Will there ever be a month dedicated to raise consciousness about homeless dogs and cats? Will there ever be a month of human rights for the people bereft in victim countries such as Palestine? Lol, of course not, because people's narcisism is bigger than anything else in the world. People hardly will ever think beyond their own egocentrism. This "pride" month, the word pride itself makes me want to vomit. Nothing good can come from narcissism. "Look at me, you should kneel and worship me because I'm this or that, worship me, WORSHIP ME BECAUSE OF MY SEXUAL PREFERENCES". This attitude, the semantics of their narrative, it separates their movement from a true social cause and turns it into a quasi-fascistic weapon. But hey, most of the people who participate in this thing are americans, and those people are the experts in acting like fascists so, it is only normal stuff at the end of the day.

"Look at me, I suffer a lot, I get discriminated", exclaimed the rich spoiled kid living in his parent's house while typing from an expensive phone or from a luxurious gaming PC, all while there are kittens and dog cubs starving in the streets, killed for fun and other horrible things. But in FA we will never have a Homeless Animals month, because spoiled rich american kids only join social causes when it is convenient for them.

I don't want to learn anything else, see anything else, experience anything else
i do not deserve to be alive, i shouldnt be alive
i just want it already to be the day i end it all
i just dont want
dont want
i want to be dead already, dont want to live any longer, this life is HELL
i do not want any more food for myself, i want her to have it all
i dont want to see anything beautiful in my life, i want her to ahve it
i dont want to have any pleasure, she should have it
i dont want to be alive, i should have been the one who died and not her

Behaviors that are considered either diseases or syndromes are often found in people holding positons of power. Particularly, psychopathy, sociopathy and anti-social disorder are not only abundant but apparently a requirement for people in the high spheres to exist. The most absolute disregard of human rights and human lives, a capability for lying, a willness to harm others in the order of thousands. Those and other things that in a psychology book would classify as "disorders" and "diseases", traits that however are very present in people belonging to the police, military, pharmaceutical industry, government, etc. The fact that those behaviors are considered to be "abnormal" for the common population is highly suspicious. It is like if they want us to be obedient sheep while they hold the monopoly of violence and crime. This is a reason for which I will not believe in anyone trying to talk me out of this. To end one's life, it is not a "bad" thing. But there is a more primal reason. I am not going to let a bunch of disgusting spoiled kids tell me how to live my life. For a brat that has not lived in poverty, it is easy to tell others that they should "get over" and "carry on". It is easy to pretend you love life when you're an obese rich kid living in a first world country. When people tell me that I should value my life more, it makes me sick. Like, basically, to begin with, your damn country -the usa- has been routinely mass murdering people all across the globe for the last 50 years, so don't pretend you give a damn about me. If I am suicidal, it has partially come to this point because of the poverty your damn country has brought to mine and caused my life to get caught in a perfect storm. So just don't pretend you give a damn about me. It sickens me when an american tells me that I should keep living, because one of the benefits of ending my life will be that at least I won't be a slave of american imperialism anymore.

Yes

Today I catched up with the second and third season of Attack on Titan. Couldn't help but weep a couple times. Many of the situations depicted there hit close, very close home. Hunger. Poverty. Corruption. An establishment working to benefit a foreign plutocracy*. Unfair deaths. Betrayal. Despair. The assasination of an innocent and underage girl. Cruelty. The mixture of rage and sorrow that comes with being regarded as subhuman scum. The mixture of frustration and fear that comes when facing something hundreds of times bigger than yourself.

What for many is just a work of fiction, to me is a mirror of my miserable life scattered here and there through the 56 episodes, with the difference that I do not possess just yet the means to slay my own titans.

And the part that is most humilliating is that the Eldians are considered the evil guys by the Marleyians, even when the Marleians live in luxury at Eldia's expense (as well as at the expense of all of the other nations they have invaded), so not only the eldians are victims but also marleians have modified books and speeches to have everyone believe that it is fair. Basically Marley= USA/Israel and Eldia= Latin America/the whole middle east

But just as Armin points out in the episode 6, his life was already a living hell way before the titans attacked. In the oppresed countries, even without america's sickening imperialism impoverishing this place, even without their oppresive regime, even without those titans, it is already a living hell caused by people themselves. The strong will always prey on the weak. Even if you are rich and live in a rich place, the people around you can still deal you immense pain and suffering if it suits their respective greedy purposes. Life is hell. But it is exponentially worse in the base of the pyramid. Fortunately this is a hell that will end for me before I hit the mid of this year.

*Basically the goverment of Eldia is absolutely willing to fuck their own population in order to benefit the imperialist scum of Marley whose leaders, surprise surprise, once were Eldians. Some governments in Latin America, particularly those of Chile, Argentina and Mexico, have worked for decades in order to make America more wealthy in detriment of their own populations that have been subjected not only to poverty but also to mass extermination either by official military interventions or by CIA-sponsored militias. The high king Karl Fritz and his family are convinced that their people should perish in order to favor Marley, his Vow, while not exactly equal, resembles much the Monroe Doctrine and the Manifest Destiny. And just the same way that Marleians consider eldians to be second-class citizens, americans firmly believe that latin americans are second class humans. Imperialist behaviors and patterns remain the same regardless of centuries...

el fiiiiiin

Como era de esperarse, el mandril subdesarrollado que me espía sólo sabe hablar 1 idioma, por lo tanto no tiene idea de lo que digo si solo escribo en mi idioma natal

