Hey,
I have not been on for a while cuz my Dad had been sick for a little bit and then he went to the hospital and they couldn't seem to help him. He passed away on Friday and I have not had the will or strength to draw at the moment I am feeling better and not crying as much. I will do what I need to but just bare with me for a min while I work out to accept the fact that my Dad is gone forever in my life it is hard but I will get through it and move and grow into something great, I do believe this

Color Sketch:
1. powhatan (paid) (done)
2. kulkun (paid) (done)
3. LDR (paid) (started)
4. bornvictim (paid)
5. bornvictim (paid)
6. Tomcio1992 (paid)
7. Digan (paid)
8.  Chubby-kun
9.  Chubby-kun
10.

There is music and such hope u can come and enjoy
http://www.livestream.com/mixcandy

I need to get my drawing mojo back, my brain is slowly remembering how I used to draw and getting my hand to follow with out stressing out would be nice, It sucks having been kind of dead for so long now I am scared sometimes to do what I used to, I am not sure why though but I hope it gets better,

I am currently looking for a job now that I have graduated school, but I have free time now to draw a lot and to do what I love so I can get back to how I used to draw with carefreeness and confidence Thank you for tholes who have commissioned me and hope more will to help me out.

Finishing up commissions hope u enjoy

http://www.livestream.com/mixcandy

http://www.livestream.com/mixcandy

Just finishing up commissions

Had to fix some kinks with the computer but all is well and now I can draw without interruption unless I have school things to do but
all is well and I can start drawing at home again and finish things up.

Alright, So I got my computer parts thanks to the arts I have done already and school, but they sent me a bad part so I would of had a new computer last weekend but I have to wait for then to get the bad part and then send a replacement. I say this b/c my old computer which I need right now is not letting me go on the internet, even though I am plugged into the wall. so I cant even get online or anything and I haven't been so friends house to get drawing done b/c I cant work there, but now I have to get there to work on the ones that have paid, b/c I thought I would of been set up sooner. The others that I have not done sketches for I want to wait until I have my own computer ready, which I hope will be in a couple of weeks if things are sent quickly, b/c it is a hassle to do it at my friends house right now.

thank you for your patience

Ok, I'm drawing really slow because...my friend complains all the time when I am drawing...like who says its ok for you to use my computer and then COMPLAINS all the time when I have to use it to draw work!? who does that!? We have gotten into so many arguments b/c of what I am drawing...its like thank you soo much for letting me use this but, I DON'T CARE WHAT YOU THINK, I just want to be left a lone to do what I need to do! I feel like I cant even come here to draw cuz they are like oh ur just here for my computer and not to see me...I just want to pull out my hair and throw things! I understand the computer is theirs and if they need the computer I cant be like nooo I'm using it; so I let them use it but I just sit there all like T_T I have drawings to do why would u pick now to do this!?

and then the stupid computer likes to forget it has the tablet driver and the tablet goes dead and I cant use it for a good hour or two when I do have alone time to draw. *sigh* So bc if this I tried to do a sketch at home thinking it wont look so bad, when I got to their house to see if anything is off...everything is off and I'm like noooo i cant even try at home cuz I'm tired of this. I hope today is better and I can put some things up tonight. I feel better now.

With those who wish help with my computer situation
Thank You!

Color Sketch:
1. jonfray (paid) (done)
2. shadowpelt (paid) (done)
3. xchiseaxmargaritax (paid) (done)
4. Digan (paid)
5. driftlock
6. driftlock
7.
8.
9.
10.

Ref Sheets:
1. protoman1989 (paid) (started)
2. protoman1989 (paid) (started)
3. protoman1989 (paid) (started)

http://www.livestream.com/mixcandy

IDK what works or not, there is sound I can speak but idk if u can hear music or anything, and i am just going to be sketching random characters if you have some u can send me links, i just want to see if this works

Alright so my computer finally died but it was just the graphics card and I found that out like some months later because I am not going to spend any money on it anymore. I was going to have a nice setup at a friends house but lost their internet. I just got a used graphics card that a friend sent me, which would work for now. but I still need a new computer so that I an livestream and do those great things but I have what I have and can use it for now.

On my health note I have a awesome doctor who figured out whats wrong with me, i have a growth in my brain but they said its nothing, but my other doc wants to see if it really is nothing, and then so yeah yeah I have pills and it helps me.

