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I have come to the conclusi[color=#ff0200]o[/color]n that I need to assess the people that I take as "friends[color=#ff0700]"[/color], to take a long hard look at this culture that I belong to...it may be that I have to walk away from the "furry fandom" or what you will to call it entirely and it saddens me to say some. I have met many people, some good but many that have abused my friendsh[color=#ff1d00]i[/color]p, compassi[color=#ff1e00]o[/color]n, trust, love, generosi[color=#ff2000]t[/color]y. Many that have been resentfu[color=#ff2200]l[/color], jealous, misguidi[color=#ff2400]n[/color]g or have had compleat and utter malaise toward me. I know that in many cultures and fandoms there are people like this, I also know the rumors and shit talk flows freely as if from some never ending spring. I am sad to say that I have seen this from a culture I love, one that I have made every attempt to protect, expand and grow. If need be, I will walk away from this culture, from here on forward I must figure out how to make this decision[color=#ff4900].[/color] I need to weed out people that cause me harm, that speak nothing but filth and nonsense from their lips, that wish to use me, that give false hopes and promises[color=#ff5600],[/color] that wish the redeem themselv[color=#ff5900]e[/color]s with hollow words for some unknown reason. I will be making decision[color=#ff5f00]s[/color], I will be eliminat[color=#ff6000]i[/color]ng so called "friends[color=#ff6200]"[/color] and I will be rewritin[color=#ff6400]g[/color] how I live, behave and who I associat[color=#ff6700]e[/color] with on my path. I will not tolerate others bring sufferin[color=#ff6c00]g[/color] to me and I will not tolerate me bringing sufferin[color=#ff7100]g[/color] to myself. With that being said I will not begin this overdue process. Thank you for taking the time to read this and if you wish to discuss it please feel free to contact me

Hey there guys, Since I moved and am working on getting things put back together to get everythi[color=#4677ff]n[/color]g ready for Blushy Bunny LLC. to hit the market I've had some trouble making rent and bills and the like. I'm really trying to keep myself afloat and pull through so I decided to do a donation raffle to help with bill, rent and the like

At the end of the raffle I will be tossing names into a hat to send out a very, very naughty care package from Blushy bunny for all the help. I will be picking 5-10 names out of a hat to send them some toys right from my company to them.

If your interest[color=#fa06fc]e[/color]d you can send a donation and leave a comment that it's sent in the comments page below. I will then add your name to the pool for the drawing.

I have some very fun things in mind for these prizes and I'm more then sure you'll love what you get. I look forward to hearing from you <3


Paypal - kotakitt[color=#d435e3]e[/color]h@yahoo.com

The cap off is 1000$ donation[color=#cf3ce0]s[/color] chances of winning go up the more you donate since it will cap off

**FOR THE ONE WHO DONATES THE MOST I WILL BE GIVING A SPECIAL GIFT CUSTOMIZ[color=#bd52d5]E[/color]D TO THEIR LIKING **

(( Business update )) So we're almost ready to launch. We have had hiccoughs with finance and a few of the trade companies that we use to back our endeavors. We remain steeled to press forward for lack of all the product we will carry. I'm waiting on an update from technical to see where things are.

As of yet we will be carrying about 85% of the product we intend to carry and more will be popping up in the weeks to come. We have also integrated a social aspect to the site with chat, user profiles, email systems and of course the ordering system. There will be a gift a friend option where you can send someone a gift in confidentiality of your personal information, good to make connections eh ♥

All in all when we go up, give it a look, create a user profile and perhaps mingle with other users and customers on the site. We look forward to seeing you there and helping to fulfill all your naughty needs ♥

