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holy shit base pack add ons like crazy
Posted 5 years agohttps://www.furaffinity.net/view/36255337/ -- howdy folks, looks like duccidraws finished uploading the super awesome base pack I've been using for AAAAAGES as adoptable bases and everything so!
https://payhip.com/b/dvSm
https://payhip.com/b/MUbu
https://payhip.com/b/JfWA
https://payhip.com/b/P9G2
https://payhip.com/b/wALD
https://payhip.com/b/M7lj
https://payhip.com/b/XrIz
GO BUY THE BASE AND THE BASE PACKS. There's a masculine pack, big hairs, everything! DO THE THING.
https://payhip.com/b/dvSm
https://payhip.com/b/MUbu
https://payhip.com/b/JfWA
https://payhip.com/b/P9G2
https://payhip.com/b/wALD
https://payhip.com/b/M7lj
https://payhip.com/b/XrIz
GO BUY THE BASE AND THE BASE PACKS. There's a masculine pack, big hairs, everything! DO THE THING.
!! Picarto Watching Issues
Posted 5 years agoSo apparently Picarto's going down the shitter for watchers but !!!
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9484269/
This is one of the really cool workarounds that I've been made aware of! Please be sure you download this and use it for my streams as there's really weird issues for some users at times, but not all.
Also I don't see these issues mates. My stream was at 100% all day today with no issues on my end, so it's codec and picarto issues!
Maybe if it goes so well, I'll try twitch next time. Thanks again for stopping by folks all the same.
https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9484269/
This is one of the really cool workarounds that I've been made aware of! Please be sure you download this and use it for my streams as there's really weird issues for some users at times, but not all.
Also I don't see these issues mates. My stream was at 100% all day today with no issues on my end, so it's codec and picarto issues!
Maybe if it goes so well, I'll try twitch next time. Thanks again for stopping by folks all the same.
bases, add ons, and more! ♥
Posted 5 years agohttps://payhip.com/pancaked
ya'll know those amazing bases that artsuwu does for like, super cheap over at her patreon? well I make add on bases like crazy for them now because heck it's fun.
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/35728643/
for this set alone -
https://payhip.com/b/XjwY - premium base can be found ( https://payhip.com/b/1Ke4 )
https://payhip.com/b/eL5N - small standard
https://payhip.com/b/EdJM - small standard
https://payhip.com/b/cXwQ - small standard
https://payhip.com/b/DFnG - small standard
Keep an eye out in the next month and there should be a release for the bases I've been using for references and then you guys can get your hands on the packs there as well. I'll also be working on add ons for this month's base, too, and appreciate all your help you guys give me when it comes to this so I don't have to spam commissions and get burnt out suddenly.
ya'll know those amazing bases that artsuwu does for like, super cheap over at her patreon? well I make add on bases like crazy for them now because heck it's fun.
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/35728643/
for this set alone -
https://payhip.com/b/XjwY - premium base can be found ( https://payhip.com/b/1Ke4 )
https://payhip.com/b/eL5N - small standard
https://payhip.com/b/EdJM - small standard
https://payhip.com/b/cXwQ - small standard
https://payhip.com/b/DFnG - small standard
Keep an eye out in the next month and there should be a release for the bases I've been using for references and then you guys can get your hands on the packs there as well. I'll also be working on add ons for this month's base, too, and appreciate all your help you guys give me when it comes to this so I don't have to spam commissions and get burnt out suddenly.
stop logging me out.
Posted 5 years agoi was writing a journal and it logged me out. literally thirty seconds.
am i being hacked? is this because i hate the new website and stick with the classic? is it a chrome thing? what the actual fuck is going on that i can't stay logged in at all? fuck i have to use postybirb to do ANYTHING on this website.
am i being hacked? is this because i hate the new website and stick with the classic? is it a chrome thing? what the actual fuck is going on that i can't stay logged in at all? fuck i have to use postybirb to do ANYTHING on this website.
twitter - 5$ sketches
Posted 5 years agoall my good art sales, wip's, sketches, and basically unpolished works are posted on my twitter
https://twitter.com/hellostarrysky
today alone i posted like, 5+ sketches, and there are visible wips for folks waiting on art from me. surprisingly i'm chugging through a lot faster than i thought.
if you guys are interested in messy sketches, i'm offering 5$ sketches with like, bare minimum color
you can see my sketches examples in my media posts so yeye
https://twitter.com/hellostarrysky
today alone i posted like, 5+ sketches, and there are visible wips for folks waiting on art from me. surprisingly i'm chugging through a lot faster than i thought.
