Well as the last journal has told me i don't much have a following. So because i dislike having to maintain more than one page without benifit, this page will be placed in storage for now, and will pretty much never be looked at. I'll reactivate myself some later time, when I've gotten better.

(Hopefully I get better)

Anyways, can find me on the one page I'll still be active on here at Deviant Art.

http://foxofapathy.deviantart.com/


For the people who have watched me so far, thank you very much = 3 =

Well, I'll make this short.

I get 10 comments from people i know by July 6th to signify people still pay attention and want to view my art, or I do not, and drop this account until I'm 18 and can legally draw adult rated works without angering our dear Administrators of FA, so that i can appeal to a larger fanbase.

Okiloveyoubai D:


(and if the people happen to not notice, and you are still remotely interested in what i do, you can find me at http://foxofapathy.deviantart.com/ )

This is mostly so I don't have to check on here so often.

and for the record, I am age 16 and will be 18 on the date of 04/04/2011

Im sure that my existance here has been fading into the background with no comments or favs, or even submissions for a long period of time now. I spend almost all of my time either watching tv shows online and playing maple story, and everytime i attempt to put a stylus, or pencil to a blank page, everythign ive ever learned seems to just fade away, and everything i manage to painful etch from the flesh of my cranium seem to pale in comparasine to past works. I beleive i've ignored a fair share of you when you have attempted to converse with me, very sorry.

It seems if i want to continue drawing, i'll have to find a new method than my usual look at a reference and go, or start from scratch and build my way back up, maybe develope a style of my own instead of borrowing them from those around me. Writing doesnt get me very far either im afraid, seems a shame to simply stop a story with no end.

Anyways, for all of you who have been so carelessly ignored by me, i am deeply sorry

You just look at your work, and for a moment, your happy, it looks just fine ^^; then you go look at everyone elses work... ^^; and you suddenly fall apart, what is it that keeps you from being like them? and it seems like its either that they are way more experianced than you, or there are these small changes that seem so simple, yet, you can never do it yourself for some reason ^^; For example, when i look at my stuff, i think its, so-so and then i go to look at  YAD and i suddenly feel like im insignifigant, and he prroves that you dont have to be all neat to make wonderful pictures ^^; heck, half the stuff has random uncolored spots and scribbles X3 yet his work is so amazing compared to mine, and i dont know why i think this ^^;

It seems no matter how far you go, theres someone you think is better, and it just breaks my confidence to look at all these wonderful artists ^^; so much so, that im often repulsed by the simple thought of me trying to draw ^^; People tell me im doing real well, and that for my age, 14, im quite good ^^; and i know alot of these artists are older than me, and have probly had an art class or two, but i cant help but think im never going to get there ^^;

So overall, i adore all the artists i watch ^^; but i cant help but envy them, i want so badly to be good like them, i want to do what they do, what seems like, quite easily, at least, thats how they make it look. I know that i cant get better if i dont try, but its hard to try when you cant stand to see your own drawings half the time ^^;

Seeing as al is away for quite some time, i now find it hard to concentrate on much of anything in my free time.

I was wondering, if any of you had time, or just wanted, maybe OC with me?

If not.... im actualy willing to take requests if youd like, as normal, it doesnt nessacaraly mean ill feel up to it, but i can tell ya ill try, but dont expect masterpieces

If your interested, drop a comment ok?

You are The High Priestess
Science, Wisdom, Knowledge, Education.

The High Priestess is the card of knowledge, instinctual, supernatural, secret knowledge. She holds scrolls of arcane information that she might, or might not reveal to you. The moon crown on her head as well as the crescent by her foot indicates her willingness to illuminate what you otherwise might not see, reveal the secrets you need to know. The High Priestess is also associated with the moon however and can also indicate change or fluxuation, particularily when it comes to your moods.

You are The Lovers
Motive, power, and action, arising from Inspiration and Impulse.

The Lovers represents intuition and inspiration. Very often a choice needs to be made.

Originally, this card was called just LOVE. And that's actually more apt than "Lovers." Love follows in this sequence of growth and maturity. And, coming after the Emperor, who is about control, it is a radical change in perspective. LOVE is a force that makes you choose and decide for reasons you often can't understand; it makes you surrender control to a higher power. And that is what this card is all about. Finding something or someone who is so much a part of yourself, so perfectly attuned to you and you to them, that you cannot, dare not resist. This card indicates that the you have or will come across a person, career, challenge or thing that you will fall in love with. You will know instinctively that you must have this, even if it means diverging from your chosen path. No matter the difficulties, without it you will never be complete.

