I have way too many watches on this and my other account, and I've been meaning to do this for a long time, anyway.

If you wish to keep following me, I'll be here:  monhareumbr

I'm going to work on getting everything put up over there over the next couple of days. I may or may not delete everything from these accounts. We'll see.

 monhare artemisexsalia

I was dreading the day I'd have to put a journal like this up. And, this close to Christmas.

But, I recently lost my job, and my car insurance is either due or overdue (I'm not sure yet). It's $127.45, and I currently have $5.82 in the bank. If anyone could possibly spare a little bit of change, at the very least it would keep my debts down if I *do* overdraw.

I don't expect anything, but my PayPal is atrus_ghen_2008@yahoo.com.

Seems I haven't posted much of anything in a long time, but I saw this and thought, "Why not? Not like it'll come true. >.>; "

Stolen from  deval.

Xmas Meme
STEP ONE
# Make a post to your journal. The post should contain your list of ten holiday wishes. The wishes can be anything at all, from simple and fandom-related ("I'd love a Snape/Hermione icon that's just for me") to medium ("I wish for _____ on DVD") to really big ("All I want for Christmas is a new car/computer/house/TV"). The important thing is to make sure these wishes are things you really, truly want.
# If you wish for real life things (not fics or icons), make sure you include some sort of contact info in your post, whether it's your address or just your email address where Santa (or one of his elves) can get in touch with you. Your home address is not required!
# Make sure you post some version of these guidelines in your journal, or link to this post (it'll be public) so that the holiday joy will spread.

STEP TWO
# Surf around your friends list (or friendsfriends, or just random journals) to see who has posted their list. And now, here's the important part...
# If you see a wish you can grant, and it's in your heart to do so, make someone's wish come true. Sometimes one person's trash is another's treasure, and if you have a leather jacket you don't want or a gift certificate you won't use - or even know where you could get someone's dream purebred Basset Hound for free - do it.
# You needn't spend money on these wishes unless you want to. The point isn't to put people out, it's to provide everyone a chance to be someone else's holiday elf - to spread the joy. Gifts can be made anonymously or not - it's your call. There are no guarantees with this project, and no strings attached. Just... wish, and it might come true. Give and you might receive. You'll have the joy of knowing you made someone's holiday special.

1) A giant LEGO set. Around or over 1,000 pieces. <3 LEGOs.
2) More furs to live near me.
3) A job, maybe just something to supplement my unemployment, or at least a little money to help me get by and maybe buy some presents for people.
4) A Dish Network DVR box that doesn't freeze up every hour.
5) Artwork of any of my characters, especially Artemis since I can never seem to find someone who draws him like I envision him. (Sorry, people, I appreciate the effort greatly.)
6) Writing inspiration and/or the ability to draw.

I can't think of anything else.

Also, a question for thought:

Schrödinger's Tree: If a tree falls in a forest and no one is around to observe it, does it fall in all possible directions at once?

1. Your Name:
2. Age:
3. Single or Taken:
4. Favorite Film:
5. Favorite Song or Album:
6. Favorite Band/Artist:
7. Dirty or Clean:
8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:
9. Do we know each other outside of FA?
10. What's your philosophy on life?
11. Is the bottle half-full or half-empty?
12. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?
13. What is your favorite memory of us?
14. What is your favorite guilty pleasure?
15. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you:
16. You can have three wishes (for yourself, so forget all the 'world peace etc' malarkey) - what are they?
17. Can we get together and make a cake?
18. Which country is your spiritual home?
19. What is your big weakness?
20. Do you think I'm a good person?
21. What was your best/favorite subject at school?
22. Describe your accent:
23. If you could change anything about me, would you?
24. What do you wear to sleep?
25. Trousers or skirts?
26. Cigarettes or alcohol?
27. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together?
28. Will you repost this so I can fill it out for you?

 kanakage34012 is taking commissions to make up for taxes that she owes.

She's a good friend and a good artist, and the prices are completely negotiable, ranging from $1 sketches to whatever price you can talk her down to on full colour. XP



~Monhare

EDIT: Nothing above PG-13, plzkthx.

...Find out what it means to me~

So yesterday at work I had a manager disrespect me, fairly subtly, but I pointed it out to him anyway. He told me that it's not disrespect, and he stuck with that even after I said it felt disrespectful to me. Finally he said he didn't need any attitude from me, so I apologized. Now, am I wrong in saying that what he did was the very *definition* of disrespect?

