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TMI Tuesday
Posted 11 years agoGo ahead and ask me any question you'd like to know about me. When I say any question, I mean ANYTHING! XD
Just want to say thank you
Posted 11 years agoTo all of those that read my previous journal and replied and talked and comforted me. I really do appreciate it.
I'm feeling a lot better now. Got a lot of it out of my system and slept on it and am feeling my normal self again.
Thanks again
I'm feeling a lot better now. Got a lot of it out of my system and slept on it and am feeling my normal self again.
Thanks again
Tuesday's TMI
Posted 11 years agoLol. You know the drill. Ask questions n stuff and I'll answer honestly. No off limits questions
Aldo
dragoninacage I WILL answer your last week's question. Its a hard question so I took an extra day to think about and I forgot about it LOL
At any rate, I'll be at work but I'll try to stop by every now and again to answer questions
Aldo
dragoninacage I WILL answer your last week's question. Its a hard question so I took an extra day to think about and I forgot about it LOLAt any rate, I'll be at work but I'll try to stop by every now and again to answer questions
Random Journal of My Thoughts
Posted 11 years agoIf you have me on facebook you may have already seen this, but its crossed my mind and I don't know why but I felt like posting this here as well. Well here ya go
You know its kind of funny some of the things I think about.
Isn't it funny some of the ways that we meet our good friends. I mean, its like all chance. What if you decided you didn't want to go out that night, or for whatever reason happened to leave a little later, like so many little things could have cause you not to even know who each other are.
It even branches out to people you meet online. I know a few of my online friends, I've met, just by chance. They saw a comment I left, or something a long those sorts. Or I've seen a comment they left, noticed the common interests and continued talking with said person. Like what if I didn't pay attention to that comment, what if I didn't hit that one click to send the message. I most likely wouldn't know the people I know.
I've had many people who talk to me, and I enjoy talking to, but for whatever reason, decide to just start ignoring me. It kind of hurts, though. It may just be a friendship that I'm pursuing, but it would feel nice to get some sort of closure as to why this person doesn't want to talk to me. It really makes me sad, and I do get depressed and start to feel lonely.
I'm lucky, though. Most of my friends that I have, decided to contact me. And from then, decided that I was worth talking to more. Now for whatever reasons, I'm not sure, but I must say, I'm glad that I have the friends that I do. They make me happy and I'm real appreciative. When I'm down about the previous point, I try to think about this, the friends I have that do care about me.
NOTE: This is NOT meant as an attack towards anyone. This is just my thoughts put into words. Please don't feel like I'm talking about just one person. o.o
You know its kind of funny some of the things I think about.
Isn't it funny some of the ways that we meet our good friends. I mean, its like all chance. What if you decided you didn't want to go out that night, or for whatever reason happened to leave a little later, like so many little things could have cause you not to even know who each other are.
It even branches out to people you meet online. I know a few of my online friends, I've met, just by chance. They saw a comment I left, or something a long those sorts. Or I've seen a comment they left, noticed the common interests and continued talking with said person. Like what if I didn't pay attention to that comment, what if I didn't hit that one click to send the message. I most likely wouldn't know the people I know.
I've had many people who talk to me, and I enjoy talking to, but for whatever reason, decide to just start ignoring me. It kind of hurts, though. It may just be a friendship that I'm pursuing, but it would feel nice to get some sort of closure as to why this person doesn't want to talk to me. It really makes me sad, and I do get depressed and start to feel lonely.
I'm lucky, though. Most of my friends that I have, decided to contact me. And from then, decided that I was worth talking to more. Now for whatever reasons, I'm not sure, but I must say, I'm glad that I have the friends that I do. They make me happy and I'm real appreciative. When I'm down about the previous point, I try to think about this, the friends I have that do care about me.
NOTE: This is NOT meant as an attack towards anyone. This is just my thoughts put into words. Please don't feel like I'm talking about just one person. o.o
Tea Ehm Eye Tuesday
Posted 11 years agoAsk some questions. None are ever off-limits. Go!
100 Truthy Thingy Meme Thingy
Posted 11 years agoStolen from 
telkop
(Although 100 seems to be missing...)
