So the doctor says he believes it’s tennis elbow, I start pt on the 31st. He gave me shots in my elbow the pain has lessened. But life of course can’t let anything decent happen. Our power went out today due to construction and I think it killed my electric recliner I’ve been sleeping in due to extreme back pain. So we’re having to buy a new chair, my gf luckily got approved for pay overtime. But with her having no constant income this is a burden.

My insurance has been declining things. I need an mri to continue to get my pain medication. So I need to call the insurance but I keep sleeping too late, because I’m still not sleeping at night. I guess I need to stay up till call times open one day and deal with it then.

So overall, ALOT of stressors, ALOT ALOT of pain, my depression is just a tiny bit better but all this stress isn’t helping it.

So just a reminder about my sale it’s a BOGO sale.

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/11238064

So check out my open adopts please!

https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery...../415568/Adopts

So I’m going to try something new this time, this idea has been floating around my head for a bit and I could use some funds. So BOGO sale is now active until November!

So basically if the term is unknown to you, it’s buy one get one. So say you buy a $20 adopt, you will then be able to choose another $20 or below adopt to get for free! Or a $15 = 15 or below free. Nsfw edits will still remain an added on $5.

So please look around and I hope you find some new friends!

Customs are currently on hold, I’ve been having extreme difficulty and pain with my wrists. I actually have an appointment with a doctor for it today. So here’s hoping I can maybe get some meds or tips on how to manage the pain.

Please check out my friend!  homolalk He’s a wonderful artist, he’s open for commissios!

Here is his price sheet. https://www.furaffinity.net/view/38013203/

He’s done multiple works for me!

My banner: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/51659265/

I adopted Ly from him: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/62103004/

My AMAZING anthro form of Wulfric: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/60149529/

I got Kasun from him: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/60104465/

This wonderful anthro form: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/56685806/

And finally (I have others but I don’t want to overload. Just want to show examples!)

Astrit’s sfw: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/53420081/

Today is my birthday. I’m celebrating it by begin home run down. I’ve sores again in my mouth so I can hardly eat or drink. So I won’t be going out to celebrate with family. So I’ll be home with my gf just the two of us.

The Bell’s palsy is no better. My biopsies from my scope showed nothing. So who knows why I have the issues I’m having lol. I have may procedures and appointments this month. It’s already exhausting and it’s only 5 days in!

I hope everyone is having a better time then me

Much love and appreciation

So you might see some uploads of characters I own. I’ve had all these for a long time, I just never got around to posting them. So as I find the energy to do so I’ll be uploading them.


Life update

Life is still quite hard, I’m still dealing with paralysis on the left side of my face, no improvement. I did a second round of steroids and they haven’t helped. The pain is better, but still hurts.

I had an upper scope done of my esophagus and such. They took 3 biopsies of stuff to check, waiting on results for that. But it left my throat hurting quite badly. So swallowing hurts bad, and it aches even with out that.

My gf is still with out a job, her parents have been a life saver in helping us out. (My father has been helping as he can.) but she’s decided that she will use this chance to go back to school and take classes for medical billing I think it was.

Speaking of my father. His health is not the best, so much so he got demoted at work. He has a doctors appointment coming up on the 11th. But I’m worried for him. I hope the worse it is is that he’s not been eating properly. He skips meals often. He’s obsessed with his weight and it’s very concerning.

My depression has been terrible, like kind of scary so if I’m begin honest. I thankfully have an appointment on the 11th (it was previously in January) I hope they can help me sort this out. But in addition my ADHD has been so terrible, and added along with the depression. I’ve been doing NOTHING. I try and play a game, I get maybe 5-10 minutes in, 20 tops. I try and watch a show, 5 minutes. I can’t even read a paragraph before I can’t focus on it anymore. So everyday I just sit there doing nothing, bored out of my mind. Which leads to my brain thinking bad thoughts. Which fuels my depression. So I’ve been having a REALLY rough mental time.

But in other news. We got a kitten. This was not planned at all, she was just like…dropped in our lap. She is so small and sweet. She’s coming into her personality still. We haven’t put her in with our other cats yet, because Trixie, our queen bee. Is not fond of her. So we need to do slow introductions. But I can’t do that alone, and my gf is on vacation with her family. But this gives Toki (the kitten) time to adjust to life inside and us. My cat strudel has met her, but he’s very mellow and indifferent. He might even like her due to the fact he can steal her kitten food lol. Toki is also a rare FEMALE orange!

