And fuuuuuuuuuuck 2020, GOOD RIDDANCE. 2020 was and always be a damn meme year (in the worse sense)
Really, REALLY hope 2021 brings good things, it better.

But be safe everyone! Have fun, joy and enjoy y'alls selves going into a new year. ^^

Yeah my birthday is today.
Am 31 now, hate it. Likely gonna sleep most of the day cause don't have much else to do.

WAS gonna tell all a happy Halloween.. But, found out retired actor Sir Sean Connery, the first to play James Bond and the voice for Draco in Dragonheart, has passed away today according to BBC News, he was 90.
He died peacefully in his sleep luckily, Rest in Peace Sean, you made it to that dragon heaven.

This year sucks, fuck 2020 more than ANYTHING conceivable, 2021 BETTER bring some damn joy.


Now, Draco, without you... What do we do? Where do we turn?

To the stars, Bowen. To the stars.

Over the last few days, maybe week or two I have been finding more and more people have me blocked on here? I wish I knew why?

Has been annoying and kinda upsetting to know this is a thing happening but... Can't really do much about it, dunno what I did or such but guess I just have to deal with it? :/

I don't usually do this stuff but since SO many are leaving, thought I'd offer some alternative ways to find me.

FLO: https://furrylife.online/profile/15.....8-kiya-drakon/
(seems the place most are going to now)

Twitter: https://twitter.com/Dragonsurfer

Gonna remain here still though, been here since 2006 so guess through hell and high water? But will try to be active other places too, just in case.

 xanfire is in desperate need, he's having a LOT of issues between a horrid job, teeth issues, debts and all.

I know things and times are hard right now but if you can, please go help him, in however way you can.

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9518760/

As of late (and I mean a couple years now), I've been losing more and more motivation to do anything.
It's to the point that I am growing to dislike certain things now... The main two being impacted are drawing, roleplaying and really any interaction with others.

I have grown to SIGH and haaate roleplaying nowadays, it just bothers me, sitting there, hands aching as I deal with a headache of trying to type out a reasonable response, making sure it's not too long, not repetitive, then re checking to make sure no misspellings occur... It's just TEDIOUS for me to do constantly, why I'm always resistant on doing them... Same with drawing, it's time consuming for me and tedious... I used to make pics within a day or two... Now, am lcky if I get something sketched without losing interest.
It's become so bad that I've even had people want to commission me, PAY me but I never really got back with them cause I never have any will to draw.

All I feel comfortable doing when am not asleep or busy with chores/business is watching videos and then playing games. It's even getting to the point I rarely want to chat with people/friends.

I've been a solitary person since I was 9, I've grown up never having friends so in a way, I adapted and grew to live that way as the norm, so, it's VERY uncomfortable for me to be with other people (be it irl or chats) because I grew up not dealing with such.
Hence why I dislike groups of any kind, be it irl, chat groups, xbox groups and so on.

But I do wish I wasn't this way but hard to break habit of something 21 years in the making, though, being so solitary has made a dwelling depression hang around since I first begun to get the signs of such when I was about 17-18, it's been there ever since... Buuuut, I hide it so people wouldn't worry and in a way, I've hid it so much that I fool even myself into thinking am not depressed or don't even know it when it's indeed there.
Nowadays, I am finding it more to ignore such with everything going on (not the covid-19 shit), I meant in general in my life... Got MS so my future of walking is unknown, but conventions and such are no more chance for me, am getting disability but never have a chance to get anything cause it all keeps being used for things like bills and such so I never am able to buy games,toys, commissions and such.

Plus my age am sure has a factor in it too, but I don't know... I just find it harder and harder to wanna do any of that stuff each passing year, I never know how to get out of it.
Forcing myself to draw/RP just makes me resent such things even MORE cause I know am forcing myself and it bothers me further... I just dunno what to do really as said. It's making friends feel abandoned or feeling like I don't care of them anymore, it's NOT the case, I care about ALL my friends but I just never have time, will or such to stay in constant contact.

*Shrugs* Thought I'd share why I haven't drawn in forever and why I'm never seem to chat with people for extended periods of time, it not anyones doing and it's no excuse for such but just multiple issues with me am having to deal with, so do understand.
If not, it's fine and I understand but just wanted it to be known why things are the way they are with me.

It REALLY does, which sucks cause I'd thought 2020 be cool as am born on the 20th of a month but nooooooooo...

Got the stupid corona virus running rampant over the world, making life annoying for everyone with stores closing and such, plus has now made things so sketchy for me cause I myself have a weaken immune system, the infusions that treat my MS also greatly messes my immune system so I'm highly acceptable to this damn thing.

I'm getting disability now but all the money is having to go to other things, doctor visits and such for my parents, groceries and such.
Making it impossible to get anything I desire now.
Plus, since both parents are in bad "physical" health, I have to most everything,which wares me down heavily so am ALWAYS tired, making it impossible to stream at times (which I wanna get back into but yeah)

Also been getting into a rather depressive mood, what with everything above, it's just a bit much and making me not really ever want to do anything.

Sorry rambling, just a update on me and such.

Thought I'd give you all a heads up, I got A LOT of pics I've gotten that I'm gonna begin posting so yeah.

Future art dump inbound.