So the final stages of Blushy Bunny LLC are coming to fruit. Office space being rented Monday, licenses are filed with the federal government, the state and the city. Business account open, wholesalers found and artisan contracts filed. Next we need to stock, finish the code on the rest of the site and open the all to delayed social media sites. Advertising campaign is set to launch shortly so keep your eyes peeled for Blushy Bunny LLC ad's. All and all it seems that we are pulling this project together rather nicely. If your in the Denver area feel free to stop by our office/warehouse for a visit ♥ ...Wish us luck on the final stretch of getting Blushy Bunny off the ground and be sure to check out our site in the future, mew..even buy something if ya wanna! Nya for nao~

Kota kit ~

Ok...Here we all go again!! Leelas meet, this Friday 03-22-13 at the same place and the same time. The meet will start at 9:00 and end, well...I guess when people start to drop.

For all you that don't know the meet is held at Leela Cafe in downtown Denver. Last meet we had about 50+ people there, an amazing turn out but I would love to rock the place. Feel free to invite all your friends and be sure to bring yourself of course ♥

Address: 820 15th St Denver, CO 80202 ((Leela Cafe))
Phone: 303-960-1760 ((Kota Kit))
Email: Kota.tiger[at]gmail.com

Some common sense rules that apply:

No drama or you will be asked to leave the meet
Please try to respect others and yourself ♥

Hey there, My bunny friend is doing a commission for me and really could use some more work. He's an amazing artist and really super cool and cute...(( A pink bunny wif a heart on his butt, how cute huh!))..Anyways the commissions are reasonable and he does good work.

Here's a link to his profile <3 : http://www.furaffinity.net/user/dekri/

Here's a few links to some of the art he has done. He seems to work with a few different styles. Check them out and tell me what you think.

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9456910/

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/10002667/

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9456862/

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9826276/

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9182997/

If you decide to grab a commission from him, be sure to tell him I sent you his way <3

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/...../#cid:31537690


Give this guy a look, he's pretty epic and seems to be really creative. Right now he's working on a new years resolution and he's replacing his habit with art, very creative if I do say so myself, and productive!

Well Check him out!

Ok, well I've heard it from person after person so lets get this thing going again and I hope to high heaven everyone can get together. Leelas meet this saturday, 01-19-13...Come, have a blast and meet your fellow furries. I'll be posting again when it comes closer to time. I hope to see you all there with civil tongues and open minds <3


What: Leelas meet
Where: 820 15th Street Denver, CO 80202
Time: 9:00 pm until you drop <3 <3
Date: 01-19-13

I'm looking forward to you all being there and reliving some decent memory's. I'm dropping this post in a few other places, tell and bring your friends <3 See you all there.

It seems, that as I progress my life seems to get better and better. Every time I've fell I've managed to pick myself up again, even if tears were streaming down my cheeks. I would get up, tell myself the pain won't last forever and move on. I feel that as I embark on a new path that things might be getting better, a new job, a new life and the prospect of someone wonderful that has been long needed. Support for me has not always been there, but when it has, it has meant alot. I dunno where my path is taking me right now, but for once in my life it seems right. I have the most amazing and loving owners, would never...EVER give them up for anything in the world...I know if I fall, they'll be there to help me get back up.... and ....Thank you...They have been there when I felt like I was the only person in the world that existed and now with these wonderful owners, this new and amazing job and the prospect of so much.

I just want to say I love you both, I'm so very thankful your in my life and I never, ever want to lose you.

Thank you....so very much for being there when I was so very much alone...thank you so much!


<3....Kota

I remember the ones I've lost and everything that it's cost
and trying to be sane though it all seems to be vain
I keep moving for not stopping to thinks sake and all though I seem composed its really all that I can take

Time slipping slowly by, our loved ones come and pass us by
I wish I had more to say, but some things never seem to stay
to keep it all in mind is something that I've never tried
for fear it'll all leak out, but faster I seem to doubt
that I have the composure for all of this closure and coming to terms with the things that I haven't accepted

Rested, is what I should be, to make it through this life of despair and hypocrisy but I doubt I'll ever get to see, what I need to make me who I need to be..So I live on, the memories flooding my mind, the whos and whats and the hows and the whys.