Preddy chubby tall female lion girls
Preddy chubby tall female renamon girls
Preddy chubby tall female white wolf girls
Preddy chubby tall female dragon girls
Preddy chubby tall female bovine girls
Preddy chubby tall female bunny girls
Preddy macro wolf female girls or that are mages and can shrink you down
Preddy macro jackal female girls or that are mages and can shrink you down
Preddy macro cat female girls or that are mages and can shrink you down
Preddy macro bunny female girls or that are mages and can shrink you down
Preddy macro deer female girls or that are mages and can shrink you down
Predy macro apricot-orange coyote female girls or that are mages and can shrink you down

The first paragraph always says "Your friends at Fur Affinity are concerned about you! We've heard from others and saw some posts you've made about how things haven't been going so well, so we're reaching out to you.", which is pretty silly because I have no friends, there is literally no single person in this godamn world that I consider my friend. Actually, there's not even a single person in this site that I can even remotely like. All I feel in this place is only enmity. But, at the same time, it's rather a pretty small deal: the people of this site is far less annoying than the people I live with. But, that doesn't mean that furries are not annoying. Or sickening. Thus, this message always falls with some irony because I have no friends in here, I hate everyone in this world, with me being the one I hate most.

Then the message always includes a body of 4 paragraphs that provides a simplistic definition of depression that does not apply to me, I am an unique person, not because I have any talent or any feature that gives me any value as a person but rather because I am pretty much something that american psychology has not deviced explanations for. If cultural differences are already big enough for people from different continents, then imagine how different they are for someone like me who rejects culture through the practise of misanthropic nihilism.

At the bottom of said paragraphs there's always a link to a page that features psychological help hotlines... all from the USA. Lol. I mean I know that about 80% of the users are from that country but heck, it's lowkey racist to have included in the autogenerated message template a list of links that only works for a first world country.

So, whoever redacted the message, please consider the following modifications:

1) Some people in this world simply don't have friends. Like me. ALSO, the first paragraph is also hypocritical: you cannot simply state something that is outright false, you cannot "hear from others that you've not been doing too well" when it is just an autogenerated template. It's like a huge "we care about you, except we don't xddd".

2) Send a list of phones that works in every country xd

3) Disregard 1 and 2: just let people do what they want with their own lives, as long as they are not harming or harassing other users, it does not break the rules to vent or voice one's desires to not be alive anymore. Have you ever heard about Euthanasia? It's more than just a word.

And to the person who reports all of my journals: you're human scum. I, honestly, hope that things in your life go so bad, so terribly bad in every single damn sense that you end up like me sometime (do not feel all too special though, I wish this very same thing to every single person in this world xd, but that includes you too xdd )

Indeed, I have some retard reporting every single one of my journals. The one I posted just 12 hours ago with the same title than this one, got deleted (like others) and I got this message from the staff: "We have removed the following content, but have not penalized your account:
Someone watched me with the sole intention of reporting me"

Tired of opening my eyes again to a paradise of grey mist and blind consciousness, tired of trudging along the steep track of earthly voyage and of staggering like a drunkard through life's dark catacombs, I slowly raised my morose eyes towards the concave firmament, and dared penetrate the mysteries of heaven.
Not finding what I sought I raised my dismayed gaze higher, until I caught sight of a throne fashioned of human excrement and gold upon which, with starving pride, body swathed in a shroud made of befouled hospital sheets, sat he who calls himself the creator.
He held in his hand a corpse's decaying torso and bore it in turn from eyes to nose, from nose to mouth, which he began to devour in most terrible ways.
His feet were immersed in a vast pool of boiling blood, to whose surface two or three cautious heads would suddenly rise like tapeworms from a full chamberpot, and immediately slip back again quick as arrows; a well-applied hit on the forehead was the familiar reward for breach of rules, caused by the need to breathe in another element - for after all, these men would still breathe air. They swam between two waters in a loathsome liquid, giving their best not to drown.
And then the creator, having nothing left in his grasp, would with the first two claws of his foot seize another victim by the neck as in a vice, and raise him from the reddish substance into the air, there to be dealt with like the others. First of all he would devour head, legs, and arms, and lastly the trunk, until nothing was left.
And so on and throughout the other hours of his eternity. Sometimes he would exclaim: "I have created you, so I have the right to do with you what I will. You have done nothing against me, that I do not deny. And for my pleasure, I make you suffer."
The Almighty appeared before me adorned with his instruments of torture, in all the glorious aureole of his horror; I turned away my eyes and looked at the horizon...

he is all
verbum dei manet in æternum
he is of fire
in ignem aeternum
for him we will fall
nihil contemnit esuriens
for our fragile desire
nutrimentum spiritus

he is creation
omne trinum perfectum
he is our will to live
quia pulvis es
he is annihilation
corpus vile
for him, our lives we give
et in pulverem reverteris

he is the golden mountain
mons sinai
the light in our hearts
a deo lux nostra
he is the holy fountain
aquis submersus
the sword that ever parts
contraria contrariis

he is salvation
o fallacem hominum spem
into his hands, I commend thee
In manus tuas
he is envenomation
sola fide
my destination to be free

deo parere libertas est

into his hands, I commend my spirit
my love for him
omnia ad dei gloriam
into his hands, I commend my spirit
for he has redeemed me
my love for him
omnia ad dei gloriam

into my hands I commend his spirit
his love for me
deus est mortuus
into my hands, I commed his spirit
for I have redeemed him
his love for me
deus est mortuus

omnia ad dei gloriam
credo, quia absurdum
coincidentia oppositorum
altum silentium
worship what you’ve burned,
burn what you’ve worshipped