I had nothing to do on this day the coldest day of the winter at -35C while also being sick. Decided to update things on here and F-list so have at it and see what ya did or didn't know about the Ness.

https://www.f-list.net/c/NervaTheNess

Aaaaa the feels for the wittle derg and the momma and pappa ;-; and the political strife an story! Everything else was cringy or battles were lack luster in animation budget. but at least it was not cringy to be cringy, but to actually emulate or convey that the kids on their journey were just kids, and for once that's something done right. Enough so that I could be invested in the myth and story that was unraveling. I won't give spoilers but damnit I has the sads now.

I want to get a vector silhouette much like this for Nerva. Details will be worked out but something splashy and colorful contrasted by the dark dragon shape.

https://www.deviantart.com/sambanek.....lack-337229861

So this is all just in concept and long road ahead before it comes into fruition but commitments and promises are made.

I am funding a developer to make a dragon equivalent of Mine Little Pony mod. A separate mod for a niche scalie community.

Why am I doing this? Because I and a old friend want to be in our skin when playing minecraft and knowing otherkin dragons, the more they are in their own scales the more comfortable they are.

Plus it's "Why isn't this a thing yet?"

So now I call upon all the scalies to help me with name suggestions. I won't be necessarily bond to using a name suggested here because crowds tend to make bad decisions but two heads are better than one.

I am also curious of the demand for this but even if there isn't any, this is for me and my friend to enjoy so it'll be made to the quality we wish for. But we'll make sure it's geared for community.

What should this mod be called?

Oh hoi there. didn't see y'all there. *wriggles about*

Been enduring a lonely spur as of late where I sudo tripped over my own words realizing that I expect myself to play solos because no one is interested in the same high octane or playful shenanigans as me. Everyone is either playing pve games or isn't interested in the PvP that I immerse myself in on a daily basis. As for RP or talking I find myself uninterested these days but that's par for the course as the seasons go by. I often can dictate the time of year when I will lurk day in and day out on multiple discord servers and not touch a game. The next, such as now, I will be almost completely distant unless I am lucky enough to have someone that joins me tearing through noobs in glorious battle.

I think I need to find myself a new set of people and enjoy the gritter more rough things in life. Get dirty with new horizons. Fuck the finer things.

I do know that latching onto one person is better than a communal setting so hopefully my search will end today when I post this. Because I will admit it's been over a year it feels I've been searching for someone to take me on a ride through adrenaline while being affectionate in that they aren't a prick and they can play along or stir up my playful aggressiveness I so love doing. When I think of a partner I think of someone that has charisma and can conversely engage me while I ree across the screen eliminating 1 to 2 teams at once. However I do expect you to keep up with me~



I have a feeling I will be sifting through Discord and online medium soon however. As I feel my search will only continue. An FYI, this is about my most depressing topic in my background or foreground. I ain't a sad puss but I do admittedly get a bit more down than I would like about playing solo. I've just been doing solos for thousands of hours and am loathing the loneliness. And that isn't an exaggeration as that is only staticial between League of Legends, PUBG, lil bit of Tarkov, Rust and now more recently Aex legends.. (4000 hours now that I look between these games, minium.)

EDIT: Fuck make that 5000+ with Tarkov being 1000+

I am going through a new change in my life in over 2 years. Gonna be moving in with a old friend as a roommate and I am finally building some excitement. I tend to have a mental state of present and not worry about future emotionally. Rationally tho I am focused on what's to come. So naturally I am dancing on my feet as I am more excited to adopt change and hopefully gain some daily vocal/social exercise and discipline for myself. Used to be so social and still am in heart but when you recluse as a bachelor for couple years with "yes" or and "sure thing" replies to your boss, ya lose some ability to recall things by name despite knowing exactly what you want to say and a confident conversing dragon is met with awkward gear grinding while hung up on a single word that is the key to the conversation at hand. Really don't like it when that happens and it's been more and more even on some of the simplest of things.

I hope to be the best I can while also being tolerant. Should be interesting.

I have a twitter now o,w,o never would of thought of doing it if it weren't for FA blue ball there.

https://twitter.com/Nerva21071413

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaa

I am upset, I had a brush with a person today who we will call IP for "Ignorant Prick". They have a history of being entitled and always being right when they are not. even by their own admission they did not know the whole story when jumping in the middle of my conversation between me and a person that did not ask for permission to touch me, let alone lick me, which I really do not like if I don't know them.

For bit of context, there is strong knowledge in the discord server I am in that I have personal space and it needs to be respected. IP though has repeatedly infringed on me when exercising my desire to not be lewded and to be strictly SFW in everything I do with any given stranger. Like as if I am not allowed to demand my own personal space.

