Hey fuzzies,

yes, I will be at EF23. It will be my first furry convention ever and I'm both scared and excited about it. I'm looking forward to meeting many people I know from the Interner for years and I hope people don't try to kidnap me... ^^'

I will be performing on Wednesday at 23:00 at the Club Stage for 2 hours and play a mix of progressive and uplifting trance. All without pony content - hope I can do that. :D I hope that at least some of you will appear so I don't play for myself only.

See you in Berlin!

Hey Journal, long time no see!

I'm writing to you because there's something burning on my soul right now. There is no need for others to read it. I just want it to get out of my head.

I'm currently on vacation in Iceland (or do you say "on"?) with a wonderful bat girl who used to be my girl friend for over seven years. Yeah, we had to split up a few weeks ago, when I noticed that i never loved her the way she way she deserved it. To me she was always a very close, intimate and special friend that I still love like you love a sibling. She'll move out in September, and yet we decided to go on our long ago panned trip around Iceland, mainly because we both wanted to go there and we still get along with each other. (And cancelling would have been very expensive.)

The thing is, at the end of last year I realised I fell in love with a guy. Deeply in love. And I went through a long and hard struggle with myself because I wasn't yet ready to accept that. I mean, I was in a long term relation ship with a girl after all. And we wanted to marry. The last thing I could need was someone who gave me that tingling in my stomach that I haven't felt for over a decade...

Now he's at Eurofurence and pretty busy there. And judging from what I've seen of his previous fur meets probably doing something that will definitely make me jealous. And I'm here in the passenger seat of our rented car looking at the endless barren landscapes around me and feel lonely. All I would like is a beacon from him from time to time. Some sort of "Hey, love, I'm thinking of you". But he's not the person for this kind of emotional stuff. And I have a hard time to get used to that... Because it intensifies my jealousy... And I miss him so much right now, my heart is crying.

I need to focus on my vacation now. Try to enjoy it as much as possible. And then help my ex GF the best I can while moving out so I can start a new capter in my life that I don't know where it will bring me... Hopefully I can gather new inspiration for my music WIPs that are currently lying on my hard drive.

The world is small. Manuel Schleis, head of Vengeance Sound and inventor of reFx Nexus, contacted me to ask if I want to create a 90s expansion for said synth. How could I decline that? ^^

Hi,

I've uploaded my first pony-related original track on YouTube a few days ago. I produced it in my spare time at boarding school without anything but my laptop. Nothing too special but a nice progressive trance track:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gN7oaqub3r8

I submitted it to EQD, but there wasn't a reaction yet. Probably they're too busy caching up after BronyCon.

Hey,

would you mind just clicking on that link for the counter to go up? http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zbzYgAGFqJo

Thank you. :D

After having updated my Winter Wrap Up mix and uploading it to YouTube it was only a question of time when it'll be on EqD:

http://www.equestriadaily.com/2011/.....s-pegasus.html

*happy*

Now to the second mix. I'm finally home again so I can play some more. ^^

- Hanni

Okay, long waiting's end now. My new single "Eleven Thirty / Signals" 8Fenology Records) will be released on 2nd feburary 2010 on Beatport and on 12th february everywhere else.

It's got supported by: Above & Beyond, Armin van Buuren, Alex M.O.R.P.H. and Woody van Eyden!!!!!oneeleven

Samples can be found on this page. ;)

Thanks for all of your support. :)

- Hanni

Yes, it is true... Above & Beyond played my new track "Eleven Thirty" on their radio show. :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wLRCKB9KAEI

Rape me, I'm famous!

Some might think I'm in love with myself or at least with my music.

Well, they're right in a way. If I weren't it wouldn't make no sense for me to continue.

Some weeks ago I created a DJ mix with all of my good songs - old and new - and had a file, that was 2:08:04 long.

You can download it here: http://www.redfox-media.net/jayb-pr.....ions/JayBonly/
Split up in 4 parts for easier download.

Tracklist:
01. Store N Forward feat. Frontliners - I'll be There (JayB Remix)
02. JayB-Productions - Get It On
03. JayB-Productions - I Will See You Again
04. JayB-Productions - Night Shift
05. Adyjay feat. Danny - World Go Wrong (JayB Remix)
06. Satoshi Tomiie - Up In Flames (JayB Remix)
07. JayB-Productions - Searching For Love (Vocal Mix)
08. JayB-Productions - Push It!
09. Kate Lesing - Neverland (JayB Remix)
10. JayB-Productions - Liquid Ice
11. Jan Martin - Lost Tonight (JayB Remix)
12. JayB-Productions - Cold Waves
13. Trabberger & Weber - Forget (JayB Remix)
13. JayB-Productions - Regenzeit
14. JayB-Productions - Sententia
15. Adyjay feat. Tiff Lacey - Part Of U (JayB Remix)
16. Marcus Decay - Sidehoover (JayB Remix)
17. JayB-Productions - The Anthem (Club Mix)
18. JayB-Productions - Tonitrus
19. JayB-Productions - Technique (Dutch Trance Remix)

That should be enough for a longer dance. :D

Enjoy this one!

