Words? Words!

Firstly and most important, I'm looking to commission some artwork to be used as a tattoo. Keywords include realistic or semi realistic, dinosaur, velociraptor/deinonychus (depending on how technical you want to get),feathers and jumping pose kind of thing.

If you, or someone you know is capable and willing, then yes; I can throw virtual or real money at you. Just don't ask for monopoly money.

Now onto where the hell I've been for the past year....Well actually I'm pretty sure none of you care about that. Suffice it to say I just don't have that much reason to be here on this site between management shuffling and that I'm not really a furry. I'm just kinda here for social reasons.

But yea thats that. I'll be checking back for next few days for comments, notes and whatnot, So if anyone can link me too an appropiate artist open for commissions (or maybe yourself if you're up to it), we can talk business.

Because I have nothing of value to contribute at the moment: of of those meme things!
Swiped from  zidders because bored

[HUMAN QUESTIONS]
What's your real name?
Don

-Gender?
Decisively Male

-Orientation?
Straight like a mathematical Ruler

-Race?
Whitebread

-What's your favorite genre of music?
Metal Yoik. See http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OIc4VHxU7iM

-What's your favorite band/musical artist?
Non-Applicable. I'm not that much of a music person

-What's your worst peeve?
Idiocy. Like genuine retardation levels of modern idiocy. But without the actual medical condition. But I work in retail so I'm expsoed to an unhealhy level of this stuff. But I mean theres a certain something watching people

-Are you doing well in school?
if by "School" then you mean "Life" then I'm doing allright. Not the best in the big picture, but pretty gosh darn well given my circumstances.

-Do you have a religion?
I accept that there is -something- out there; probably. But I don't accept it as omnipotent

-What turns you on?
Lightswitches and Power buttons

-Do you consider yourself a whore?
I'm not that kind of girl anymore

-Do you have a favorite movie?
Not really? Spaceballs and Pacific Rim would be contenders probably though

-Funniest thing you've ever said?
I can't really say without writing 3 paragraphs of context. Which I am far too lazy to do. Also I don't remember off hand.

-What do you eat?
Organic matter

-Are you flexible?
After I quit my job sure

-What's your favorite video game?
Team Buddies (Playstation 1) or Garry's Mod

-do you have a crush on someone?
Esque

-What's the most embarrassing moment you can remember?
Oh let me tell you about my High school years, and my obliviousness to chicks. I was hit on SO. MANY. TIMES. and didn't even realize it :'(

-Are you a (gulp) myspace whore?
I used to have a myspace in the pre-facebook era. It was atrocious That level of customization shouldn't be let in the hands of the internet populace.



[FURRY QUESTIONS]
-What's your furry name?
Eyro. I guess its a portmanteau of "E", an online moniker I go by periodically, and "Hero" A title I use often. No I won't change it to "Eyroo" Because A) it cocks up the pronounciation and B) I'm am not a punny person

-Species?
Red Kangaroo variant. And By "Variant" I mean part raptor-dinosaur Because I wanted a reason to have hunter stripes

-If you could describe your furry in one word, what would it be?
Capable

-Does your fur have a side-story?
Something Something Science is awesome

-Is your fur a whore?
He's not that kind of girl either

-Does your fur have any traits that resemble yourself?
Logical, emotionally displaced, effective and cool-headed

-What's your fur's favorite outfit?
Pristine white Labcoat. Also partial Power Armour/Powered Exo-skeleton

-Describe your furs overall personality in a few words.
Being of few words, works towards the ideal, regal

-How often do you RP using your fur?
That is not a thing I do

-Does your fur have any weapons?
No specific weapons, but capable with most things handed to him. In D&D terms;
Martial Weapon Proficiency, Exotic Weapon Proficiency:Gunlance.

-How does your fur wear his/her hair?
Short but loose/windflowing

I went to Condition Green guys! it was really quite fun, and expensive, and a goldmine for 3DS streetpasses. I'd go on but I have more pressing issues at hand.

Like my laptop pretty much kicking the bucket. It just kinda stopped working, started with my laptop being a garbled mess like it had a driver mismatch, then just not working, then the whole thing not booting into windows or even halfway there. The entire time I don't have a screen so I can't exactly diagnose what the hell is going on (I'm no computer genius, but I do know how to fix the things).Its resurrected for the moment by way of divine intervention, but I don't think she's gonna last.

The only things you should be taking out of this is that A) I am now looking for a replacement laptop dealio (not neccessarily modern, but within the past couple of years)
& B) I might not be online here (or elsewhere) cause all of my credentials are on this box. Hold on while I go pay off my credit card

Also I hate my job at the moment. Or rather I hate people. Thats kinda the same thing, right? Apologies for the emo talk but the past few days have honestly kinda sucked. On the plus side, a new computer is in my future!

Swiped from  Dustoxin Because I saw it

~It must be that time of year again where I fill out a thing that other people have filled out so everyone knows my true intentions about being the very best, like no one ever was. If You're just joining us, I basically do very little on this site since I don't really consider myself a furry. Some kind of pseudo furry thing I guess. Its a cool little sub culture, But I really don't want to personally be part of it (but I'm here anyway). That said, furries throw the best parties, and I like dressing up as a retard (BTW halloween is my favourite day)

~Anyways; Con green! I'm going!

Where are you staying?
Some little motel in the area, that I don't actually know the name of

What day are you getting there?
August 2nd Cause I'm too poor to afford extra days


Who will you be with?
Whoever decides to party in my area.

Who will you hang out with during the convention?
See above.

Are there any panels you might be attending?
I'm sure theres a couple

Are you attending any stage or public performances?
Now when you say attend

Will you be suiting?
a couple months ago I would've replied with an outstanding ovation of "yes"'s. Now....doens't look like its going to be assembled in time :(

Do you draw?
In the same manner that some people write shakespear (i.e. not very well)

What are your limits to drawing?
typically eight and a half inches by eleven inches

How old are you?
Early twenties. The legal-for-everything kind of early twenties

How tall are you?
63 pi's of centimenters

Are you taken? Are you looking for a mate?
Yup, and not trading.

Can I talk to you?
Listening is my patron saint of skills

Can I touch you?
do you possess limbs or is this the extra creep "I can feel you with my miiiiinnnnnnnd" kind of touching?

How can I find you?
Yelling "FREE BOOZE OVER HERE"

Can I visit your room?
It'd involve going outside you know...right?

Can I buy you drinks?
Now what self respecting adult would say no to that?

Can I give you stuff?
as long as it's not nightmare fuel

Can I hug or snuggle with you?
As long as you realize I might raise an eyebrow or throw you. It'd be best to get me drinks first *wiiiiink*

Are you nice?
I like to think so

How long are you going?
until I need to recuperate

If I see you, how should I get your attention?
Yelling "FREE BOOZE" is still a good option

Where will you be most of the time during the days?
A lot of places

What/where will you be eating?
Whatever food is thrown my way. I got ye ol' sponsor pass....Alcohol is nutrition right?

