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Slowly Getting Back To It!
Posted 5 years ago▵
I can officially say that I had a wonderful birthday, and a wonderful birthday week, and I hope that if 2020 can do me only one solid it's that it allows me to have a relatively relaxing and okay October.
(not that I am very relaxed, screaming forever at ghosts in Phasmophobia, but hey)
But now it's time to get back to the grindstone! The... wordstone. Paperstone? That upon which I press prose upon a digital page for the masses, or whatever.
Thank you all for allowing me some chill time. I honestly didn't really notice how much I needed it until now.
My mental health isn't all there just yet.. I don't think it'll ever be, really. But I'm definitely better than I have been in a long time.
I hope you're all doing well!
▿Birthday~
Posted 5 years agoThe day of my birthday swiftly approaches, and I am continuing to enjoy this time that is meant for me!~
I've been playing a lot of Phasmaphobia, as well as finally cracking into Disgaea! I'm super excited that you all seem to like my adopts, and I hope that you all love my final adopt that I have waiting in the wings!
I hope you all are managing to have a moderately alright October, if not a great one~!All Auctions Up!
Posted 5 years ago▵
Just making a journal to say.... that's it! All my 2020 auctions for this year's spooky season are up and active, all of which will be going on until Halloween. I'm unsure if I want the auctions to specifically end on Halloween proper so that my last and final adopt can have the whole day to themselves, or do I also want all the other auctions to be going on at the same time as my finale.
I think, as of right now, I'll have all the auctions end on October 31st specifically at 12:00 AM. Might change my mind later. Unsure. Try the magic eight ball again later.
Also, I've bought a few more 
Amarian bases so that list for the inevitable New Follower Raffle is growing! I know I call it the "new" follower raffle, but it'll be open to all of my followers. Even ones who had won the first raffle. Gunna try and figure out how to make that work fairly...
h uh
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Amarian!Halloween Auction Update!
Posted 5 years ago▵
First and foremost, Happy Approach[color=#1A140A]i[/color]ng Hallowee[color=#E6A340]n[/color] everyone!
(Saying it now just in case I forget to say it later ::sweats::)
I've decided that, since my birthday is swiftly approaching and I've been told I am not allowed to be making adopts and/or breaking my wrist and/or snapping my fingers off before or on my birthday, I will only be doing 13 Halloween Adopt Auctions, with the last and finale adopt being my super special awesome one that'll be uploaded on the spooky day itself!
So, with number nine already uploaded, that means I'll be uploading three more auctions before taking an adopt making break. I'll probably get back to writing some spooky stories just for something to do, buuuut...
I reeeeally like Genshin Impact .... so maybe don't expect to much of me until October is over.
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▿So... About the Halloween Adopts
Posted 5 years ago▵
So, I know I said I'd only be doing five adopts this month but.....
I kinda wanna make more? So I might just.... make more. And post them as I finish them? But of course I'll still have the big grand finale adopt on Halloween. But now that I'm out of my funk and I can actually sit for a second (only for a second though there's so much cleaning I have to do still) I realize that I really missed making adopts!
So I might make a few more than just five. Or maybe I'll just make six. Who knows. I'm hyper aware of the fact that in two seconds my mood could plummet again and I won't want to do anything more than just hide in a corner. But right now, the me in the moment wants to make more adopts than five! I know that much, at least.
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▿Still alive!!!
Posted 5 years ago▵
So first of all.... whoops?
I totally didn't mean to disappear like that!! Everything is okay, so no worries there.
So, TL;DR
My spouse recently had surgery. Nothing too serious, but there were a few days where their pain was really high, and I've been doing my best to be there and take care of them. But now that everything is smoothing out, I looked around and realized that a few more days had passed than I expected!
I DO still plan on doing October adopts, but the first one will be a little late!
▿Laptop News
Posted 5 years ago▵
The good news is that my current laptop is very much still functional, and I do also how have partial access to a back-up laptop should anything suddenly go horribly wrong with this one.
The bad news is that, I think (and by I think I mean I'm pretty sure) that the lower part of my laptop's case is warping due to extreme heat. While I do have a fan and use it with this laptop, especially when I'm using it to play videogames, and I do have programs that are supposed to help with the fan settings and such, it seems like something is causing the place where my left hand rests to bulge upward. It's semi swallowing my Windows, Alt, and the left side of my Spacebar, as well as making the buttons of my touchpad not work properly. Luckily I have a mouse so this isn't an issue, and as I mentioned before I do have a back-up laptop should this one suddenly decide to fully melt itself from within or explode.
