feeling lonely again

feel free to ask me anything :3

hey there... I never got around to say this yet but

to everyone who responded to my last journal with kind words... thank you so much...

it means alot to me to have people tell me that I'm not unseen, it made me feel like I mattered when I was honestly in a really rough spot

I still kinda am... but now that exams are over, I can start to focus more on myself and what I wanna do with my life this summer

thank you guys again, and thanks for reading

love you guys

-Keldi

hey there... if anyone even pays attention to these...

I figured I'd post something about where I'm at mentally... its not a good place...

to sum it up... I feel like people are leaving me behind left and right because I can't keep pace with them... either that or they've moved on from me to do more important things and have forgotten I even exist. I know this isn't exactly an uncommon sentiment among people like me who have a hard time staying focused or simply don't have anything to contribute to the conversation, but thats where I am...

and it doesn't really help that I've had a friend try to rip the rug right out from under me and take everything I've built up to this point as his own... imitating me down to the last wire... or at least thats what it felt like right up until I cut it off at the root to save myself the mental sanity... I won't go into details about that, but if you know, you know...

in any case... I honestly don't have the words to say at this point... I feel like my life's been scraped before it even started... and I have absolutely no one else to blame for that failure other then myself...

anyway... thats where I am... thanks for reading... have a good day...

hello... I don't know how to start this

of late, I've been a bit of an asshole, people sending me DMs on for me to leave them unanswered or unread for whatever reason, I've been acting like a "nice guy" alot and I feel like I've upset or bored alot of people because I have absolutely nothing going for me

I know its not my place to say this after all the radiosilence, but I'm truely sorry to the people I've ignored or otherwise been afraid to speak to. I do have my own issues and its my job to deal with my crappy social skills alone...

if you want to talk to me... I hope to be able to talk openly with anyone who comes, free of prejudice or fear. I am still learning how to keep my emotions in check however, I hope you can understand where I'm coming from at the very least

thank you for reading, and sorry again

Keldi.

sorry for being so inactive, I've got some fun stuff for your eyes today X3

enjoy~

hey friens

I know its been a while since I've made one of these but it do be my birthday X3

hope you guys are all having a good one today!!

go here for a chance to win some art from a nice friend of mine X3

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/50362453/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/50362453/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/50362453/

hey guys

I just got hit really bad by hurricane fiona, it came up the coast and hit nova scotia really bad, putting power out from my entire town

hopefully everything goes smoothly and I'll have everything back at the end of the week

thanks guys

consider this just a thing for me to do cause I'm bored rn, go ahead and ask me something about my sona (lewd or NSFW based questions will be hidden)

I'm curious what you guys think is all

you can find general info about my boi here https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9720081

not asking on twitter because of the bots, but I need an artist to draw me something for a character I just got

the artist would need to be ok with drawing
- vore
- fats
- stuffing
- semi-complex markings

note me or comment if at all interested pls

a friend of mine is doing a raffle for a headshot, come check it out X3

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/46881922/

hello guys

just letting you all know that next weekend is my birthday on the 23rd, I'm pretty exited even tho I have an exam that day

X3

I'm sure many of you know this already but my twitter account got hacked

I did manage to fix it tho before the bot could do that much damage, sorry for all the spam I may have sent

good afternoon, evening, night, morning... whenever your reading this

I'm writing this today because I want to make a statement to everyone I know. The world as we know it today is being split in 2 based on bias and prejudice towards anyone and everyone, today more then ever people will act like savages and attack blindly based solely on the claims of someone who points a finger... I'm tired of all this hate... this objectification. humanities inability to put aside differences and see the big picture has already been and will be its downfall, on both fronts of the ridiculous political spectrum, I am sick and tired of the needless racism, the needless violence, the needless name calling and the absolutely absurd political divide between the right and the left, its time to put down the pitchforks, time to stop being afraid, time to act like adults and grow up for real, no more calling people the n word or telling them to respect your pronouns weather or not they know them, its time to stop the paranoia...