if you guys are interested in messy sketches, i'm offering 5$ sketches with like, bare minimum color
you can see my sketches examples in my media posts so yeye
bases now for sale -- check out payhip
Posted 5 years agoremember all my bases i used to have that i made like, literally years ago?
https://payhip.com/pancaked
i found them and here they are.
i'm going to be adding more obviously and using this site to sell bases from now on, but because the ones there are super old i'm leaving them at all below 10$.
if you guys want to use them, please let me know!! just @ me in them if you post them to dA so I can see, or if you post them here be sure you credit or even drop them here in this journal so folks can see and buy.
thank you guys for understanding my slowness as of late, i put these up so i didn't have to take more commissions for gas money, but also because i've been fighting a nasty flu and sinus infection - the doc had me drop about 100$ for the visit and i got some shots and stuff not fun at all. i barely dodged pneumonia so please guys if you feel even the littlest bit sick get to a doc asap or even a free clinic if you can't afford a normal visit.
but yes all adopt bases are pretty super cheap here and i appreciate any and all help from ya'll.
my ko-fi is still up and about, so if you'd like to throw some tips my way or whatever haaaaay i won't say no to it ;)
i'm going back to my nyquil nap now, thanks.minor emergency -- OOP NVM
Posted 5 years agoYA'LL ALL GO TO Kuzfo RIGHT NOW AND GIVE THEM THE BIGGEST FUCKING HUGGIES EVER. They were super generous and bought the tablet outright for me. You're all amazing and thank you for sharing.
so my tablet just gave out completely on me. it's not working at all, the connector for it is completely loose and there's nothing i can do to fix it.
i am currently owing up to 4 waist ups that i have to do but i can't because this tablet is the only way i could draw, i can't use my cintiq with my laptop because i have nowhere to use it safely without risking breaking the cheap ass cable connectors.
so i need to raise about 120$ (covers tax) for - https://www.amazon.com/Wacom-Intuos.....r=8-7&th=1 this particular tablet.
i can't use my PC and cintiq until i have everything moved out of my abuser's house, but getting help with that is pulling teeth and requires that i pay them money in order to do it because my family refuses to help blood relatives without sucking them dry when they're already at a low place.
i have - https://toyhou.se/starfreckles/char.....rs/folder:5916 characters for sale (some are trade only but you know i'm trying)
i can also offer up to -
4 waist up drawings flat colored (when the tablet arrives) - http://www.furaffinity.net/gallery/.....05/Clean-Lines
2 glam up designs on duccidraws bases (I have a million of them) - http://www.furaffinity.net/gallery/.....3496/Base-Work
-- this would include a full front view, half back view, 2 different hairstyles, a color pallet, and 2 outfits.
-- these would require visual outfit references, and not they will be small chibis and not super duper intricate details, so no super fancy armor.
i can't win. from being sick for weeks, from trying to take care of my grandmother, dealing with my abuser, dealing with my very angry and very emotionally not stable grandfather, and trying to save up for a move who's actual date keeps getting pushed further and further out of my grasp, i'm crumbling.
i try not to bitch too much here, i really do, and i really try not to beg here because it's so unprofessional but i have no where i can even attempt to try and talk to.
i'm even looking for an exact copy of my old tablet, a very very old one, at the cheapest price i can find it without getting screwed over since amazon protects me that much.
you're welcomed to donate via ko-fi - https://ko-fi.com/pancaked
if you purchase up to 21$ (7 ko-fi's) i will draw a waist up for you, just note me with a screenshot. don't leave anything in the note or whatever because ko-fi gets mad and i don't want to lose my ko-fi account. happy holidays
Posted 5 years agoi wish mine were.
stay safe, celebrate responsibly, and don't die.
bye.wishlist + more
Posted 5 years agomy wishlist is simple.
Donations through paypal - https://www.paypal.me/starfreckles toward my move.
If you want to go ahead and just drop stuff off at my ko-fi, feel free - https://ko-fi.com/pancaked
Donations over 20$ will receive a doodle, just note me your info.
I would love artwork of -
https://toyhou.se/starfreckles/char.....folder:1084469 these babies or
https://toyhou.se/starfreckles/char...../folder:377196 these babies or
https://toyhou.se/starfreckles/char...../folder:163059 these babies.
I'd prefer sfw artwork, and I won't be picky about doodles honestly. Any art would be lovely at all, and if there's any question about it just let me know.