Issue with the back-up laptop is that it's one that has already had several serious problems, like a bent fan and a dying battery. The battery is about to be replaced and I will attempt to make sure that I can get everything I'm currently working on, as well as Adopts and bases, onto the back-up laptop before anything serious has to happen with this one. Hopefully it's as simple as the case is warping cause it's getting too hot and it's not anything super duper serious that would require me to get a whole new laptop.
This is mostly just me mentioning something now in case the laptop explodes and we can never manage to get the back-up to work and I'm gone for an extended period of time. Even if that does happen, there are several people I could contact to leave a message down in my comment section to inform everyone of what's going on.
So, fingers crossed everything goes smoothly! I'd say cross your toes too, but I heard somewhere that crossing your toes actually causes bad luck instead of good, so maybe don't do that one.
▿!Future October Adopts & Follower Raffle Information!
Posted 5 years ago▵
This is mostly for me, but also for you! So I'll post it for
all of us
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So I've decided that I'll be holding Five separate auctions for spooky / horror themed Adoptables for everyone to bid on. The First Four will all be posted at the beginnin[color=#B5FFFD]g[/color] of a new week (Like the first Adopt will be posted on the 1st, the second on the on the 8th, etc etc) with the previous auction ending at the end of that week and the day before the next one goes up for auction. IF there are no bids at all on the Adopt the auction will remain open for the rest of that next week, and so on until it's either bid on... oooor it's not. The final and Fifth (and hopefully the best of them all) will be a One Day Auction held directly on the Spooky Day itself. After that, any Adopts who have Not Yet been bid on will then be set at a set price and they'll remain at that price until they are purchased.
After that, I will be holding the Follower Raffle regardle[color=#D2FDDA]s[/color]s of how many followers I've gained (or lost) between now and then. It'll be exactly like my previous raffle, where all you have to do to enter is Follow Me and leave a Nice Comment on the raffle post. The number of winners will be decided at the time of me posting the raffle post, but there will most certainly be more than one winner!
The Prize, of course, will be a custom color of one of Amarian's absolutely wonderful bases that I own at the time of the raffle! So, on that raffle post, I will post the list of bases the winners will be able to choose from!
.... I ah.... I guess that's it?
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▿so I thought about it...
Posted 5 years ago▵
and honestly?
I'm just gunna write fanfiction
sure, I could possibly get in trouble for it down the line for some reason or another and then I suppose, at that time, I'll remove it all in some vain attempt to save myself. But as of right now, this FA account is mostly for fanfiction and stories written about me and fursonas of my partners because I feel like it'd be weird asking people to pay for that.
In order to inevitably gain access to;
- the Of Predators and Prey series
- my future ABO based novel which currently does not have a name
- any future videogames (visual novels and RPGMaker more than likely)
then please subscribe to my Patreon to keep up with those things
things such as;
- fanfiction and fan re-writes
- things such as Spooky Fiction and Of Mythos and Ancient Lore
- porn specifically of my sonas that I write purely because I'm a degenerate
will remain here and able to be freely accessed whenever (note; this at any point can be subject to change but only specifically for the personal porn)
On top of that, as of right now, I think I will "discontinue" my Children's Nightmares series mostly because as of right now I'm not really in the proper headspace to write stories in that style. perhaps one day I'll bring it back, but it's not this day.
Pictures of the characters from my OPaP (OPP? maybe just OPP) series will remain here on my FA account, as well as any future non-spoiler art of said characters. For everything else, again, please consider subscribing to my Patreon account.
▿Raffle, But also just follow them!
Posted 5 years ago▵
Hi, have you heard of Murjin? Because you should know them because they are great and amazing and wonderful. I have several pieces done by them and I am getting many more. They're holding a raffle at the moment, but also just please check them out in general! They have amazingly cute adopts and super unique and interesting YCHs. They're also just an amazing person, and a wonderful bean, so please check them out!
Raffle Here!
