-waves- how are you guys...

BLAZE IT.

I'm tired and i just noticed that number on my watch count AAAAAAAAAAAAYYYO.

does anyone?? use?? furry network???

i barely see it active

Boy, a lot of stress has been going on this week asides the move.

Last week, my dog ran out of his new owner's house and I've been worried and looking for him ever since.
[It's gonna be like this for awhile.... but I've been visiting pounds non-stop, scoping the neighborhood, putting up lost signs...But they keep getting taken down by people around the neighborhood]

I'm kind of trying not to worry but, that dog's my kid, raised him since he was 3 months old;;;
I was forced to give him away thanks to my parents. [I suffer from intense emotional abuse from my parents;; My mother especially.] And it took me a week to actually be somewhat okay with having the dog move onto the new owner, but my dog is very attached to me [And I am to him because I use him to take care of my stress and anxiety] and has severe separation anxiety. He literally jumped out the window and began to book it last Saturday..... [No, I don't have a therapist currently, my parents won't allow me to have one, much less try to get one myself.]

Needless to say, I'm pretty exhausted and tired, and I guess it hit a personal cord with me, since he's the only dog I've gotten in my entire life that wasn't taken away from me after taking care of it for a week. [I'm very attached to dogs;;]

But, it's been hectic, stressful, and I've been trying my best to distract myself.

Uhmn, so yeah. That's pretty much my update.

And onto the info before getting told 'hey you should move out'. I've been trying my best to, but every time I've attempted to branch out my parents pull me back in, so I've been stuck in this abusive loop for god knows how long. I dooonn'tt haveeee any friends that are willing to room with me. And, I am far from being able to afford rent, unless I'm able to get about 200-300 a month from commissions alone;;

Hoo... This came out more like a vent instead of a status update. I've been a blob of stress for the past month and most of the art that I have on me is not furry related [I typically post on twitter/tumblr anyway.]

I'm going to be trying to stream more, and try to post other fur related things in the future.
As for the raffles, I'm going to work on them whenever I stream.

Oh, and uhhh.. I did a massive purge/clean out of my watch list [since I was following 300 people and I reduced it to 100]

Ok, so i'm finally back. sorry about being MIA forever.
I was at anime expo and was busy trying to get cosplays done.8')

and i was just told news i'll be moving out of my house too so THAT'S... STRESSFUL AAHAHA;;

I'm bored, gonna draw some requests if anyone wants??

Gonna pick at random and the style varies

OVERRRRRWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAATCCH!!

I have dokis for Pharah and solider 76

https://beta.furrynetwork.com/pommie/

I haven't been active here, again, but I was just getting active. 8(

I'm tempted to make a furry network to contact ya'll for commission updates but I'm not sure haha

o H I HAVEN'T BEEN LOOKING AA;;;

So i just wanted to put this in as a thank you! Never thought I'd get this far tbh??

Oh! And my b-day passed a few days ago!!
As well as me getting a license!! 8) COOL!

I've been streaming more often, [trying to do it 3 hours daily!]

I'm gonna be putting out a commission sheet hopefully, because I keep getting inquiries about commission prices but uhh... yeah..

Anyway, I just wanted to thank you guys for the support tbh OTL
I'm really shocked there's like 300 of ya'll lookin at this smoll gallery!

My friend  corvyn

Why? Because his art's adorable and a really good price uvu

He'll make ur character's absolutely precious with his cartoony style, 10/10 totes commission him again n again~

4/13!!
HOMESTUCK ENDED!!! WHOOO

I GOT MY LICENSE!! WHOOO!!

I GOT A GIFT FROM MY FRIEND THAT WAS MY ANIME OSOMATSU HUSBAND KARAMATSU WOOOOOO!!

I DROVE ON MY COMPLETE OWN!! FOR THE FIRST TIME!!!!

HOW WAS UR APRIL?

I'M ALIVE.
Sorry for being dead again oopsie.