Can I come with you for food/fun etc?
Only if you keep the elevator ghoulies away

Can I look in your sketchbook?
Implying I can draw

Can I draw in your sketchbook?
It still doesn't exist

Can I take your picture?
I hope I don't seem like a prick, but I'd rather you didn't. I always feel the shame of a thousand former-virgins when someone takes a picture of my ugly face

What’s your goal for the con this year?
To not remember any of it due to alcohol poisoning

I Am SO SORRY my loyal audience of 3, But you simply must hear of these tales of yonder, free stuff and treasure. ALSO I REALLY LIKE PLAYING DRESSUP.

is having a contest today. If you want to win a free head base visit his page at http://www.furaffinity.net/user/media/ and sighn up today.

(I copied the typo and all) :D

NOW GO FEED THEM YOUR ATTENTION

So first of all, you, my loyal audience of 9 or so (probably less) have noticed I don't exactly do much on FA. "Why yes I am just an art stalker, I suppose". Periodically I make things too though (just recently I made this really cool art box that holds things like a proper box should, but then I didn't take pictures, so and I can't take credit for it anymore). You might wonder What I do with my life these days. The answer is wash blood off the walls.

By the way, did I mention I work in a butcher shop now? Well I do. Its an ok job I guess, but its not a career. Gotta get my minimum wage on somehow I guess though, and its a lot better than a lot of people these days (which is alarming). In my spare time I'm a casual Nerd (recovering from the old days of full nerdom). Vidjagames are fun, but eat time I don't have. Also partying; turns out alcohol is tasty.

If this makes me seem like a really boring person, then there's one thing you should know about me, I don't talk about myself. Like ever. I'm the least important person in my life. So people tend to talk about me for me; tales of What I've done, and how. It almost seems legendary. And weird cause its about me. But whatever. Moral of the story is we should meet in real life: I'm apparently a pretty cool guy.

As for my not posting anything, I do all my interwebz write-y bits on another site, Its over here: http://abkanis-keli.livejournal.com/ (hotlink coming soon when I know how to make one)
Anonymous comments are enabled, so feel free to drop a line and stalker me there. It has a lot of crap on it, and right now I'm holding my new years resolution of "try to type a journal everyweek so people undersatnd whats goign through my head" dealio on it

Plans for the future: intending to attend condition green, ideally in costume. get rich, and be happy with my life (its pretty meh now).

And now to clear everything out of the way, one of them meme journal whatever's that we copy and paste from someone else. I might do another one later on to see what happens.

ON WITH THE QUESTIONS


Kissed any one of your Facebook friends? --- It'd be pretty hard not to in todays facebook-happy society
Been arrested? --- nope, just warned
Kissed someone you didn't like? ---Drunken dares. Also retroactive disliking (me and my ex are a bit bitter)
Slept in until 5 PM? ---Nope. I have to be up by 10am or tragedy
Fallen asleep at work/school? --- Its happened. I'm sorry but classes about insulation are dullllllllllllllll
Ran a red light? --- Not in a car
Been suspended from school? --- Theres been times where it was reccomended I not show up for a few days
Experienced love at first sight? --- Not quite first sight, but over a few hours yes
Totalled your car in an accident? --- NI mess that hotwheels car so much
Been fired from a job? --- thats really hard to do when unions are involved
Fired somebody? --- Ish. I've kicked people off committees a lot
Sang karaoke? --- OHGAWDNO
Pointed a gun at someone? --- Not a real one. Those get pointed at something else
Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? --- Dollar says no one actually put a "no" for this question
Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? --- Heh. yes. lungs are hard to put back in btw
Caught a snowflake on your tongue? --- There's this funny little thing where most of the time flakes will melt before actually reaching you're tongue because heat aura's and junk
Kissed in the rain? --- and it was tasty
Had a close brush with death (your own)? --- Of course. It's the only way to live
Seen someone die? --- I don't want to talk about it
Played spin-the-bottle? --- You know that drunken dares thing? yeahhhhhhh
Sang in the shower? --- I don't sing
Smoked a cigar? --- Nope
Sat on a rooftop? --- Iv'e done many things on rooftops
Taken pictures of yourself naked? --- Thats the one thing I haven't done yet because I know how things travel on the internet
Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes? --- Probably
Skipped school? --- Yes
Eaten a bug? --- bonus protein!
Sleepwalked? -- I think so
Walked a moonlit beach? --- Yup. It was kinda overrated
Ridden a motorcycle? --- HECK YES
Dumped someone? --- Theres actually a funny story about that
Forgotten your anniversary? --- Theres actually a funny story about that (I'm actually not kidding about the relevance of this answer)
Lied to avoid a ticket? --- Theres this thing where I don't drive
Ridden on a helicopter? --- Just a plane
Shaved your head? --- nope, too many scars
Blacked out from drinking? --- Should've, but no
Played a prank on someone? --- of course
Hit a home run? --- I'm better at soccer
Felt like killing someone? --- If my biological father reads this, yes I'm still gunning for you
Cross-dressed? --- Hey silk dresses are sexy, allright?
Been falling-down drunk? --- Yes, but without the actually falling down, I just become BFF's with the floor
Made your girlfriend/boyfriend cry? --- Not because of my direct actions no.
Eaten snake? --- huh...never thought about that one
Marched/Protested? --- I go from indifferent to arson, with no in betweens for protesting
Had Mexican jumping beans for pets? --- Man. I remember those things.
Puked on amusement ride? --- gonna take more than physics to do that
Seriously & intentionally boycotted something? --- Xbox
Been in a band? --- lulzno
Knitted? --- My pocket can make a knot...thats kind of like knitting right?
Been on TV? --- when I was like 5
Shot a gun? --- once upon a time
Skinny-dipped? --- It was great!
Caused someone to need stitches? --- Not sure...probably
Ridden a surfboard? --- dude...I live in canada.... We don't exactly have waves
Drank straight from a liquor bottle? --- It's more efficient that way
Had surgery? --- I've cut myself open to dig things out, does that count?
Streaked? --- Heck yes
Taken by ambulance to hospital? --- Once, on account of work
Passed out when not drinking? --- Yup.
Peed on a bush? --- I own like half the city from a dogs point of view now
Donated Blood? --- I'm pretty fond of my blood kthanksbai
Grabbed electric fence? --- And I got art out of it!
Eaten alligator meat? --- CAN-A-DA. We don't have cool wildlife up here other than bears and wolves
Eaten cheesecake? --- It's not as good as everyone says btw
Eaten kids' Halloween candy? --- Was I suppsoed to stop going out for halloween?
Killed an animal when not hunting? --- Toads on a lawnmower
Peed your pants in public? --- nope
Written graffiti? --- ish. On friends stuff
Still love someone you shouldn't? --- That's.... A really dangerous question
Think about the future? --- yup. I like the utopian future one.
Been in handcuffs? --- not police handcuffs
Believe in love? --- It's a thing I don't know how to describe
Sleep on a certain side of the bed? --- Not on purpose



And with that I disappear back into obscurity. See some of you punks at con-green

So I just got back from D&D session (circa 4am) and feeling wired for what is basically no real reason. I guess because sleep is for lame people. I'll spare you the details other Greatswords are pretty friggin cool. Because I feel the need to talk about something, I'm going to babble on about 2 different things, one of the D&D-Story related, and the other more about real life. I'm not really sure which one to start with. I guess the story one.