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professionalism and fanfiction
Posted 5 years ago▵
this is mostly just me rantings, because it's 2am and I can't sleep, and I am once again realized how limited I am by my abilities or lack there of
on top of the fact that a lot of my (seemingly) best ideas are all centered around pre-existing properties that most definitely do not belong to me
what started this train of thought;
I've been re-playing Pokemon Yellow after catching up a bit on NuzRea and some other Nuzlocke and Pokemon challenge based content. And it literally occurs to me that, at the start of Pokemon Yellow, Professor Oak's grandson, and your rival, literally shoves you aside and takes the Eevee that Professor Oak had specifically trained for you. And what does Professor Oak do? He literally just goes, "Oh, alright, you can have that one I guess. I was gunna give you one later anyway". Like literal Poke-theft is completely fine. And my brain, as it wants to do, took the scenario and spun it in a way that not only made more sense but is more appealing to me. If I could draw the entire idea that stemmed from that one vision of a what-if scenario would be immediately story-boarded and I'd be already drawing the cover page of a comic.
in comes the first problem; I can't draw.
well, let me clarify. I cannot draw well enough that I feel that I could properly convey any if not all of the situations and characters that would go into such a story as this. The images in my mind are bright and vivid, compelling with a subtle softness that lends well to the atmosphere of the story being told. I cannot manage even half the images I see in my mind. not even a quarter.
now, it is true, I could attempt to learn to draw, and use the creation of a comic to try and force me to develop a style while also improving.
Funny thing that. because of how my brain is wired, and due to certain situations in my artistic past, I literally cannot stomach artistic failure. and that is how I see every attempt at drawing I try to do: artistic failure. At best? I erase or delete the thing I've attempted to draw and never speak of it again, to anyone, and don't even think about trying to draw or paint or anything of the sort for upwards of multiple years. At worse? I get sent into a spiral of depression so crippling it bleeds into my ability to do anything other than eat. with my mental and emotional stability being as shaky as it already is, I'm really not ready to flip that coin and see where an art attempt lands.
okay well, I could just write the story then. I'm relatively decently okay at writing, so that's no issue.
Except for, it is an issue. I literally just deleted all fanfiction based things off of my page two months ago so that I could feel safe opening a Patreon in order to attempt to be able to write for a living. ignoring the depression from that alone, it was so hard for me to give up on so many writing projects that were more or less glorified fanfiction. when it comes right down to it I don't want to possibly get in trouble for appearing like I'm trying to make money off of properties that aren't 100% my own. so, following that logic, I can't just write the story.
well, okay, so I could just hire someone to help me make a comic and put it out there for the world
First of all, I can't even hire myself, how am I supposed to hire someone else? right now, commissions and adopts are my only income, so if those two groups of things aren't selling then I'm not making any money. and I would never, Ever ask someone to do that kind of work for me for free. Even if I wanted to entertain the idea of forming some kind of partnership leaning heavily on friendship and trying this as some kind of co-project with an artist, I... don't want to entertain that idea really. the last time I trusted someone and we were going to co-create comics, the person literally bounced with at least five or six fully original comic ideas and I literally haven't heard from them or seen anything related to them in years. which I suppose is good news, because that means they aren't using my ideas. but... still.... no
and even if I did just say fuck it and write the story, or find someone who'd be willing to work on the comic with me as a partner, or whatever. where would I even post it? sure there are a lot of webcomic websites out there, but if I am suddenly devoting a whole lot of time to working on a comic then I would be worried that my stuff here would suffer....
I say, like I have anything meaningful here in the first place, which reminds me that I've been splitting my attention so much that I have not even uploaded an opening chapter for any of my bigger writing projects. And here I am, trying to think of how to make a whole ass new one work.
this is why I'm up at 2am
▿*Spooktober Update & Follower Raffle??? [Edited]
Posted 5 years ago▵
First of all, how is everyone doing?
I hope you're all doing okay, or as okay as you can during these times.
Nowh den, the main rees'n fir t'is jourhnal;
You ever just sit and think about your life? Your choices? And then you're like...
FUCK ALL THAT NOISE?
Honestly? I wanna write horror. I wanna write horror a lot. I wanna write NSFW too sometimes. Trying to follow some kinda list, whether made by myself or someone else, is not my style. I write what I want, when I want, when I CAN write it. Forcing myself to follow some kinda schedule, knowing that at any moment I can just immediately crash? Why would I do that to myself.
So, I won't do it to myself anymore. The good news; You're gunna get spooky and kinky shit whenever I wanna write it. The bad news; uuuuuuh fuck Spooktob[color=#57F9ED]e[/color]r I guess.
