Just in case everything expoldes, heres my other galleries.
Really lame tho, I planned on FA to always be "the fallback" in case twitter died.

SFW - https://twitter.com/CoffeeFlyArt
NSFW - https://twitter.com/R18Fly
https://inkbunny.net/CoffeeFly
https://e621.net/posts?tags=coffeefly

Hey everyone. The details are here (https://www.patreon.com/posts/41226706) but I'm shutting down my Patreon as I no longer rely on it for money. As a thank you to all past/current patrons, DM me if you want a free sticker! (this one https://twitter.com/CoffeeFlyArt/st.....97207127044098)

Thanks why Ive sucked uploading here lol. Ill try to dump art here soon, but keep in mind my main galleries are still my twitter because I can just drop it there.
https://twitter.com/CoffeeFlyArt
https://twitter.com/R18Fly

Let me know if any of you fine folks will be there too~

I'm getting pretty frustrated at some of my things in my art and I believe it's time to make things uncomfortable for myself and try new things. I will try to post anything worthwhile but I will be focusing on studying most of the time. There's a few things I really want to improve.

1. Expressions: I will improve this by pushing my expressions to near cartoony levels, dialing it back from the utmost extremes.

2. Scenery: I will improve this by watching Bob Ross (sounds dumb but its relaxing and helpful) and reading books about painting secenery.

3. Advanced color theory: I want to be able to build my own color palletes and make an appealing piece with them. I don't know where to find info on this but I'll have to look for something.

4. Perspective: This one will be the most tedious, but drawing bodies and objects at different and extreme angles will help me in the longrun.

Though I may take in some commissions when I'm tired of studying or need money. I am still currently without a job and I have some big trips planned, so I need to save up money.

AND THE WINNERS OF THE RAFFLE ARE OUT!
3rd Place: Vanillarc
2nd Place: SkyLucario2
1st Place: FelecityPandah
Congrats to the winners who have all been contacted and confirmed~. I'll be working hard to get all the winners done!
Wish someone on FA had won though, but with 20 people from FA and 280 people on twitter, it was a long shot x3.

Suck muh brai cock

.. Actually 2018 was pretty good personally. Got the msot art ive ever done in a year to date, exploring new stuff like animations and stuff. Along with personal life achievements such as graduation and hanging out with friends at a con. Plus all the awesome people I met in 2018 that made my life so bright to wake up to everyday, along with all the friends I already had <3

So long 2018, lets see what 2019 brings.

For those interested. I won't be social on there, its just for posting art. https://twitter.com/R18Fly

Again though, if you want a more social side/sfw art only then you can follow https://twitter.com/CoffeeFlyArt

Kinda been avoiding it like an old man. But I've gotten into the habit of actually using mind to chat. If you wanna see a more social side of me check out my twitter.

Keep in mind it's a 100% sfw account there, especially because some irl people know about it. https://twitter.com/CoffeeFlyArt

I wanna draw something traditional, but dunno what medium to pick, so help me pick one! Since it's halloween I think I'll draw a witch delphox, just too good~
https://www.strawpoll.me/16630145

Also minor celebration for 800 watchers \o/

Nothing really important here other than personal thoughts.

I've been feeling better about art still but had another slump where I basically broke down to people. They were there for me and I'm thankful, they really helped put things in perspective.

As pointed out in an earlier journal by someone, I really have been focused way too much on viewer count and favorites. Until this point, greater watchers/favorites meant I was doing better. Technically still down but not as much as it used to. But in my mind, even subconsiously, I thought that more favorites meant I did a better job at art. So when I uploaded something and it got <10 favorites I couldn't help but feel I utterly failed at something. Eyes, face, body, structure, perspective, composition, colors, something must have been drastically wrong in order for people not have liked it.

It became poisonous to me. I would stare at an image that people didn't like, look at a reference or similar image to try to pick apart what I can do to make mine better. I would try that in another picture and nothing would change. It would really make me depressed thinking that no matter what I did, no matter how many hours I put into it, it wasn't any better.

It kept building from that. I would get jealous at other people because they got more favorites/watchers/attention than me. I felt more and more like a failure and all I could think of is how I can exploit some fetish or character people love in order to be praised, to feel validated. And it made me feel disgusting. A cycle of stress, self-doubt, jealousy, anger, depression, going deeper and deeper for the past few months till those feeling weren't even subtle anymore. I would get jealous at my own friends for getting attention I felt I deserved, and I hated that as well, I wanted to be happy for them but I couldn't stop thinking my art was nothing but failed and wasted time if it couldn't match them.

So that's why I really had to talk to some of my friends about it. I hate bothering people with my problems but it just came out. I really had to be reminded me why I started drawing in the first place. To have fun, to make friends happy, to make people happy with good art. Numbers are empty... If I suddenly got 10x of everything would I even be happier? If it was for drawing something I didn't even really care?

It's the people who I know follow me for doing for doing what I enjoy that matters. It's learning about new ways to do things that make me happy. The friends I make and have made make me happy. Making art for people and having them tell me that they're happy makes me happy.