Anyway, this is no doubt a rant journal to let off some steam. However, I do have a point to make:

In my honest-to-God opinion, respect shouldn't have to be earned by anyone. In fact, and this is what I tend to practice, people should have to work to *lose* your respect of them. There are few people that I disrespect, no matter age, gender, or race, and even fewer that I disrespect as a first impression.

Journal over.

~Monhare

Satellite internet FTW!

And for those of you who hate on satellite internet, I'll tell you this:

IT'S DAMN WELL BETTER THAN DIAL-UP BITCHES!!!


That is all. =3

Tomorrow marks the last day of the first decade of the second millennium. The year 2009 has not been a happy one for several people. I know some families which have suffered more this year than I have ever seen in my entire life. There are various artists on here that I followed and watched their struggles of the year through their journals.

For myself, 2009 has been decent to me. It marks my first full year in the working world (albeit in a stressful workplace, at least I have income). One relationship started and ended for me, short but beautiful. And another relationship has begun and I fail to see an end to this one. It was my second year trying NaNoWriMo, and I manage to nearly triple last year's score (I still failed to win, but oh, well).

So, I hope you all have a Happy New Year's and here's to the promise that 2010 will be better than 2009. Much.

So I'm joining in on the whole Merry-Christmas-journal-on-Christmas-Eve thing. Why? Well, it's close enough to Christmas that no one really cares! =D

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

Tonight, I received a bitter Christmas gift for myself. I was cited for an improper turn and causing minor property damage to someone else's car. It wasn't too bad, except for the other driver's reaction to the accident. First thing out of my mouth when we stopped was a sincere apology. First thing I heard from the other people? "We just got this car!" They didn't even acknowledge my apology. =(

Luckily for me, one of the passengers in my car feels responsible for the accident and has offered, without accepting "No" for an answer, to pay. In my defense, I did try, once, to turn that down.

So, yeah. Merry Christmas, and let's all hope I'm not taken to court over this stupid incident.

So, a while ago, I posted an old adage. Which, I realized--rather pessimistically--describes my life pretty well.

"If it seems too good to be true, it probably is."

I also realized--not so pessimistically--that, I kind of live my life to some extent to that adage. However, I try to make it so, to other people, it may seem to good to be true, but it *is* true. I guess I don't get much of a chance to do this, and/or I don't do it every chance I get, but either way, I do try. It's just in my nature, I think.

Yeah, I'm going. Short notice, I only found out on Monday that I was going. However, I'll be making this 4+ hour drive alone. And that's one-way, so it's more of an 8-9+ hour drive. Same-day, most likely.

So, if anyone else is going, look for me. I'll be wearing all black (jeans, polo, and jacket), along with dogtags that have "Artemis X" and "Xumahare" on them (will have the former showing), and I'll be carrying either a large black-and-white laptop bag or a smaller bag made by the artist  inuki, if it shows up on time. (Though the latter might not be big enough to fit my portfolio-thingey... Hm...) Also, blonde hair pulled back into a ponytail, and glasses. If you still can't find me, well, then you're either not looking hard enough, or you're not in the right place. If it's the latter, then where the hell are you and why aren't you at MFF?

Not looking forward to the drive, though I do have some books-on-tape I can listen to on the way. =D

So, I was bored, and decided to Google my name: Monhare.

Turns out, it was the shortened version of some ancient mapmaker's last name. And some foreign word I can't figure out the origin, let alone meaning, of. Oh, and I found two sites that I've never visited, let alone logged on to, where someone was using that username. I do not have accounts on either Twitter.com or Atkins.com.

So, I guess I wasn't as original as I thought. Eh.

Last year, I decided to start a journey. Well, I didn't get very far. I lost interest.

However, this year, I decided that I would depart on a month-long journey. This journey is one of stress, of franticness, of love, loss, fear, hatred, magic, etc.. However, due to my location, this is a journey I have to make alone, despite the millions (or at least hundreds of thousands) making this journey with me.

Let me ask you: Have you ever done something that was so crazy that it didn't seem like a good idea even at the time, but you wanted to do it so badly that you went ahead and did it anyway? I'm doing that.

The journey? Writing 50k words in one month. Why alone? Because I know of no one else around here doing this.

You know what really sucks? Because quite a few of the people I know online nowadays I met through the forums on the above website, I'm now ignored by a number of them in favor of writing. Or, at least I feel that way.