I'm also selling / trading -
https://toyhou.se/starfreckles/char.....rs/folder:5916 these and I'm tired of people fuuuuhuuucking leaving me hanging for half a year. I'm done with that shit. If you don't want to do a thing, bloody well be honest?? :D DON'T OFFER ART IF YOU'RE NOT GOING TO DO IT.
just help.commissions opening: january - update
Posted 6 years agoyup, i'm reopening commissions come mid january, when my grandmother's better.
i went on vacation around the 13th, and on the 16th or so my grandmother fell and not only broke her t-bar from her last broken hip, but the thigh bone shattered not horizontally across, but vertically with at least a quarter of an inch gap between the bone.
i've been driving up to about 2-3 hours three times a week to go see her and come back home at the rehab center where she's getting PT after they replaced the t-bar and fixed her leg, but now comes the true hell of her going back to my abuser's house to stay for a while until she's able to move properly. my grandfather refuses to make the house more handicapable because he feels that she'll just keep asking for more and more changes and he can't afford it and... yeah so instead he's putting her in that hell house.
however comes another problem - fuck if i know how i'm going to pay for gas to go back and forth. i can't live there again, and i refuse to. i'm gone before my abuser even gets home and that's what was agreed upon, but it takes my entire day over there. i can see about bringing my dingy tablet and my laptop with me there to work on things like, sketches, then transfer them to my cintiq computer when i get home but it's just a huge hella fucking piece of crap that i'm exhausted with.
i need to raise money for groceries and gas. my granddad can only help so much and unlike the rest of the family i can't and refuse to come at him with open palms expecting him to just drop money on me, regardless if i'm live in care for my grandmother or not. apparently the insurance company or whatever won't let me actually apply as anything official, so i can't even hunt for work for the move next year.
i'm honestly terrified of opening commissions, because i struggled so hard in the past to get even 30$ for 13 hours of work. times are tough, it sucks but, here's to hoping maybe i can at least dredge up 1$ an hour or something.
i went on vacation around the 13th, and on the 16th or so my grandmother fell and not only broke her t-bar from her last broken hip, but the thigh bone shattered not horizontally across, but vertically with at least a quarter of an inch gap between the bone.
i've been driving up to about 2-3 hours three times a week to go see her and come back home at the rehab center where she's getting PT after they replaced the t-bar and fixed her leg, but now comes the true hell of her going back to my abuser's house to stay for a while until she's able to move properly. my grandfather refuses to make the house more handicapable because he feels that she'll just keep asking for more and more changes and he can't afford it and... yeah so instead he's putting her in that hell house.
however comes another problem - fuck if i know how i'm going to pay for gas to go back and forth. i can't live there again, and i refuse to. i'm gone before my abuser even gets home and that's what was agreed upon, but it takes my entire day over there. i can see about bringing my dingy tablet and my laptop with me there to work on things like, sketches, then transfer them to my cintiq computer when i get home but it's just a huge hella fucking piece of crap that i'm exhausted with.
i need to raise money for groceries and gas. my granddad can only help so much and unlike the rest of the family i can't and refuse to come at him with open palms expecting him to just drop money on me, regardless if i'm live in care for my grandmother or not. apparently the insurance company or whatever won't let me actually apply as anything official, so i can't even hunt for work for the move next year.
i'm honestly terrified of opening commissions, because i struggled so hard in the past to get even 30$ for 13 hours of work. times are tough, it sucks but, here's to hoping maybe i can at least dredge up 1$ an hour or something.
interest check
Posted 6 years agoanyone interested in me doing like, stream donation doodles? like i am trying to move here, and i need to make money and as much as it sucks for me to do, i can probably do commissions for it since i have no way of finding a job out here as of yet.
i know begging and asking for money from you guys is a shit move, and i don't want to do this stuff for free obviously. i feel bad accepting free money from anyone y'know? it's like, i might be disabled but i can still do something, i want to earn it y'know?
i have a huge goal to raise, and i mean a huge goal. it's a long drive and a lot of stuff to move and everything. i know it's going to be difficult and it's not going to go easily, so i just need help or just need to work for it so i can pay people to do it for me and have enough funds to last until i can find a job well enough to pay rent when i get there.
if there is actual interest, please please please actually comment and let me know. if i just get a 'yeah sure whatever' read over, i'm not gonna know you guys want work from me.
i'm working on old owed commissions, finally in a place where i CAN work again so it's been pretty crazy on my shit end. i owe like... i think a few small pieces and one semi-large digital piece, i have to check my to-do list again wherever i put it oops. i know what i owe in my head that has been paid for.
just please let me know. i'm desperate but i won't be doing things for like, 5$.
