hacking? oh well.. I'm still going to stay *shrug*

Well I forgot to say this a while back but my wolfdog puppy died

I never got to see it..
all the puppies in that litter died.. I think they were sick... maybe... (damnit just when I found a place that could neuter your dogs and cats for real cheap... except it's like 4 hours away ... ahahah... hah..)

Oh well.. off to the next pet.. anyone know of any good pets? I want one.. I haven't had a pet in a while.. i grew up with dogs my whole life.. I guess it's time to try something new

I want a pet rat but my mom hates rodents... (she made me throw my pet gerbil my dad gave me a few years back in the snow to be eaten by our cat)

but anyway..
it was hard enough to convince my mom to let me have a inside pet... MAYBE I will buy a rabbit...
I would have bought a rabbit in colorado but the landord with a stick up her ass wouldn't let me have one unless i had it outside in the freezing cold at all times.. so I didn't buy it


but the only downside is that I'm not in colorado anymore and so I can't catch a bus to the mall or pet store to get a bunny or some kind of pet and I have no idea where the hell the shelter is in this town (i would check there first) this town is so shitty.. no public transportation.. no pet stores in sight.. hmmm.. we don't even have a car..

what to do.. what to do.....

about the ban on porn (or what ever) in Tokyo?

in a way I'm kinda glad, mainly because,,,, i don't know how to say it

but anyway

I don't have anything against hentai or anything, who doesn't like porn amirite?

it's just that
the art.. and some of the stories.. if you want to make good hentai at least put a good story to it... and practice anatomy... holy fuck women don't have giant boobs that look like fucking balloons unless they have some majour implants or some shit.. so gross..
and sometimes they don't even pay attention and draw the boobs growing out of the neck or some bullshit like that

then when they draw sex positions it looks like their body got chopped up or something idk i can't describe it i think I have an example... here if you have pixiv it's yaoi tho : http://img26.pixiv.net/img/nikism/14245031_p1.gif I mean I love his art but it's like his body dissapears behind the leg and comes out on the otherside all strange like it went through a portal

but anyway

you get the point

i think the main reason they banned it because it's sad how grown men nevet get out to get some real pootang, instead they beat off to un-real alien-like women or what ever

so gross you get my point,, right? I mean I don't hate hentai or porn or what ever... but oh well

people are going tobreak that law, i don't know why people are going to cry about it..
just sell it in another city or some shit.. online? somethin'

not the end of the world... get over it, i'd say... and besides... I rather see anime without a lot of fanservice, and one with a good story and artwork.. i think those are the best animes.. and because hentai or ecchi stuff like this gets so much attention, mangaka who make manga such as this never get attention... I wish people would support artists like that... :C You can still like hentai.. but at least look for something diffent too i guess.. IDK i'm rambling

http://garchomps.tumblr.com/


am i cool yet?

WHAT THE FUCK is this abomination I just found on youtube

kill it


http://www.youtube.com/user/ruarido.....10/9qtRNlKxLKk

jesus christ

Mobile suit

i want these so bad you have no idea ;m;

http://www.hlj.com/product/BAN965297

http://www.hlj.com/product/BAN956877

especially this one oh *sob*

http://www.hlj.com/product/BAN962051


I'm not into collecting models, but I like have some kind of a obsession with sinanju

like almost as bad as my garchomp obsession :c it probably has something to do with it being my favorite color: red

so he's out oo the hospital!!!!

and he's back to his old self
a little grumpy because of the medicine, and he'll be in the bed for at least a week~

and his appetite is back ^p^

and his walking is good, though it uses a lot of energy

and once he's good enough to use a decent amount of energy my mother is gonna throw him a party of FOOD
as crab legs as the main dish

and my gift: scott pilgram
he loves that movie and doesn't hush about how that movie is 'his' movie haha so cute

My buddie rubby joined

if you don't mind helping her out with commissions, I'd appreciate it

also she's very talented and draws the cutest stuff ever ^p^

http://www.furaffinity.net/user/rubs/

check her out please!