001. Real Name: Daniel
002. Nickname(s): Danny, Zavryn, Zav, Zavvy, Wolfy.
003. Zodiac Sign: Gemini
004. Male or Female: Male
005. Born: Aurora, IL
006. Nationality : Puerto Rican / Mexican (Mexirican)
007. Eye Color: Dark Brown
008. Hair Colour: Dark Brown/Black
009. Long or Short: Either. I like short for reasons, and I like long for reasons.
010. Loud or Quiet: Quiet, unless I'm comfortable with ya, then I'm obnoxious.
011. Sweats or Jeans: Jeans
012. Phone or Camera: Phone
013. Health Freak : Lol. Yeah, right.
014. Drink or Smoke : I drink, but no smoke.
015. Do You Have A Crush On Someone : Yeah. =/
016. Political orientation: Uh, don't care.
017. Piercings : Don't have any yet.
018.Tattoos: None. Doubtful that I'll get any.
HAVE YOU EVER [BEEN IN] :
019. Airplane: Yes
020. Car Accident: Yes
021. Fist Fight : Yes
FIRSTS
022. First piercing : Don't have any yet, but will probably just be my ears.
023. First Best Friend: My bud Joe from high school.
024. First Instrument played : Guitar. I suck though.
025. First award : *shrugs*
026. First Crush : Some guy who sat next to me in spanish class. I don't remember his name anymore.
027. First Language : English.
028. First Big Vacation: Disney World in December of 2009?
LASTS :
029. Last Person you talked to: My brother
030 Last Person You Texted : My coworker Rob.
031. Last Person You Watched : I'm not really much of a stalker...
032. Last Food You Ate : Chips n Taco dip. Just realized I haven't eaten anything since last night. o.o
033. Last Movie You Watched : Transformers 4
034. Last Song You listened to : Caramelldansen. XD
035. Last Thing You Bought: Soda
036. Last Person You Hugged : I don't get many hugs anymore. Uhm.... my friend Josie who I ran into at walmart the other day.
FAVES :
037. Food : Meatloaf and Mashed Potatoes. yes, they have to be together to be my fave.
038. Drinks : Coffee, Tea, Chocolate Milk. 3 way tie.
039. Clothing : Dark blue jeans, white T-shirt with a button down shirt unbuttoned over it. And then a cap if I have my hair short.
040. Book : Eragon
041. Colour : Green
042. Flower : Rose. Cuz why not?
043: Music : Dance/techno music.
044. Movies : Hard for me to say. I rarely watch movies and retain what I watched. XD
045: Games: World of Warcraft, League of Legends, Kingdom Hearts series.
046. Subjects : Math
IN THE PAST YEAR I...
047. [ ] Kissed in the rain
048. [ ] Celebrated Halloween
049. [ ] Had Your Heart Broken
050. [ ] Went Over the Minutes on Your Cell Phone
051. [X] Someone Questioned Your Sexual Orientation
052. [ ] Bought Weapons
053. [ ] Breathed fire
054. [ ] Had an Abortion.
055. [X] Done something you've regretted
056. [ ] Broke a Promise
057. [X] Kept a Secret
058. [X] Pretended To Be Happy
059. [X] Met Someone Who Changed Your Life.
060. [ ] Pretended To Be Sick
061. [ ] Left The Country.
062. [ ] Tried something you normally wouldn't like, and liked it.
063. [X] Cried Over The Silliest Thing.
064. [ ] Ran a Mile
065. [ ] Went To the Beach
066. [X] Stayed Single
CURRENTLY :
067. Eating: Nothing
068. Drinking : Chocolate Milk. (Am going to regret it later)
069. Getting Ready To : Take a nap soon.
070. Listening To : Ambient noise in World of Warcraft
071. Plans For Tomorrow/Today: Nothing.
072. Waiting For : A reason to be truly happy.
YOUR FUTURE :