Allright so theres this forest, its all mazey and shit, with some crazy power lions and stone statues because F--- Logic, this here's a fantasy adventure! Anyway it gets dark and we build ourselves a camp and assign watches. basic stuff.
The dude on watch never passes on his shift. in fact he left reality alltogether by means of ????????. and when we wake up theres the feeling of "not-quite-right". But yeah he's just gone and replaced with a mysterious aura. We go to town and find out said forest is
>called cursed
>once had a temple dedicated to purifying humanity
>Has a tree with flowers that can cure anything
>had the place spiritually sealed by an epic level character
>"The shadows spirit people away" (and night forest is a helluva place to encounter shadows.
Meanwhile the dude is in his own private universe being driven FRIGGIN INSANE by the universe and trees looking at him, and the sky developing eyes just to stare into his soul. things right out of stephen king. Then he goes Mute, Deaf and Blind just out of sheer terror.

This sort of thing, and the ones like silent-hill-esque plot where you start having your own little reality devoted to fucking your shit up, really honestly scares me. I'm used to having terms to fight on, as it were. You can't punch out the intangible, and especially not things that aren't clearly defined. Sort of like if gravity was variable and random: you might just start floating and crashing down with no pattern, no way to work around it. When reality turns against you....there's just literally nothing you can do. Its probably the purest form of powerlessness, and not something I want to ever deal with...because really how can you?


The second thing is he (the Dungeon Master; i.e. GOD of our little play universe) made this all up on the goddamn spot. or at least in a stupidly short time. I wish I could do that, I really do. I mean I'm a good DM, But because I love mathematical systems, and can express anything in terms of the math of D&D. I can keep combat play moving freely because i see the numbers and how they apply to reality (most people look at me like I'm some kind of savant when I tell them "yeah that'd just be a fortitude save of X cause because its attached to a basic attack, but it is a fairly decently high level") But the story telling aspect of DM'ing? Not so much.

I guess its because I have no stories of my own. I mean I have a past, a decently adventurous one at that actually (i regularly dodged poisonous animals as a child, jumped trees, kidnappings, etc.). But when I tell the actual story it sounds all lame and monotonous, while other people are throwing exaggerations and expletives around like candy, I just shrug it off as an college student shrugs off the metaphorical meaning of romeo and juliet. Yeah it's there, but how can you get excited about something in the past.

Methinks I'm over thinking things again.

So some time ago, I made a mental promise to myself to repost the next memejournal thing going around, cause if I don't do that once and only once a year, a cthulu horror will rise from its grave and murder all the smurfs of smurfville, leaving the world smurfless. And we can have that, now can we?

either way, I stole this from  shebascuro so you should go bump up her page views or something.

1. Are looks important in a relationship?
To a degree yes. Gone are my days of dating people twice my weight. That said I prize personality and mentality over physical traits

2. Are relationships ever worth it?
Worth it? can you really put a monetary value on something like that? If you enjoy a relationship then it was worth it.

3. Are you a virgin?
In the sense that I haven't had my being pierced by a penis, yes. Realistically...yeahno

4. Are you in a relationship?
Not the romantic kind no.

5. Are you in love?
I'm not singing praises to an individuals name, now am I?

6. Are you single this year?
And the year before that. Partially by my choice, cause I hate the city I live in

7. Can you commit to one person?
I have a certain preference for monogamy. So yes.

8. Describe your crush
About 5'7", long red hair in a ponytail, wielding a gunlance and capable of making food while adventuring

9. Describe your perfect mate
Oh hey. ummmmmmm I screwed up these answers. See above?

10. Do you believe in love at first sight?
Not quite love. but definitive and immediate attractions are certainly possible. I'm a victim of it once.

11. Do you ever want to get married?
One day, when I actually know what I'm doing with my life

12. Do you forgive betrayal?
Yes, but I keep it in mind for the future.

13. Do you get jealous easily?
Mostly not. It has happened admittedly

14. Do you have a crush on anyone?
Ish.

15. Do you have any piercings?
Nope. Sticking metal in my body isn't on my todo list unless we go all the way and get bionic implants

16. Do you have any tattoos?
I want to, but everytime I think about I get as far as "so I guess I actually need something to put on me"

17. Do you like kissing in public?
Are we talking fullblown makeout session? cause if so: nope.

20. Do you shower every day?
I go every other day unless I've actually been doing something with my life

21. Do you think someone has feelings for you?
I'm reasonably popular in my own little social circle, so more than likely

22. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
Definitly. Someone is definitly jacking off me right now. possibly even these very words, muttering dirty secrets to this web page.

23. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?
Been there, done that.

24. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?
eh. I still have a long life ahead of me, so I wouldn't mind putting it off

25. Do you want to be in a relationship this year?
significant others are pretty cool, yes.

26. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?
yeah.

27. Has someone ever written a song or poem for you?
Grade school

28. Have you ever been cheated on?
Nope. I have however been the other guy.

29. Have you ever cheated on someone?
Nope

30. Have you ever considered plastic surgery? If so, what would you change about your body?
Ish. Laser rifle arms are pretty cool

31. Have you ever cried over a guy/girl?
Crying no. Sorrowful, tragic emotions that would break most people, yes. but the act of crying itself no.

32. Have you ever experienced unrequited love?
Stop bringing these things up >_>

33. Have you ever had sex with a man?
Do I look like some kind of homosexual?

34. Have you ever had sex with a woman?
Do I look like some kind of homosexual?
....
....
ok busted. Yes.

35. Have you ever kissed someone older than you?
mmmhmmmm. Protip, it doesn't actually make a difference

36. Have you ever liked one of your best friends?
I try to avoid throwing the "best friend" label around, but yes.

37. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?
Oh man don't even get me started. My ex was manipulative and tried to get involved in my life too far to the point of assimilating into all my social circles. needless to say no one really appreciated this, and when she tried to turn me against my friends, all shit hit the fan. didn't last that much longer

38. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?
Yeah. A few people actually. but this is more because I start off thinking all people are dicks and just work my way up the like scale.

39. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?
yessssssssssss :(

40. Have you ever written a song or poem for someone?
Yes. my mother. when I was like 10

41. Have you had sex so far this year?
Nope. I don't like sex without a relationship behind it.....and yeahhhhh go put 2 and 2 together

42. How long can you just kiss until your hands start to wander?
about 15sec

43. How long was your longest relationship?
364 days and 19 hours. protip: don't break up on your anniversary. They hate you for that one.

44. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had?
5. only 3 of them are publicly known though

45. How many people did you kiss in 2011?
different people? 2. Total number of: a lot more than that.

46. How many times did you have sex last year?
On the plus side...its not a negative number

47. How old are you?
Twenty something. I don't like giving it out. Its an early twenties though, don't fear.

48. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?
Mope for a few hours then realize I'm being dumb about it and that there is still 6.8 billion people left to go in the world

49. If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, what is your favorite thing about him/her?
What Do I put here instead? I like Pie?

50. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept?
Yes. I want to know what happened to her after I moved across the country.

