Sooo...

I finally wrote a letter of resignation and I have to work in the office until July 30 only!

From August 1 I will be a full time artist! That's what I want to do in my life. No Excel lmao. Finally I will be able to spend all my time for commissions and adopts.

Maybe it will be difficult for the first time, but I can definitely handle it. Your support, your kind comments and even simple fav under my art gives me strength to create 🧡

I had a terrible headache all day, and by evening I began to feel too sick. I vomited 7 times. With some... blood lol. So I called an ambulance. I still don’t know what happened to me yet, but hope I'll survive.

For those who know about my dog (I wrote a lot of journals) - the short description. We need a little help. My little boy is brave, but he feels bad now. Today we performed an endoscopy and found out that the condition of the dog's larynx is very bad.
Proof video is here: https://youtu.be/bfDdmD2B_dY
In short, the cartilage that should move when inhaling and exhaling is simply closed. The dog has practically no breathing space.

I’ve created a fundraiser here: https://www.airfunding.net/project/319204

If you have an opportunity to help - we will be infinitely grateful. Also we will be very grateful for sharing this journal 🙏

For those who see this post for the first time: here is our story:

"Hello! My name is Darya and this is Rick - 2 y.o. chihuahua with the diagnosis of laryngeal paralysis / collapse.

We’re from Minsk, Belarus. Unfortunately, there’re no experienced enough surgeons to help the dog. But there’re really good specialists in St. Petersburg and Moscow.
The photo on cover is old. We already took Rick to St. Petersburg for an operation in July and for almost six months his condition was good. Unfortunately, the symptoms have returned. For Rick it’s hard to breathe under any stress, he is now in the clinic in oxygen chamber, awaiting a tracheostomy. Rick needs a complicated operation that cannot be done in Belarus, so we will have to go to Russia.
I saved money for almost a year because I was warned that the dog's symptoms might return. But this is not enough. We need to operate him urgently, so we need money as soon as possible.
Providing the dog with a better life is the only thing I want. He is a strong boy and will definitely recover. We just need a little help. We'd be grateful even for a couple of dollars. Thank you in advance for your support. Wish us good luck. And please share this story. Thank you!"

The journal is short but I have an old journal with very detailed information. Situation is almost the same as it was in summer 😔
Link is here: https://www.deviantart.com/kaisarre.....7-08-838794847
If you doubt the veracity of the story - I can provide all photos and receipts.

TYVM in advance for your help.

Rick tried to choke again today 😖

I slept in the morning, I don't know what happened, but I heard a squeal. The dog was with my granny and he was scared of something, or she accidentally stepped on his tail (she says no). Due to the diagnosis (paralysis of the larynx), when Rick is experiencing emotional upheavals, whether it be joy from the arrival of the owners or fear, he begins to choke. The last month the condition worsened and it seems the dog needs an operation again, which is not done in our country.

In the morning, I immediately put him in an oxygen chamber (homemade), because Rick ran around the apartment in agony, coughed and could barely breathe. I immediately understood that it was necessary to turn on the oxygen concentrator and supply the dog with oxygen. After a few minutes, he felt better. Half an hour later, I had already released him from the cell. Apparently, a second operation is needed and large sums of money are needed soon. I even think to open a fundraiser because I am not sure that I have enough money for everything that he need.

I am very embarrassed to ask for help. I leave almost all the money I have set aside for the dog and nothing for myself. While the dog needs endoscopy and diagnostics, we can handle it, but maybe soon we really need help ><

P.S. I’m sorry for rarely answering to those who write to me ><

I'm tired of shit happening in my life.

A little background:
I work remotely from home. I can do all my work from home. ALL. Now something has hit the head of the company and they want me to go to the office at least twice a week. Lord, why? I really don't understand why. I have poor health, asthma, it is dangerous for me to ride the subway to the other end of the city during the pandemic, I constantly sit at home and even order food through delivery. I also have a dog. His diagnosis is peripheral neuropathy and it is dangerous to leave him alone at home. Cause... he may be afraid of something and not survive a panic attack. I love him more than my life and will never risk his health by leaving him at home alone. He has breathing problems. We performed an expensive and complicated operation in another country, the condition has improved, but the risk remains. I have a supply of oxygen at home to help the dog in case of trouble. And my boss knows all of it. But "nah.. everyone should be in the office at least 2 days a week".

I work on computer in f*cking Excell. I don't have any tasks, that require my physical location in the office. And I do my work good. So they give me 2 month to solve the problem. The problem? My dog's illness is not cured. My own health was poor all my life. Should I risk? No. I don't want to.

It seems like soon the drawing will be my only income. I hope it will be enough to keep me and my dog.

On the one hand, this is even good, perhaps I can draw more. On the other hand, I did my job really well and everyone was satisfied. But this is some kind of stupid principle about being in the office. Are people generally aware that the pandemic is not over?

So.. thankies, 2021. For what? Positive Covid test 👑

I was very worried that while I was in the hospital after an appendectomy, I could become infected with Covid.. And so it happened. I have asthma, so ugh ... But I feel pretty good. The test shows that I should already begin to recover. I feel not bad, just the headaches and I still feel weak.

Hello!

We're late, but Happy New year all of you. ILY.

For the new year, my dog ​​and I were at home. Yes, we were discharged from hospitals. I'm after appendectomy and Rick after partial laryngocele resection.
Each of us spent a week in the hospital. But on the new year we were together! ❤️ Rick is doing well, but we need to plan a second surgery. After an appendectomy, I feel very weak, I can't get anywhere beyond the kitchen and often I don't even have the strength to hold the phone in my hand, so I sleep a lot.