073. Want Kids : Nope. Nope nope.
074. Want To Get Married : Maybe eventually, but not in the near future.
075. Careers in mind: Would like to be a programmer or graphic designer.
WHICH IS BETTER ON A BOY :3
076. Lips or Eyes : Eyes
077. Shorter or Taller : Tall
078. Romantic or Spontaneous: I like both, but I'd have to say romantic, only marginally.
079. Nice Stomach or Nice Arms : Stomach
080. Sensitive or Loud : Sensitive
081. Hook-up Or Relationship : Relationship
082. Troublemaker or Hesitant : I'm hesitant myself, so I'd probably prefer a troublemaker. Hehehe. :3
HAVE YOU EVER :
083. Lost Glasses/Contacts : Yes. So much yes.
084. Ran Away From Home : Nah. Thought about it once before. But then realized it was over something stupid.
085. Held A Weapon, For Self Defense : If you count me being paranoid in the middle of the night and grabbing a knife walking around the house, then yes. XD
086. Killed Somebody : Nope.
087. Broken Someone's Heart : Yeah.... I'm an asshole.
088. Been Arrested : Nope.
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
090. Yourself : Not normally.
091. Miracles : Eh...
092. Love at First Sight : Kind of. Not really, though.
093. Heaven : Not sure...
094. Hell: Not sure...
095. Other peoples sincerity: Nope.
096. Magic : Not really, no.
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is There One Person You Wanna Be With, Right Now : Yes. Most definitely.
098. Are You Seriously Happy With Where you are in life now? Nope. Not in the slightest, honestly.
099. Are You Happy With The Person You're With : I'm with no one, so no. Lol
telkop(Although 100 seems to be missing...)
001. Real Name: Daniel
002. Nickname(s): Danny, Zavryn, Zav, Zavvy, Wolfy.
003. Zodiac Sign: Gemini
004. Male or Female: Male
005. Born: Aurora, IL
006. Nationality : Puerto Rican / Mexican (Mexirican)
007. Eye Color: Dark Brown
008. Hair Colour: Dark Brown/Black
009. Long or Short: Either. I like short for reasons, and I like long for reasons.
010. Loud or Quiet: Quiet, unless I'm comfortable with ya, then I'm obnoxious.
011. Sweats or Jeans: Jeans
012. Phone or Camera: Phone
013. Health Freak : Lol. Yeah, right.
014. Drink or Smoke : I drink, but no smoke.
015. Do You Have A Crush On Someone : Yeah. =/
016. Political orientation: Uh, don't care.
017. Piercings : Don't have any yet.
018.Tattoos: None. Doubtful that I'll get any.
HAVE YOU EVER [BEEN IN] :
019. Airplane: Yes
020. Car Accident: Yes
021. Fist Fight : Yes
FIRSTS
022. First piercing : Don't have any yet, but will probably just be my ears.
023. First Best Friend: My bud Joe from high school.
024. First Instrument played : Guitar. I suck though.
025. First award : *shrugs*
026. First Crush : Some guy who sat next to me in spanish class. I don't remember his name anymore.
027. First Language : English.
028. First Big Vacation: Disney World in December of 2009?
LASTS :
029. Last Person you talked to: My brother
030 Last Person You Texted : My coworker Rob.
031. Last Person You Watched : I'm not really much of a stalker...
032. Last Food You Ate : Chips n Taco dip. Just realized I haven't eaten anything since last night. o.o
033. Last Movie You Watched : Transformers 4
034. Last Song You listened to : Caramelldansen. XD
035. Last Thing You Bought: Soda
036. Last Person You Hugged : I don't get many hugs anymore. Uhm.... my friend Josie who I ran into at walmart the other day.
FAVES :
037. Food : Meatloaf and Mashed Potatoes. yes, they have to be together to be my fave.
038. Drinks : Coffee, Tea, Chocolate Milk. 3 way tie.
039. Clothing : Dark blue jeans, white T-shirt with a button down shirt unbuttoned over it. And then a cap if I have my hair short.
040. Book : Eragon
041. Colour : Green
042. Flower : Rose. Cuz why not?
043: Music : Dance/techno music.
044. Movies : Hard for me to say. I rarely watch movies and retain what I watched. XD
045: Games: World of Warcraft, League of Legends, Kingdom Hearts series.
046. Subjects : Math
IN THE PAST YEAR I...