Hi there!

Again I made a new DJ mix with current track of others and of mine. ;)
I chose a rather calm style this time, starting at 132 BPM, ending at 137. There's the track list:

Ibiza Beach 2008 Mix

1) Alex Bartlett Feat Anthya - Touch The Sun (Rank 1 Remix)
2) Black Pearl - Coral Sea (Dj Shahs San Anthonio Harbour Mix)
3) Allure feat. Julie Thompson - Somewhere Inside (Andy Duguid Remix)
4) Perpetual feat. Fisher - Innocent
5) DJ Shah feat. Adrina Thorpe - Who Will Find Me
6) Jan Martin - Relapse (JayB Remix)
7) Charles McThorn feat Elles De Graaf - Winds Will Turn (Global Experience Remix)
8) Adyjay feat. Danny - World Go Wrong (JayB Remix)
9) Skye Shapard feat. Mque - Closer (Cold Blue Remix)
10) Oceanlab - Clear Blue Water (Mike Shivers Garden State Remix)
11) Luminary - Amsterdam (Super8 & Tab Remix)
12) JayB-Productions - Sententia

Here is the download link:
http://www.redfox-media.de/jayb-pro.....h_2008_Mix.rar

Again, there's a CUE-sheet file included, so you can get the single tracks with Nero, Foobar or the Cue plugin for Winamp. For Mac it also works with "Cog". ;)

Enjoy!

Now I finally know what it feels like to have an art block. For a couple of weeks I can watch my inspiration go away. I don't know when I'll be ever able to make music again, the only way I can express myself. But at the moment there's nothing to express. I've never felt such a big hole inside me before.
I need fresh wind in my life. Someone, who can show me the world from her (or his) own point of view and to put other thoughts and fantasies into my head...

I'm in heat!

Goddamn... why is that now?

XD

*mew* ._.

I should stop making illusions. They will work for a short moment but they won't improve my current state. I'm feeling down. I've done too many mistakes in the past that now cannot be undone.

I had a chat with her a couple of hours ago. Wasn't something private, just normal stuff, but... Reading her messages was the only thing that cheered me up this day. Too bad she went too soon again.

I just can hope for a better weather so at least there's sunhine outside, when there's no sunshine in my heart. This time not even my music can light my sky a bit, still absolutely no inspiration. I actually wanted to fix this by visiting her past week end, but it turned out to the opposite. However, this time I think there's no way back to the previous situation. I'm too pessimistic anyway.

It's 1am now.

I think I have a cold. o.ô

Madness - NW5

Ooh I watched you grow up
Only to despise
I seen the madness stack up through
Tarpaulin eyes
I have heard you come up
Believing your own lies
Witnessed the blessing rise up in a
A very strange disguise

Though you have become a burden
One thing remains, thats for certain
I will love you all my life
But without you in my life

Ooh I watched you climb up
I seen you come alive
From those very humble beginnings in
NW5

Though we face the final curtain
One thing remains, thats for certain
I will love you all my life
But without you in my life

I would give you everything
For just the smile you bring
For just the song to sing
I would give you everything
For just that smile you bring
For just that song to sing I sing now

Yes I watched you grow up
Only to despise
Witnessed the blessing rise up in a
A very strange disguise

Nothing, it seems, lasts forever
People change just like the weather
Some for good and sometimes never
I hope things work out for the better

I would give you everything
For just the smile you bring
For just the song to sing