As for the next Follower Raffle, I think I will post the information for it after October. It'll be a raffle for three or more (depending on how many followers I have by then) to win a Amarian base adopt done by me. You'll be able to pick which one you want from the bases that I have available to me at that time. So look forward to that!
And as always~
Be Safe, Be Happy, Be Lovely
✌🏾
▿oop
Posted 5 years ago▵
depression really do be hittin' different
Still going, though!
I hope you're all okay too.
If no one has reminded you recently, breathe. At least, try to. You'll get there.
▿Upcoming Follower Raffle, I guess!
Posted 5 years ago▵
Oh! There's 61 of you now!!
Well... uh.... Hello there! Thank you all for coming to my little corner of FA. I suppose if I can get a few more followers, I'll be running a special Halloween raffle!
▿Back from Sudden Mild Vacation~
Posted 5 years ago▵
Where's all the Septembe[color=#ECFEAE]r[/color] adopts, e b a h?
I can certainly say they're on the way, just not as quickly as I had hoped.
Long story short; When it rains, it pours. But! The car is in the process of getting handle and all already present and suddenly appearing medical concerns have been taken care of. That, on top with some good ol' c r i p p l i n g a n x i e t y and now I'm all set to go!
Everyone is super duper okay, and that's what matters. And so, even though I'm a wee bit behind (six days isn't so bad) I will be posting some adopts very soon, and then posting some spooky adopts on auction in the month of October. And I still haven't given up on SpooKinktober!
I hope you're all doing amazingly, and feeling the best that you can with life being the way it is currently.
Be Safe, Be Happy, Be Lovely
✌🏾
▿Happy Birthday Raffle!!
Posted 5 years ago
!! Notice For The Future !!
Posted 5 years ago~
So.
If you Ever. ever ever ever. See a character that looks like one of my characters, or maybe you're not sure, please send me a link to them and let me know!
It's come to my attention that art thieves are a lot more brazen that I'd ever expect them to be, and believe they can just flaunt their work as they please. In the past few days I've taken note of several instances of character copying and just completely whole commissioned image art theft. This scares me, because my characters mean the world to me and the fact that someone can take them and misrepresent them without my knowledge just... makes me sick, tbh.
SO.
Please let me know if you even have a fraction of suspicion that any of my work has been copied or stolen. And know that I am out here trying to do the same for all of you.
~Change of Plans!
Posted 5 years ago~
So, as it turns out, I won't be closing down my commissions for the month of September.
Just as a TL;DR and some transparency but also to formally let you know that as of right now everything is okay;
We were in a car accident today (we being me and my mSO). We're both fine, physically, as of right now though I am experiencing some very mild soreness in my neck and shoulder most likely because I tensed up very hard when I realized we were going to impact the car in front of us. The front of our car is pretty busted. Possibly also the front part of the driver's side door. We're not sure yet as we can't take the car into the shop until Monday. It's still driveable, so that's wonderful news, and we do still have my car so even when we get their car taken in we won't be without a vehicle.
But, the mSO says we're probably looking at somewhere around having to pay 500$ to get the car fixed. And with already having to get ready to pay for a surgery (theirs, it's a "routine" thing and nothing to worried about but they still insist on surgery to correct it) I have decided that I will be leaving my commissions open. I will simply try to write as much as I am able to be able to still participate in SpooKinktober and I will now most definitely be working on adopts to sell. I'll be selling adopts throughout September (or trying to) at fixed prices and then I will sell full characters during the month of October. What this means is that it will not only be a custom made adoptable but it will also have a fleshed out backstory that you can purchase for a small bit extra if you're interested.
~Temporary Closing Reminder!
Posted 5 years ago~
Just a little reminder that starting September (in 4 days) I will be temporarily closing all of my commission slots so that I can focus on working on my first ever SpooKinktober. Throughout all of the month of September I will be writing 31 stories; 15 lewd and 16 horror stories so that one a day can be posted during the month of October.
The schedule for posting will be simple:
Odd Days, you get the spooks
Even Days, you get the sauce
I'll also be trying to put together some cute spooky themed adoptables that would be available through auctions during the month of October, and then immediately go to a low fixed price once the spooky season is over.
