I'm getting back into drawing, finally. (I know it's only been a week and a half or so, but.. that's a long time for me. ;^; ) I'll get working on the few commissions I owe within the next couple days!


And question two:

Would anyone be interested in pixel icons? I'm having a good time with pixeling, and it's really helping to break through my art block/art slump/whatever this is.

The examples are my current icon (F5 if you still see the bun my friend Bre did for me) and this.

They'd be $10, and $15 for couple/matching icons. ;w;

One or two of you may have noticed my.. less than normal page. Had something kinda personal happen Monday, and crashed pretty hard. Went through a day and a half or so of extreme guilt and depression, but I'm doing considerably better now. Still not 100%, but getting there.
My art drive is still low, but I promise I'll be back on top of commissions and back into streaming again as soon as I can be.

I finally found a realistically priced computer that I'm trying to save for. I have one more game to pay for (Omega Ruby, for those who care), then I'm not spending anymore money than I need to. This computer is holding up better than it was a few months ago (not sure how that happened ???) but I do think a newer one would be nice to have. Maybe I'll be able to run programs like the streaming program behind furstream and picarto on it, and maybe it'll be able to handle Autodesk Sketchbook... I'd looooove to get the new one with the flipbook dealy~<3 Anyways.. The computer I'm going for will be about $450 (No, I won't say which one, because someone is going to shoot it down, or recommend other computers, and as nice as that is for someone with access to money, it will just make my head hurt), and I'm right around $170 (currently in my paypal as I type), and I would appreciate any help I can get on the way to saving up for this.

Uh.. more updates... Hyrule Warriors is way cool. Shiek is very rapidly looking more and more feminine. (Which is cool with me~) I can't wait for Smash on Friday, and a super amazing friend is getting it for me. My wife is finally coming home after being gone for a month and I'm hoping to be seeing him soon... Having human interaction is gonna help me get out of this slump so much faster... ;w;

I wanna draw things, but... not really... I have zero ideas of my own, and zero drive to draw anything, and I don't like that.. I can usually get past not having the drive to work on commissions by working on personal stuff, but... Iunno.. That's not there either, which is weird for me.. Really weird for me... I'll figure something out soon, though. I promise.



Um.. that's about it. I'll be trying to put my profile together again over the next couple days.

I'll start working on commissions again as soon as I can, I promise..

I keep seeing it pop up more and more often that people seem to think that bisexual means that if they're in a relationship with a bisexual person, that they're not gonna be faithful and are gonna run off with anyone and everyone else they see.

I don't



I don't know why that's a thing




Someone explain to me where and when bisexual turned to polygamy/automatic open relationships.

The video game thing has worked itself out wonderfully~ A lovely, amazing friend has offered to buy SSB for me, and Hen's commission has made it possible to afford Hyrule Warriors, and eventually, Omega Ruby as its release date draws closer~<3

I'm a happy bun..~<3

Do I cancel my preorder on Hyrule Warriors, and lose the preorder only alternate outfits, and spend the money on Omega Ruby and the new SSB, or keep going with Hyrule Warriors and get OR and skip SSB? Someone heeeeeeeeeeeeeelp...

I kind of need it. Gfdi.

Would anyone be interested?

I know I made mine a few months back, but... I still like how they came out, and a friend kinda showed interest in them, and told me to make a journal asking if anyone else would. ;w;


This is what I'm talking about, btw. The smaller/icon version of what it will look like is what my icon is now!


They'd probably only be like.. $10, since it's only one drawing, and then a couple other little doodles..

But the streaming software behind picarto and furstream and the sites like that don't work with my computer, livestream is too big and lags too much, and join.me's new update makes everything lag so much, including SAI which is... really bad.. Weh... :c

So.. I notice that no one ever asks me to email them the full file, and that's cool.. But never be afraid to ask me to do so!

(You can also just right click-save the image once I upload it, since these are the full size/resolution images that I upload. c: )


I'm still open for commissions, btw!

I was gonna wait a little bit longer but... Meh. I need the money. :T

Just gonna do three this time for stress control purposes on my part.



Go ahead and comment here for a slot.

(Even if you can't get something, if you guys could spread the fact that I'm open around, that would be appreciated.)

I need more attention ;w;



plus apparently i'm amusing? i'm kind of rambly...


follow meeeeeeee...

SO I CAN GO PARTY TOMORROW NIGHT



we're broke and we need money for alcohol and probably a taxi coming home 'cause my mom's headlights don't work so she can't drive at night







gimmegimmegimme

Okay, hello. I know my attitude lately has been... a little odd, and I've not given any kind of reasoning as to why.

I wiped everything because I had a breakdown over something I don't want to talk about (it's a little more personal than most things), and piled on top of everything else, it just kind of... broke me, and I wanted to hide. I wanted to disable my account entirely, but I couldn't do that without upsetting my commissioners. (And probably worrying some watchers and friends, too...) Faith was the one that pushed me to put things back the way they were, so... that's why I came back as fast as I did. I wouldn't mind if everything was still gone.

Because a couple people saw my wipe and tried to talk me out of suicide and how depression is just temporary or something, etc, etc, without knowing my situation, or without me even being online... Please don't do that. I don't like signing onto skype to find a five page essay typed out for me, because it's all generic, copy-paste crap that doesn't help. If you want to do that, and try to talk to me about how depressed I am, wait until I sign on and talk to me, not lecture me. Thank you, but... Chill.

Uh... More updates... My birthday is next Wednesday.. Totally ready to be 21, not ready to lose my insurance and have to get a new ID. The insurance wouldn't matter at all if I wasn't epileptic... Bleh. Seizure medication is expensive. :c Oh well...