Alright, I have a crapy computer which I want to like do some commissions to get money for a new one, but if my computer decided so die while I'm drawing it pisses me off to the point of never wanting to draw again. It has been holding on strong for a while but I am scared it will never turn on again if I do too much...

I am not sure what to do atm, I only have one more commission to do and I think I won't take anymore after I finish that one, or just do b+w sketches b/c it is faster and won't ask too much of my computer...but I love to color so it will suck for me... I don't know what to do but yeah, trying to get ideas on what computer to build or buy also...if anyone has that knowledge let me know

https://join.me/893-916-123

I think this should be ok to do again, gonna try and finish this commission in good time

i hate this computer with a passion!!!!

https://join.me/507-671-226 I am finishing up le commission I want to see how this works and if it will slow things down for me, hope u enjoy the silence

You know that moment when the bf u want to be with forever breaks up with you, and then find someone else but thats not even good, but then you are stuck still in love with them and then when their relationship dies u try to be friends with him and its total fail. you may of found someone else you like but they might like someone else. and ur stuck...

Idk if you ever had that moment but I sure am...I wish I had someone round that I can bother, they wont judge me for how Ugly, or how messy I am, but would help me out be a friend and look cute for me when I need it...I dont want a relationship I just want a really close guy buddy, who would like to hang out and go places and have cool interest...but how come I cant find that where I live? I know I have great friends but they are all far away I cant hang out with them, I am uber quiet and I want to get out of my shell so I can be all I can be! why is that so much to ask for!?

I went to NY and I saw all the nice and nerdy couples and I wish I had something like that. I feel like nice guys love the girls that treat them like poop...well the ones I know anyway. It seems like if their life wont be exciting with out them so they stay in it. but I know this place is huge but I dont know if there is anyone in my area where I can meet someone from here who is cool...But I also get annoyed when I have to talk to people sometimes b/c I want my alone time so I am a ball of mess...who wants someone to join it sometimes

ugh idk if any of that made logic or what ever

I can take 10 people if anyone is interested, please send a note,

It sucks seeing all le people doing livestreams...I cant do them anymore cuz my puter cant handle it, but I think I can do the other one...join me it doent mess my com too much, I'll have to try it out again to see if it really does work fine

Hi, guys I am sorry that I have been away for so long but I hope to be getting back some what to drawing here and such,
I have been in school and had a job but not anymore they moved, but I have also been sick on and off and me being sick makes me not want to do anything at all but because its painful and makes me very anemic. But I have gotten some help and my doctor has given me new pills that I hope can help me get back my energy and will to do things again.

Also my computer has been; I guess breaking down one part at a time, but I have good friends who has random parts that I got to put in there now so I can get back to drawing for a little while. I haven't been seriously drawing for a long time, But I hope no ones hates me and I can just get back to drawing for you guys. Thank you for supporting me when you have, I have to start back school next month sometime but I do want to make sure I don't disrepair again for too long. If anyone hates me its ok I deserve it -_- but I hope not too many do.

I also want to know if I do owe people work, If I do please let me know in this journal.

So, I am sick again I have an infection and it is making me anemic and tired so its making my other ailment worse
but I will get what i need done in this month. I dont have much more so thats good but I think after I'm done with drawing for a while until I can fully take care of myself...I wish the doc told me about this earlier so I would not get this bad but yeah..

also I cant get back into Skype b/c i dont know the password so the ones who know my skype i wont be there until it out or make a new one

 Hime-Shoujo Is open for commissions, she is kind of new so give her a warm welcome. I know some of you may know her she is really nice and her prices are very good. so if you can this is her commission info: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/4326284/


(If you would like me to make a journal for you if you are in need just send me a note)

Almost done with the people who have paid just got a few more and have to edit some and I'll put up the wips for the ones who I have that did not pay and so plz look out for ur art or ill not you or something.

I will be adding the commissions I have, hopefully ill get them up by monday,

sorry for long wait, my comp is old and had issues along with sai acting up which people have seen happen, along with sickness, but I got a lot done some just need to be colored and such but just didn't upload them, but no matter what issues i may have you will always get your art.

So I had to take a brake on monday cuz I was soo tired felt like i had a hangover...which i never had before xp
so back to work today! I had some fun at the con saw a lot of furries which was cool
and mad some money not as much as I would of liked but its all good...and its uber hot