Other updates:

For some reason I couldn't fall asleep last night very easily. I went to bed early, about 9. I stayed up reading for maybe 45 minutes, and then turned off the light, put down the book, and closed my eyes.

The last time I looked at the clock before succumbing to the comforting abyss of sleep was at midnight. And yes, I *am* sure I didn't keep waking up and looking at the clock, because I can tell when I sleep for a bit and wake back up. No, my mind just didn't stop last night, and listening to music didn't help, either, like it usually does.

Also: Fruits Basket FTW! Yuki is sooooo cute, I can't stand it! X3 And Kyo is in a pretty close second, but only because I'm a sucker for feminine blondes.

Decided to randomly clean out my shoutbox, only leaving little things like "Thanks for the watch" and, well, that's about it. Why? I dunno. Seemed a little cluttered to me. Besides, I like those comments.

"If it's too good to be true, then it probably is."

Yeah, thanks. Story of my life.

Player In Mighty Power Is Nice Guy. Yeah, I dunno. It works, kinda?

Anyway, on to the point of this journal.

 Ecco-Fox owns an RPing website, Point Zero. It's, so far, got only three role-plays on it, but at least one of those shows promise, Den of Deceit. If anyone is interested in role-playing, please check it out. We need more members!

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/987266/

Read this and vote, if you apply. [kinda wishes he did]

So it's like, 3:20 in the morning, I have to be to work at 7:30, and I haven't slept yet. There are a few reasons for this, and one's got me twitching and grinning like a complete idiot!

Minor reasons: I was in an AIM group chat with a few friends, and we were suddenly flooded with a whole bunch of new people claiming the chat room as their own. It's AIM, so all chatrooms are public. But we've been in this particular one all summer, and suddenly waves of seasoners come and take it over. I decided to stay and see how things played out. After some fighting, we finally came to the realization that yes, we all *could* get along. That whole thing lasted until about midnight. Oh, and it turns out, I was *still* the only guy in the whole group of literally 12. For a while, the 13th joiner was also a guy. But still.

Around about 1 o'clock, when we were all getting along great, I get a message from one of my friends inquiring about another friend of mine. As I said, I'm literally the only guy in this group.

Anyway, one thing led to another and, after a really long conversation in which neither of us wanted to ask the question, I finally asked this other friend if she wanted to be my girlfriend.

So now, I'm finishing up this journal at 4:50 (MeineLiebe keeps distracting me), I have to leave in less than two hours to get to work. I've never pulled an all-nighter with work in the morning, so I'm dreading the 1/2-hour drive back home. And the hour drive around at 6 just to pick up a friend, go back up there, and come back home at 1 o'clock in the morning.

Where'd all my time for sleep go?

TL;DR

1) Big fight in an AIM chatroom.
2) I managed to get a girlfriend.

In short:

I'm hitched! C=

...for making me feel like a complete idiot.

Out of everyone who has responded, FOUR of you already knew. And, apparently, I had myself worried for the past few days for nothing, because those of you who didn't know, didn't care. Well, 'care' isn't the right word here, but you know what I mean.

Also, I must thank you again for, as I put it in my last journal, not 'running my emotions through a blender'.

So now, I have a dilemma. What am I going to do with these two accounts? I never saw a point in someone having multiple accounts for multiple fursonas, or to put one type of thing in one and one in another, such as, in my case, put my stories on and my commissioned/requested/etc. pictures on .

I also don't want to give up one account or the other, as they both mean a lot to me. Any ideas?


Oh, and it's annoying because now I don't want to use my signatures (~Æ and ~Monhare) because I don't know which one to use, or if I should use one at all. So yeah.

I have a major confession to make to all of my watchers. One that leaves me vulnerable, that will give my emotions to my friends on here, and give them a choice of putting them through a blender, or handing them back to me intact.

 artemisexsalia and I are the same person.

This may not seem like such a big confession at first. But, to those of you who know both of "us", you've been led to believe that "we" are different people. Hell, I've gone so far as to talk to myself in comments in journals and things, and made two different PayPal accounts at one point.

I'm asking forgiveness for the lies and deceit. I'm asking that, even if you don't want anything to do with me after this, you let me down easily.

