wasn't really into this, but being as I was rather desperate, it was a way to make some money fast. Well, apparently, I was rather good at being a little bitch slut whore, and word got around slowly, and I started having more and more clients. I felt like crap for the whole thing but what was I to do? I was still trying to find a "real job" but nothing would ever come of it.
After a year or so, I had met a couple of lesbians who became good friends and the told me of a place in Peoria, IL that was a gay nightclub, and went there with thm a few times. Got lots of propositions right off the bat, and starting turning tricks in the top row of tables or out in the parking or at night, as I had no place to go there. I ended up moving down to that area few months later, taking a mobile home for rent with tow other drag queens I had met at the club. We all were doing the same thing however, having guys "rent" us for sex and blowjobs and whatnot. Sometimes we'd even do basically an orgy for a bunch of guys at once.
And then it happened one day, as I had feared it would. ONe guy took things way too far, farther than I'd ever wanted to go, and he basically raped me, and I just laided there and let it happen, because I was so fucked up int he head over the whole thing, I dont' think I really knew what was going on until the next day. Got to admit, I was using a fair amount of weed at the time, and drank way too much at the club. Even got so drunk one time there, when I was working as day time cleanup finally having a legit job, that we three who were there decided to do one shot from each of the 50 some bottles of hard stuff. NO idea how many shots I drank, but I don't remember the next three days, even now. Was told however that I'd turned into a total whore for most of the time, and had a literal gandbang with who knows how many. Probably a good thing I don't remember that. But the first time that one guy raped me, THAT I remember.
Told you this was going to be long. Still with me? Good.
I lived in that place for 3 years. Met a nice lady who happend to live next door. Ended up getting married to her and moved out of that place to a small town about a half hour away. She had two young kids, ages 6 and 9. They just knew me as Mickie, or Michelle, who lived next door, and who was a "Drag Queen" and went out at night and sometimes had dates over. That was probably more than they needed to know, but I sure didn't want to try to explain everything to them. Teri, the lady I mentioned, knew and she knew it all, as I'd told her shortly after that first rape. She helped me through it by being there for me, being a friend, being a confidant, being a shoulder to cry on, and so on. She also got me to give up that lifestyle after we moved and I finally got a "real job" Which was good, very good.
Several years later, after we'd broken up I turned back to my old lifestyle, as I was getting desperate for money again. This was before I started driving semis, and before I found the furry fandom, and before I knew any of you folks who are now my friends and family. I'm not proud of what I did, and what I was, but it was what it was. A way to survive. Yes, I was a sex worker. A phone sex operator. A "lady of the evening". A prostitute. A whore. And I fully support others who do the same or similar things. I back them 100%. I feel sorry for those who, like me, see no other way of surviving, but I'll back them always and fully. Now, I've not engaged in this sort of thing for at least 18 years or so, and I have no plans to do so again, but I'm not going to hide from my past either. Most of you never knew about this. I hope you're still my friends.
Now, I recently had an interaction on Facebook with a friend who had posted about a guy who seemed to think rape was ok, or at least the implication that rape was ok, and that you could just say you didn't want it and it wouldn't happen. Well, after what I went through, and all the bullshit that went through my head afterwards, I have NO PITY at all for any rapist at all. NONE. In fact, I feel that the old proverb, "An Eye For An Eye" would be the easiest and best way to handle anyone who rapes another person, especially someone who rapes a kid. Like what happened to me also.
In 1976. Father Frank O'Frey. Minonk, IL, St. Patrick's Catholic Church. I was an altar boy there for several years. One day, he took advantage of me and did the worst thing that could ever happen to a kid. He raped me in the back of the church. Said to never tell anyone. Said I was a good boy for keeping this between us. Said all sorts of things. And did it more than once. How many times, I can't say, as other than what I just told you, I blacked out all memories for most of that year. I remember it was the Bicentenial year and the fireworks and all that, but most of the year is a big black blank to me, and has been for as long as I can remember.