So I just got back from spending the night with him in the hospital, he's doing so well!
He's now back on solid food, and his surgeon said he might be able to come home tomorrow or Tuesday ^^

I'm so excited
they might give him another blood transfusion because his hemoglobin was low because the blood they gave him wasn't as good as his own...

Yeah he's extremely fatigued, he only takes a few bites of food, then doesn't eat the rest, but he sure did eat that bacon pretty fast


he's digesting it well because he farted LOL ^p^ at least he's able to keep it down and all ;u;


so once he is out of the hospital, He'll be at his parent's house, he told me a week, but I'm sure his mother wants him there longer than that

I might be staying there with him on and off

He won't call any other place his home except my house hahaha

He's doing well, he hates his psychiatrist though, ff i wouldn't blame him, the guy seemed a bit coocoo



my bf is a lot less grouchy than before haha, so yeah

he's doing so well
they even got him up and walking, but it takes so much energy out of him

at first I thought I was gonna be getting a german sheperd puppy...

but it turns out I'll be getting a wolfdog, wolfsheperd idk
how strange

Oh well

all I have to do is draw the owner a picture for it

My bf is now out of ICU and is in a regular room where people can visit him all hours of the day until 8:00PM, he still has a guard on watch. My mom said something to me last night. I don't know if I really heard it or not... or if I was so sleepy and tired that I was just hearing stuff... But my mom said Nurse Joy will take are of him, don't worry. It was so weird...

But anyway...

I just got back from the hospital and he's doing very good. He's not in much pain anymore... at least it's not at a 6/10 or 9/10 like before. The only thing that pretty much hurts him a lot right now is his breathing and his left hand which is badly skinned from falling on the pavement from trying to run away from his attackers.

He's a little grouchy and sleepy. He looks so peaceful sleeping now. I'll be going back around dinner time. Dinner time, reminds me that he won't be able to eat anything for a while. He has a tube in his nose pumping this green stuff out of his stomach. Gross, but he's already skinny, I hope they will feed him soon.

They're also going to be pitting nicotine patches on him, because he smokes, and he has bronchitis and asthma.... and I hate he's smoking.. so I'm glad, he's going to be in the hospital for a few days this is a good chance to help him stop smoking.

I'll update again once I visit him tonight ^^
Thanks everyone for your support, I deeply appreciate it


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Once my uncle is done with his homicide case, I'll be calling him to see if he can poke his nose into my bf's case, because I want them to catch his attackers so bad. I hope they go to jail for a long, long time. I hope they never get out if they do. And law enforcement on my bf's side of the family are looking into this too. I don't like the police i talked to yesterday night... and i hope they bring more responsible people into the case. It makes me sick. I wanted to throw up the other night because I was so mad at how the people were treating me and my bf. You don't make assumptions because he was beat up on the street doesn't mean he was doing anything bad. He just wanted to come home.

I just got back from the hospital again and he's doing real fine

I am SOO so relieved
you have no idea

he was talking and he told us more detail about the people who jumped him

I know know they where 3 black guys... IDK it's so stupid! My bf is white, I'm black of course, there's probably a good chance I know the guys


I really hate this, why would they do something like this? Andrew's never did anything to him

it took a "I just want to go home" cry out of my bf to make them stop?

Why did they have to wait till he begged to stop beating him? They should have never followed him

You don't just go around beating up people who look weaker than you
you seem more like the weak person ganging up on him 3 to 1


I haven't had rest since yesterday this time, I am going to go to sleep, so I can see my bf early in the morning..


I wish I could spend all night with him there
but since I know he's ok, I can at least rest a little good tonight...

I probably won't be drawing much till my boyfriend is out of the hospital which will be about a week.

on his way here from the old apartments i have gotten kicked out of back in late July, my boyfriend was attacked by 3 guys. he managed to make it to my house a few blocks away, because "he wanted to see me so bad"
I guess his willpower to see me saved his life.


he had gotten beat so bad that his spleen was split and he has a few broken ribs

he has surgery to have his spleen removed. and at the moment he is sleeping.