51. Is there a boy/girl who you would do absolutely everything for?
Not at this time no. Also I would still draw the line at "killing myself"

52. Is there anyone you’ve given up on? Why?
Yeah. I've lost a few people to drugs, and after a certain point they just become useless other than stealing things to afford playing halo while high

53. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?
I hope not. cause that would make them a controlling dickhead

54. Is there someone you will never forget?
Is the sky blue?

55. Share a relationship story.
So this one time there was a knight and he had to ...... and then saved the kingdom from ....... but then the inn tavern was all don't get up in his business or you'll be ....... and then he got this hot guy proposing to him for no real reason.
and then I woke up

56. State 8 facts about your body
1) I'm underweight. 2) Dark haired. 3) Athletic 4) Allergic to beer 5) Irish Heritage (somewhere in there) 6) A pretty good sword arm 7) My chest is hairless 8) the rest of me isn't

57. Things you want to say to an ex?
So how'd that child thing of your's go? (no they aren't mine)

58. What are five ways to win your heart?
>free things
>kick my ass
>bubbly personality
>no high pitched voice
>Zombie Obsession

59. What do you look like? (Post a picture!)
http://a6.sphotos.ak.fbcdn.net/hpho....._1267739_n.jpg

60. What is the biggest age difference between you and any of your partner?
5 I believe, when I dated that one chick when I was 19

61. What is the first thing you notice in someone?
their speech patterns

62. What is the sexiest thing someone could ever do for/to you?
Saving My life in a zombie Apocalypse with a gunlance

63. What is your definition of “having sex”?
when you can go "bow chicca bow-wow" without it being ironic or stupid

64. What is your definition of cheating?
When one person doesn't know

65. What is your favourite foreplay routine?
Pretending the floor is lava

66. What is your favourite roleplay?
Being the lava

67. What is your idea of the perfect date?
Saving my life during a zombie apocalypse with a gunlance, and then going to a picnic

68. What is your sexual orientation?
Straight with an apparently gay aura (I keep attracting them)

69. What turns you off?
Asphyxiation. If a person is that large then...I mean what?

70. What turns you on?
Physical Contact down my backside without them being a jerk and tickling me

71. What was your kinkiest wet dream?
Well there was this totally hot wold chick thing saving me from zombies with a.....

72. What words do you like to hear during sex?
"That zombie attack was the best thing to bring us together"
"So THATS what its supposed to feel like"
"VIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIGOLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO"
"CENSORED"

73. What’s something sweet you’d like someone to do for you?
Realize everything I stand to offer, despite me being weird

74. What’s the most superficial characteristic you look for?
Scars indicating a zombie attack

75. What’s the sweetest thing anyone’s ever done for you?
Bringing to a movie despite me being in a terrible mood and putting up with all of my shit for an anniversary I didn't even remember..... :(

76. What’s the sweetest thing you’ve ever done for someone?
Being there to talk to at 3am when it mattered most

77. What’s your opinion on age differences in relationships?
Theres a certain legal obligation because those underage don't always understand what they are getting into because underdeveloped mentality. after that point, age is only a number

78. What’s your dirtiest secret?
That I may or may not be a furry

79. When was the last time you felt jealous? Why?
The other day I was playing a vidja game and this one gay had a much better gun than me. Hey you didn't say it had to be jealousy in a reltionship kind of way.

80. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?
I haven't said it. I'm saving it for someone I actually believe in wholeheartedly

81. Who are five people you find attractive?
I would stir up too much shit if I said that. Lets just throw megan fox on there though

82. Who is the last person you hugged?
Janet, from work.

83. Who was your first kiss with?
Krista, my childhood puppy love something or other

84. Why did your last relationship fail?
She kept doign too many things for me when I only wanted her to do things for herself.

85. Would you ever date someone off of the Internet?
After a careful screening process yes.

86. You’ll love me if…
You instigate Zombies and save me with a gunlance


Holy hell that was a lot of words. Now excuse me while I Go fall back into the void on this furry site.

Lately; every I know has been subject to drama of some sort. No one knows what they are doing with their life, or retarded legal trouble, can't get a girl/boyfriend, or my personal favourite: family drama! And I've been around to listen to it all. Ive seen enough drama and sticky situations, that I'm pretty I qualify as a police negotiator by now. During all of this, I've been running own social experiment. But that comes in a later paragraph (just be glad I didn't make it a payed DLC paragraph).

Anyways, this journal isn't about them. mostly. They already count as have getting an honourable mention, so I can't really take that away from them now. Its about me. and my problems. Everything I listed previously? I have it. I am the Montgomery Burns of social stress. No one really knows how exactly I'm still functional socially, least of all me. seeing as I think I'm using the english language correctly, its safe to assume I'm not nuts. yet.

But yeah, I just finished college. woooo go me I guess. It was interesting use of my life for 3 years, but it sure would be sweet to put it to use. Alas I cannot. Mine is the tragic tale of being underqualified for everything I want, and over-qualified for everything available. So now I'm stuck home looking for jobs but not really finding anything. and not doing anything is the worst part. I hate inactivity. On the plus side I can finally catch up on my vidja gamin'. Since as shown by my persistence in education: I LOVE wasting my time.

I wanted to write a transitional senetence here, but its quarter to 4am, so screw that. The other day I got charged with breaking a city law ; I am truly a hardened criminal now, a danger to society, a menace to all those around me. I have no doubt in the eyes of soccer moms everywhere to have begun without error to hang out with sadists and rapists alike.
My Crime?
Riding a bicycle on the sidewalk.
This paragraph is all about me bitching about how silly that is in a small city where everyone drives; and thus no one uses the sidewalk. You can fill in your own rants and expletives as you wish, the whole ordeal was quite silly.
Now i was given the option to take part in a "safety training course" in exchaange for the charge being dropped. which I did. it was boring as sin. and then the practical test. I got torrentialed upon. A rainstorm of thor proportions. why? because FML. and if dood screws up the paper work, the I still have to go to court over it. THis is the last thing on my mind but stillllll, I wasted 4 hours of my life on that.

Speaking of wasted time, Yes I'm still single, and yes it sucks. It shouldn't be that hard to fix since I'm pretty intelligent and not bad looking (I'm not quite a sexy beast, but I can hold my own against the average). Where things fall apart is everyone else, specifically the majority of the local female population: they are mostly airheads. Think stereotypical blonde and an obsession with the word "like" as if life=Facebook. Protip: If you "like" my status I am going to give zero damns. and that's on discount. I'll even thrown in an extra 50% damn if you promise to stop.

Whats not on discount is how much I hate my house; No one gets along with their parents after around age 17, thats why everyone has a boner for moving out. Mine are especially bad. You see, we have a small zoo. When no one else is around I am expected, nay demanded, to take of it. And I'm the only one without a full time job. or any job. So I spend my week taking care of animals I don't like (other than my doggies, wouldn't give them up). AT the same time I'm expected to look for work. I'm sure you can see the issue with this: I can only exist linearly in time, that is; there is only one of me at any given time (or if future me is reading this at the same time as current me, do me a favour and drop some lottery number for current me). Also the zoo is flat out driving me insane. And I can't do a goddamn thing that I enjoy either. This is the part where I wonder how I'm still functional as well as I am. It really shouldn't be possible. My only suspicion is that my mentality is divided into 2 now, one for dealing with home, and the other for everything else. which would explain why at any given time I feel like Im missing something emotionally. does this classify me as bipolar?