20$+ and i will half body color pieces for you guys.
50$+ and i'll do full body.
15$ and i'll do chibis. i need to practice drawing them though so i might start off at something cheap like 10$ ones for starter experiments to see what style i like most. i can't waste time drawing for myself.
i will be seeing over the week while i'm out of town to see what interest is, be practicing and stuff then, etc. so if you want something, please let me know.
hell if i could offer art slave i would, but i know that i'll be too busy with getting things ready to move and everything.update x 2: kicked out but..
Posted 6 years agoalso disowned and other horrible things.
abuser came to the house i'm at now, they're going to keep me until i can get out on my own.
abuser tried to tell me to come back when they realized i wasn't going to take it.
wrote an email to the abuser about how i've felt for a long time, painfully polite and coherent and nice. had several people read it first before i sent it to make sure i wasn't just being overly emotional.
got disowned and told my fibro and neuropathy and bulging discs and mental disorders from the years of abuse were invalid, that i needed to grow up and be an adult, and that i'm a burden, basically.
so moving out as fast as possible is now a go. and i am desperately trying to keep from doing something stupid from the emotional damage i just got slammed with from nowhere.
and now i am sure i am probably going to be kicked out of here, too, once the abuser calls and talks to my housing.
so i'm just screwed 10 ways to sunday no matter what.
i'm scared. i'm so fucking scared and i just want to breathe but i can't. i can't move. i can't breathe. i can't even see straight. update: kicked out of my home
Posted 6 years agohttps://twitter.com/hellostarrysky/status/1190046641870589953
gf.me/u/wc8k5g
UPDATE: my grandfather has told me i will not be able to move back here, and because of this i will have to move back in with my abuser. the gofundme is now going to have to be for me to move out of the state of tn and probably in with a close friend. i have no family that can take me in, and i am basically just in deep crap. i know that things will not change at my abuser's home, and i am worried i will end up hurting myself at this point from not only fear, but from the deep depression i have been put in thanks to all of the abuse i endure on a daily basis. if you can help, please do. if you can share, please do. every small part is helpful. if you want something from me in exchange for your help, i can't promise artwork, but i have characters you're more than welcomed to look through and purchase, but otherwise all i can offer is donations.
i beg of you not to share this on facebook. my abuser will try to have it shut down for defamation of character even if it's entirely true.
i was kicked out of my home yesterday, with only enough time to gather my laptop, a few pieces of clothing, and my purse. i am okay and at my grandparent's house, but i can't leave my things there due to the fact that it is highly possible that all of my items will be sold or hocked off by the abuser.
i need all the help i can get, either sharing on twitter, or sharing here on fA to anyone who could possibly help.
i know gofundme takes a percentage out of each donation, but it's literally my only chance at this point.
i'm in hell right now, panic attacks have subsided obviously, but i am in a really delicate situation.
yes, i have a trip planned with my friend, but she paid for it. she paid for it months ago even.
and i need that trip more than anything now that i have finally dealt with the last straw of abuse i am ever going to take.look at me begging again
Posted 6 years agowell, after 2 years being jobless, I'm finally down to the last 15$ in my account.
i don't know what i'm going to do for my trip next month. i've been desperately trying to save, but my mother has decided that i pay for groceries for her, for me, and all my own bills instead of helping me.
i'm in a tight spot.
https://ko-fi.com/pancaked
so here i am begging again to no avail. i've stretched out all my funds for as much as i can, and i've been trying to invest in a possible career as a nail tech or something, i'm just... desperate. no one's calling back for jobs that isn't retail, and now i'm just dying. i'm literally dying right now and it hurts. i know you guys are doing your best too, but if anyone can spare anything, feel free to toss me ko-fi's, or if you'd like to just go ahead and throw stuff straight to paypal
https://www.paypal.me/starfreckles- just send whatever you can as friends and family.
i want to draw, i'm... going to try and draw more. i want to start doing traditional work again or something, but i can never really gauge proper interest and i don't know how to ask people anymore. commissions are so hard for me to do due to the fact my hands hurt me so often so i can't promise anything same day.
but folks who offer more than 20$ will get something from me, just shoot me a note or something with your paypal name (not your address, just the name on the account so no important information can get compromised) and i will draw you something random for it depending how much is tossed. if i can even get my markers over here i'll try and do that, too.Posted using PostyBirb
welp
Posted 6 years agoincredibly short lived, but after having to be put effectively in a wheel chair after work today from sheer pain, i had to leave my job.
