It's no fun, it's like there is no light
Saying goodbye
It makes me cry in the middle of the night


Leaving FA

I guess I'm desperate enough to post a journal so I can talk to someone. So is anyone out there? Eh it's 8 am here.. Note me ore IM me somewhere... I really do feel very lonely

I wish I knew why I am so depressed as of lately... maybe I'll just be alone for the rest of my life. I feel I used up all my cards and that's it. Bridges have burned and I have nothing and no one locally to turn to. The only people I would trust with my life, are too far away.. The only people I would actually let hug me... too far away. This is just venting so dont worry. It's the last thing I need on my concience...

I'll just bottle this up and keep my mouth shut. So people won't worry.

it's gotten worse... no money.. I'm barely surviving as it is :(

I made a price list and I can only be contacted on DA...

Since I'm in a financial hole with no place else to turn to, I will post prices which all are flexable.
SKETCH
Starting price is 5 dollars. It's not much.

Examples: http://outcast71382.deviantart.com/.....a-WOW-89468361 , http://outcast71382.deviantart.com/.....agons-88045657 , and http://outcast71382.deviantart.com/.....r-you-74016228
INK
Starting price is 10 dollars. Price changes depending on detail.

Examples: http://outcast71382.deviantart.com/.....iggs-141688312 , http://odln.deviantart.com/art/New-.....tume-141607232 , and http://mysticblackryu.deviantart.co.....Kids-125855205

COLOR/COLORED PENCIL
Starting price is 20 dollars.

Examples: http://outcast71382.deviantart.com/.....-III-106385783 , http://outcast71382.deviantart.com/.....Nomad-89463071 , and http://odln.deviantart.com/art/Fexi.....tator-86548488

COLOR/PHOTOSHOP
Starting price is 25 dollars.
I'm willing to go lower depending on detail and style.

Examples: http://odln.deviantart.com/art/Odin.....seum-129085313 , http://odln.deviantart.com/art/Miss.....sent-129084946 , http://outcast71382.deviantart.com/.....lien-122457055 , and http://outcast71382.deviantart.com/.....dark-135788849

Note me if you are interested.


http://odln.deviantart.com/

Yup, 2 dollars isn't asking for much and you can clearly see how well I do my work.

... Hurtin' for the cash. Note me with details

Like the girls downtown, money first.

^_^ This will be open for the next 4 Hours



Closed for now. <3 Thankyou for the support!

So I just got back from class not too long ago, been home for about an hour and I just started vomiting uncontrollably like that kid on poltergeist ... it happens when I get to my stressed out limit. Kinda shaking and I've finally stopped sooooo that's really all I have to say for now... just for now.

Okay okay is isnt really a rant and I dont know where else to post this... just not on my DA...


I was in a relationship with a girl since February... I knew her for a year and well I wanted to risk having a long distance relationship with her... So about a month ago things got really bumpy, I wont share her and she wont chare me was the phrase we used... Okay lets face it I'm a jealous guy. After the crap I went through I expect to be the one fooled around on, hell the last girlfriend before her left me for a lesbian ...

taking a break *Takes deep breathes*

Anyways we ended up ruffling both of each other's feathers, Made up and lost contact.... and there I was, a mess walking around bugging people "Have you seen my girlfriend?" Then the next week she comes back from camp.... *sighs* I was happy to hear from her and we had this big happy conversation until things started to get tender.... *click* "We're sorry please hang up and try again" ..... fucking god dammit... there was no call back, no message about sorry we got disconnected....

It's been a month.. maybe alittle more.... I've moved on... cut the cord... so I didn't have to suffer anymore....

So she makes a journal for the first time today and no replies... no notes... just a "miss you" and that's it.... that's all... maybe I'm just fucked up in the head... murrrrr. I'm not looking for anyone's pity or asking for it. This is just me venting....

Thanks Taylor *hugs* Thanks Val *double hugs* for both supporting me when I needed it.

Right now I'm about to have another cry ... I kinda should kick myself for airing my personal garbage out in front of everyone.... I just need to vent

I feel like crap from my horrible job in fast food. Heavy lifting all day long and no break sooooo I'm gonna lay down and think about doing another $2 commission Night again... lemme know what you think, people.


~Joe

Yup, for the next 4 hours I'm doing 2 dollar quick sketches for character art!


Examples:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/2365387
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/2360244/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/2283283/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/2283191/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/2283172/

Note me for details! Like the girls downtown, money first.