Allright; you got to the end of my words. Congratulations I suppose. Ive killed a good chunk of my battery on this; So its time to reveal the social experiment from earlier. over the past few months I've been listening to people whine about there own lives. For the most part they are justified: life after all, inherently sucks.I keep wondering why they always come to me, But I guess I should feel thankful, or at least safe in the knowledge taht people like to talk to me. However, everytime I try to relate by bringing up how my own life sucks, they just keep going on about their own. Its like I only exist to be talked to, and never listened too. I'm almost tempted to call everyone I know an asshole for that, but really they have enough on their mind. Still, do I really only exist as a sounding board for other peoples problems? or does everyone assume that because I never seem distressed about anything (non-expressive is a trait I picked up for dealing for my asshat stepdad) that everything is fine?

mmmm...well.... its not. I'm running out of conventional options for how to deal with my problems. Or mayhaps I'm just feeling bitter again.

Anyhoo, This is your words of update on your resident a-furry-only-depending-on-who-you-ask-'roo I hope you enjoyed reading them more than I enjoyed writing them (I feel a hand cramp coming on) now if you'll excuse me, I think I'm going to enjoy the cold front thats coming through my area.

Oh right, one last thing: humidity really, REALLY, sucks.

Waiting for a Disk Defragment to finish up, and I said I'd do some writing sometimes soon, So I figured I'd stack the two events and write while defragging. Do you smell that? its the smell of rearranging my Hard drive. Try not to step in any loose piles of text documents, or pictures of monocles.

Exciting News! I went to Toronto. For those of you that are oblivious Americans, Toronto is the Canadian Equivalent of new york. Not the capital, but loaded with way more people than it deserves. Its expensive here. I want to go back to my hell-hole of a backwater town now, at least I could cross the streets in relative safety. Also it turns out I don't respond well to advertisement on all sides, shapes, colours, and lighting. Funny thing is that my mind tries to track everything (spatially), but I can't, so I get overwhelmed, zone out and then come back to a "what the hell am I doing here again?" Also Sirens. Every 5 minutes. constantly. except for at like 7 am, early morning isn't very big as crime time.

Why am I here again? I showed up for a card game tournament. Not the greatest reason, I know, But I like strategy, and nothing is more strategic than trying to outwit everyone. Unless you take it seriously, it is hard. all the good players have OCD for it, and have a huge backlog of cards to build from. Everyone at this tourney has like 5 spare decks. I just finished one, and half of a second one. I would describe them, but how many people would get it? Heres some hints though: Chaos Dragon and MechaNinja.

Anyways, Toronto is expensive. This outing has cost me slightly less than 200$ total. Which is a lot to me. especially when I don;t have a job. whoops. oh well, I'm in my impulsive young adult years, the last ones where I can make a mistake in safety. That tourney though? I lost, not due to lack of skill or cards (sealed pack tourney!), but because of dumb luck. screw relying on luck.

Allright, we're past the wall of text now, onto point form iterations of my thoughts.

>Review week of school, Then exams, then a graduation ceremony, and then FREEDOM ABSOLUTE (notice those capitals) in which I move out and do something useful with my life
>> Or at least that was the plan, Then I recieved word that my parental units want me to hang around and "help out" (read:contribute wealth)
>>>Now I don't know how you know about about my backwater town, but there is very limited work prospects. I don't evven want to come up with a good metaphor, thats how bad it is. Soooooo Yeah, I dunno how thats going to work out.

>I keep attracting homosexuals. This is becoming frequently common, and alarming. Maybe I should just give it up and try being gay....lololololollol.... no. I kid. Its not my thing, nothing wrong with it, but I just don't see it being me.

>Toronto has more Construction Sites than Hobos; and everything you've heard about the unemployment crisis here is true. I've seen enough orange signs to....uhhhhh...make the red and yellow crayons in a box get jealous from disuse. 3am sucks for metaphors

>I need a job. That would be cool.
>>Screw that, I need some time, theres a lot of things I've been meaning to do. Like make a fursuit. Thats where things get tricky actually; I habitually claim I'm not a furry, Which I believe, But I do find suit wearing fun. But I also like making people think...the "what the hell was that?" kind of thinking....So I dunno, classify me as you want I suppose

>I still have the artistic Talent of a mule on Ritalin. thats really all there is to it. Sorry. One of things I want time for.

>Delightful conversations as to my role in life, ad if people value me blah blah blah you don't care. I'm just trying to figure out why people keep me around.

>Goddamn Disk Defrag is taking forever.

>My laptop can't run very much anymore. This makes me sad. Also its slowing down, might be time for a reformat or a rebuild

>Jager + Orange juice is pretty sweet

>Female russian accents aren't as sexy as I was hoping. Maybe I just found a bad russian though.

>That card battling game? I got most of the cards I could ever want this weekend for chaos dragon. theres still a couple more, but damn, I'm pretty satisfied. Time to sell everything else ever.

>There is a subway restaurant on every street in toronto. This is great until you get sick of subway. Luckily this hasn't happened yet.

>Lord of D sucks. That is all (its a card)

Goin; on a train tomrrow! choo chooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

My overall sentiments of 2011 are something along the lines of: Y'know what? Fuck 2011.
Seriously, as a year; it really really sucked. I mean sure there were some good elements, math tells me that over a specific period of time you can expect a variance in results, but it should all balance out. You flip a coin and you get half heads and half tails. If you divided a year up into goo, bad, and neutral elements by time period, you should get 33% to each of them.

Nope.
This year has been more like 20% good, 30% neutral, and 50% bad,emo,hateful etc etc.

Important highlights as follows (a non inclusive list, since remembering a whole year is a hella task).
>started 3rd year of school. I.E the final year of college. It was a hell semester filled with homework, more homework, and douchebag projects. Also stacked with House BS (see below) for maximum "fun".
>Almost Moved out, but then didn't. The person I was going to move in with failed his end of the bargain. I'm none too happy with this
>Almost had a girlfriend but then didn't. On account of House BS slowing me down at the worst times possible. And of course other drama.
>Met a bunch of new friends, hopefully ones that will stay around for a while. I think they will, I actually have a good feeling about these ones. Whether they're useful later on in life instead of being -just friends- is a different matter.
> Furry Drama: they Think I'm one of them. I do not however. It's an interesting culture but I just don't see myself as being part of it so much periodically swinging through its orbit. And before someone brings up a "You just don't want to admit to it" excuse, You're right, I wouldn't. Furries as a stereotype are a bunch of hypersexual, argumentative, asshats that are hellbent on shoving their beliefs on everyone else in the name of (internet) equality. That is not a stereotype I want to be a part of. I've been around enough of them to know this isn't necessarily the case, But stigma is there, I won't have any of it, And I'm certainly not going to try and help with it.
>House BS: What do you call a person in charge of taking care of several parrots, charged with making sure nothing ever happens to them like spontaneous combustion, tidal waves, alien worms, hurricanes, or nightfrights. Oh and this person also resents loud noises, as well as being forced into monotonous tasks. I'm sure you can see where this is going.
>That noise thing from above? it interferes with everything. I now do all my homework at school (the fact that I don't have a table anywhere in my house may also have an effect on that). So now I get to stay late nights at the college to do anything productive.
>I did get a new computer though. Hexcore is a very seductive adjective for a processor. And a modern videocard. How modern? Elder Scrolls: Skyrim set itself for very high graphics. and lived happily ever after. (PS: Skyrim is completely okay. Very well made, but the fact of the matter is that fetch quests get old after a while).
>On the other hand my laptop battery died, and my laptop sees a lot more use than my computer tower.
>But then I got a new one for christmas.
>Got a drivers license. I am now a tier one vehicular murderer user. Driving itself, actually really sucks. or maybe its because it was a Neon, and man oh man do I hate neons. Probably going to get a Motorcycle though, if there's one thing I've learned its that chicks dig motorcycles and scars. and all my scars healed up.
>Almost got a job but then didn't. It probably worked out for the best though, I was already overloaded with school and house BS, so showing up late to work everyday probably would've been a bad thing.
>Got into yugioh. sort of. I play it and I know the rules and have a deck (and I'm apparently pretty decent), but I'm sure as hell not spending money on it. Whether giftcards count or not as spending money is kind of a grey area.
>Had to put both of my dogs down, due to age/cancer. Don't really want to talk about it. BUT we did replace them with new dogs. One Has ADD and the other got the stunted growth gene, so it's only about half as big as it should be.
>Cats are irrittating. I may have developed an allergy to them right infron of my own eyes. there is one particular house of cats that never fails to clog my nose
>Dark Souls the game came out. It hates me and everything I stand for, But It's probably my game of the Year award. Oh it also hates you too.
>I've started wearing labcoats outside of the lab. They're so effective at everything including keeping me warm. and looking awesome.