I was split between a few answer choices, so i went back and changed them to get the second result o . o

Hi, all you animal lovers. This is pretty simple...



Please tell ten friends to tell ten today! The Animal Rescue Site is having trouble getting enough people to click on it daily to meet their quota of getting free food donated every day to abused and neglected animals. It takes less than a minute (How about 20 seconds) to go to their site and click on the purple box 'fund food for animals' for free. This doesn't cost you a thing. Their corporate sponsors/advertisers use the number of daily visits to donate food to abandoned/neglected animals in exchange for advertising. Here's the web site! Pass it along to people you know.



http://www.theanimalrescuesite.com/

((Really, i tried it, completely painless ^^; ima try to click the big purple button everyday! and i would ask of you to please do so to ^^; ))

So i wasnt tagged, big deal, im doing it anyways X3

Valentine Times Meme:

Are you single or taken?
TAKEN

Chocolate or flowers?
Can i choose something else? Flowers die, and chocolate will make me fat X3

Will you do anything special for Valentines Day?
Every day is special when i gots al X3

Do you like anyone ?
You bet, My favorite kitty in the world, Alystair X3

Were you dating anyone last Valentines?
nope ^_^ I thought valentines was complete sentimental dribble before i actualy had someone intelligent X3

What would be your dream Valentines date?
CHINESE BUFFET!!!!! Then a nice night in a secluded room where nobody could here the screams X3

Do you make a big deal about Valentines?
Nope, pretty much never have, maybe this time ill make an effort

Have you ever had a secret admirer?
I used to think i had a whole bunch, now im just happy with the one he isnt a secret ^_^

Would you ever write someone a love letter?
why send a love letter when i can tell him i love him everyday ^^;

Do you believe in Cupid?
nope (shoots cupid)

Do your parents give you presents on Valentines?
Why on earth would they o_-;

Do you still send out Valentines cards?
nope

Do you like candy hearts?
to chalky

Is Valentines depressing?
Not so much depressing, though sometimes i get the feelings its another one of those marketing scams where the price of all things pink red, and chocolate increase so big companies can gorge themselves on the oodles of cash people are stupidly throwing at them

How do you feel about PDA? (Public Display of Affection)
Just dont stand in the middle of the hallway and im happy

How is your love life?
Very Still, as in, cant do a whole bunch at the moment X3 But very solid, very strong X3

Have you ever been dumped on Valentines?
Riiiiigggghhhtttt, like i ever had a boyfreind/girlfreind to be dumped by

How many roses would you want?
if they have thorns, none, if not, none

Will you have a boyfriend/girlfriend next Valentines?
I have a boyfreind for alllllllllllll the valentines ^^;

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Those of you who know me and my policies should know, i tag noone, because i doubt many of you would wish to waste your time, do it if you want

A little late to be making the announcement, but cause i generally have no clue what to draw, ive decided to create a webcomic, generally adult in nature, WILL NOT SHOW GENITALS OR BREASTS X3 Cause i have to keep it safe enough to place on Deviant art X3 but still heavy adult themes X3

I suppose i wont have to much going on at first, but ill get started when i have more characters finished

 Bo-Gilliam One of my many art gods X3 his birthday is today ^_^ i figure most if not all of you have seen his stuff X3 heck his drawing was one of the recent FA banners ^^;

Anyways, a very happy birthday to mr. Bo (i dunno if im supposed to call him Bo or Beai ^^; )

His art is to die for x3 go look ^^;

Well, i spent about 40 min making a personality quiz (dont ask me why) and if your bored, would you mind taking it and teeling me if you think it is at all accurate? thank you X3 http://www.youthink.com/quiz.asp?ac.....;quiz_id=67240

Welp, im glad to announce i have found a new way to do my adult without technically breaking any rulse ^_^ If you enjoyed my adult art, and wish to continue seing it as i make it, please watch my faithful mate  alystair-the-cat or just plain watch him cause hes good X3

My most recent pronz http://www.furaffinity.net/view/965919/

A very kind fellow on here had offered to send me some of my recently removed adult rated pictures X3 and though i did recieve what he had sent, it only restored to of my lost pictures, HOWEVER this random kind gesture made me want to talk about him anyways X3 thank you kindly to  fastturtle for trying to help me! and  HyperMushrambo who offered as well X3

MY GOD I LOVE HIM o O; He's so violent and fun to listen to X3 but, i do agree with most of his points, if you dont mind cussing, and you arnt easily offended, i insist you MUST go see his rants at http://www.ranting-gryphon.com/Rants.htm