So, what does this all mean? It's very simple actually. I HATE ALL RAPISTS. I hate them with a passion. And when someone is caught and sent to prison for raping someone, they should be given the opportunity to feel exactly what it was like when they did what they did. They should be subject to being used and abused by the other inmates. That's what I feel is only right. That is what I feel. You may feel otherwise. That is your right. I am not going to stop you from believeing what you believe, nor would I ever try to change your mind. All I ask is that you give me the same right.
I know at least one of you, and possibly many of you, will and do disagree strongly with my point of view on what should happen to rapists. That is as it is. I don't and won't try to change your opinions, and I ask that you do not do it to me either. And with that, I will not speak of this again.
So, now you know a lot of my past that you never knew before. I hope this doesn't change your opinion of me. I didn't really want to have to write this or tell this, but after what occured between one of you and me recently on Facebook, I felt that I needed to do this. I value each and every one of you as a friend, and some as family. Family of choice. Because my real family wants nothing to do with me. One of my aunts is on my side in all this long thing I call my life. She supports me being my true self. And she is fine with me being Callie. My Mom doesn't know that Cal became Callie a couple of years ago now. She still calls me by my birth name of Michael, a name I truly despise and hate. I don't want her to know either. If she does know, she hasn't let on to me. As far as I know, no one on here has any contact with her. If you do, please don't say anything to her. She doesn't need to know about all the stuff I wrote here. My sister has friends on here that know us both. I don't know what if anything has been said to her. And I'll leave it at that.
I don't know what else to say at this point. I probably forgot half of what I had originally wanted to say here. If I remember anything else, I can always write another post later. And if I loose any of you as friends, I will feel very sorry and sad, but I will accept things as they go. And with that, I bid you goodnight.
Many years back, around 1986 or so, I finally figured out a name for what was, or at least what i though was, wrong with me: Transgender. I'd been feeling like I wasn't really a boy for years, all through high school and then on into college, but for lack of better knowledge, just figured I was some weird dude who liked to wear women's clothing to feel better and keep it all a big secret. Well, I found out there were others like me, and did what I could to seek some help. It was a long journey of several years, and along the way, I met a couple of others who introduced me to the world of sex with other Tgirls, and then on into being with a guy or two. Now, I never really liked the guys part, but hey, fun is fun, right?
Let's fast forward a couple years now. I was living at home yet, in the middle of north central Illinois, and seeing a Psych Dr. in Chicago who dealt with trans folk. Now, when I went to see him once a month was about the only time I could get out dressed as Michelle, the name I went by at the time. But the hard part was getting ready at home without being caught by my parents. My Dad was a retired farmer at this point but my Mom still worked full time as a bookkeeper at the local grain elevator. Now, I know Dad took naps quite regularly, as I'd figured out how his day went. I was working full time during the days at a local Lawn and Garden store, and farming at the same time at home.
Well, he caught me dressed up on the way out finally one day. It did not go well. He beat me pretty badly and told me to basically get the fuck out. I had no where to go, and no real close friends either, just a few acquaintances that I'd met through the past couple of years. He gave me a month to find a place to go, and to get all my stuff out. So, I found a cheap apartment in the larger town, at least larger to me at the time, about 1/2 hour from home, and moved in there.I also decided that this was the time to go living full time as MIchelle. This was in 1991 or 92.
Well, as one can imagine, being this time period, in a town in teh middle of Illinois, no one would give me a job. And I tried, boy did I try. But no one would hire the weirdo queer in the dress, as they seemed to all put it. So I was in a rather hard spot, between that proverbial rock and the proverbial hard place. So what does one do when one gets desparate? Well, this one turned to sex work, as i couldn't think of anything else short of turning to crime, which I did not waant to do at all. It started with doing phone chat/sex for pay per minute with some Trans sex line, and after a few month, I finally decided to actually meet up with one of my clients for some personal one on one time at a local motel. I wasn't really into this, but being as I was rather desperate, it was a way to make some money fast. Well, apparently, I was rather good at being a little bitch slut whore, and word got around slowly, and I started having more and more clients. I felt like crap for the whole thing but what was I to do? I was still trying to find a "real job" but nothing would ever come of it.