047. [ ] Kissed in the rain
048. [ ] Celebrated Halloween
049. [ ] Had Your Heart Broken
050. [ ] Went Over the Minutes on Your Cell Phone
051. [X] Someone Questioned Your Sexual Orientation
052. [ ] Bought Weapons
053. [ ] Breathed fire
054. [ ] Had an Abortion.
055. [X] Done something you've regretted
056. [ ] Broke a Promise
057. [X] Kept a Secret
058. [X] Pretended To Be Happy
059. [X] Met Someone Who Changed Your Life.
060. [ ] Pretended To Be Sick
061. [ ] Left The Country.
062. [ ] Tried something you normally wouldn't like, and liked it.
063. [X] Cried Over The Silliest Thing.
064. [ ] Ran a Mile
065. [ ] Went To the Beach
066. [X] Stayed Single
CURRENTLY :
067. Eating: Nothing
068. Drinking : Chocolate Milk. (Am going to regret it later)
069. Getting Ready To : Take a nap soon.
070. Listening To : Ambient noise in World of Warcraft
071. Plans For Tomorrow/Today: Nothing.
072. Waiting For : A reason to be truly happy.
YOUR FUTURE :
073. Want Kids : Nope. Nope nope.
074. Want To Get Married : Maybe eventually, but not in the near future.
075. Careers in mind: Would like to be a programmer or graphic designer.
WHICH IS BETTER ON A BOY :3
076. Lips or Eyes : Eyes
077. Shorter or Taller : Tall
078. Romantic or Spontaneous: I like both, but I'd have to say romantic, only marginally.
079. Nice Stomach or Nice Arms : Stomach
080. Sensitive or Loud : Sensitive
081. Hook-up Or Relationship : Relationship
082. Troublemaker or Hesitant : I'm hesitant myself, so I'd probably prefer a troublemaker. Hehehe. :3
HAVE YOU EVER :
083. Lost Glasses/Contacts : Yes. So much yes.
084. Ran Away From Home : Nah. Thought about it once before. But then realized it was over something stupid.
085. Held A Weapon, For Self Defense : If you count me being paranoid in the middle of the night and grabbing a knife walking around the house, then yes. XD
086. Killed Somebody : Nope.
087. Broken Someone's Heart : Yeah.... I'm an asshole.
088. Been Arrested : Nope.
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
090. Yourself : Not normally.
091. Miracles : Eh...
092. Love at First Sight : Kind of. Not really, though.
093. Heaven : Not sure...
094. Hell: Not sure...
095. Other peoples sincerity: Nope.
096. Magic : Not really, no.
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is There One Person You Wanna Be With, Right Now : Yes. Most definitely.
098. Are You Seriously Happy With Where you are in life now? Nope. Not in the slightest, honestly.
099. Are You Happy With The Person You're With : I'm with no one, so no. Lol
TMI Tuesday
Posted 11 years agoAsk me some questions and I'll answer honestly. No off limits questions here so ask away. :)
Free art raffle with multiple artists.
Posted 11 years agoHey guys. A good friend of mine is doing a free art raffle for his birthday. You could win an art piece from me and about 4 other artists!
Go here to check it out and enter. http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5952402/
Go here to check it out and enter. http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5952402/
Another TMI Tuesday lol
Posted 11 years agoYep. Same as every week. Just ask me some questions and I'll answer them truthfully. No-off limits questions. Lets do this. :)
(I'll be at work, but I'll try to check back here every so often or on my lunch break) ^_^
(I'll be at work, but I'll try to check back here every so often or on my lunch break) ^_^
TMI Tuesday
Posted 11 years agoAsk some qeustions. yada yada, you know the drill. :)
A not-so-anthrocon journal
Posted 11 years agoJust had to say that I found out that one of my friends is going to start making me a yarn tail for free! omg when I heard that he was going to I was sooo excited. Can't wait to see it finished and wear it. :D
TMI TUesday
Posted 11 years agoAsk me some questions, yo. No questions off-limits. go.
TMI Tuesday!
Posted 11 years agoHeyo fuzzbutts (and scalebutts?) Its that time of week again. Ask me some questions and I'll answer with complete honesty. No questions are off limits on this journal.