I have a very strong fear of Minors due to my experience with police you see. I had received a email from a stranger who wanted me to write a story about sick scenarios that which I will not describe. The horrible man included attachments that were of child porn as "inspiration". To which I proceeded to call my local police department and spoke with the chief and had my email removed from me and threats of warrants if I did not comply. I get why he said such and I wouldn't of taken the experience as a bad one if it weren't for what happened when they finished the investigation and handed over the email back to me. When I was on the phone about how to hand over the email I had received, I was young and ignorant in the situation I was in, as well as so innocent to the fact I had no idea what to do or what *not* to say with this type of disgusting content in my possession. I made suggestions to forward the email, bad mistake as that's Distributing. I was hesitant on giving them my email in fear of them finding something like about my fetish with vore and be inducted into some sort of insane asylum or something. Everyone does something they are ignorant to being illegal. Hec there is one law in a state where if you run over a certain size of crab you can be put in jail. How do you know if you are safe in knowing you are a good citizen when there are so many laws? Common sense simply doesn't cover your ass and I firmly believe in the right to privacy because of this fact. Dig enough into someone and you can put a good man behind bars. Anyway I was drilled and given the one and only option to hand over my email because they need to "take it out of my possession", remember this because this is important. I complied and signed the document, carefully reading it and acknowledged they would try and bait the guy by impersonating me. Nothing about NDA. Some months pass and I get a call from the Chief and he tells me they closed the case as it went cold. They couldn't track the guy. The Chief told me that the password is the same as it was before and if I couldn't get into my email I was to reset it with my backup email. And if the email I had received was still in my inbox, to delete it myself. I would find that I would have to reset my email as you can't set a password on a gmail account with a previous password, has to be a new one. So I log in and lo and behold, I see that bloody email.

I learned swiftly that the police didn't do nothing of what they said they would, they didn't impersonate me, they didn't DELETE the email like they said they would, they didn't do anything except one thing, check me out. Once they knew I was clean that they were so negligent as to throw the very thing that was so drilled into my head to be removed from me, right back in my face. Those girls are still out there.

Every day I have to live with the fact that they have my number. All for doing the right thing and reporting to the police. It's been a few years past and I educated myself on this topic thoroughly since. I don't lewd anyone anymore or allow it to me unless I have confirmed without a doubt that they are 18 years of age.

IP has disregarded my intentions of self preservation as if unfair, or rude or unjust, I have no idea in honesty. I don't know why they do this or what they think they are doing, but on another day they have encouraged someone to harass me and invade my personal space and further deny me my own right to defend myself by saying "you let others say; lick you, you have to allow it for everyone." Are you serious?

Now IP jumps in half way in a conversation where I was, albeit more aggressive defensive, telling someone off for licking me. And they didn't know nothing other than that I was mad at the guy. Telling me to shut it and making my hypotheticals brushed off "this isn't IRL", and to then be so blind as to say that I wasn't licked when I was. They would then re-argue with me on almost a per level basis as I would tell them the context of the situation bit by bit as the conversation evolved till they had no more steam to run off of and then just starts consoling and telling the offender that they did nothing wrong. A mod had to step in and shut us both up. IP has no regard for what is happening as long as they have some line of fault they can follow and make me a villain for my desire to not be fucking licked. It's also so infuriating that someone can be so intelligent yet be so foolish as to not know the damage they are doing in public chat in front of everyone, and yet be so oblivious to the repetitive loophole they are blissfully unaware of maintaining when calling for a stop. Running your mouth and making me the villain to everyone's eyes is not going to be met with inaction. You too need to shut your own damn mouth too.

What's worse no one has the backbone to shut this person up or punish him. IP and I have a lengthy history and they are never punished because IP is in a relationship with one of the staff of the Discord server. and I have to deal with them every time on my own. Talking like a sly fox doesn't make you innocent of what you are doing IP. I have been punished by their significant other for things as little as misunderstandings and targeted for actions I would do that were then repeated by other party not 10 mins later and nothing was done!

That's my rant and what I have to currently deal with, love ya's for reading and hear me out <3 Wish I had more joyful things to talk about but that comes with experiences and I haven't been around nearly long enough to share such stories yet. I do know I will sooner or later though. See ya!~

May be just me bubbling on the morning drowsiness But I noticed a lack of Dragons in my circle of gaming. hoping ta find some dergs to gang up on these morsels >,~,> Tho a solitary derg as I might be, I may regret making this journal. I am greedy and enjoy the hoards of prey to myself~

I just got more of a spur of the moment commission finished and you can see it on right now as my Icon! ^,-,^ Yummy Feeesh. I don't normally see people posting their animated avatars, probably to avoid theft of their identities so I'ma keep the source high quality for myself.

Credit to the wonderful talents hands responsible for this belong to  rettriverr
Go give him a hug.

EDIT: Oh he posted it, guess it's out there, so I suppose I'll post the thumbnail -,w,-

Looking for an artist that'll do cheap, easy, cartoony discord emotes. I want derg nibbling ears emote!

Mmm I held off on a lot in order to get myself a solid foundation of what my Nerva will look like. Now I can look forward to future commissions and maybe do more than one at a time ^,-,^ But the biggest thing is now I can Roleplay as Nerva whom I've been excited to introduce to many of you on here and on the various Discord servers I've joined. Though the content of which is mostly focused on Vore, and I am sorry if you wanting to have some fun with Nerva comes as a disappointment hearing this now >~> I hope I'll be meeting new morsels people and critters along my journey to in this new world. Having been a pony so long in the MLP community has been a great adventure but it's time to move on!~ Don't be afraid to invite me to things if you so happen to have a lil place of your own side from my Discord server that I hope will grow so my storage is ready for long winters or on the whim buffets~ Hehe can't wait to see some new faces! Here or anywhere else, because I a Furry now!

Now if you join my server you will see it's rather empty but only because it's brand spanking new in regards to me thinking it's setup good enough and that I am ready personally. It's been a lil hobby project of mine and with my years of experience administrating on a old place called New Equestria, I hope I'll serve y'all well as I get something I get to care about <3 See yew soon!

The Dragoness's Gullet

- Nerva