To all my friends, family and everyone here, hope you have a wonderful time this year during the holidays.
Be safe, have fun and just enjoy yourselves.

It's officially my birthday now here as of 12:01 my time, am now 30 yrs old.

Yay I suppose?

Tis 2 weeks till my birthday, on the 20th.
I'll be turning 30 finally... SO not looking forward to that.

Oh well, such is life.

So, I lost my old telegram account and everything on it due to having a new phone, can't log back in cause it was still under my old number (of my dead phone)

So yeah... I'm trying to re-add people but can't remember accounts, feel free to re-add me at kiya_drakon

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9221728/

Go there to check it out and enter in, it's free and have yerself get included!

So, a few things to update on, about a month ago my dad got an infection in his right foot due to his diabetes which led to his foot and some of his leg having to be amputated so that's been going on, forcing me to stay busy with trying to care for him and help my mom so she isn't doing everything.(Since she still has one bad knee she was SUPPOSE to get fixed during this time) but yeah that got delayed.

My MS is getting a bit worse, the daily injections won't be enough apparently so starting Wednesday, I'll be starting on IV infusions, will have one Wednesday then another next Wednesday but after that, I only get one every six months. Only suck thing is that it takes eight hours every time, six for the actual infusion and two for observation to make sure I don't react badly to it... Meaning I get to spend ALL day at hospital, nothing to do, jooooooy.

But yeah, just what's going on for me right now in case people were curious why I'm not talkative or around much, just don't usually have the energy or mood for much atm.

THE CRITICS KNOW NOTHING.

KOTM was an AWESOME movie, the human characters are waaaaaaaay better than the ones in 2014... *cough*misterdeadpansoldierdude*cough* but here, everyone gives way more emotion and way more worth investing into, the human story is NOT convoluted as critics say, it's a good story as opposed to what some say "there is no human story"... BULL.

The kaiju... Err TITANS look fucking amazing.
Rodan is incredible looking, from when he emerges to the end, he's just scary as hell if you saw him swooping toward you.
Mothra is gorgeous, yet dangerous looking which I love! Keeping her graceful look from the Toho movies but giving her the altered edgier body to actually FIGHT now!
Ghidorah is... Holy shit, he is terrifying. They call him a "flying extinction event" in promos and they were NOT kidding. He's FUCkING HUGE and gahdamn does he mess shit up, if he looks at you, it's like looking into the eyes of Death itself, I LOVE his origins and many OG fans will too.

Then we have our man Godzilla. This movie very much shows why HE IS THE FUCKING KING. He is shown (to me) A LOT more then 2014 and every time you do see him, he's ready to kick ass and he sure as hell does! I love his design change, making him more OG looking too.
The MUSIC is... Oh gawd, made me shiver as it's amazing! Even the entire credits, the music just FITS... Y'all will love it all.

There are many little fun easter eggs and gems in the movie true Goji fans will catch and will be pleased with too, Michael Dougherty, I tip my hat to you sir.
This IS a go see, even if you're not into or get a lot of the stuff, it's a great summer movie to just turn mind off, eat popcorn and have fun.

Yeah, trying the shiny donate thing out and such.

Yeah, kinda know this won't get too much attention but I'm opening them for this summer. Hopefully to get some extra spending cash for things cause I gotta stop using my savings money for things (need it for school and medical stuff).
Fixed my commission page thing, prices are there, only gonna do 2-3 at a time.

Rules, prices and all can be found here : https://www.furaffinity.net/commiss...../dragonsurfer/

So, yeah.
Also wanted to swap out the old, kinda downer journal I guess?

Over the last year I've been seeing alot of doctors and neurologists about why I'm finding it harder to walk over the last few years. I've had MRI's done, had a Lumbar Puncture done and alot of blood work and all of it comes to the conclusion that I have MS (Multiple Sclerosis), they will be diagnosing me with it in next month.
They are gonna be giving me some medicine to (hopefully) stop the progression of it, will be a shot/injection I have to give myself three times a week for a few months to year then they will see how it's doing.

Hopefully it works, I'm already on the edge of having to use a cane to walk around normally (I DO have to use one now and then as is) but if it progresses further, may be having to use walkers or worse case, lose all ability to walk soo.... Yeah.
It's a little on the reason I haven't been active much, between college and doctor appointments, and a lingering depression about all this and on general things just kinda gets to me.

Still, wanted to let y'all of my friends and more know what's going on with me.

So today was appreciate a dragon day, late to it but hey, better than never right? So much love to all my dragon pals out there! And to all dergs in general.

One of my best friends is open for doing story commissions to anyone interested.
Go check him out and help here: https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8994792/

Going to make it my goal to finish the trade/request pictures I owe to others, some of which have been a year in waiting and need to get them done.
I haven't forgotten y'alls pics, don't worry to those I owe.

Also have SO MUCH gift art by others I have to post as I can, gonna be busy while for me.

Going to make it my goal to finish the trade/request pictures I owe to others, some of which have been a year in waiting and need to get them done.
I haven't forgotten y'alls pics, don't worry to those I owe.

Also have SO MUCH gift art by others I have to post as I can, gonna be busy while for me.

Yeah, birthday now, am 29 so yay I guess?

To my birthday (hatchday), yup... Almost the 20th this month when I'll be turning 29, gawd I hate thinking about it. >..<