[Relationship Status] taken
[Parents still together] No
[Siblings] Middle kid
[Pets] a cat who owns me

FAVORITES...
[Color] Blue
[Number] 13
[Animal] Skunk, Bull, Dog, Cat
[Book] Wizard of Oz
[Flowers] Blue Roses

DO YOU...
[Have Tattoos?] Yes, 7
[Cheat On Tests?] Yup, if its beneficial and I wont get caught
[Like Roller Coasters?] No I get sick
[Wish You Could Live Somewhere Else?] Yup
[Clean?] Yup
[Own A Cell Phone?] I wish I did

CURRENT...
[Hair] Brown
[Playing] Nothin
[RePlaying] Beauty and the Beast
[Believe There Is Life On Other Planets] Yup
[Hate Yourself?] sometimes, not now
[Collect Anything?] Books
[Like Your Handwriting?] Yup

LOVE...
[First Crush] same girl that took my virginity at 16, before that, people thought I was super gay
[You Believe In Love At First Sight?] Yeah
[You Believe In "The One"?] I hope so

ARE YOU...
[Sarcastic] I dunno
[Shy] Yup
[Talkative] I try to be

WOULD YOU RATHER…
[Pierce Your Nose Or Belly Button?] Nose
[Be Serious Or Funny] Funny

ABOUT YOU...
[What Time Is It?] 9:17
[Name] Joseph Kingdon Burwell III
WHAT DO YOU WANT…
[Where Do You Want To Live] Canada
[How Many Kids Do You Want] A ton o' kids
[What Kind Of Job Do You Want] One that pays a shitload of cash

HAVE YOU EVER...
[Gotten Sick] Yup
[Sang] It's against the lay that I don't.
[Felt Stupid] All the time
[Missed Someone] Yup
[Gotten Drunk] Yup
[Gotten High] Yup
[Danced Crazy] Yeah
[Gotten You Hair cut] Yup
[Watched cartoons] Fuckyeah
[Lied To Someone] Not lately

IN THE LAST FEW DAYS WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON THAT…
[Slept In Your Bed] I dont have a bed, I sleep on the floor.
[Saw A Movie With You] No one.

HAVE YOU EVER…
[Been To California] Nope
[Been To Europe] Nope
[Wished You Were The Opposite Sex] Just out of curiousity

HONESTLY…
1. [Honestly, what color is your underwear?] black silk
2. [Honestly, whats on your mind right now?] Headache
3. [Honestly, what are you doing right now?] This
4. [Honestly, do you think you are attractive?] Yes
5. [Honestly, have you done something bad today?] Nope
6. [Honestly, do you watch Disney Channel?] Fuck no, fuck that piece of shit hanna montana fucktard watching sorry excuse for a station.
7. [Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now?] People who get to hold the person they love, not just RP it on the internet.
8. [Honestly, what makes you happy most of the time?] talking to people
9. [Honestly, do you bite your nails?] yeah
10. [Honestly, what is your mood right now?] ow
11. [Honestly, who do you want to see at this very moment?] Yup
12.[Honestly, do you have a deep dark secret?] I have horrible penis envy... woops secrets out
13.[Honestly, do you hate someone right now?] no
14.[Honestly, are you satisfied with life?] not yet
15.[Honestly, do you like someone?] Yup
16.[Honestly, does anyone like you?] Yup

EVERYONE’S CONFESSIONS...
[x] I still watch cartoons on Saturdays
[ ] I eat Froot Loops.
[x] I go trick or treating. ((it's sad))
[ ] I’ve taken a bubble bath in the last month.
[ ] I have water balloon fights with my friends
[ ] I still believe in Santa
[ ] Mommy’s still the coolest person ever
[x] Sleep till noon.
[x] I still pass out little Valentines day cards on Valentines Day.
[ ] The boy/girl that sits next to me is cute.
[x] I still drink apple juice.
[ ] There are monsters under my bed.
[ ] I can’t sleep with the lights off.
[x] I can’t sleep with the lights on.
[ ] I still like piggy back rides.
[ ] Boys/girls still have cooties.

1.Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.

A description for the element "Alter Physical Structure: Ice"

2.Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you reach?

My soda

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?
Wall E.... I can't believe it made me cry

4. Without looking, guess what time it is:

5pm? wow way off

5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?

7:33

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?

The TV

7. When did you last step outside? What were you doing?

Going to school and turned back when it started raining

8. Before you started this survey,

I was scratching my butt

9. What are you wearing?

Black silk boxers

10. Did you dream last night?

Yeah, I was in the UK.... weird

11. When did you last laugh?

When I watched Wall E

12. What are on the walls of the room you are in?

Can't see, too dark

13. Seen anything weird lately?

Naw

14. What do you think of this quiz?

It's cool

15. What is the last film you saw?

Didn't I just say???? lol

16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?

Buy a gym and get ripped.... and make my penis bigger

17. Tell me something about you that I don't know about

Uuuuuuhm .... I'm horribly insecure with me?

18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
I want to rule the world

19. Do you like to dance?

Yes ^^

20. Barack Obama:

Who gives a shit?

21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?

Aeris

22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?

Nicholas Chopper

23. Would you ever consider living abroad?

on who?

24. What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?

"Wanna beer? I got porn in the back."

YES OR NO.

NO EXPLANATIONS UNLESS SOMEONE COMMENTS AND ASKS.

THESE ARE THE RULES.