I've there to visit him again tonight


I'll probably geek everyone updated on him

my tablet pen is about to snap with this giant crack in it... and it' been really hard drawing with it lately

i don't wanna spend 50 bucks on a single new pen

in december it will be one year since I have been using a tablet for the first time. I am thinking of upgrading, I have a wacom graphire4
I rather just buy a new one but i don't have a job orz


any suggestions on a good tablet??

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot.
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession.

Day one.
1. Grow up
2. We can still be friends. Sorry for treating you like crap, but I don't like it when you stalk me.
3. I hope to be friends with you, Rem
4. I hate you and all your being. Don't tell me to act like an adult if you don't treat me like one. I am not like all the "kids" you see around you, I am not into "the trend." So don't expect me to.
5. I love yoooooooou~
6. To my ex: Grow up, we can still be friends, our break-up wasn't the end of the fucking world. Let's hang out some time.
7. desu
8. I don't know why you decided to turn on me after years of friendship, all because of some retard and his political talk.
9. dhuv
10. do you hate me?

Day two.
1. I hate a hatred-type phobia of buttons, button-up shirts, buttons in general
2. I used to hate anime
3. I never met anyone of my biological family, ever.
4. I hate eating fried chicken and hotdogs
5. My fav food is oysters and eggs
6. I'm secretly am a mecha fan
7. I don't cry of death
8. It takes me a while to notice something
9. I wear glasses

Day three.
1. be smart
2. Be a nerd, like me
3. don't be afraid to tell me the truth
4. don't agree with me on EVERYTHING
5. respecting me and my personal space
6. don't have an ego
7. don't force things on me, especially religion
8. truly love me

Day four.
1. Is art really my profession
2. How good am I as an artist
3. Will I ever make it in collage as a astronomer
4. What do people think of me
5. What are my limits in art
6. Why do people hate me
7. Am I really a likable person

Day five.
1. Be a douche to a certain person, she knows who she is.
2. Went to Colorado
3. Never studied in high school
4. Befriend certain people
5. Not being a talkative person
6. idk

Day six.
1. My boyfriend
2. My Mother
3. My Father
4. My Grandma
5. ALL of my friends

Day seven.
1. Immaturity
2. Arrogance
3. Narcissism
4. Stalking

Day eight.
1. Intelligence
2. Kindness
3. Someone who isn't extremely judgmental

Day nine.
1. a happy face
2. a sad face

Day ten.
1. There's pretty much nothing I keep secret

Last time i made the journal i was asked to not use so much red and focus on drawing hands and feet

at the moment i am practicing drawing different facial structures ^p^ I noticed that too, when someone pointed it out to me



so it's been almost a year since my last critique journal


what should I improve on now?

on my quest to become a better artist, I always feel there are things missing in my work. Usually I can't figure them out by myself so I ask for a little help :3


























also lately I have been trying different coloring styles that best suit my style, if you haven't noticed LOL orz

plz join ^p^

http://ghostrevolution.com/oekaki/


porn is allowed
ALL styles welcome, the board already has varying styles and is not limited to anime style.
there is no time limit and you can post how much you want
if you want upload you can ask, and you shall have

also please do not harass other members on the oekaki if you do not like their work. It is an oekaki where people can enjoy drawing without harassment.





if too much porn is bothering you on the oekaki then I might have plans to make a separate oekaki for pron only ^^

I have a few friends who hate their artwork. A lot. Some even try to give up.

They may not have the best artwork in the world. No one does. Here are things they tell me.

"When ever I see my friend's artwork, it makes me depressed because I want to draw like them"

"I am not good enough"

"my parents hate my artwork, they make me feel bad about it"

"people say bad things about my artwork"

"no one likes my style"

There are so much more. Like them, I have extremely low confidence in my artwork. Although a lot of people tell me that my art is "professional" and "amazing" I still hate my artwork. This may come from the fact that I have low confidence in myself as well. I will never be good enough, but that doesn't stop be from trying.