a sincere request from a big fluffy vore monster... please, just stop...
thank you for your time

happy vore day everyone

hope you all got the chance to eat, or be eaten hehe, I know I've had quite the feast already X3

ok... thats it, I'm fucking done with people constantly trying to get me to roleplay, its always this whole thing where its like they randomly message me out of the blue, and if I respond, its either they ask "wanna rp" or they just do it with me for no context, I'm sick and tired of it, its honestly starting to take a serious toll on my mental health, looking at these people who just treat me like a tool to satisfy their "need" for vore stuff and then harass me for more when I tell them no, and when I do tell them no, or "I'm tired" for example, and then go to sleep for a few hours, AS SOON as I wake up, their back in my DMs looking for it

thats why I'M NO LONGER DOING ROLEPLAY FOR ANYONE WHO ASKS ME FOR IT, WEATHER DIRECTLY OR INDIRECTLY

I will ONLY do it when I feel like it, yes, even if it means not continuing scenarios I started a week ago and then forgot about, and yes, even if its from a friend, if I don't want it, you won't have it, so there

just when I thought I was done with all the discord drama, I get swept right back into it... again... ugh

so apparently discord themselves are targeting vore servers on the grounds that vore is technically a sexual fetish and therefor NSFW, meaning for one to stay up they would not only need to verify and prune members not over the age of 18, but also lable the server itself as 18+ despite having little to no actual sexual content...

but... rules are rules... *sigh* as a discord server owner myself, I have to now go through everything posted on the servers general chat and take out everything related to vore, as well as separate the vore content chats from the regular chats... needless to say my headache has only gotten worse

thanks for reading, hopefully your week will go better then mine :(

at this point, I'm so fucking done with drama on discord, its become my biggest problem with the platform at this point

only because of a handful of users being fucking stupid and starting shit in order to get attention, my sanity has dropped beyond the point of no return, so much so that I can barely even respond to people reasonably anymore...

so... I'm sorry to people who think I've just been stuck up for the past 6 months, but with everyone being stressed about covid, and/or having strong opinions about how it was handled that they can't possibly keep to themselves, in combination with people just being idiots on discord, I just can't put up with this shit anymore...

I know I'm a tad late to this but omg

for someone who doesn't even draw or do much of anything "yet", you guys sure do like seeing me around, thank you all for watching this hungry noodle X3

hey guys, time to get serious

this coming september, I'll be heading off to university for my first year, so from now until I can get some more money in my pocket, I'll be taking a break from commissioning artists

this only means that I'm stepping back form commissioning art from people for money, I'll still be around and here whenever you guys might need me X3

also, this was an Idea that I wanted to start but I was thinking of getting into writing some vore stories, it might take a while tho with how my brain operates X3

thanks for reading, Keldi

ok... at this point there is one thing that I'm getting VERY annoyed with

there is a growing number of people in not just the vore community, but the furry community as a whole, who think that every interaction they have with another user must involve roleplay, and its to the point where myself and countless other people are messaged day in and day out looking for it right off the bat

and another issue, its as if these people are not even very good at it either, half of the time when I actually do respond, they give me one liners or throw away lines

I'm getting very tired of it, PLEASE stop trying to rp with me out of nowhere, you know who you are

you know, as much as i dont really want to admit it, im no longer gonna support people who think their character should be overly powerful, even my own characters bio will be getting tweaked so its less of a universal destroyer and more of a cute yet hungry superglutton

this is because without proper balance in abilities, roleplay with interesting scenarios just isnt possible, it makes the character into a self reliant vessel for fulfilment rather then a character you can get attached to, after all if everyone was a mary sue who could do anything with the flick of a wrist, where would the fun be in the context of the plot?

im gonna be removing alot of the macro aspects of keldi, like the black hole stuff and such, this is because i want him to feel at least a little more genuine, while keeping his ravenously endless appetite as it is, i get that people may like the macro stuff and dont get me wrong, so do I, but it will be kept separate from canon and only ever joked about from here on out

thanks for understanding guys, have a great day X3

19 years... another birthday in the midst of a pandemic, I really don't know if I should be happy or something but I guess it feels good

all in all, it was rough this past year for me, but I stuck it out and here I am, thanks to everyone who took the time to get to know me over the past year X3

now for the fun part, I'm going to more then likely swallow down almost an entire discord server today sooo BRING ON THE FEAST hehe *slurp*

eeeeee its meh birthday tomorrow and I am exite X3

bit of a late journal but just about 2 weeks ago I hit 200 watchers... I don't know what to say except thanks X3