After a year or so, I had met a couple of lesbians who became good friends and the told me of a place in Peoria, IL that was a gay nightclub, and went there with thm a few times. Got lots of propositions right off the bat, and starting turning tricks in the top row of tables or out in the parking or at night, as I had no place to go there. I ended up moving down to that area few months later, taking a mobile home for rent with tow other drag queens I had met at the club. We all were doing the same thing however, having guys "rent" us for sex and blowjobs and whatnot. Sometimes we'd even do basically an orgy for a bunch of guys at once.
And then it happened one day, as I had feared it would. ONe guy took things way too far, farther than I'd ever wanted to go, and he basically raped me, and I just laided there and let it happen, because I was so fucked up int he head over the whole thing, I dont' think I really knew what was going on until the next day. Got to admit, I was using a fair amount of weed at the time, and drank way too much at the club. Even got so drunk one time there, when I was working as day time cleanup finally having a legit job, that we three who were there decided to do one shot from each of the 50 some bottles of hard stuff. NO idea how many shots I drank, but I don't remember the next three days, even now. Was told however that I'd turned into a total whore for most of the time, and had a literal gandbang with who knows how many. Probably a good thing I don't remember that. But the first time that one guy raped me, THAT I remember.
Told you this was going to be long. Still with me? Good.
I lived in that place for 3 years. Met a nice lady who happend to live next door. Ended up getting married to her and moved out of that place to a small town about a half hour away. She had two young kids, ages 6 and 9. They just knew me as Mickie, or Michelle, who lived next door, and who was a "Drag Queen" and went out at night and sometimes had dates over. That was probably more than they needed to know, but I sure didn't want to try to explain everything to them. Teri, the lady I mentioned, knew and she knew it all, as I'd told her shortly after that first rape. She helped me through it by being there for me, being a friend, being a confidant, being a shoulder to cry on, and so on. She also got me to give up that lifestyle after we moved and I finally got a "real job" Which was good, very good.
Several years later, after we'd broken up I turned back to my old lifestyle, as I was getting desperate for money again. This was before I started driving semis, and before I found the furry fandom, and before I knew any of you folks who are now my friends and family. I'm not proud of what I did, and what I was, but it was what it was. A way to survive. Yes, I was a sex worker. A phone sex operator. A "lady of the evening". A prostitute. A whore. And I fully support others who do the same or similar things. I back them 100%. I feel sorry for those who, like me, see no other way of surviving, but I'll back them always and fully. Now, I've not engaged in this sort of thing for at least 18 years or so, and I have no plans to do so again, but I'm not going to hide from my past either. Most of you never knew about this. I hope you're still my friends.
Now, I recently had an interaction on Facebook with a friend who had posted about a guy who seemed to think rape was ok, or at least the implication that rape was ok, and that you could just say you didn't want it and it wouldn't happen. Well, after what I went through, and all the bullshit that went through my head afterwards, I have NO PITY at all for any rapist at all. NONE. In fact, I feel that the old proverb, "An Eye For An Eye" would be the easiest and best way to handle anyone who rapes another person, especially someone who rapes a kid. Like what happened to me also.
In 1976. Father Frank O'Frey. Minonk, IL, St. Patrick's Catholic Church. I was an altar boy there for several years. One day, he took advantage of me and did the worst thing that could ever happen to a kid. He raped me in the back of the church. Said to never tell anyone. Said I was a good boy for keeping this between us. Said all sorts of things. And did it more than once. How many times, I can't say, as other than what I just told you, I blacked out all memories for most of that year. I remember it was the Bicentenial year and the fireworks and all that, but most of the year is a big black blank to me, and has been for as long as I can remember.