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So Yeah, pretty sucky year. Meeting new people is as good as it got. But oh well. Life goes on.

Breaking News: Its SOPA day. IN case you haven't heard, SOPA is a new (potential) bill being put forward by the US government to control the internet. Sorta. From what I can tell it just gives them the right to deny access in or out of america to certain sites based on anything they want. Must of those reasons fall under protecting Intellectual Properties, which in itself is a pretty cool idea: if I invented a way to stop the imminent Mayan tragedy, I'd sure as hell want it protected from being jacked. But at the sametime, what SOPA in its current form is giving America the ability to go absolutely apeshit with power. They would protect my IP by refusing to let anyone think about, talk about it and basically keep it from coming up ever in any way shape or form. Stealing is bad, but so is denial of recognition.

Honestly I don't think It'l go through. They got the internet angry, and now its going to tsunami-style flood of nerds all over everything. Also wikipedia blacked themselves out, so the average IQ of the internet dweller just instantly dropped 50points. How I'm still writing these words is a goddamn mystery, someone get scooby & the gang over here right now.

Back to the point: I support all this anti-SOPA business. there I said it. The internet was designed to connect the world is it not? by allowing this level of governmental control, it will undeniably lead to segregation. Can someone say oxymoron? Or do you need to look that up on wikipedia. Sucks if you're reading this on the same day I put it up, cause wiki is down muahahahaha.

Other News: Back to school with me. One last semester, then FREEDOM ABSOLUTE. By which I mean I'm getting kicked out of my house cause I should be able to live on my own now. I suppose I don't mind, but damn its going to be sudden. but this semester? I almost love it. alllllmost. It has one bleeeegh day and one really shitty day. but I also have fridays off. completely. permenent 3 day weekend. You Jealous? At this time I realize I don't really have anything to actually do any fridays. yet anyway, I think it might end up with D&D games. D&D Extreme Edition. There is going to be SO MANY DRAGONS, and its technically pathfinder, which has no dragons in the title.

By Popular demand, I'm going to end this journal by talking about my vehicular situation: namely I don't have a car/truck or other motorized device, I don't really care to get one either. Driving is boring and dangerous, AND I REALLY DON'T TRUST OTHER DRIVERS especially in this city. also cars are expensive. and this city, sarnia, is so goddamn small theres no reason to not walk everywhere. also we have a pretty good bus system.

And with that, I end my journal. see you in 3 months probably. I don't really have a lot to write about these days. or at least I don't have anything worth writing about (in my eyes).

Oh yeah. Them Mayans. be afraid. We might be running out of existence soon.

Nope, Not dead. Yet; anyway. Given the retardedly high rate of movement this planet has on it's orbit, collision with anything not holding in a relative velocity zone would turn me into a blood smear 30miles long.

I'm sorry, did I lose you? I think I've been undergoing some psychosis lately. College exams are here, and as any real student can tell you: that means sleep is optional. Same with logic. My head has been buried in ALL THE NUMBERS. all of them. Did you know the electrical conductivity of space is equal to 2 circles? Don't ask me how that works, cause I really don't know. When geometric shapes became a basis of measurement continues to elude me. Want more proof of numbers? Ive been expressing almost all mathematical numbers as measures of pi; How tall am I?: 51.88455 pi's of centimeter. Holding conversations with me is kinda weird right now, might be a reason why I'm hard to find. Some people find that kind of wackiness to be cute or enduring, not really sure how or why; but whatever.

But yeah, that college thing. Still piles of confusion regarding that. And what happens after that. I'm an Energy Engineer in training, but there's nothing around here related to that, which obviously means I have to move. Probably far away. Anyone who knows me IRL knows that's something I'm ever eagerly looking forward to, but it still seems so far off--part of me still feels like I'm 17. I don't know if this means I don't want to grow up, but everything seems so far off. But I guess that's the thing about the future, no matter how close it actually is, You never really actually think about it until it's up in your grill asking you if the new dress makes it look fat.

So I want to move. How many people Would or will miss me? Have I really had that much of an effect on peoples lives? I try not to reflect on these sorts of things, soft squishy thoughts are the stuff of clouded minds, and most people value me for decisiveness and always having an answer--Pokemon has taught me that confusion is the worst status ailment.

So what do I actually want to do with my life, and more importantly how much am I willing to give up for it? I'd be lieing through my teeth if I said I didn't value my friends, but some adventures are done solo, as it were. 6 more months and then I have freedom absolute; no more family BS, no more school, finally choosing my own path and my own boss battles, But in order to truly realize my super-ultimate-hyper-CompletelyUnneccessaryAdjective-turbo-mega-deluxe form, I'm going to have to leave.

Also As a forewarning, I suck at goodbyes. Its going to be some corny one-line ripped off from a movie, Or I might just say something like "try not to screw up to badly without me"....Or I might just disappear, I do have a dramatic flair hiding somewhere. But then what? Am I gone forever? If I fail at life probably so, I hate my own failure more than anything else in the world, So if I become the hobo-dropout of everyone I know, there's no way I could bring myself to face everyone who thought I actually knew what I was doing. Surprise, I don't. I only have a direction in which I want to go; but not a destination.

Alright I think I'm done rambling. Its tomorrow And I still have a pile of exams I need to do. I just felt Like I needed to write everything down, and this was the place to do it (didn't feel like bringing the wishy-washy thinking into public conversation). But now I'm wondering how many people would in fact miss me If I left forever and ever? perhaps hit by a space meteor or If I moved to another country? I know a lot of people that are going to read this are just random internet persons, but even they'd have an opinion if they read this far into a journal...So...


How Much do I really mean to people?



PS; Special FA bonus content: Once the School is over, I'll presumably have more freetime (as long as house BS doesn't maximize and then fire a hyperbeam), I'll be more active. What "Active" means is subjective, But I'll be here. well, more. OH YEAH, to all my friends, sorry I haven't been around. with 100% from concentrate pure sincerity.