A buddy is open for commissions
Posted 11 years agoHey guys, just trying to help spread the word, 
rustywolf is open for commissions. Prices are here: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13755824/
Take a look at his gallery, he's a pretty good artist. go go go :3
rustywolf is open for commissions. Prices are here: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13755824/Take a look at his gallery, he's a pretty good artist. go go go :3
TMI Tuesday
Posted 11 years agoAsk me some questions n stuff. I'll answer honestly. No questions off-limits. :)
TMI Tuesday :D
Posted 11 years agoHeyo, ask me some questions and stuff and I'll answer honestly to the best of my ability. No questions are off-limits.
STREAMING!! [Finished]
Posted 11 years agoGonna be working on a commission. I wanted to start streaming earlier, but I couldn't get to it. Anyway, come by, chat, watch me draw, and listen to some music!
http://www.livestream.com/zavrynstreamingstuff
Thanks for joining guys, I appreciate it! Also, I was informed that since I was using the new livestream, it require guests to sign up/login, which is something I didn't know and didnt want. So, I got everything set up for the old livestream for next time. I doubt I'll have any commissions next time so I may just work on personal stuff and a few gifts I owe some fine furs, and maybe some free linearts! *gasp* (these will be mainly for practice so please don't expect perfection if I end up doing this!)
At any rate thanks
tofubread for bringing that to my attention
See ya next time!
http://www.livestream.com/zavrynstreamingstuff
Thanks for joining guys, I appreciate it! Also, I was informed that since I was using the new livestream, it require guests to sign up/login, which is something I didn't know and didnt want. So, I got everything set up for the old livestream for next time. I doubt I'll have any commissions next time so I may just work on personal stuff and a few gifts I owe some fine furs, and maybe some free linearts! *gasp* (these will be mainly for practice so please don't expect perfection if I end up doing this!)
At any rate thanks
tofubread for bringing that to my attentionSee ya next time!
More possible livestreams?!?
Posted 11 years agoSo my first livestream went over okay. Took a while for people to join, but in the end had some people to talk to. Hahah. Think I might try this again tomorrow. not sure what time, but maybe. I still have to finish up that commission. and then if I'm still feeling up to it, I may throw in a freebie. That's a big maybe though. I'd like to do stuff like this more often, so we will see where it goes from there.
All of this is unsure, though. I seem to be committing to a lot of things lately, so we'll see if I can manage to make time for it. (Plus my work schedule is all over the place as of lately. lol)
All of this is unsure, though. I seem to be committing to a lot of things lately, so we'll see if I can manage to make time for it. (Plus my work schedule is all over the place as of lately. lol)
Livestreaming! (Testing) [STREAM FINISHED]
Posted 11 years agoHey guys. Just thought that I'd give streaming a try. No, I'm not great, but hey, I aim to get better, and guess what? It's proof I'm drawing things!!! XD
Anyways, if you want to join up here and listen to some music with me and whatnot here's the link (Hopefully): https://new.livestream.com/accounts.....events/3068836
(still not really sure if I'm doing all this streaming stuff right LOL
A BIG THANKS TO THOSE THAT JOINED ME. DIDN'T THINK ID GET ANYONE TO JOIN!
Anyways, if you want to join up here and listen to some music with me and whatnot here's the link (Hopefully): https://new.livestream.com/accounts.....events/3068836
(still not really sure if I'm doing all this streaming stuff right LOL
A BIG THANKS TO THOSE THAT JOINED ME. DIDN'T THINK ID GET ANYONE TO JOIN!
Babymetal?
Posted 11 years agoSo my friend linked me this. Apparently its a thing. But its fucking amazing XD
TMI Tuesday!!!
Posted 11 years agoHeyo ask me some questions and stuff and I'll give you as honest an answer I can give to the best of my ability. No questions ever off limits in these journals. :)
Stuff and Things
Posted 11 years agoWell, I'm not really sure why I'm writing this to be honest, but oh well. Just sort of an update on things.