I've been addicted to undertale lately,
specifically mettaton.

how are u guys?

So, for those who have seen my private twitter, my condition as of late hasn't been the best, my mental condition has hit the point that I've gotten physically ill from the stress.

I haven't told anyone on FA, or really plan to post this really anywhere.

Lately, I've been going through abuse. A lot of it, mostly emotional abuse from my family that's been built up for years, causing me to break down every few weeks or so of the same thing because I can only handle so much.

My family has never been supportive of me and what I want to do, they've constantly told me how shitty of a person I am, and apparently. That's not the norm compared to most households. Personally, I think it's normal to get emotional abuse from my family, or getting jabs, so I'm always baffled when I see family members get along because my family loves taking any chance to insult and make me cry, yet never noticing the blame is on them. [I've confessed to them on how much the abuse has hurt me overall as a person]

Every time I've spoke and brought up issues, they just blame me in the end, and tell me how I won't go anywhere in life.

Lately, it's been hitting me harder than ever, and I don't like that. I don't like dealing with this emotional pain and I can barely get out of my home without getting hit with emotional abuse and how life would be better without me being alive.
It's been sucking motivation from me.

I'm going to repeat this constantly though. I don't want pity, I don't want people feeling sorry for my problems, because I don't think my problems are very bad, I've heard mixxed reviews though, but I just.. I need to let this out.

Commissions off stream have to be paid up front from now on...

Mainly because I keep getting commissioners who drop the project once I ask for a payment higher than 30$ :/ Only 1 person has been able to keep consistent communication

I know I'm worth a lot more than that but it really frustrates me when I'm left in the dark when it comes to communicating with commissions;;

I'm sorry I had to vent about this because this has been a consistent pattern with half the people that have commissioned me

I'm gonna be old tomorrow someone save me

on other news i'm gonna watch avengers tmrw hopefully ;u;

HAAAAAAY HAY HAY HAY HAY MY FRIEND WHO'S NEW TO FA IS DOING COMMISSIONS PLS HELP HER OUT!!
IT'D BE SWELL!!

She's selling sketches for 5 bucks, and she has pretty colors n arts and a super cute style!!

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16343489/

I just wanted to tell you guys you're fuckin' fantastic people and no one can let you down, now do a sass-a-frass dance with me!

-Z SNAPS!-

-YELLS LOUDLY-

This means so much you have no idea how honored I am atm, cause I've never expected to gain so much love -YELLS MORE-

If you're planning to leave and want updates on my art [unfortunately it won't have as much furry art or commissions]

http://pomspom.deviantart.com
http://pomspomart.tumblr.com
http://pomspom.weasyl.com
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCf.....f28yaMzI1BMoyg
http://devils-deal.cfw.me/comics/
http://instagram.com/pommiespom

As for twitter, there is not a lot of art in it, mostly venting, and it switches between personal vents, to more venting.

I don't think I'll be leaving? Seeing as I'm not very active in the community as I use to, but I do have various sites. :>

I'm playing South Park: Stick of Truth along with other flash games

I'm debating on playing FNAF [1 2 3 high lights] on my own, but i'm not sure who'd be down to see my face on youtube, terrified as all hell

for those who want to see the channel

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCf.....f28yaMzI1BMoyg

a lot of people aren't very active / left the site already--

plus most of my friends aren't even on the site.... meh.

i'm aware i'm not very good at art,

please don't rub it in because i know someone popular--

i just don't want to be treated like a ghost because i know someone who's well known.

i'm aware, my styles not interesting or have an interesting quirk in it

despite how many times i've practiced both anthros, humans, and animals in my sketchbook it's just not good enough.

because i started off with a generic cat/cheetah/leopard fursona thing, i don't really care about the design very much.... specially since i'm not a cat person to start with...

And I've been told that my fursona looks like another's fursona or looked like another's OC....

plus i like doges better cuz doges.

should i post a wip?

-cue crickets here because unknown-