And now onto the second half of the journal: other places I'm on!
Tumblr: Not an art tumblr by any means. I should probably start posting things there or something... Idk. I don't care enough to do that... Too lazy... But it's a pretty good insight into things that make me happy.. x3 (Occasionally NSFW)
Ask.Fm: Ask me whatever. Kind of like TMI Tuesday except not just on Tuesdays. I'll answer anything you guys have to ask to the best of my ability~ (You can also suggest things to draw if you want. Not request, but suggest.. IE, not your own personal characters, but like.. "draw more pokemon", "draw more inflation", etc, etc.)
Twitter: There's not much there now, but if people show interest in my rambling, I'll start using it more.
Commission Info: Exactly what it sounds like... Yeah.


Yeah.. that's about it.

Don't worry about it too much. Really.

and go away

Okay dudes so... I've been avoiding this because my writing embarrasses me horribly... But I figured I'd go ahead and put this out there... I have a side account where I stash my stories. I'm sure no one knew or cared that I write, but I do, and they seem to be liked, as far as un-iconed stories with undescriptive titles go... So.. Having support that they're not awful, I'm gonna share it.


My writing account is StupidStories.

Because she did it for me a little while ago and because she's a buttnugget huge sweetie.


She's trying to sell a couple characters and adopts and I would appreciate it if you guys would go check them out. c:

until it turns into nothing but mush.



I have a headache. Sometimes I hit my head on things if it gets too bad and it dazes me long enough that I get a couple seconds of peace. It's nice. That's not working right now.

Uh.. to the updates...


So.. We've slipped to about... $3500 behind on everything... We're two (gonna be three) months behind on our mortgage payments... Eviction notices are gonna start showing up soon, I think. I've kind of given up. More than kind of... Whatever I make in commissions isn't going to save us. I'm screwed, and I've reached this point where I'm just... swinging between depression and apathy. Little things are sending me into breakdowns, where I just.. sob, and things that should cause breakdowns.. I just don't care about.
I guess... I guess that's it for that one...

The second one has to do with the first one, sort of.. My birthday is in like, three weeks.. two and a half weeks. The third of next month. The 21st is supposed to be a special one... and now, we're too poor to do anything for it. Last year... I spent my birthday alone... And this year, I'm going to spend it with my mom... in my house... on the computer... just like every other day... Having no family sucks.



Tl;dr; I'm gonna be homeless soon, probably, and I'm not getting shit for my birthday again. Happy journal!






someone buy me stuff on steam

OH MY GOD



I'M IN LOVE



ireallylikedaudinotobeginwithandomgit'ssocute

I'm looking for Chansey and Gastrodon. Abilities and natures n' stuff aren't that important. Just... Gimme one.

Nevermind! I got both of them! Thanks guys~<3

Alternatively: Because I'm Vain And Like Talking About Myself-



Name: Brittany Tobias (get the toby thing now?)
Nickname: Toby, Cupcake(don't call me this one), Fred
Location: Lolorado
Age: 20 (Gonna be 21 in like, a month... Weh..)
Height: 5'6"ish
Zodiac sign: The Virgin!
Any pets: 7 cats, two dogs, and a snake named Ex!
Favorite thing about yourself: my dazzling personality
Worst habit: I procrastinate on everything
Fun fact: i've only ever beaten like five video games in my entire life

Identity, Sexuality &Personality

Gender identity: ladybun
Sexual preference: other ladybuns
Romantic preference: also other ladybuns
"Kinsey Scale" score: wat
Relationship status: very happily taken ;w;
Myers/Briggs type: um. i don't remember.
Hogwarts house: i took a thing once and i think i got ravenclaw. caw caw bitches. i know nothing about HP. i'm sorry

Routine

"Early Bird" or "Night Owl": Both! It depends on my life at the time!
Bath or shower: i like baths a lot but my bathtub is shit and my fat ass doesn't fit in it :c
First thought in the morning: 'i have to pee'
Last thought before falling asleep at night: usually plotting how to kill myself (not a joke. not trying to hunt for help/sympathy either. s'just a thing i do. don't worry about me)

School/Work

Do you work or are you a student: neither. i'm a useless bun. :c
What do you do well: i'm good at making people smile i guess!
Where do you see yourself in 5 years: um


Habits (Do you…?)

Drink: not as often as i'd like to
Smoke: nope
Do Drugs: i used to smoke pot but now that i'm hunting for a job i cannot do that anymore and i miss it so bad
Exercise: i walk sometimes (to the fridge ahAHAHAHAHA no really)
Have a go-to comfort food: I really dig grilled cheese sandwiches i guess
Have a nervous habit: I chew on my lips and my finger nails a lot...

What is your favorite…?

Physical quality (in yourself): MY HUGE BOOBS
In Others: i like eyes c:
Mental/emotional quality(in yourself): i guess that i'm like, really empathetic? I AM EMOTION
Food: i like most foods. i like veal a lot
Drink: i like coffee
Animal: i like cats!
Artist/Band/Group: i like fun. a lot right now. c:
Author/Poet: i have no idea.
TV Show: orange is the new black is amazing
Actor/Actress: felicia day is adorable. WAIT DOES HANNAH HART COUNT AS AN ACTRESS EVEN THOUGH SHE ONLY HAS A SHOW ON YOUTUBE
Blogger: i like the bloggess

and it turns out you're pretty good at that








Idk.. it made me smile.. ;w;

and from what i've seen raven's a whore






i kinda love it (not the show. raven being a whore.)

Okay, so... The commission tab here is stupidly complicated, so I made a weebly. Weebly... That's a funny word.. Anyways!

It's still a work in progress, but it's got all the necessary stuff.

http://jawbonecommissions.weebly.com/




There's also a link on the "about" page to my brand spankin' new ask.fm account... I like random questions a lot. ;w;

Uh. Yeah. That's it. c: