Hello everyone, and anyone.

To give a quick reminder to myself, it has almost been a solid year since I have last done a public journal entry that isn't either a post on Twitter, or just me streaming. There is a lot to cover, so I am just going to get to it.

The new partner (boyfriend) that I once had broke up with me a few months later during 2020. This is after the fact that he played my stream for fools, making me think there were two different people interacting when it was him the entire time, and cheating on me while being in a poly relationship... Definitely one for the record books for me.

I had to take a long break from streaming which lead to a depression spiral because I wasn't making much money, or gaining any traction at the time. The burn out was hard. Luckily (just like my name sake), I had good people surrounding me, and keeping me in good spirits. I'm back to a schedule for streaming which is Friday-Tuesday. I'm still playing Monster Hunter, Warframe, and fighting games. I have even dipped my paws into First Person Shooters.

The biggest change in my life for the better is that the apartment crew that I live with agreed to take in a puppy. A Husky Labrador Retriever that goes by the name of Eros. Like all children, he can be a handful, but he is adapting well to the city life, and I believe that we have been doing well with his training. The best event to happen in my life since my cat Shadow was given to me.

Anyways, shameless plug for the stream. I am going to be streaming at 12:30pm EST. I am re doing my journey through the New World of Monster Hunter World with my main weapon, the Insect Glaive. https://www.twitch.tv/LuckyPandaBenji .... I am not sure if the link is going to work, but if not, just check out my main page. I hope to see you all there, but untill that time. You know the motto.

So before I go on stream, lets get an update out there.
1. I have reached affiliate on Twitch, so I got the subscribe button.
2. I have two Partners in my life, love them dearly, and I they do their best to support me with Streaming.
3. I am playing so many video games it is hard to just focus on one, especially with streaming.

It is in the title. I hope you all get what your heart desires.

From dealing with crazy rich individuals, to walking on eggshells with my roommate; I am just at an all time high of being done with everything, and I need to get a break. There is a saying however, which is "there is no rest for the wicked", and I still have things to do.

I need to sign up to get on E.I (Employment Insurance), to have better financial support. I can't just rely on my partner for it because it drives me nuts that I can't support him back, let alone support myself. I need to stream more often, and I am going to try out Plexstorm which I will find a what to link that in some way on this page.

One thing that is a tiny achievement is that I have my desk organized, and clean. It was almost getting to the point where I couldn't see my keyboard. Anyways, that is the update, and I will let you all know what will happen next.

From Testing my mic, to making sure that the game is properly centered; it has been a nightmare setting up for streaming. What's more, I find myself battling anxiety, and depression in my own home. They say doing the right thing isn't easy. After so much tonight, I am really tired.