So, if you did have any commissions that you wanted done before October, please order them now. I will do my best to have them done same day or next day so that nothing remains in limbo (other than myself) during the month of September.
Also, for mutuals/friends, if you have a birthday during the month of September please let me know! I would love to make you a little gift! Everyone will be receiving their gifts from me all on September 1st purely so I don't forget to give them to you on the right day.
~In Seven Days...
Posted 5 years ago~
I will start writing in preperation for my first ever FA-based attempt at Spoo-Kink-tober. I will take the entire month of September (or possibly not, or possibly longer, it honestly depends) on writing a story for every day of the month of October. I've decided that, since this will be my first time attempting something like this again since my last relatively astounding failure, I will simply be writing sixteen horror stories and fifteen kinky stories. On odd days you get the spooky, and on even days you get the kinky, which means that on Halloween night you will get the final spooky story which may or may not be the scariest one I post in the month. We'll see.
This also means that, in seven days, I will be temperarily closing down my commissions during the time I'm writing these thirty-one stories. I'll definitely be opening them back up during October specifically, for those who want spooky month commissions, so no need to worry. Any commissions ordered within the next seven days I will be doing my absolute best to finish them next day, if not same day, so I can attempt this undertaking.
I also may try to, if I end up having the time or the inspiration, make some spooky adopts that I'll also be selling during the month of October. All of them will be under an auction structure until the end of October, after which they'll all be set to a flat discounted price. If I manage to make any, of course.
*Special note to all you September birthday friends of mine; No I certainly haven't forgotten about you! I've already made all your presents in advanced (If I knew your birthday was coming. You can certainly let me know now if you haven't already!) and all of them will be delivered on the first of September. Not because I don't specifically remember all the different dates and who they belong to, but purely so that I don't forget to give you your gift on time. Once I get into the zone it is very rare that I notice things like time passing or specific dates, which has been made even worse by this quarantine removing any semblence I had of time all together.
So! TL;DR-
I'll be closing commissions during September so I can write things for October, as well as sell things in October if I have the time. If your birthday is in September, prepare for gift on the 1st. If you haven't told me your birthday is in September, and we are friends, please let me know so I can make you a gift.
~Place to keep a Base List?
Posted 5 years ago~
So, I'm slowly working up to the idea of opening myself up for base-on adopts (as in, more than one at a time) and customs. My question, I suppose, is how do you list your bases?
While I would absolutely love to have an actual picture of the bases to show people, I also don't trust people. There's nothing stopping people from taking the pictures of the bases and just working with that and creating their own adopts and customs, and I don't want to aid in the theft of bases that people have worked hard on. Do you just list the names of the artists of the bases? Or do you go the whole nine yards and link to the bases themselves?
I'll honestly do both; listing both the artists themselves and then linking to where I acquired the base...
Does that seem weird?
It's 1am so I'm unsure if this is a good idea or not, or if I'm thinking too much.
~How long...?
Posted 5 years agoHow long do you wait to see if someone is actually fucking with you or if they're serious about a commission / working with you and you just outright block them out of annoyance and genuinely assuming that nothing will come of it?
Asking for a friend.
The friend is me.So Many Cute Adopts, Looking For Homes!!
Posted 5 years ago~
This absolutely delightful darling is selling a whole bunch of adopts who are all looking for good homes! Amazing quality and amazing prices!!
Definitely give them a look if you're into cute, fluffy characters!
~
Spooky-Kink-tober?
Posted 5 years ago~
So, I was going to plan to attempt to write a one-shot horror story for every day of October. I did attempt to do this several years ago just on my own, on my now non-existant website, but I failed.
I was going to do it again this year, or try to anyway. But then I saw a list for someone's upcoming Kinktober. And I thought... why not both?
That'd be so many stories. 62, actually. If I didn't interchange, anyway. I used to be able to write endlessly, but that was a different time. Using different methods. Methods I don't use to write anymore.
I think I want to try. Just, try. And what I can get written, I will post in October. I won't be pushing myself to write anything to fit a list, I'll just simply write what comes. If anything comes. And if nothing comes, then that's fine too.
Today has been a weird brain day.
~Raffle Prize Progress *UPDATED
Posted 5 years agoFigured it would be best to do one of these, so everyone can know what I'm doing!
Don't really know how to make it super cool though, so sorry about that.
And then there was all but one...
Thank you all so much for being so patient with me!