Like my friends, I too was jealous of my friends who drew better than me. I felt depressed, thinking I will never be able to draw on their level, or be recognized for my work, like them. But later, I learned that you cannot become a good artist overnight. No one starts off as a perfect artist, and no one will ever be a perfect artist. There are some that are too cocky with their artwork for their own good, and some who have good talent with bad attitudes. I know a few friends who I lost to both having an extreme ego and having a troll-like personality. Only wishing to start a fight with someone.

I never been the type of person who likes to show off their artwork, I was always afraid people would hate it. That might explain to some people why I "don't have much views or attention" payed to my work. I don't think that now of course.

Instead of being jealous of my friends I turned that jealousy and depression into inspiration and motivation and to start becoming better. The better the artist the more I feel inspired to become "better" than them. Even close friends. I guess you can say you can say that your friends can also be your rivals when it comes to artwork. But being talented doesn't always make you a good artist. I've noticed the more I become better the more my imagination slips away, and the more I look for inspiration in other work instead of making up my own like I used to.

I had a friend who said her mother said she wouldn't make it in anything because she doesn't make good grades in school. Grades don't equal talent. You can be extremely ignorant and have perfect grades while a genius can also have bad grades. Same applies to artwork. You never know when the day will come when you might make money doing what you love to do, without a proper education in art.

It reminds me, I have a ton of friends who become depressed over harsh comments towards their work. In art, like many other things, there will always be something negative that will happen. There will not always be people who like your artwork. You should be well prepared for it. But you shouldn't let that one comment make you stop doing what you love to do. There are also people who send off harsh critique even though their intention is good. If anything, show them that you can become better. Some critique aren't easy to take. If someone says "the nose is too big, you draw too much of this and not enough of that, etc" Then make the effort into fixing the problem. The results may come out to be better than expected.

Another thing that bugs me is that most of these artists are 14-16-years-old. When I was that age my work is not on the level I see some of children I see today. I feel quite jealous at times. But it also makes me happy because most of them will be something later on in life. Becoming better takes time. Years. I first started drawing when I was 7-years-old and I still trying to become a "good" artist, even at the age of 22.

One of my art teachers told me that the process of making artwork is similar to The Ugly Duckling. The picture will start off ugly, but the end results will be something you will be proud of. The same is said in the process of becoming a better artist. No matter how many bad things come your way in the art world, it only happens to make you become a better artist. And you will always have friends and people who support your work.

so yeah... you should watch Gundam UC...


i just hate waiting almost a year for each episode

but it's worth the wait.. i'm dead serious

not only that the animation is fucking amazing and old-skool



and the unicorn Gundam sounds all magical and shit when it flies

my boyfriend just threw up all over the fucking place

jesus, he's not drinking again around me, and i'm not letting my brother give him anymore liquor

he messed up the new blacket my grandma gave me and almost ruined my tablet and keyboard...

1. I have a phobia of buttons... yes buttons.. not a fear phobia, more like an extreme hatred/disgust towards buttons

2. I was born a pre-mature baby.. at 7 months instead of nine lol

3. I used to hate anime. When I was about 7 I hated toonami and hated anime-styled cartoons, even Sailor Moon. I used to draw all my stuff in sonic-style, and western cartoon style. What got my into anime was Pokémon and Dragonball/Z
-Anime that inspired my style and characters THE MOST would be Princess Tutu, I used to copy everything from that anime from the eyes to the hair....

4. I used to be an assistant art teacher, and an art teacher at a Boys and Girls club. But I mostly taught color theory, and how color effects the emotions, sight, etc of people.

5. I never made any good grades in school.. at all... i wonder how i graduated..




anyway
ask me ANYTHING

I am going to make the giant pokemon drawing THIS HALLOWEEN WEEKEND.. 8:00PM to 12:00AM on Saturday and Sunday after I submit commissions.


Also there are tornadoes in my area lately, so depending on the weather as well.



also can you help me by sending me any pokemon reference you can find that is official?

What the hell is up with all these tornadoes in my town >:C