I want to apologize about being all down, especially on my birthday. It's just that you kind of expect your friend who lives in the same apartment building to at least make an effort to stop by and at least wish me a happy birthday, but oh well, whats done is done. I'm done worrying about that. Just wanted to apologize. :p
Welp, if you haven't noticed both my commissions and my own artwork have come to a halt. (Most of the artwork thats not mine in my gallery lately has been gifts, lol) As far as the fandom goes, I feel like I've been a bit... disconnected... lately. I'm not sure why, though. I just kind of lurk nowadays and don't say anything. I really wish that there was some way that I could get involved with the furry community besides just talking to people online. Lol. I wish I could find a furmeet or something at least nearby to where I am, but the closest one is an hour and a half away, and its kind of hard to make it out to meets that far since I have to share a car with my brother. Oh well. Maybe eventually I'll have my car to myself. XD Maybe then I'll go to a meet, but still, it'd be stepping out of my comfort zone which is hard for me to do. I do have one semi-local furry friend. Maybe I'll convince him to go with me sometime. :P
As far as my own art goes, I've been slacking. I've been moderately busy, but I think I could have made a little more effort into drawing stuff, even it would have just been doodles here and there. As I said in one of my other journals, I'm still having a hard time with drawing. Still feeling scared and the fear of failure stops me at times. But I really need to get over this. I have fun while drawing, and I really think that I need to find that motivation again! So, with that said, I'm going to try to art SOMETHING everyday, even if it just be something as simple as a hand, just for practice. I think this should do me well, and also help me not get so rusty. I've got a commission to start working on (hopefully later today I'll be starting it) and then I plan to start doing some personal work (maybe start working out the details of this comic that I've had in mind for a long time) and I definitely owe some gifts to some of my awesome friends on here.
Another thing I want to talk about is... my physical fitness and weight. OMG is it so easy to just say, "okay, I'm going to start exercising and eating healthier" but man is it so hard to follow. I don't really say this to many people (though its kind of obvious if you know me) I really do have trouble starting on something and keeping up with it. A lot of the times, starting is easy, but the follow through is terrible and doesn't last long. Its been this way with my artwork and its been this way with losing weight. I start off strong and then withing a week I get to the point where I'm just like "fuck it." I don't know why but its just so terrible. Like, do I just truly not want it bad enough? I don't know, I don't really think that's the case, because I really want those things. Maybe I just don't want to work that hard to achieve and get depressed that I'm not good enough? Maybe.
Now I really want to implement these things into my life, but I don't think that its probably a good idea to do both at once. As much as I want to lose weight, I think it's going to be easier to start off with trying to get some sort of schedule and daily drawing done. It's something that I enjoy, yet neglect so much. I think once I can get that on track, I may be able to start a routine for exercising and then after that, maybe try to watch what and how much I'm eating. I'm still not sure how I'm going to go about all this, but I want my life to start looking up. I'm really lonely and I really want to be with someone, but who wants to be with someone who isn't even proud of themselves for anything? I really need to shape up and be happy with my life before I even think about dating. I think its possible that because I'm not happy with the way things are the longing for someone is taking presence more than it should. I mean, who doesn't want to find that special someone? But it tends to be something that I dwell on too much. (I think) I've been told to make sure that you are happy with your life before you start a relationship with someone or that tends to be your crutch and your only form of happiness (which is definitely not something that I want in the long run).
Well that lasted a lot longer than I really wanted to. If you actually read this, once again, thanks. But these are the things that (if anyone cares to read or want to know a little bit more about this green wolf) I need to and want to work on.
I want to apologize about being all down, especially on my birthday. It's just that you kind of expect your friend who lives in the same apartment building to at least make an effort to stop by and at least wish me a happy birthday, but oh well, whats done is done. I'm done worrying about that. Just wanted to apologize. :p
Welp, if you haven't noticed both my commissions and my own artwork have come to a halt. (Most of the artwork thats not mine in my gallery lately has been gifts, lol) As far as the fandom goes, I feel like I've been a bit... disconnected... lately. I'm not sure why, though. I just kind of lurk nowadays and don't say anything. I really wish that there was some way that I could get involved with the furry community besides just talking to people online. Lol. I wish I could find a furmeet or something at least nearby to where I am, but the closest one is an hour and a half away, and its kind of hard to make it out to meets that far since I have to share a car with my brother. Oh well. Maybe eventually I'll have my car to myself. XD Maybe then I'll go to a meet, but still, it'd be stepping out of my comfort zone which is hard for me to do. I do have one semi-local furry friend. Maybe I'll convince him to go with me sometime. :P
As far as my own art goes, I've been slacking. I've been moderately busy, but I think I could have made a little more effort into drawing stuff, even it would have just been doodles here and there. As I said in one of my other journals, I'm still having a hard time with drawing. Still feeling scared and the fear of failure stops me at times. But I really need to get over this. I have fun while drawing, and I really think that I need to find that motivation again! So, with that said, I'm going to try to art SOMETHING everyday, even if it just be something as simple as a hand, just for practice. I think this should do me well, and also help me not get so rusty. I've got a commission to start working on (hopefully later today I'll be starting it) and then I plan to start doing some personal work (maybe start working out the details of this comic that I've had in mind for a long time) and I definitely owe some gifts to some of my awesome friends on here.