_________________________

The song just wont go out of my head... >.>

1. Is there anyone on your friends list you would ever consider having sex with?
Certainly ^^

2. Sex in the morning, afternoon or night?
Doesn't matter, as long noone disturbs us.

3. What side of the bed do you sleep on?
Slightly on the right side, with a big tiger plushie on the left

4. Pork, beef, or chicken?
All of these

5. Have you ever had to pull over on the side of the road to puke?
Dunno... Propably...

6. Have you ever taken your clothes off for money?
Can't remember. XD

7. Shower or bath?
Shower

8. Do you pee in the shower?
Uhm... regulary... *blushes*

9. Mexican or Chinese?
Both, depending on mood

10. Do you want someone aggressive or passive in bed?
As long as (s)he is not rude...

11. Do you love someone on your friend list?
Yeah <3

12. Do you know all the people on your friends list?
Nope

13. Love or money?
Love

14. Credit cards or cash?
Cash...

15. Has there ever been anyone in your family you wish wasn't?
I get used to everyone...

16. Would you rather go camping or to a 5 star hotel?
5 Star Hotel... I can't sleep in tents.

17. What is the weirdest place you have had sex?
Desk... XD

18. Would you shave your entire body (including your head) for money?
No! I love my bushy eyebrowns. XD

19. Have you ever been to a strip club?
Nope. ALso don't think I ever will.

20. Ever been to a bar?
Yeah.

21. Ever been kicked out of a bar or a club?
No, alsways a good kitty.

22. Ever been so drunk you had to be carried out of somewhere?
I don't drink alcohol.

23. Kissed someone of the same sex?
Yepp.

24. Favorite drink?
Coke.

25. Had sex in a movie theater?
O.o I wonder if anyone would say yes here.

26. Had sex in a bathroom?
Nope, not yet.

27. Have you ever had sex at work?
What is work?

28. Have you ever been in an "adult" store?
Nope

29. Bought something from an adult store?
No

30. Have you been caught having sex?
Ew.. yes... once...
(Remember, honey? ^^ )

31. Does anyone have naughty pics of you?
Yes. *blushes*

32. Who do you think has the guts to repost this?
Dunno... *shrugs*

Yes, the title sucks, but I didn't feel like being more creative. ^^

However, I finally decided to create a DJ mix to put online (it's not the first one I made). It's made of sings I currently really like and other songs that are new from me (and I do like, too). You're the only ones that can hear my new songs at the moment, as they will be published on labels. So keep the link for youself. :)

Tracklist:

01. Aly & Fila - Ankh (Carl B Remix)
02. Marninx - Aire Azul (Estiva pres. Sunover Remix)
03. JayB-Productions - Regenzeit
04. T4L - Anno Domini
05. Orjan Nilsen pres. O&R - Beat Design
06. Will Holland Vs. Six Senses - Frantic (Sunover Remix)
07. Ceoma Feat. Thelarx - Full Moon (Trance Mix)
08. Duende - Luna Negra
09. Ronny K - Myrah (JayB Remix)
10. Tiesto Feat. Christian Burns - In The Dark (Carl B. Remix)
11. JayB-Productions - Sehnsucht
12. Lowell Hales - Move Me (Kaste Remix)

Download here

o.o

The more I think about what a certain person told me yesterday evening, the more I feel an anger growing in me against this person that I'm actually supposed to be happy with. And though I know, I haven't done it much better, I at least did it, when I wasn't in too close connection with her anyway.
And, too, I start to doubt if those three words still really come from m heart... -.-

I currently feel bored...

Your Boy Side
[ ] You love hoodies.
[ ] You love jeans.
[ ] Dogs are better than cats.
[ ] It's hilarious when people get hurt.
[X] You've played with/against boys on a team.
[ ] Shopping is torture.
[ ] Sad movies suck.
[ ] You own an X-Box.
[ ] Played with Hotwheels cars as a kid.
[ ] At some point in time you wanted to be a firefighter.
[ ] You used to be obsessed with Power Rangers.
[ ] You watch sports on TV.
[ ] Gory movies are cool
[ ] You go to your dad for advice.
[ ] You own like a trillion baseball caps.
[ ] You like going to football games.
[ ] You used to/do collect baseball cards.
[ ] Baggy pants are cool to wear.
[ ] It's kinda weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people.
[X] Green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colors.
[ ] You love to go crazy and not care what people think.
[ ] Sports are fun.
[X] Talk with food in your mouth.
[ ] Wear boxers.

Total = 3 Points

Your Girl Side
[ ] You wear lip gloss.
[X] You love to shop. (only certain stores)
[ ] You wear eyeliner.
[X] You have some of the same shirts in different colors.
[ ] You wear the color pink.
[X] Go to your mom for advice.
[ ] You consider cheerleading a sport.
[ ] You hate wearing the color black.
[ ] You like hanging out at the mall.
[ ] You like getting manicures and/or pedicures.
[X] You like wearing jewelry. (just one)
[ ] Skirts are a big part of your wardrobe.
[ ] Shopping is one of your favorite hobbies.
[X] You don't like the movie Star Wars.
[ ] You are/were in cheerleading, gymnastics or dance.
[ ] It takes you around 1 hour to shower, get dressed, and put on make-up and accessories.
[X] You smile a lot more than you should.
[ ] You have more than 10 pairs of shoes.
[X] You care about what you look like.
[ ] You like wearing dresses when you can.
[X] You like wearing body spray/perfume/cologne.
[ ] You wear girl underwear.
[ ] Used to play with dolls as little kid.
[ ] Like putting make-up on someone else for the joy of it.
[X] Like taking pictures of yourself with your cell phone/camera when you're bored.

Total = 9 Points

Wow. I'm definitely in the wrong body. ^^