The trials, they will come and they will go, but something is telling me something I already know, that no matter how much I think and I doubt, that really no matter what you think theres no easy way out

So fighting is the only choice I have left, even if it means going on with out the ones floating in my head, I know I can be sick and tired, fed up with life, but going out is that option that only cowards will find

So rather then being that memory that makes my friends come to tears, I'll be something that the adverse will fear, the one that seems to make it, the one that seems to take it and the one that comes and makes life what I make it
To come to terms with what I've lost and all thats its cost, and to try to stay sane although the world is in disdain.

Finishes 10/30/12 @ 6:36 a.m. - For the loved ones that I've lost. I miss you ~Kota tiger

Throwing away, my heart, you put a knife against my throat,
So, the love, can spill out, against my will and you know.

Killing myself in the name of love tonight,
I'm trying to be, I'm trying to do,
I'm building the trust, trying to believe you!
No, no no no no, no.

You've been waiting this whole time for me
And I...
I'm too scared to breath,
Too, too scared to move.
I want you to see that my hearts still broken,
In your hands.
Oh I love you with all of my heart
Oh I love you with all of my heart
Oh I love you with all of my heart

But I just can't trust you, no!

Yes, just before you ask...that's me in a cage, sometimes a caged animal is better....it can hide you and it can save you and all the while you know that even though your seen, no one will bother.

To be honest, I'm jaded.....really, in a lot of ways very much jaded. I would not say that I'm broken but the idea fills me. It makes me wonder deeply about the influences of those around me and what they really want. My friend said I love so deep, that I have a big heart....he's seen it to know, but he said that he has never seen so much hate in anyone's eyes, so much hurt. Whats interesting is that no matter where I look I see people fighting for only what they want, nothing in that kind of thinking shows me that they care about the soul, emotions or feelings of another. People want someone to love them...to care for them...to fight for them. Everyone has their own ideas of what "they" want. I have only wanted to give. To pop open a bottle of wine, to cook for those that I care about, to give them what they need and make them feel at peace. I love the lowered lights and the connection between souls...it's funny that some people get pushed from that and it's more then confusing that some people push others from that. I hate that even though you try so hard you fall short, it's you that gets to deal with the pain...pain I hate.


You can forgive but never forget, what is true hate and all though you regret, the sullen promise that you made to yourself and others. Now you stand because that's who you are and through it all you may hide that you suffer, the longing hope and the distant promise that someday you'll be rewarded all for your honer. I'm telling you now as real as I am, its all a pack of lies and stubborn demands, that people really care and friends are true and in the end all you really have is you



I miss the part, when we were moving forward now..On our way down, but maybe someday, I'll be something more than love Just know I'll never tell....And when you're on your way down...through the clouds, and you're waiting for your body's re-entry again. We speak in different voices, When fighting with the ones we've loved. We speak in different voices, why can't we say what we're thinking of? I'm missing parts, now that you've told me everything..On our way down, and I was blessed and I've forgotten how to love

I traded me in, sold my soul, that's what you wanted, I gave you the wheel...I gave you control, that's what you wanted. What a letdown letting myself be somebody who can't even recognize me. Such a letdown letting it all break down. Hey I have given you the best of me, best of me, I ain't gonna let you take what's left of me, left of me. Said you wanted time, said you needed space...Well you got plenty of it, you went behind my back lied to my face

Memory's...that's what this is. I wonder about the future and the people that want me in their lives. I know here and now that I'm a decent person, I would never neglect anyone that I loved or cared about. People are so fucking full of themselves...they think that since they climbed the fucking mountain that they can't be knocked off. If you think you can debate this too, well I'm sorry to say that sooner or later, just like me, you'll get knocked off your mountain.

People that know you really care about them will neglect you, they will disregard that you exist until they see fit cause they think that no matter what, you'll still be there... then when your not they feel like they have the right to be angry....I REMEMBER THAT!!!!...