So, what does this all mean? It's very simple actually. I HATE ALL RAPISTS. I hate them with a passion. And when someone is caught and sent to prison for raping someone, they should be given the opportunity to feel exactly what it was like when they did what they did. They should be subject to being used and abused by the other inmates. That's what I feel is only right. That is what I feel. You may feel otherwise. That is your right. I am not going to stop you from believeing what you believe, nor would I ever try to change your mind. All I ask is that you give me the same right.
I know at least one of you, and possibly many of you, will and do disagree strongly with my point of view on what should happen to rapists. That is as it is. I don't and won't try to change your opinions, and I ask that you do not do it to me either. And with that, I will not speak of this again.
So, now you know a lot of my past that you never knew before. I hope this doesn't change your opinion of me. I didn't really want to have to write this or tell this, but after what occured between one of you and me recently on Facebook, I felt that I needed to do this. I value each and every one of you as a friend, and some as family. Family of choice. Because my real family wants nothing to do with me. One of my aunts is on my side in all this long thing I call my life. She supports me being my true self. And she is fine with me being Callie. My Mom doesn't know that Cal became Callie a couple of years ago now. She still calls me by my birth name of Michael, a name I truly despise and hate. I don't want her to know either. If she does know, she hasn't let on to me. As far as I know, no one on here has any contact with her. If you do, please don't say anything to her. She doesn't need to know about all the stuff I wrote here. My sister has friends on here that know us both. I don't know what if anything has been said to her. And I'll leave it at that.
I don't know what else to say at this point. I probably forgot half of what I had originally wanted to say here. If I remember anything else, I can always write another post later. And if I loose any of you as friends, I will feel very sorry and sad, but I will accept things as they go. And with that, I bid you goodnight.
2 videos I shot about Bee Balm and Bumblebees
Posted 6 years agoInfected
Posted 6 years agoI don't know exactly how or when, but I have seem to have gotten an infected sore spot on my left ankle and leg. I ended up going to the Dr today, and they put me on antibiotics. Fun fun fun.
Disappearing Watches
Posted 7 years agoAs a lot of you may or may not have noticed, but I've been unwatching folks on here at a pretty hefty rate the last couple of days.
Why? I had someone ask if they had upset me. No, no one has upset me. It's just, I don't have the free time anymore to watch and look through page after page after page of submissions and journals online anymore. I was 75,000 submissions behind, and I finally gave up and nuked them all.
Why you may ask again? Quite simple: I'm now working full time, 45-50 hours a week.
Why? I had someone ask if they had upset me. No, no one has upset me. It's just, I don't have the free time anymore to watch and look through page after page after page of submissions and journals online anymore. I was 75,000 submissions behind, and I finally gave up and nuked them all.
Why you may ask again? Quite simple: I'm now working full time, 45-50 hours a week.
Where am I? Where have I been?
Posted 7 years agoHiya! Been a while, ain't it? I've been incredibly busy RL the last 5 months or so. See, I started working at Menards, a midwest home improvement store chain, in the plumbing department, part time, on November 8, 2017. Since then I've advanced to full time plumbing sales, and am in a pre-management training course, and am working on average 45-50 hours per week now. Which is awesome! I'm loving it, and wish I'd have started with them years ago, instead of going on the road driving semi's. But the downside is, it takes all my time. I have so many projects on the back burner as a result, waiting for warmer weather. Such as the 16' fishing boat I bought last fall, to fix up and use hopefully this year, and the motorcycle I bought the previous year that still needs to be put back together, so I can ride her. Not to mention my gardening and flower raising. And home maintenance and yard work. Yeah... so, forgive me for being absent. I'll be at MFM over Labor Day weekend of course.
I just don't get it
Posted 8 years agoWe have been helping a friend build a deck on her rental house. My back is SCREAMING at me after today. But, I'm gald to be able to help as I can. It sucks being technically disabled, yet the gov't doesn't agree that I am, and SSI says I no longer qualify as I've been out of work to long? WTF is this shit???!!!