Another thing I want to talk about is... my physical fitness and weight. OMG is it so easy to just say, "okay, I'm going to start exercising and eating healthier" but man is it so hard to follow. I don't really say this to many people (though its kind of obvious if you know me) I really do have trouble starting on something and keeping up with it. A lot of the times, starting is easy, but the follow through is terrible and doesn't last long. Its been this way with my artwork and its been this way with losing weight. I start off strong and then withing a week I get to the point where I'm just like "fuck it." I don't know why but its just so terrible. Like, do I just truly not want it bad enough? I don't know, I don't really think that's the case, because I really want those things. Maybe I just don't want to work that hard to achieve and get depressed that I'm not good enough? Maybe.
Now I really want to implement these things into my life, but I don't think that its probably a good idea to do both at once. As much as I want to lose weight, I think it's going to be easier to start off with trying to get some sort of schedule and daily drawing done. It's something that I enjoy, yet neglect so much. I think once I can get that on track, I may be able to start a routine for exercising and then after that, maybe try to watch what and how much I'm eating. I'm still not sure how I'm going to go about all this, but I want my life to start looking up. I'm really lonely and I really want to be with someone, but who wants to be with someone who isn't even proud of themselves for anything? I really need to shape up and be happy with my life before I even think about dating. I think its possible that because I'm not happy with the way things are the longing for someone is taking presence more than it should. I mean, who doesn't want to find that special someone? But it tends to be something that I dwell on too much. (I think) I've been told to make sure that you are happy with your life before you start a relationship with someone or that tends to be your crutch and your only form of happiness (which is definitely not something that I want in the long run).
Well that lasted a lot longer than I really wanted to. If you actually read this, once again, thanks. But these are the things that (if anyone cares to read or want to know a little bit more about this green wolf) I need to and want to work on.
Birthdays
Posted 11 years agoBirthdays just seems so pointless sometimes. Woohoo I'm a year closer to death, lol. But no, really what are we exactly celebrating? I mean, once you hit 21 (at least in the U.S.) there really isn't any point to getting older. There's not really anything to look forward to anymore. Here I am at age 22, never been in a real relationship with anyone, and yet my birthday is just a reminder that I'm closer to being that 40yr old virgin. lolol. But seriously, its kind of depressing. And here I've just been sitting here doing nothing but playing video games all day. No one has come over to hang out, or anything. I've got a few Facebook happy birthdays and few texts from family, but thats about it.
*sigh* Oh well. It is just another day I suppose. (Mainly doing this to get it out of my system and I can enjoy the rest of my day)
*sigh* Oh well. It is just another day I suppose. (Mainly doing this to get it out of my system and I can enjoy the rest of my day)
TMI Tuesday....again...yep
Posted 11 years agoOne of these days I'll post more journals than the typical TMI Tuesday journal, but probably not this week. :p
At any rate, ask some questions and I will answer any of them with complete honesty. No questions off limits...GO~!
At any rate, ask some questions and I will answer any of them with complete honesty. No questions off limits...GO~!
TMI TOOSDAY
Posted 11 years agoHey all, go ahead and ask me some more questionsss! I love when you guys ask me questions!
Remember, no questions are ever off-limits for this. (I promise I wont give vague answers this time)! :P
Remember, no questions are ever off-limits for this. (I promise I wont give vague answers this time)! :P