just fuck my life.i know this is a stretch
Posted 6 years agohttps://ko-fi.com/pancaked
anyone want to spare some change so i can eat today. i don't get paid for a bit, my mother is basically treating me like a leper over it and has already disowned me like 'you have a job now, even if i owe you 900$ anyway so i am not letting you touch anything you didn't pay for' so i have nothing i can eat right now except for a few bottled waters to last me until payday.
i don't know what i'm going to do at this point, i'm at my wit's end with this psycho woman who has already made me cry three times and i have the longest shift this week, my first night as a closer even. i'm already dreading it, SCARED because this job is way more than i can handle, but if i quit then i'm going to never hear the end of it, even if i end up in the hospital for it.
i'm dying. just. dying.
i just want to have something to eat other than ramen, i'm diabetic, i don't have medicine, i'm not supposed to be eating ramen at all. sighupdate: hi
Posted 6 years agoi got a job. and might even be able to get a better one, but right now i have one.
it's only 8.50 an hour, maybe 17-25 hours a week, and it's a lot LOT of manual laborbut it's something finally. just had the interview and got basically hired on same day.
i'm exhausted. but it's something, it's something. better than nothing.
might be in the running for an even better job too if things go well but like.
to all you guys who have kept up with my twitter and gave me all the well wishes, thank you so much.
i know it's been a rollercoaster with my moodswings and trying to get medicine to get better or at least try to mellow out, and i've appreciated any and all who listened to my ranting.
so thank you, especially those of you patiently waiting for either refunds or commissions from me.
i just want money so i can enjoy my one week vacay with kite~ i just miss her and miss being around people who genuinely like my company. and now that I have a job, i'm going to save up to see my boyfriend in arizona. i don't know if i'll get vacation time with this job, but i'm going to try and see if i can. i'm just - i don't even need paid vacation, just let me see my baby, i want to see him so badly ahaha. it feels like it's the first time anyone's ever genuinely loved me in my fucking life. it'samazing to feel that way.
anyway, enough gushing, just an update. i might even post more traditional stuff again because i'll be inspired to draw again. hopefully.rip me
Posted 6 years agoi've lost my will to keep trying or bothering.
i won't bother anyone anymore with my sadness and my depression.
i won't say or do anything so no one will ever be offended by me again.
i won't keep trying to keep any sort of presence anywhere where i'm not wanted.
i've been trying for a long time to do something, anything with my life, only to find out that my life itself is worthless.
i'm sorry for posting this.
i'm sure someone will get offended, but i know a lot of people will get a good laugh out of it. my pain has been the entertainment for several people for many years so here's to you.
at least i'm good for that.
i'm not going to kill myself or anything, sorry if you worried about that. just disconnecting entirely and ... i don't know yet. right now, i can't think straight, i'm stuck in a very dark place, and have been for several years.
talking doesn't help. nothing gets fixed by talking.
2000 job applications. 2000.
my family is more abusive than ever.
i'm completely alone and in a very dangerous place with nothing to catch me from falling.
so there it is.
i won't bother anyone anymore with my sadness and my depression.
i won't say or do anything so no one will ever be offended by me again.
i won't keep trying to keep any sort of presence anywhere where i'm not wanted.
i've been trying for a long time to do something, anything with my life, only to find out that my life itself is worthless.
i'm sorry for posting this.
i'm sure someone will get offended, but i know a lot of people will get a good laugh out of it. my pain has been the entertainment for several people for many years so here's to you.
at least i'm good for that.
i'm not going to kill myself or anything, sorry if you worried about that. just disconnecting entirely and ... i don't know yet. right now, i can't think straight, i'm stuck in a very dark place, and have been for several years.
talking doesn't help. nothing gets fixed by talking.