So overall, life hasn’t been great. So adopt making has been slow going, or really non existent. Just no inspiration, or motivation. So I hope you all forgive me for that, and the fact I have not put up the raffle yet. I just don’t want to do the raffle then not be able to give the winner a quality item. (If I decide it’s a custom and not just a premade. The choice of which is still undecided)

But thank you all for your attention, you all mean so much to me. I hope you’re all doing wonderful

I'm currently sitting at the er with tightness and loss of proper use for the left side of my face. I was terrified I had a stroke. Er seems confident it's bells palsy instead. They just did a ct and did blood work. They said steroids and anti viral medicine and I should hopefully regain use of that side of my face.

I'm relieved it doesn't seem to be a stroke. I was so scared

Well Ent can’t say for sure what it is, but he’s giving me steroids and some meds to treat if it’s cold sore. Apparently if you get it for first time sometimes you can have extreme reactions to it. So I just hope it can go away soon. It’s so painful and I can’t eat, hardly drink. I’ve eaten less in a week and a half than someone should in a day. I’ve lost at least 20 pounds (I don’t know my exact weight before I got sick). So I’m just trying to survive, I nearly fell walking into the doctors office I felt so weak. I’ve been sleeping a lot, all I really can do. It hurts so bad.

I hope everyone else is doing better then me

I’ve been sick swelling pain etc. but turns out it’s worse than I thought. I have the most ulcers this er nurse has ever seen in my mouth. I’ve not been able to eat or drink. It’s been horrible. So I’m dehydrated, they aren’t sure what has caused them. They sent tests off to see if it could be certain things. So life is not going well :(

I’m alive, things haven’t really gotten better. Gf is door dashing all day almost every day to try and make ends meet. Thank goodness for that. I’m currently dealing with med issues. I’ve been off one for a while and my clinic has refused to refill it. Or was ignoring my pharmacy’s calls. So I’ve been with out. So I’ve been dealing with a lot of depression. I’m trying to make adopts. But the depression has me very uninspired.

If you have ideas for adopts you’d like to see maybe that would help inspire me some? I hope everyone is doing better than me.

I’ve reached my raffle number, I’ll try and put that together soon. Hope you all are well

My friend has open adopts and commission slots available ! If you’re interested in wonderful work check them out! They’ve done many things for me, including my profile banner! So please go check them out!

https://www.furaffinity.net/user/homolalk/

Guys I’m so humbled and amazed at all of you that watch and support me! I’m so greatful for the comments the likes, the buying of adopts. I appreciate everything you’ve all done for me. I’ve had some really rough times, but I know I can turn to this community and can find compassion and even assistance. Thank you all for begin so amazing.
I can’t do much, but once I hit 500 (I’m at 498!!) I’m going to host a raffle of a custom design on any base I own for two watchers! Or if there’s a premade you’ve been wanting you can grab them up too!

Thank you so much everyone. Life has been hard for me, and to know I have a community here? It really means a lot to me!

I spent over 8 hours in the Er last night/this morning. For a migraine that wouldn't go away no matter what I did from 8am to when i got to the er at 9:30pm (it lasted the whole time i was there too). I never got into a room, it was so busy and so many urgent cases I was seen in the hall. I was given a shot and sent home, (at my request) because i have a neuro appointment 2 hours after i was discharged. ( I've waited over a month for this appointment) The pain went down some while there after the shot. But while there my sinuses flared up. I get home and the sinus pressure gets SO bad it feels like another migraine from hell. So I'm currently miserable, sleep deprived, in agony, and just fed up with life man.

So pain after pain after issue after issue going on right now. It's so hard man.

Every premade adopt is up for $5 as is, no nsfw additions please, just hurting really bad and can't do them right now.

It sucks, it just really really sucks. Thankfully my insurance covered it (which is a first) But I was having severe tooth pain. So they extracted 3 teeth. Hopefully that helps some of my face pain I'm going through. Only leaving me with the feeling of the pain from the nerve issue in my face. But recovery from tooth extractions is hard. I've never had 3 done at once, so not looking forward to the next few days.

No date set for my surgery yet, hopefully hear about that with in the next few days.

So my uncle is home, they had to put a stint in after clearing a 90% blockage, but he has two more 50% ones they are monitoring. So he's home hopefully resting! lol

I won't go into too much detail about mine, but I will be having a minor surgery. I don't have a date yet of when it will be. Gf is still with out a job, but someone mentioned about her trying to become caregiver for me.