Copy And pasted from my other place of wordsmithing. Just in case people have been wondering why I'm being all angsty lately

Short story: I'm failing my life right now. by my standards. probably a few others as well. School marks are basically made out of 3 things: Tests, Assignments, and Lab reports. 2 of these things are accomplished on my own time, usually at home.

guess what hasn't been getting done?

It's like...I can't focus while at home. at all. Too much noise. Too much drama. People always doing things. the fact that I have a lot of distractions isn't helping whatsoever. It's not entirely my fault...But I can't pass off all the blame either. I think I'm failing some of my courses, and I'm not even inspired to try and fix it. I've never felt this...ummm...bad(?) before in my life. Its half depression, half not-giving-a-shit, and %100 nonproductivity.

"Move out"

Those words ring eternally in my ears. Like its the end-all solution to my problems. It won't. It'll stop a few, and make others: like how I can't afford it. I can cover it for a month..and then...what? Canadian winters have this thing for sucking.

"just don't go home until you have to"

Thats been my current course of action for the past few weeks. Then I discovered an unpleasent problem: turns out i am in fact organic, and need to eat every once in a while. and mr noodles can only hold me off for so long.

I have finally discovered the lose-lose-lose situation. What the hell am I supposed to do about it? More importantly, do I even care? My existence feels monotonous and pointless. Which to me personally, means my life just isn't worth living. No this is isn't a faintly veiled attempt at grabbing sympathy from people. I don't care for people's words unless they have tangible meaning. I just want to keep a record of how my life is going, perhaps one day to look back and go "man I was an idiot"

And right now that record is spelling out how much I feel like I'm wasting my life right now, I can't bring myself to do anything productive, but I'm locked into trying anyway. I have 3 assignments that were already due, and none of them have even been started. This is bad even for my procrastination. and its like "should I even bother starting them?" honestly unless I can find some decent place to study or something, I'm probably going to fail a class somewhere. And on that note, my best work period in the past month took place in a mcdonalds. yeah my life is messed.

I don't like doing these sorts of things, But I figure if I do one, I'll never have to do it again.
swiped from:  drakkarahlune because because. And it stoked my interest instead of readying for my midterms (lets not talk about that though)



- Name: Don Hero K.
- Single or taken: Single
- Sex: Manly man of manliness
- Birthday: April 43rd
- Sign: Aries. Maybe. should be anyway. OH SNAP CONFLICTING INFORMATION
- Hair color: Dark brown. I want to add some colour to it one day to see what would happen
- Eye color: Marble Green-Grey. I get a lot of compliments on it
- Height: 55.39 Pi's worth of Cm
- Are you straight/bisexual/gay?: Straight. Much to the dismay of an alarming number of people :0
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• × • S P E C I F I C S • × •
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- What kind of shampoo do you use?: AUSSIEEEEEEEEEEEEE. Y'know that purple container
- What are you listening to right now?: An intense Mashup of Megaman Music http://www.newgrounds.com/audio/listen/177866
- Who is the last person that called you?: A place setting up an interview with me to get a job
- How many buddies are online right now?: A metric "blarg" amount. IE too many too list. or count.
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• × • F A V O R I T E S • × •
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- Animals: Kangaroos (betacha didn't see that one coming). Dogs, Tigers, Dire Elephants
- Colors: Orange, Grey, White, Neon Beige, Yellow
- Alcholic Drink: Once/month Tequila. Because Its Efficient (definitely not for the taste)
- Non alcholic drink: Orange fruitopia mixed with Ice Tea. Try it at your local mcdonalds today!
- Element: Titanium on a Boron substrate.
- Food: Lasagna, water, Milk
- Game: Dark Souls currently (we have an On/Off relationship though)
- Song: I'm generally not much of a music fan buuuuut...http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PWlLp5riuzk has a place in my heart
- Subjects in school: Math, Science, Tech.
- T.V. Series: Dr. Who.... and....uhhh....whats on these days? I gave up TV
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• × • H A V E | Y O U | E V E R • × •
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- Given anyone a bath?:Do puppies count?
- Smoked?: Nope. Too much cancer around me as it is.
- Bungee jumped?: Want to
- Made yourself throw up?: It was alcohol inspired NEVAR DRINKING THAT MUCH AGAIN
- Skinny dipped?: At my Ex's ;)
- Ever been in love?: I like to think I'm too level headed for that. Came close once though
- Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: Nope. I take trouble like a MAN
- Pictured your crush naked?: Megan Fox FTW
- Actual seen your crush naked?: That would ruin the mystery
- Cried whn someone died?: I'm out of grandparents
- Fallen for your best friend?: Yes. it was a one story fall from a roof. Kinda hurt
- Used someone?: yes. some random on the street
- Done something you regret?: You honestly think someone will answer "no" to this?
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• × • C U R R E N T • × •
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- Clothes: Tan Cargo Pants, and an MSPA knight of Time hoodie
- Desktop picture: A Rathalos
- CD in the CDplayer: Pffft CD's
- DVD in player: Indiana Jones: Raiders of the lost ark

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• × • L A S T | P E R S O N • × •
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- You touched: my Ride to my interview
- Hugged: A lady friend
- You kissed: A lady friend
- You IMed: A group of friends who keep a constant multiconvo up
- Talk to online: A Co-Op Group for the game Dark Souls. We like group tragedy or something
- You sexed it up with: My Ex. I don't deal in sex unless it means something
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• × • A R E | Y O U • × •
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- Understanding?: More than I need to be
- Open-minded?: Do you even SEE all these gay people I know?
- Arrogant?: Mostly not. On a few subjects yes admittedly
- Insecure?: Confidence issues keep me from asking girls out >_>
- Random?: On Occasion
- Hungry?: Yup. Current eating schedule is messed up on account of halloween
- Smart?: Yeah
- Moody?: I'm fairly Stable
- Organized?: I have my own system that works for me
- Shy?: depends how I'm introduced.
- Difficult?: The common consensus is no
- Bored easily?: sometimes
- Entertained?: I try to. Otherwise I start thinking about things
- Obsessed?: Almost never
- Lazy?: Only until I get inspired
- Angry?: very very rarely
- Happy?: I try, but haven't had a whole lot go for me recently
- Hyper?: usually not
- Trusting?: Its hard to, when you think about the mathematical properties of trust
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• × • R A N D O M • × •
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- In the morning I: Expel urine from my sack of pee. In a bathroom

- Love is: Conflictive with logic. Its hard to understand or explain, but it alters your existence when present

- I dream about: Man I don't even know. The last one involved raising radioactive alligators for pokemon style pitfights for my freedom from a pirateship. WHATDOESTHISEVENMEAN?

- What do you notice first in the sex you're into: Their voice. You can tell a lot from the way a person speaks.
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• × • W H O • × •
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- Makes you laugh the most: My professional asshole-troll Friend
- Makes you smile: My best broski's in humour
- Gives you a funny or good feeling: Most of the people I know actually

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• × • D O | Y O U | E V E R • × •
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- Sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to IM ?: I leave a message after the 2am point
- Wish you were a member of the opposite sex?: I once had a dream about that. The only reason I'd do it is because it seems so much easier for girls to find significant others.
- Wish you were younger?: Depends what you consider "Acting your age" I do not, so why would I want to go back, when I can unleash my inner child now?
- Cry because someone said something to you?: Not since I was a child.
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• × • N U M B E R • × •
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- Of times I have had my heart broken?: I'm hard to break.
- Of guys I've kissed: 0. again much to the dismay of a few people
- Of girls I've kissed: 8ish. I think.
- Of Cd's I own: Music CD's? like 5. Data CD's...quite a lot more
- Of scars on my body: 2 on my legs. I almost had a sweet (no really, it was pretty cool) scar on my face, but then it healed properly


Now Take your meme answers and go away.