Being Sick Sucks
Posted 8 years agoI am Sick. Still sick. Sick as in suckage sick. Going to see a Dr. This afternoon because I'm sick. I hate being sick. It makes me sick to feel sick.
MFM Meme 2017
Posted 8 years agoStolen from Tavi!
I've been going to MFM since 2002, with only a few years missed, like the last 2 years. However, this year, is the the 10ath Anniversary of myself and Spectra Vixen/Maki Hooves's Pawfasting, which took place at MFM 2007, with Tyger Cowboy officiating. 10 years! Wow.
Arrival and Departure:
Arrive Thursday Noonish. Spectra and Fyremane will need to get their tables set up in the Dealer's Den, and I'll probably help, as they will be selling some of my home canned and baked goods again this year.
Staying at:
The main hotel - Whispering Woods. Our Pawfasting was at the old hotel, by the airport. I do kinda miss the layout there. And the restaurant there was GOOD!
Mode of Transportation:
Driving.
Who are you rooming with?
Spectra, Fyremane, and Snowolf
Will you be in the Dealer's Den or Artist Alley?
Not me, but my stuff will be. I'll probably be at their table at times.
Major Plans at the Con:
I'm running one panel, How to Grow and Preserve your Own Food, on Saturday. Otherwise, Kareoke and hanging with friends. I think I still have one or two...
Artwork / commissions:
Nope. I will be broke as usual.
Fursuiting?
Nope, not anymore.
Attending Parties?
No one ever invites me to any.
How best to find me?
Look around for the tall pink and purple haired gal with a bandana on my head.
Stage Performance:
Nope.
Drink:
Diet Dew!!!!
Smoke:
Quit 3 1/2 years ago, can't stand to be around it anymore.
Hugs:
If I know you then sure. Otherwise, probably.
Talk:
More than likely.
What is your gender?
MtF Trans. Boobs, but yeah, still male bits down below, sadly. Not that they work or anything....
How old are you?
51! Can you believe it?
Can I touch you?
Um... maybe?
Can I buy you lots of drinks?
I guess, though no one ever does.
Can I give you lots of money?
Please do!
Can I hug or snuggle with you?
I suppose.
How tall are you?
6' 0"
You look pissed off out of suit. Can I come up to you?
Beware! I'm still Crabulous!
Are you nice?
I am if I'm treated nice. If I'm treated mean, you better watch out.
Are you cliquey?
NO!
Can I stalk you?
NO!
If I see you, how should I get your attention?
Wave, Shout, Call out, "Hey Cali!"
Can I take a picture of ya?
Sure!
Can I steal ya away for *censored*?
Um, really? Really? Wow, you MUST be desparate!
I've been going to MFM since 2002, with only a few years missed, like the last 2 years. However, this year, is the the 10ath Anniversary of myself and Spectra Vixen/Maki Hooves's Pawfasting, which took place at MFM 2007, with Tyger Cowboy officiating. 10 years! Wow.
Arrival and Departure:
Arrive Thursday Noonish. Spectra and Fyremane will need to get their tables set up in the Dealer's Den, and I'll probably help, as they will be selling some of my home canned and baked goods again this year.
Staying at:
The main hotel - Whispering Woods. Our Pawfasting was at the old hotel, by the airport. I do kinda miss the layout there. And the restaurant there was GOOD!
Mode of Transportation:
Driving.
Who are you rooming with?
Spectra, Fyremane, and Snowolf
Will you be in the Dealer's Den or Artist Alley?
Not me, but my stuff will be. I'll probably be at their table at times.
Major Plans at the Con:
I'm running one panel, How to Grow and Preserve your Own Food, on Saturday. Otherwise, Kareoke and hanging with friends. I think I still have one or two...
Artwork / commissions:
Nope. I will be broke as usual.
Fursuiting?