For those of you who are still curious, there is a story behind this... See, when I first became a furry, it was all in the closet. I had a name, "Monhare", but not a face to put it to, nothing to use it on. So, I created the online persona with that name. It started out as just that: one account that I lurked on. Then I started commenting on things, and slowly became friends with some people.

So I originally joined the site again as Artemis_Exsalia so I could post things like "Six-Tailed Story" again in a single format, and so "the person who wrote that story" could have a face and voice. I wanted to watch some people on that account, so I chose some I had become decent friends with on Monhare and watched them on Artemis_Exsalia.

I never meant to pimp myself, or use both accounts to get picture or things. Therefore, when Monhare entered  cecil-sayataki's contest, Artemis_Exsalia didn't. I'm not a selfish person and, in any other circumstance, I try to be as honest as possible.

In short, I'm sorry, and I hope you'll forgive me, or at least not run my emotions through a blender.

Corresponding journal can be found here: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/967233/

Tagged by

Rules:

1) Post these rules
2) Post 8 true things about yourself
3) At the end you must tag 8 people and post their icons
4) Go to their page and send them a message saying you tagged them
5) NO TAG-BACKS

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1) I'm bi.
2) I'm virgin.
3) I wish my fursona was real so I could snuggle into his soft fur and get huggled by his tails! ^_^;; ... ¬__¬;;
4) I wish other people's fursonas were real for the same reasons.
5) Fursuits and mascot uniforms creep the hell out of me. Big time.
6) I'm a furry only to the definition of #3 and #4, and the fact that I'm addicted to the porn.
7) My friend is sitting right next to me.
8) I run on dial-up.

TAGGED:

 cecil-sayataki
 kanakage34012
 thdragon
:insert your own icon here:

What? I don'thave 8 people to tag...

~Monhare

Well, I'm online, bored, and have nothing better to do. So, I'll jumping on a bandwagon probably long abandoned by now, but here it is:

If you have any questions (or comments) about myself or any of my characters (so far only Monhare, Jolana, and Alec are the only ones of any interest), feel free to ask. Just remember to specify who you're asking, as each will have different answers for you.

~Monhare

Yes, yes. Another meme, stolen from again, too.

.:FIRE:.

[ ] You have a short temper.
[ ] You often act on your emotions without thinking first.
[ ] You are very competitive.
[x] You like to play with fire.
[ ] You are not a strong swimmer or you can't swim at all.
[/] You prefer warm weather over cold weather.
[ ] You often lose control over yourself.
[x] You can be quite reckless.
[x] You sometimes hurt people without realizing it.
[x] People have often called you insane.
Total: 4.5


.:WATER:.

[x] You have a calm, laid-back personality.
[x] You like to go to the beach.
[ ] You rarely get angry. (I rarely show it)
[x] When you do get angry, you know how to control it.
[x] You think before you act.
[x] You are good at breaking up fights.
[x] You are a good swimmer.
[x] You like the rain.
[x] You can stay calm in stressful situations.
[x] You are very generous. (almost to a fault, actually)
Total: 9


.:EARTH:.

[/] You are physically strong.
[ ] You have a close connection with nature.
[/] You don't mind getting dirty.
[x] You form strong opinions on issues that concern you.
[ ] You could easily survive in the wild.
[/] You care about the environment. (I do, but not as much as I should)
[ ] You can easily focus on your work without getting distracted.
[ ] You rarely get depressed.
[ ] You aren't afraid of anything.
[ ] You prefer to have a strict set of rules.
Total: 2.5


.:AIR:.

[x] You have a free spirit.
[ ] You hate rules.
[ ] You prefer to be out in the open rather than in small, enclosed spaces.
[x] You hate to be restrained. (usually claustrophobic)
[ ] You are very independent and outgoing.
[/] You are quite intelligent. (I'm smart, not intelligent)
[ ] You tend to be impatient.
[x] You are easily distracted.
[x] You can sometimes be hyperactive and/or annoying.
[ ] You wish you could fly.
Total: 4.5


.: DARKNESS:.

[x] You spend most of your time alone.
[x] You prefer nighttime over daytime.
[x] You like creepy things.
[x] You like to play tricks on people.
[x] Black is your favorite color.
[x] You prefer the villains over the heroes in movies, TV shows, videogames, etc.
[x] You don't talk much.
[ ] You are atheist.
[x] You don't mind watching scary movies.
[ ] You love to break the rules.
Total: 8


.:LIGHT:.

