die geben mir SO aufs maul
drückt die daumen für meine karre

will do something so groundbreaking fantastic which you can't comprehend and very often it is just a regular Tuesday with socks on to said person

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Because she always smells like her 😊

Ty atzi

this is wicked

very cool much dance much images and stickers

i love you dawg

girls swoon when i eat it with da spoon

Nix fühlt sich so geil an wie von 4ten in 5ten gang schalten, einfach bombe

I know this is more of a sound-bite type of metaphor but it is probably one of the dumbest myth perpetuated by people that date someone they can't really stand, idk im just angry about this line today. Yeah, magents maybe do but all these key-hole and plugs analogies for human relationship fall flat so fast.
"she listens to metal and and he's into hip hop haha xD" no, you both love music, maybe for different reasons but you do, maybe conervative men and their "doesn't speak about politics around him" wifes but you don't really see queer people date facists or strongly religious people hang around godless edgelords. Not too rarely, like shockingly so, relationships are driven by the mutual desire to not be alone or to perform the societal "you need to have a partner to be happy" and the opposites and differences in worldview, how you see each ohter and handle problems is usually the thing that drives you appart.

I saw this post that said "Be yourself so people that are looking for you can find you" and that is really flipping cool
The louder you are at being yourself, being funny, being into trains, being lowkey evil, being annoying, being into transformers, being polite, being naked while drinking coffee, being a Ultrakill yaoi Ao3 writer, being kinda scared, being nasty, being a little bit nonchalant and mysterious (as you always planned), the more likely it becomes that people will, as said, find you
It comes back to this "you receive the love you give" / "you get the energy you give into the world" - If you want to be loved, you have to give the love you want to the world. and the risk that come with it, and let me tell you, it is so worth it

a thousand scars are wroth that one time your heart gets to be held right

anyway, the world is out there, be part of it, it will suck with or without you anyways ´w ´

Meow (meow)

Mmmm yummy burgerrbbb
Rawrrrr

but I will be at Artist alley with most of my goods and honestly, after NFC artist alley, that shit is banger as hell, so much more swag, so much less weight on my ginormous ass
it's like open world FFA
if someone is looking for a fist fight in artist alley let me know
im 70kg pls

i hope they are

asphalt

(ambiguous title)
Me writing vent journals: Idk, dude it's just like idk man, like whatever

It kinda hit me with this queen talking about this "surveillance state, not just politically but socially and emotionally"
https://x.com/lettersfromjuno/statu.....43261207286046
While everything she says resonates so much truth, the idea of constantly being watched ... guys, have you heard about Christianity? Psalm 121:8 “The LORD keeps watch over you as you come and go, both now and forever." The sentiment is older than ... well, religion been around for a while as you might know, the shit my grandparents subject themselves to just at the THOUGHT of possibly going to this arbitrary torture chamber below the earth. It's, as she also mentioned, a societal problem of constantly being out for other peoples mistakes, covering your own insecurities and wrong doings by exposing others and so on and on and that is a WHOLE CAN OF WORMS on itself.
But that's not what I want to talk about specifically, it is more the framework of what I have beef with but ultimately have to accept in the space we are living and moving in:

The "when you show up, you are someones content" kinda vibe, the "you are the artist™", your artist persona always hovering behind you. Which of course also lead me to a heck-of-a-lot of pleasant experiences but im here to be slightly miffed today. Naturally, people have certain expectations around you based on what you do, what you post and what you say, Which isn't evil by any means, we all do, me, you, the guy with zero credits and the guy who is around since god knows how long. No one but you will ever know the full extend of your character because we have only so much time with each other while you spend 24/7 with yourself. No one will ever love you exactly how you want because that's your job

Something they don't really prepare you for when you go onto your artist-career journey is how you have to face this person while you are trying to express yourself, thought all the medias given, someone will come to you, look at you with this : DDD type face and expect you to "do your thing". you are not just hanging out with 2 or 3 friends in a stream, you are capable of ruining or improving someones day by say "hey cool art bro" so they can go to their discord server and say "yo holy shit this artist said im cool" - And that is not like my worst experience by any means, bitch I was 19 once too but MAN do I become aware of it sometimes. I'm really good at this thing I been doing for 17 years because it feels so natural to me to express myself via this hobby I choose and suddenly I have the authority, to someone, of some dude that makes 6 figures a year.
I'm not like super pressed in said position, I do get to use this platform to, hopefully, spread some epic win messages and thoughts that in my mind would fix the world one little insecure artist after another and I really believe in that! and I don't want to scare people into becoming mega conscious of how they talk to someone. (more info below on that)

This is the tangent part to this "perceiving things online" culture, so many people are so familiar with this "streamer" or "content creator language" and it sickens me to be talked at like such, it also internalizes for so many artists because it's somewhat the only thing you have as a reference for making stuff online. (starting to realizes im hating the industrialization of our hobby, AGAIN) Having people talk about you WHILE you are in the room with that is one of those details man ...

I wanna write much much more about this but im not really finding this specific thing making me upset or what the take-away socially critical point here is, yes, again, it's this "some people make me feel so aware of their perception of me" but "some people are bad" is like a low-hanging-fruit for take-havers on the internet. "make up a guy and hate him" boo-hoo

Damage control yet undeniable truth - it is just a nature of perceiving each other, interactions and how we experience one another. while it is impossible, literally, it would be nice if we all understood each other, learned everything equally at the same pace and gave each other grace or whatever but you just have to accept that is not gonna happen as part of being human. Putting yourself online makes you subject to this, everyone goes on the internet for different reasons, even among artists we all see each other for something else and are only exposed to via some images and posts (or the lack off). How we react to it, how we engage with it and what we want from it is unique to all of us and to survive in this world you have to give everyone the grace, especially within our community that we all try to have fun and a good time. You have to give love to receive love and you can do so while hating the living hell out of some dude hehe :)

Oh god no i did it, i did the big diary entry of "today I was perceived wrong and I wanted to die" showing signs of the entire issue mentioned above being internalized - self-awareness truly is a curse
thank you so much for coming to my journal to read what I think about, colorized and digitized for you to relate, hate, ovulate and participate!

this is a trailer

fuck you charlie

Like tomorrow

if you do this you agree that in the case of death it is fault

prisons should be empty

lets kisss kiss

I want love and bush

how do you know how high the legs go on that drawing, when do you choose to draw a sexy eye and a regualr eye, how do u choose for the background to be canvas white or grey, why do you give your dragon 2 horns instead of 4 ? why do you draw, like, at all?
and the awnser, same as yours and for many many people that do art; I just think it's cool like this - We make every single decision in art because we think it's cool or nice, what else is there?

How we end up thinking what is cool is shaped by our enviroment so, idk, maybe do cooler things ? kiss your homie or something ? eat more galic bread ? don't play video games after it's second sequel ? apologize to a woman ? don't watch true crimes ? whatever it takes

something shifted ... something mysterious is building up ... I feel the energy around me

you get to hold a really cool gun