Nope, not anymore.
Attending Parties?
No one ever invites me to any.
How best to find me?
Look around for the tall pink and purple haired gal with a bandana on my head.
Stage Performance:
Nope.
Drink:
Diet Dew!!!!
Smoke:
Quit 3 1/2 years ago, can't stand to be around it anymore.
Hugs:
If I know you then sure. Otherwise, probably.
Talk:
More than likely.
What is your gender?
MtF Trans. Boobs, but yeah, still male bits down below, sadly. Not that they work or anything....
How old are you?
51! Can you believe it?
Can I touch you?
Um... maybe?
Can I buy you lots of drinks?
I guess, though no one ever does.
Can I give you lots of money?
Please do!
Can I hug or snuggle with you?
I suppose.
How tall are you?
6' 0"
You look pissed off out of suit. Can I come up to you?
Beware! I'm still Crabulous!
Are you nice?
I am if I'm treated nice. If I'm treated mean, you better watch out.
Are you cliquey?
NO!
Can I stalk you?
NO!
If I see you, how should I get your attention?
Wave, Shout, Call out, "Hey Cali!"
Can I take a picture of ya?
Sure!
Can I steal ya away for *censored*?
Um, really? Really? Wow, you MUST be desparate!
Cons and plans upcoming.
Posted 8 years agoGoing to be at MFM over Labor Day weekend this year, come hell or high water. Won't be at any other cons however. Planning next year on going to Whinny City Pony Con at the end of March in the Chicago area. Other than that, will be making a trip to Chicago at some point to visit friends. Eyup
Why does everything seem to fuck up for me at times?
Posted 8 years agoWell, tonight's fun time: a clogged drain somewhere under the basement floor, which let the upstairs kitchen sink back up and overflow the basement kitchen sink, flooding my brand new floor with YUCK and rotten soup and gods know what else that came up.... and now I have to go buy a plumber's snake tomorrow and TRY to get the clog busted out.... with in 30' of the basement sink to the basement bathroom, which seems to work fine. Fun Fun Fucking goddamn fun.
Gender Transition
Posted 8 years agoIt's now official. As of today, I am living full time female again, and have new prescriptions for female hormone replacement therapy. I am happy, relieved, a bit scared, and just overall glad to be back on the path of living my life as a female again. I regret ever stopping back when I did several years ago. I realize that was a big mistake for me, but I didn't see so at the time. Oh well, here's to being who I truly am. Oh, and my name will be Cali instead of Cal from now on please. Thank you.
New Journal
Posted 8 years agoNot a whole lot to report here, just mainly wanted to get that MFF thing off my page. Been trying to work on stuff around the house this winter, with some success. Embracing the brony fandom more and more lately, making some new friends which is very cool. Also moving more towards transitioning back to female RL. So yeah.
MFF Meme Thingamabobbityboo
Posted 9 years agoWhat day are you getting there?
Thursday
How are you traveling?
Driving, well, riding in the van with the rest actually.
Where are you staying?
Main hotel
Who will you be rooming with?
spectrafox 
fyremane 
snowolfmn
How long are you going?
Thursday until Monday
PERSONAL
What do you look like?
Scary!
What is your gender?
Male more or less
How tall are you?
6'
Can I talk to you?
Sure. If you can find me in the crowd.
Can I touch you?
Toucha Toucha Touch me!
Can I hug or snuggle?
Hugs, sure! Snuggles, are good too!
Are you nice?
I try to be nice, but I'm also Certified Crabulous!
CONVENTION
Will you be fursuiting?
Nope
Where will you be most of the time during the day/s?
Sitting somewhere to keep centered, browsing the dealers room, Artists Alley, and Art show. Might even make it to the consuite this year.
What is the best way to find you?
Call or text me, or yell if you see me.
If I see you, how should I get your attention?
Yell, scream, wave money, holler "Hey Slut!"
Are there any panels you might be attending?