[x] You are very polite. (most of the time)
[ ] You are spiritual.
[/] When someone is in trouble, you never hesitate to help them. (usually, but depends on the situation/type of trouble)
[ ] You believe everything you see or hear.
[x] You are afraid of the dark.
[ ] You hate violence.
[ ] You hope for world peace. (I lost hope for that looong ago)
[/] You are generally a happy person. (weelll...))
[x] Everyone loves to be around you. (so I'm told, at least)
[ ] You always follow the rules. (Psh. I like rules, but sometimes too much is too much)
Total: 4

Water followed closely by Darkness. Awesome.

~Monhare

Took this from

1) Who are you?
2) Are we friends?
3) When and how did we meet?
4) Would you kiss me?
5) Give me a nickname and explain why.
6) Describe me in 1 word.
7) What was your first impression of me?
8) Do you still think the same?
9) What reminds you of me?
10) If you could give me anything, what would it be?
11) How well do you know me?
12) Are you gonna put this in your journal and see what I say about you?
13) Would you meet up with me?

You are to answer these questions in your comment by the order of Black Shade.

~Monhare

Hey, I'm finally in the double-digits with watchers! Yay! Thanks to for being the tenth!

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Stolen from

1. How old will you be in five years?
23 or 24, depending.

2. Who did you spend at least two hours with today?
The people at work.

3. How tall are you?
5'4", I think

4. What's the last movie you saw?
"One Missed Call"

5. Do you prefer to call or text?
I don't like texting, so calling. I prefer face-to-face, either way.

6. What were you doing at 12am last night?
Sleeping

7. What time did you wake up today?
6:20 AM, an hour after I was supposed to. Blasted alarm clock...

8. What are you wearing right now?
Sweatpants

9. Where is your favorite place to be?
Hanging with friends.

10. Where is your least favorite place to be?
Work.

11. Where would you go if you could go anywhere?
Eh... Out of country. Never been, always wanted to.

12. Where do you think you'll be in 10 years?
A new place, possibly the same job.

13. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child?
Robbers, murderers, rapists... Still paranoid about the dark like that.

14. Do you have a laptop or desktop computer?
Laptop. Used to have a desktop, but gave it to my parents.

15. Do you sleep with or without clothes on?
With, usually.

16. What color are your sheets?
Blue.

17. How many pillows do you sleep with?
One.

18. What do you like about winter?
The long nights.

19. How many states/provinces have you lived in?
One. Probably will stay the same, too.

20. Do you prefer shoes, socks, or bare feet?
Shoes or socks in the winter, bare feet in the summer.

21. Are you a social person?
Pft, I wish.

22. What is your favorite restaurant?
Don't have one.

23. What is your favorite ice cream?
Cookie Dough. Mmm...

24. What is your favorite dessert?
Fruit.

25. Do you like coffee?
Yes, but I haven't had any in a long time.

26. What do you drink in the morning?
Soda or tea, depending on if I have time to brew.

27. Do you like to cuddle?
Who doesn't?

28. Do you have an addictive personality?
No idea.

29. What is your favorite board game?
Monopoly

30. Do you know anyone with the same birthday as you?
Yes, actually.

31. Do you want kids?
No, can't stand them.

32. Have you ever gotten stitches?
Once, but hopefully never again.

33. Do you prefer an ocean or a pool?
Pool, as I've never swam in an ocean and the salt just seems uncomfortable.

34. Do you know how to drive stick?
Kinda.

35. What is your favorite thing to spend money on?
Friends.

36. Do you wear any jewelry 24/7?
A watch, but not at night usually.

37. What is your favorite TV show?
NCIS at the moment.

38. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
Nope.

39. What is the main ring tone on your phone?
Vibrate.

40. Do you flirt a lot?
No, unlesss I'm with certain friends, then we flirt back and forth.

41. What is your usual bedtime?
Midnight.

42. What was the last book you read?
The Eragon/Eldest double-feature-thing. Just finishing it up now. (Yes, I do like those books and really want to read Brisingr.)

43. Who is in the picture frame closest to you?
Me. Senior picture.

44. What is the longest you have ever camped out in a tent?
A week. Almost every year for the past few years.

45. Who was the last person to do something extra special for you?
IRL? Can't think of anyone right now... Online? Well, requested a picture for me, which I thought was nice of him.

Other questions? Feel free to ask. Expect an answer tomorrow, I'm going to bed now.

~Monhare