So what can I do to fix all this? I don't know. I don't know if I can keep this mentaility or if I'll start to get jealous again. I feel reinvigorated with meaning on why to draw. Instead of chasing attention, I want to draw to improve myself and make stuff people enjoy. But I fear that I'll start doubting myself and feeling I'm failing myself and everyone. I fear I will feel it's all a waste of time, considering how much time a single piece takes me, usually 10-40 hours if we count all the time I need breaks/food/rest and can't work on anything else in life.

Guess part of the reason I wanted to write this is to go back to this myself in the future. If I start feeling the same way again.

Thanks for reading, those who did.

I hate sounding like I'm whining or I was seeking attention, but I had to vent last week after stuggling to do any kind of art. I really just wanted to say thank you for the kind words and advice. It helped a lot, and even just knowing so many people cared helped a ton. Thank you all, you guys are awesome <3

And sorry if I've been bad about replying to comments lately. There's so many if them now sometimes across discord and all the sites I'm on x.x. But I do read all of them, so thank you again!

Kind of a question kind of a vent.

I've just been so doubtful of my art for the past couple weeks. Months actually. I'm trying to work through it but it legitimately saddens me when I see others take a quarter of the time I do on a piece and get like 5 times the attention. I know it's wrong to think like that but it's a persistent thought that makes me doubt my art is even worth the trouble. That my time would be better spent doing so much else.

Speed doesn't seem to be a thing I can ever work on either. The more I try to more I get frustrated. But I can't keep taking 3-4 hours to finish a rough sketch.

Has anyone had these issues and gotten over it? I'm curious how anyone did.

Let me know what you want to see drawn this month, the character will be nsfw this month~

https://www.strawpoll.me/16407351

Also note that Patrons get 3 times the entries on every poll. https://www.patreon.com/coffeefly

I know some artists basically handle their commissions through patreon rewards, but I don't know about that. There's no way I can keep up with commissions, personal art, practice, patreon rewards, and life. And I don't really want to do pure exclusive for finished pieces.

But I want to offer something special. I guess
1) HD versions
2) sketches I don't post and WIPs
3) polls for what to draw next
4) maybe source files
5) One week early access to personal pieces in the future

But what do you expect when giving to a patreon?

https://curiouscat.me/CoffeeFlyArt

Figured why not, so feel free to ask almost any questions on there or here if you wanna get to know this brai a little more. Buuut keep in mind I won't be answering nsfw question on curious cat.

I would make an image to celebrate but I gotta get doing commissions and trades xD
Hope you guys are liking my art and thank you for all the support <3

Considering buying premium if I can get some streaming partners. It gets lonely streaming by yourself x3

My goal was met thanks to you guys! Thank you!

Will be gone from July 4th-9th, not AC though haha, another con~

Hey everyone. Long story short, due to a sudden +1 to our party for a convention I suddenly need to pay a LOT more for a new hotel, 4 times the original price. I cannot afford this so I need to do something I really feel bad for doing, but I'll be openening lots of commission slots but I require payment upfront in order to pay for the hotel.

PLEASE DO NOT COMMISSION IF YOU EXPECT IT DONE FAST. I'm notoriously slow at art and I will be unavailable July 2-9. But I will try to get to them as fast as I can.

Commission Prices:
https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachme.....ummer_2018.png
Along with those I can do lined pieces for $45, that includes cell or soft shading.
Also note pricing may be a little flexible, they may be too high. And if it's something like just a waist up or bust shot it can be a much lower price.

Send me a message on here (or discord if youre in contact with me there) in order to get one.

If you just wanna chip in a few bucks I would HIGHLY appreciate it, http://ko-fi.com/coffeefly

Graduated and ready to be a functioning adult! :D :D :D

Ill be uploading looots of stuff I have been meaning to upload for the past few months, and try to get back into art. Hasn't been easy but I'm slowly getting back into it. Taking a couple months break makes you realize how much you never actually understood, so gonna need to get my bearings art-wise.

Graduation in 5 week, finals and projects due soon, party planning, career searching, you know how it goes~

Just letting you guys know you probably won't see much activity for about a month and a half. I plan on trying a more painterly style again once I return, and try to do more non-pokemon stuff as well, let's see how it ends.

Also just hit 600 watchers I see, thanks you awesome people <3

Except todays stream is over, but ill be streaming most of this week, with announcements uploaded when I start

Can't really message everyone on discord so I will say it here to let people know.

Until May I will have an intermittent presence on discord

6 classes + senior project, commissions, prepping for graduation (still super excited to nearly be done with uni), and irl life will do that to ya. Discord is just such an easy trap to fall into, I don't want it feeling like a job and getting stressed about keeping up with it, but I don't want to have people think I'm abandoning them or anything.

So if I don't reply, it's not that I don't want to, it's just that I can't keep up with a social life at the moment.

Just curious on how you guys see the current state of my style, or how I've been drawing in general. Criticisms, comments? Shoot me if you've got anything to say~