My word for the night:

You can forgive but never forget, what is true hate and all though you regret, the sullen promise that you made to yourself and others. Now you stand because that's who you are and through it all you may hide that you suffer, the longing hope and the distant promise that someday you'll be rewarded all for your honer. I'm telling you now as real as I am, its all a pack of lies and stubborn demands, that people really care and friends are true and in the end all you really have is you

Like a child you whisper softly to me, You're in control just like a child...Now I'm dancing, It's like a dream, no end and no beginning You're here with me, it's like a dream....Let the choir sing

I'm watching you all...With your beady lil eyes and your floppy heads, I know what your planning...We built a wall for your kind.....I'll be getting my maple syrup from Vermont from now on! :V

Drinking Mexican Coca-cola out of a glass bottle and living my life. With the luminescent glow from a drag of my cigarette another thought is illuminated. Past present and future mold together and combine as one, the neural pathways clear cut and decisive...Clear night air bold on my body and truth being just the same. I know my path currently, alas I may not always know it, chances are unlikely...but as I cherish this moment in time, I can live for now.

A guiding leash in the hand of master
To guide his pet back home
The strong yet loving hand of the master
To teach the pet right from wrong
and so the master is affectionate
and the pet guided true
The affection of the pet can never be subdued

Well here I am, been up again all night. Sometimes I wonder if I should take up drinking, I heard from someone that it helps. I don't even know how to express the thoughts that run through my mind at times and sometimes I wonder if it's intellect or madness that runs the course of my neural pathways. I sit and ponder the assumption of what is real and fathom if the same emotions that one feels in a situation is the same as another feels in the same situation. I wonder if with my eyes I see the same thing that another see's when looking at the same object, I wonder about color, taste, touch and most of all affection and love.

The paths I have chosen have not always been the clearest, often in times covered with thorns instead...I can't always see this starting out so I walk that road knowing once I start it will be almost impossible to turn back. I walk that road because I choose to and because at the end I have hopes of finding what is true and real at the end.

I see people come and go in my life, some that touch me in ways I can't imagine and in such short time as well. I wonder if by meeting these people it affirms my fate in truth or if my fate is guided by the course of action upon meeting these people, sometimes I would like to think both, and perhaps it is just that....a sullen, confused mixture of both.

I'm not sure of all the factors that play into this range or emotions that I feel. Some of it's loneliness, the kind that can't be supplemented alone by the presence of "friends"...I think it's deeper then that, it's a longing to understand and be understood....on the other hand I feel elated at the statute of my current freedom. I wish to find reason to what traverses my mind and alas I know that to find that is difficult to say the least.

Hey there guys, tigers out to rave the night away tonight with a couple of my fur friends. I'll be snapping pictures and video the whole night and when tiger gets back he'll be sure to post them <3 ... If there is anything anyone needs...Welllll...To bad <3...In box me sillehs and I'll get back to you

So I guess I'm going around and will be trying to find and up load some of my older art. It's been in a folder with me as I have crossed the country back and forth. I hope that it is in a condition that it will still look quite nice when I upload it. <3

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<3 LEELAS MEET <3
______________________________________________________________________________________________________
Here we all go again, we're talking about the Leelas meet, Denver's most central meet. Come down and meet local furs, exchange art and tell stories...who knows, perhaps you may meet that someone special. The meet is held at Leelas, one of Denvers more eclectic bar/coffee shops in the lower Denver area, with a punky atmosphere it's sure to liven things up.. hosted by Kota Tiger it's a meet for all kinds, and when he says all kinds, he means all kinds. The meet is hosted twice a month and goes on through out the night.
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· When: 07/03/2012 @ 9:00 P.m. and running all night

· Where:

The meet is held at Leelas European Cafe located at: 820 15th Street Denver, CO 80202, if you need directions or what not feel free to contact me or anyone that is working on the project with me. You can find contact information below.