Hey; guess what!? This is a post about me wallowing around in self pity. It happens when I get left alone and start thinking too much. What've I been thinking about? What I'm doing with my life of course.

Well...not quite. but sort of? It's complicated. Complicated like algebra.
Basically I'm an engineer-in-training. But its not what I really want to do with my life. If you had asked my childhood self If he wanted to be an engineer; he'd say something like "nawwwww I wanna be a Pilot".

Guess who's inner child never grew up? Unfortunately being a pilot is hella expensive to start, and thats why I took the engineering training....because its PROFITABLE. or was. Then Government BS happened and now things aren't looking as good for me anymore :(

Back to the point; I don't know if I really approve of what I've been doing with my life. That sort of realization is devastating to the average persons mind, but until now I've just sort of shrugged it off and went "eh, I'll figure it out when I get there". But now I'm in the last year of college, IE "there", and I still don't know where I'm going. Shit.

Now between eternal family hatred, people around me falling to the depths of emo and depression, and my utter confusion of life's goals...... Yup, feeling lost with my life. Not feeling like I really have any substantial to my name worth living for. Then someone slaps me and says I'm talking dumb-like. Which I know I am, which is the worst part of all. I've been strictly emo hatin' all my life, and now I'm falling into the exact same trap. A real "becoming what you hate most" nightmare.

But still, My weekend was made up of playing Bioshock 2 and some D&D. This is not how I should be living my life, not when I know the real part of life is just at my fingertips. Its like I don't enjoy anything anymore, and my existence is a series of shades of grey.

I should change this. Maybe hobo it up for a week or something. I dunno. Anything for a change would be good. I just have a pure and absolute hatred for what my life has become. And thanks to all of the emotional trauma that was my childhood, I've developed that magic shell of not displaying emotion very well. bad combination.

If you think there's a prize for going through all my paragraphs of me being emo, I'm sorry but there isn't. sorry. nothing but the recognition of that I have problems. Soooooo...I don't know; go feel good about doing your daily amount of reading for the day?

Ok basically someone I know is selling a laptop, and I'm building a computer. If he sells the laptop, he buys a new videocard, and I get his old one for cheap. I'm a starving college student (who really shouldn't be looking at getting a new computer, but whatever), so any deal I can get is a good one.

tl;dr
> http://sarnia.kijiji.ca/c-buy-and-s.....AdIdZ314122141

>someone buys that, Everyone's a winner! yay!

With that shameless plugging done we now return to the unregularly scheduled news update on my life.

I AM MOVING OUT; F*** YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anyone who knows me in real life knows I put up with way too much shit from my immediate family, so even though I can't actually afford this (no income at the present) no one at all is telling me this is a bad idea. For a while I considered being a true-to-life Hobo as a better alternative to continuing living at home. But then college re-happened.

"Y U no submit artz?"
2 reasons
A) I suck at digital art, and I barely qualify as decent at manual art
B) College re-happened (Yeah I know I said that already, but its a pretty good excuse for everything)

SH-Bam: Update completed. Now lets go to Ollie for the weather......

Steam sales make me happy, and sad at the same time. Happy because "yay sweet games at low price". sad because "well there goes my bandwidth cap for the month". Sort of like pancakes and when your done them your all -sadface- because now you're out of pancakes. Pancakes are so goddamn delicious.

Back to the point before this turns into a rant about how great pancakes are, Ive had to make 800mb last me for the past 5 days. and today as well. its been pretty hard. Upon tomorrow theres going to be an upload spam of everything art-like I have on my harddrive that I can claim rights to. check back tomorrow night for fun.

Back to the point (again) I now own Borderlands and Warhammer Dawn of War 2 for the PC. My laptop, unsurprisingly, has issues trying to play these games. So now I need to go get a real computer again.

In other news, I'm moving out soon. Ive been living at my parents for too long now, and regaurdless that i actually have a good reason for it (Imma college student), Its time to move on with my life. also If I stay here there is going to be some serious murderin' going on in the future. I could go on about my problems, but you don't actually care. I hope you don't anyway; that would be kinda awkward.

Back to pancakes: they are delicious. mmmmmmmmmmmm
*drifts off into pancake dreamland*

That's what I believe your wondering right now. And if you aren't...well...too bad. You just found Introduction part 2: Electric Boogaloo.

Anyways, About me: As Real Life person, My D&D (3.5ed) stats would looks something like

STR: 14
DEX: 17
CON: 8
INT: 18
WIS:14
CHA: 10

And I weigh 130lb. So yeah Physically I'm pretty skinny and light. Is how I like it, Because I like climbing things a lot. Trees, houses, people, ghosts, furniture, etc. And I'm in the middle of learning parkour to boot, so I'm pretty good at mobility in general. and Jumping. Many a person has said that I chose my 'sona well.

As for my being a furry....SSSSHHHHHHHh; its still a secret. seriously. I don't have anything against the culture (which good because I am one), But I really, really don't want to deal with the drama that seems to follow everyone around, and well, I'm one of those people who actually tries to protect his reputation from needless slaughter.

Holy hell that sounds paranoid. I'm not actually. talk to me and you'll understand.

Also with that, this is where all my furry news ever is going to get posted. and maybe some of my real life stuff. But most of that goes to my actual blog. I'll cross-link it here one day if i ever find my login again.

More about me: My actual art skills are pretty crap. I can draw, but I've never been satisfied with it. It looks allright, but its never what I actually had in my head at the time. This is pretty common as I understand it, but it doesn't change the fact that I'm perpetually disappointed with myself. I also have some photography skills (which are usually good, but not magazine worthy), crafting skills (read: paper-mache) and I'm pretty good at using a paintbrush (this is however limited by my balls art talent again. its just the actual verb of painting I can do well). My Wordsmithing skills however are actually really good. Ive started writing things before, but then ADD kicks in and I forget what the point was. Point is I know lots of words. I'll probably put something up here soon.

As I'm sure Ive mentioned somewhere, I want to own a fursuit. I even have preliminary plans for one RIGHT NOW. and an order for the fur. Why I want one is a matter of debate; I like making people do double takes, I like making them go WTF, I am in fact fed up with my own life so it could very well be some Freudian escape mechanism (but I don't like thinking that deeply), but mostly I'm just disapointed with the human body, maybe its cause I've lived with one for 20+ years; but it is just so darn boring: no claws or acid spit or anything. But Its not one of the weird "I'm a wolf born in a human body" dealio's, they're just messed up and I have the debate skills to prove it.

I think that's enough wall's of text for now. My posts aren't going to be this long, This is just a "well person X wants to know about me, but I don't want to retype it all out sooooooo *links*" kind of thing. This is just a bunch of crap I figured should be said but I'm not going to clog up my front page with it. And now to jump headlong into the fandom.

TLDR;
Hi, Its good to meet you.