Kissed any one of your Furaffinity friends? — Not in real life no
Been arrested? — Yup
Kissed someone you didn't like? — Yes
Slept in until 5 PM? — Yes
Fallen asleep at work/school? — Yes
Held a snake? — Yes
Ran a red light? — No
Been suspended from school? — Yes
Experienced love at first sight? — No
Totaled your car in an accident? —No
Been fired from a job? — Yes
Fired somebody? — Yes
Sung karaoke? — No
Pointed a gun at someone? — No
Did something you told yourself you wouldn't? — Yes
Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? — No
Caught a snowflake on your tongue? — Yes
Kissed in the rain? — No
Had a close brush with death (your own)? — Yes
Saw someone die? — Yes
Played Spin-the-Bottle? — No
Smoked a cigar? — Yup
Sat on a rooftop? — Yup
Smuggled something into another country? — No
Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes? — No
Broken a bone? — Nope
Skipped school? — Yeah
Eaten a bug? — Not on burpose (Yes)
Sleepwalked? — No
Walked on a moonlit beach? — No
Ridden a motorcycle? — Yes
Dumped someone? — Nope
Forgotten your anniversary? — Nope
Lied to avoid a ticket? — Yes
Ridden in a helicopter? — No
Shaved your head? — No
Blacked out from drinking? — No
Played a prank on someone? — Yes
Hit a home run? — No
Felt like killing someone? — No
Cross-dressed? — Yes but only for laughs
Been falling-down drunk? — Yes
Made your girlfriend/boyfriend cry? — Yes
Eaten snake? — No
Marched/Protested? — No
Had Mexican jumping beans for pets? — No
Puked on an amusement ride? — No
Seriously & intentionally boycotted something? — No
Knitted? — No
Been on TV? — Yes
Shot a gun? — Yes
Skinny-dipped? — Yes
Given someone stitches? — No
Eaten a whole habenero pepper? — Yes
Ridden a surfboard? — No
Drunk straight from a liquor bottle? — No
Had surgery? — Yes
Streaked? — No
Been taken by ambulance to a hospital? — Yes
Tripped on mushrooms? — No
Passed out when NOT drinking? — No
Peed on a bush? — Yes
Donated Blood? — Yes
Grabbed electric fence? — No
Eaten alligator meat? — No
Eaten cheesecake? — Yup
Killed an animal when not hunting? — Yes
Peed your pants in public? — Yes when I was five you bastards
Snuck into a movie without paying? — No
Written graffiti? — No
Still love someone you shouldn't? — No
Think about the future? — Yes
Been in handcuffs? — Yes
Believe in love? — Yes
Sleep on a certain side of the bed? — Nah

1. Is there anyone on your friends list you would ever consider having sex with?
Oh yeah

2. Sex in the morning, afternoon or night?
All the time

3. What side of the bed do you sleep on?
I'm always rolling around

4. Pork, beef, or chicken?
chicken :)

5. Have you ever had to pull over on the side of the road to puke?
Nope

6. Have you ever taken your clothes off for money?
.... only for art

7. Shower or bath?
Shower

8. Do you pee in the shower?
When I'm lazy

9. Mexican or Chinese?
Chinese

10. Do you want someone aggressive or passive in bed?
Aggressive, fuckyeah

11. Do you love someone on your friend list?
Yup

12. Do you know "all" the people on your friends list?
Nope

13. Love or money?
both dammit

14. Credit cards or cash?
Cash

15. Has there ever been anyone in your family you wish wasn't?
Yup

16. Would you rather go camping or to a 5 star hotel?
Hotel... >_>

17. What is the weirdest place you have had sex?
the lobby of a tattooshop

18. Would you shave your entire body (including your head) for money?
Yep

19. Have you ever been to a strip club?
Yup

20. Ever been to a bar?
Yup

21. Ever been kicked out of a bar or a club?
Nope.

22. Ever been so drunk you had to be carried out of somewhere?
Yeah :(

23. Kissed someone of the same sex?
Kiss or been kissed? Does being kissed count if you don't kiss back?

24. Favorite drink?
Water and Milk

25. Had sex in a movie theater?
No just jerked off

26. Had sex in a bathroom?
No but it sounds nice

27. Have you ever had sex at work?
Yes, against a window at work too

28. Have you ever been in an "adult" store?
yup

29. Bought something from an adult store?
Yup

30. Have you been caught having sex?
Plenty

31. Does anyone have naughty pics of you?
Yeah.

32. Who do you think has the guts to repost this?
No clue?

Basically you throw all the songs you have on your computer with titles that are sentences/words (such as desire or walking on sunshine) into your media player. Then using shuffle you take the first 10 that come up and add the phrase "in my pants" to the title. Any that make you really laugh you bold. Here is what I came up with.

1. Becoming the Bull "in my pants" - Atreyu
2. Land of Confusion "in my pants" - Genesis
3. My last serenade "in my pants" - Killswitch Engaged
4. Girls just wanna have fun "in my pants" - Cindi Lauper
5. Shine "in my pants" - Collective Soul
6. Crazy Bitch "in my pants" - Buck Cherry
7. I don't wanna stop "in my pants" - Ozzy
8. The way you make me feel "in my pants" - Michael Jackson
9. I was made for loving you "in my pants" - KISS
10. Play with me "in my pants" - Extreme

I'm new here.... anyone wanna share the love? Can't we all just get along?