Helping with the Furry Femme Fotoshoot is about it
Will you be going to parties?
Maybe, but doubtful. No one hardly ever invites me.
Will you be performing?
Nope
What/where will you be eating?
In the room with stuff we brought most likely, Portillo's on Sunday night.
Can I come with you for food/fun/etc?
If I go somewhere more public...
Can I visit your room?
Yeah, but it will be crowded with stuff!
Can I buy you drinks?
Sure!
Can I give you stuff?
I always accept free stuff!
Can I take your picture?
If you wanna
What are your goals for the con this year?
See friends, and see if I want to come back next year. MFF is getting too big for me and it seems to be geared more for the young crowd now, not us old timers.
Thursday
How are you traveling?
Driving, well, riding in the van with the rest actually.
Where are you staying?
Main hotel
Who will you be rooming with?
spectrafox fyremane 
snowolfmnHow long are you going?
Thursday until Monday
PERSONAL
What do you look like?
Scary!
What is your gender?
Male more or less
How tall are you?
6'
Can I talk to you?
Sure. If you can find me in the crowd.
Can I touch you?
Toucha Toucha Touch me!
Can I hug or snuggle?
Hugs, sure! Snuggles, are good too!
Are you nice?
I try to be nice, but I'm also Certified Crabulous!
CONVENTION
Will you be fursuiting?
Nope
Where will you be most of the time during the day/s?
Sitting somewhere to keep centered, browsing the dealers room, Artists Alley, and Art show. Might even make it to the consuite this year.
What is the best way to find you?
Call or text me, or yell if you see me.
If I see you, how should I get your attention?
Yell, scream, wave money, holler "Hey Slut!"
Are there any panels you might be attending?
Helping with the Furry Femme Fotoshoot is about it
Will you be going to parties?
Maybe, but doubtful. No one hardly ever invites me.
Will you be performing?
Nope
What/where will you be eating?
In the room with stuff we brought most likely, Portillo's on Sunday night.
Can I come with you for food/fun/etc?
If I go somewhere more public...
Can I visit your room?
Yeah, but it will be crowded with stuff!
Can I buy you drinks?
Sure!
Can I give you stuff?
I always accept free stuff!
Can I take your picture?
If you wanna
What are your goals for the con this year?
See friends, and see if I want to come back next year. MFF is getting too big for me and it seems to be geared more for the young crowd now, not us old timers.
denied.
Posted 9 years agoAnd I got denied again for Disability, for the third time. What a crock of shit. And yes, I had a lawyer who handled this, and thought we had done a convicing job before the judge too. Now I guess we get to appeal again. No idea what to expect now or how long this might take. Took 15 months to get this hearing this time.....
I wanna be...
Posted 10 years agoI wanna be a milk vixen. Who would milk me?
No More Drama!
Posted 10 years agoI'm not picking sides, I don't care about "He said, she said" Bullshit.
I can be friends with whoever I want to be.
Just sayin.
I can be friends with whoever I want to be.
Just sayin.
MFM seeking Dealers and Panel Submissions
Posted 10 years agoIf you are interested in selling your wares at a convention in the midwest, MFM is currently seeking dealers until registration closes on August 1st. Mephit Fur Meet is held during labor day weekend (September 4th - 6th this year) in Olive Branch, MS. There are plenty of tables available at the moment, so if interested please check out the following link. http://www.mephitfurmeet.org/dealer
In addition, if you are interested in hosting a panel please don't hesitate to submit your ideas. We are looking for educational panels, fun panels, even after dark (18+) panels. To submit your panel, please check out the following link. http://www.mephitfurmeet.org/panel-submission
For more general information on MFM, please go to mephitfurmeet.org
Please spread the word and feel free to post this in your own FA, on Twitter, or wherever you like! :)
In addition, if you are interested in hosting a panel please don't hesitate to submit your ideas. We are looking for educational panels, fun panels, even after dark (18+) panels. To submit your panel, please check out the following link. http://www.mephitfurmeet.org/panel-submission
For more general information on MFM, please go to mephitfurmeet.org
Please spread the word and feel free to post this in your own FA, on Twitter, or wherever you like! :)
Still Alive
Posted 10 years agoYup. Sorry to disappoint a couple of you, but I'm still alive and kicking. What's left of me anyway. *grins* I'm down 108 lbs now, to around 270. It's kind of plateaued for a bit now, but it's still slowly going down, and I was told this could happen. So all in all it's progress.