· What to expect:

Friendly furs, odd people, conversation, art, a tad bit of drinking, wild experences and new friends.

· What to bring:
Art work, music, anything that you find interesting, FRIENDS, an open mind!

· Some common rules that apply:
1. As with any situation there should always be a few underlying rules in affect. Please respect the property, the host has an on going relationship with the management to hold the meet there in a constant fashion.
2. Please respect other furs, if there is something that you feel may violate them or make them feel uncomfortable then it's always better to ask.
3. Keep drama and crap talking out of the meet. If there is something that you don't like about someone, keep it to youselves or talk about it later, we're here to get along, not to start drama
4. Enjoy yourselves, it's a meet for yiffs sake...
______________________________________________________________________________________________________
Contact: Host- Kota Tiger
E-mail: kota.tiger[at]gmail.com
Phone: 1-303-564-9760
Facebook: www.Facebook.com/kotatiger
FA: Kotatehstripes

So I went out tonight to a Village Inn meet here in Denver and saw some old friends, it seems that since I left the meet that I created...((At one time one of the larger ones in Colorado)) died out after I left for my travels abroad. I talked to some furs and they said that they had tried to put it back together and never really got it to what it was when I left so I decided that I would attempt to put it back to what it was.

Below is the start of what it takes to get the thing going, along with that comes arranging rides for people that want to come, posting to many different venues that the meet is going on ((that's what all the information is below)), working out when the dates are and making sure that the meets don't coincide with others. Keeping drama out of them I have found has been a most difficult task at times but I'm willing to do it all again.

With all of this in mind I would hope that when I get it up and running again that the local furs will once again come and enjoy the interesting atmosphere that was once Kotas Leelas Meet in downtown Denver, Colorado.

I will keep people posted with updates and journals of activity's going on and perhaps special guest. I'm really planning some big meets this year and I'm hoping to pull it all together <3...we even have potential guest from N.M. planning on coming up and a few more well known guest as well. I'm very excited about these meets and hope that they will fruit into what I dream...Yay...


Kota~




______________________________________________________________________________________________________
<3 LEELAS MEET <3
______________________________________________________________________________________________________
Here we all go again, we're talking about the Leelas meet, Denver's most central meet. Come down and meet local furs, exchange art and tell stories...who knows, perhaps you may meet that someone special. The meet is held at Leelas, one of Denvers more eclectic bar/coffee shops in the lower Denver area, with a punky atmosphere it's sure to liven things up.. hosted by Kota Tiger it's a meet for all kinds, and when he says all kinds, he means all kinds. The meet is hosted twice a month and goes on through out the night.
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· When: TO BE DECIDED AFTER A CONSULTATION OF LOCAL FURS

· Where:

The meet is held at Leelas European Cafe located at: 820 15th Street Denver, CO 80202, if you need directions or what not feel free to contact me or anyone that is working on the project with me. You can find contact information below.

· What to expect:

Friendly furs, odd people, conversation, art, a tad bit of drinking, wild experences and new friends.

· What to bring:
Art work, music, anything that you find interesting, FRIENDS, an open mind!

· Some common rules that apply:
1. As with any situation there should always be a few underlying rules in affect. Please respect the property, the host has an on going relationship with the management to hold the meet there in a constant fashion.
2. Please respect other furs, if there is something that you feel may violate them or make them feel uncomfortable then it's always better to ask.
3. Keep drama and crap talking out of the meet. If there is something that you don't like about someone, keep it to youselves or talk about it later, we're here to get along, not to start drama
4. Enjoy yourselves, it's a meet for yiffs sake...
______________________________________________________________________________________________________
Contact: Host- Kota Tiger
E-mail: kota.tiger[at]gmail.com
Phone: 1-303-564-9760
Facebook: www.Facebook.com/kotatiger
FA: Kotatehstripes

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