I am grateful to all the people who supported me in 2020. I still have a lot to work on to please you with new and new drawings. Thanks to those who patiently await their commissions during this difficult for me time. I will back to drawing as soon as I will be able to hold a pen and sit. Doctor said it may take even about a week. But I hope my rehabilitation will be faster.

Happy New year! This one will be better for all of us. I'm sure!

I feel like the most unlucky person in the world. I was crying and screaming all day cause of strong pain. Noone in hospital knew what's wrong with me. Then they took me to surgery and found out that it's an appendicitis. So now I'm in hospital..

I'm still worry about my dog, cause he's at vet hospital too.

I feel like I lost all my strength and can't even get out of hospital bed.

Monday is a surgery day. Wish my dog and me good luck 🙏

Today I went to the vet with my dog to cut the claws (at home he is afraid of this procedure, but at the vet clinic he is not afraid, so it's easier for me to take him to the clinic to avoid stress), but something went wrong. I live next to the veterinary clinic, literally ten minutes away, so I just dressed the dog warmly, took it in my arms and went. But on the way, Rick began to choke. He could hardly breathe and wheezed, his lips turned almost blue. I ran to the clinic, immediately gave the dog to the vet and he put the dog in the oxygen chamber. I was shaking, I could not calm down. Rick has laryngeal paralysis, but after surgery (was done in summer) everything was almost fine. Last 2 month he feels not really good, but today was the first time he began to choke. After about 5-10 mins in oxygen chamber he was fine. I took him home. We think it was the result of high stress (he don't like to be outside the home).

He's ok now. But I'm in stress q_q You know "Golden Compass" movie and books? I feel like Rick is my daemon. I feel bad when he feels bad and just.. can't live without him.

We'll need to do endoscopy to figure out what's wrong. I have some money, so hope everything will be fine. Praying for my poor boy. He's so strong and deserves to live a long and happy life.

I may answer messages longer than usual, I'm sorry for this. Now my main priority is my dog's health ><

I am very sad now.

A few weeks ago I saw a video on tiktok. In the video, a cat was hit by a car, his eye was gouged out, and money was collected for his treatment. It took a lot of money and I could not pass by. I sent money. And then I saw that all the videos were deleted. Today I again went to that account in TikTok and saw that there are new videos with another cauldron, for the treatment of which money is again being raised. I wrote a comment, what happened to the first cat? They raised a lot of money for it. I wrote that if they do not publish the video, then they are scammers. And do you know what they answered me? "Send more", "we are not ashamed", "you will not do anything to us", "we collected a lot of money last time hahaha".

I don't understand how people can be like that. How can they cash in on other people's troubles, because they are stealing videos of injured animals from somewhere.

I remember how my dog ​​needed help when I didn't have enough money for an operation. I am very grateful to those who supported us. I also wanted to help, but it turned out that I was just a victim of a scam. Yes, no one forced me to send money. Yes, it was necessary to look for more information and check everything. But I just wanted to do a good thing and help the animal. Just like people helping my dog.

Sorry for this text, I feel so stupid now. And very sad. Animals are so kind and loyal, and people sometimes just horrible 😔

Hello.

I would like to tell you why the last week I wasn't active, didn't draw anything and practically didn't reply to anybody.

Lately I have been feeling bad both physically and mentally:
- My back still hurts very badly (I will only go to the doctor on Tuesday);
- I have tonsillitis and it goes very slowly;
- I have problems at work and every day I feel bad, these are headaches and terrible fatigue;
- The most serious thing for me is that my dog ​​got sick again. We go to vets again and spend a lot of money. Rick has a small amount of inflammation, according to a blood test, darkening on x-rays of the lungs. I am very worried, everything is not as bad as it was in the summer, but every time the dog feels bad, I also feel terrible. We have been prescribed medications and I hope to be able to share some good news soon...;
- I lost my inspiration, I start to paint and nothing comes of it. I just want to constantly sleep or even cry.

I don't know if it's all autumn blues or a load of piled-up problems :(

Hello!

I am a little bit sick, so the Adopt Calendar will be postponed a little >.< [btw I'm working on 3 days adops: 6 - Fairy, 9 - Poison and 11 - Queen]
I have a slight fever, but my head hurts and my general condition is sluggish. I drink a lot of tea and take the necessary medicines. Hope to get better quickly and get back to drawing!

Also in Thursday we'll go to veterinarian with my lil doggo. I'm worried that his claws began to darken at the base and it seems unpleasant for him when you touch his paws.

Stay safe and healthy! Lov ya ♡

Hello from Minsk, Belarus.

We have held presidential elections. Falsified presidential elections. I've always been far from politics, but now I'm really scared.

We haven't got Internet (I use vpn, but sometimes it's not working). All night I heard the explosions of flash bangs. There are people injured. The police beat up peaceful people who just want change. I saw really horrible photos.

I live almost in the center of Minks and I'm scared. I don't want to discuss politics, I just want to stay safe. I don't know what to do.

News (don't open if you're afraid of photos with violence and blood...):
https://www.google.com/amp/s/amp.dw.....ion/a-54506078
https://mobile.twitter.com/franakvi.....06289839824897

Approximately 4,000 COVID-19 cases in my country (~2,000 in my town).

We do not have a quarantine
People are sent from hospitals to be treated at home
Mass events are not going to cancel
Our president is a laughing stock for the whole world (hi from Belarus https://edition.cnn.com/2020/04/12/.....yl/index.html)

I'm afraid of my life.