Lots of stuff going on around here, some I'm involved with some I'm not. The things I'm not don't bother me too much but the things I am drive me nuts at times with getting things done. Yes, I'm being cryptic. It's my way.
MFM is coming up in a couple months. Still need to prereg for that. Everyone else here that's going is either prereged already or on staff as far as I know. I could be wrong, but I know Specky and Snow are on staff, and I don't know if Fyre is or not. I know she is for MFF, which I'll also be at, but that's not until December. So, who all is going to MFM? The best con of them all? I am.
Oh yeah, just to see if she reads this, TURKEY LEG!
If you don't get it, ask. If you do, make sure to tickle Specky with it.
Lots of stuff going on around here, some I'm involved with some I'm not. The things I'm not don't bother me too much but the things I am drive me nuts at times with getting things done. Yes, I'm being cryptic. It's my way.
MFM is coming up in a couple months. Still need to prereg for that. Everyone else here that's going is either prereged already or on staff as far as I know. I could be wrong, but I know Specky and Snow are on staff, and I don't know if Fyre is or not. I know she is for MFF, which I'll also be at, but that's not until December. So, who all is going to MFM? The best con of them all? I am.
Oh yeah, just to see if she reads this, TURKEY LEG!
If you don't get it, ask. If you do, make sure to tickle Specky with it.
I'm getting thinner!
Posted 10 years ago278 lbs now! I need new clothes because everything I own is way too big and I am swimming in stuff. YIKES!
But, what should I buy? What kind of clothes?
But, what should I buy? What kind of clothes?
Weight loss progress
Posted 10 years agoUnder 290 lbs. now. It fluctuates a bit between 287 and 289 the past couple days. Still hardly eating anything, and today I think the piece of pie I had at Baker Square was far too sweet for me, as about 45 minutes later, while shopping at Menards, I got suddenly very sick to my stomach and heaved and almost but not quite hurled. Been feeling squeamish ever since, so think I shall go to bed early tonight. I'm also noticing that the skin on my arms and legs is getting very loose and wrinkled, and my stomach and butt have gotten noticeably smaller, but not as small as I hope for yet. No hair loss yet, which is awesome.
8 weeks after my Bariatric Surgery
Posted 10 years agoApproximately 8 weeks, as it was done on Feb. 19th.
80 lbs weight loss so far! WOOHOO!!!!!
Of course, I can't eat hardly anything, and what I do eat is very particular. Certain foods, such as breads make me instantly sick as they just ball up in my stomach pouch. I have a problem chewing foods small enough too, and that causes the same issue. I'm going to have to puree or grind up most foods for a while yet. Hopefully for not too much longer. I did manage to eat a whole Halos Mandarine Orange a while ago though, so even though it doesn't have protein, it was good to be able to eat an old favorite fruit for once. I'm getting so tired of Carnation Instant Breakfast twice a day!
80 lbs weight loss so far! WOOHOO!!!!!
Of course, I can't eat hardly anything, and what I do eat is very particular. Certain foods, such as breads make me instantly sick as they just ball up in my stomach pouch. I have a problem chewing foods small enough too, and that causes the same issue. I'm going to have to puree or grind up most foods for a while yet. Hopefully for not too much longer. I did manage to eat a whole Halos Mandarine Orange a while ago though, so even though it doesn't have protein, it was good to be able to eat an old favorite fruit for once. I'm getting so tired of Carnation Instant Breakfast twice a day!