As always customs are open. I don't know how i'll feel after my surgery. I may work more because I won't be able to be at my desk, or I may work less do to pain.

So life does not stop hitting when you're down. My health is in decline further, I've currently got double ear infections while trying to get my blood pressure and all my other issues managed. I've many doctors appointments scheduled. I've also injured my shoulder, luckily it's not my drawing hand side (small blessing)

On top of my failing health my gf is still unable to find a job, but it's been a small blessing, She's been here for me, and my aunt. Who now has more to deal with on top of her sister having passed. My uncle (her husband) had a heart attack last night, my gf has been with my aunt doing stuff for her all day while she stayed with my uncle it took over 12 hours for him to get a room out of the er and into the hospital.

So just a reminder, I am open for custom adopts on ANY base. Feel free to note me if you have any ideas you want to see if we can bring to life! I'll work with budgets! See an adopt you want? I do holds!!

So thank you for taking the time to listen to me whine. I appreciate you all SO much <3

I wanted to ask what everyone thinks of my adopts?

Do you like the colors and patterns I do?

Do you feel I charge the right amount for the quality I put out?

Is there something i do you hate? Or love?

Is there any thing you'd love to see that I'm not providing? (I can't purchase any new bases at this time but for future reference)

I won't take offense or get upset at any comments! Please be truthful. I'm trying to better myself and my work. So critiques are welcome! I know I don't do patterns the best but I'm trying to better them. Also how does everyone feel about clothes on adopts? Is that something you're interested in? Or do you feel that puts too much personality into the adopt, and you would like to do that yourself?

So I went to urgent care today for my tooth pain. It's been a weird pain. I've been also feeling pain around my eye socket. So the urgent care determined it's not an infection it's a nerve damage called Trigeminal Neuralgia. They want me to go to a neurologist. Also I was tachycardic while there. Not enough to warrant an er visit. But bad enough I need to get checked.

This nerve damage can "occur for days, weeks, or months and then go away for months of years. The pay may return and be worse than before" Reading from the papers they gave me. So yay no infection but it sounds like an infection would of been easier to treat :(

So all that ontop of my migraines.

So cat is hurting, aunt passes, migraines, gf looses her job, and now tacicardic and nerve damage. Can May please go away?

I am open for customs on any base I own (though I’m still trying to get back some bases I lost access too in a transfer.) you can give me exact details or a color palette and theme. I enjoy doing customs. It brings out a creativity that isn’t always there for me when I work on adopts.

And on another life update, things just like piling on me. I’m like 98% sure I now also have a tooth infection in my broken teeth. So yeah life really does kick you when you’re down it seems. The tooth infection is also giving me pain around my eye socket. And lower jaw. It’s really bad. The migraines have been terrible as well lately. Worse since this tooth pain has started

To add more to my stress and health and just overall life. My gf has lost her job. My migraines have come back with a vengeance. I've had at least two every day since my aunt's passing. Life is testing me and dang is it winning. :(

My aunt's funeral was today. It was a very emotional and psychically rough day. I'll try and get some adopts out hopefully with in the next few days. But I've had a very stressful week leading up to this day. I hope everyone is doing well

I went to the hospital with my nanny and as we got there she coded a third time. My nanny got to see her thankfully. But only one person was allowed in. I'll try and work on some adopts to post once fa is back to allowing posting. But I may be absent a bit. I'll still be checking my notes. Sale still is valid.

I'm not sure what kind of injury it is yet. He's growling and trying to not put weight on his leg. So he needs a vet visit. I'm so freaking scared!

But to help pay for it I'm hosting another sale. All premade adopts $5 nsfw makes it $8
customs are $10 with nsfw making it $13

Thank you for looking through my gallery and considering anything.

Today is my girlfriend and I's 20th anniversary! I'm so grateful to her for all she's done for me. The love the patience and the care she's given me has been incomparable. She's a blessing to me and I treasure her.

My friend is open for coms! They are an amazing artist; I've gotten several works from them (one is in the works right now can't wait till it's done) Please check them out! They use boosty/hipolink (I've used boosty many times and have had no problems)

https://www.furaffinity.net/user/homolalk/

that's their com prices. Very good prices for amazing work! They made my profile banner! Please check them out and give them a watch even if you can't commission them!