2000 job applications. 2000.
my family is more abusive than ever.
i'm completely alone and in a very dangerous place with nothing to catch me from falling.
so there it is.
i need help
Posted 6 years agoi don't know what to do anymore
my grandfather was in the hospital again for the fourth time this fucking year over the same fucking thing which is his bloodpressure and dehydration.
last month he had a stroke. a mini one, but a stroke all the same. doing the same shit he did today, so he ended up with 211 blood pressure over like, 100 pulse? he had to call an ambulance because my grandmother wasn't home and at my great aunt's aka her sister's and now it's like
my mother wants me to move back in with them. my grandmother wants me to move back in with them. my grandfather WAS okay until the ass licker uncle came in and decided to play devil's advocate since his son has been disowned by our family for his fucking stupidity, and convinced my grandfather not to let me move back in. that i wouldn't make a 'calm environment' to lower his blood pressure.
i'm fucking... this shit didn't even start until i left to move back here and take care of mom. i'm always taking care of my family, and my uncle is ashamed of it because he refuses to do anything for his parents. he refuses to help anyone but himself because he's a stupid selfish prick, and his son is just as bad but he has a criminal record now because he mouthed off to a cop while smoking while driving. he lies about everything. he's literally the bad seed, short of murder he's done just about everything you can think of. he steals, he lies, he does drugs (acid included), he's underaged but he drinks to the point he is an alcoholic already and i'm just
i'm so tired. i'm so lost and tired and i'm forced to live my life on fucking hold for this shit. i'm hurting so badly, i was trying to sleep but this happened and now i can't. i'm shaking. i'm scared. i'm fucking lonely as hell because no one in my family wants me anymore and i'm unsure what that means for me, what i need to be doing. i can't save to move out because i can't get a job anywhere. any art i purchase on here is basically single digit prices and that's it. i stopped buying characters, no one wants to buy the characters i sell, no one wanted my art because the economy is all low priced for anyone who isn't a big name popufur etc, and my mental state won't let me do commission work anymore anyway. it's ruined me, and makes me super anxious, super upset, and it's not worth what little money people give me.
i just need help, and anytime i try and ask for it, i'm ignored or lost in the sea of everyone else complaining. i'm made to feel invalid here, on any art site anyway because i don't want to draw a shit load of furry porn anymore. i'm tired of never drawing for myself, and now my head is to the point i can't. i feel horrible drawing for myself. like i'm a horrible person for not using the only fucking mediocre skill i have to my advantage but -- what sort of advantage is it to spend 4 hours on a piece and only make 10$ for it? i'm 32, i've been doing this for over 17 years. even before deviantart was around probably and i'm
i've had a panic attack already tonight. i've been treated like shit. i just wanted to spend a little time with my boyfriend, go to sleep, and try to enjoy a day off a little bit, but no. no i can't have that. i'm forced to be nothing more than a dogsitting burden by anyone, when i'm the only one who took care of anyone, even at my own health's expense and now...
i don't know what to do.
my grandfather was in the hospital again for the fourth time this fucking year over the same fucking thing which is his bloodpressure and dehydration.
last month he had a stroke. a mini one, but a stroke all the same. doing the same shit he did today, so he ended up with 211 blood pressure over like, 100 pulse? he had to call an ambulance because my grandmother wasn't home and at my great aunt's aka her sister's and now it's like
my mother wants me to move back in with them. my grandmother wants me to move back in with them. my grandfather WAS okay until the ass licker uncle came in and decided to play devil's advocate since his son has been disowned by our family for his fucking stupidity, and convinced my grandfather not to let me move back in. that i wouldn't make a 'calm environment' to lower his blood pressure.
i'm fucking... this shit didn't even start until i left to move back here and take care of mom. i'm always taking care of my family, and my uncle is ashamed of it because he refuses to do anything for his parents. he refuses to help anyone but himself because he's a stupid selfish prick, and his son is just as bad but he has a criminal record now because he mouthed off to a cop while smoking while driving. he lies about everything. he's literally the bad seed, short of murder he's done just about everything you can think of. he steals, he lies, he does drugs (acid included), he's underaged but he drinks to the point he is an alcoholic already and i'm just
i'm so tired. i'm so lost and tired and i'm forced to live my life on fucking hold for this shit. i'm hurting so badly, i was trying to sleep but this happened and now i can't. i'm shaking. i'm scared. i'm fucking lonely as hell because no one in my family wants me anymore and i'm unsure what that means for me, what i need to be doing. i can't save to move out because i can't get a job anywhere. any art i purchase on here is basically single digit prices and that's it. i stopped buying characters, no one wants to buy the characters i sell, no one wanted my art because the economy is all low priced for anyone who isn't a big name popufur etc, and my mental state won't let me do commission work anymore anyway. it's ruined me, and makes me super anxious, super upset, and it's not worth what little money people give me.
i just need help, and anytime i try and ask for it, i'm ignored or lost in the sea of everyone else complaining. i'm made to feel invalid here, on any art site anyway because i don't want to draw a shit load of furry porn anymore. i'm tired of never drawing for myself, and now my head is to the point i can't. i feel horrible drawing for myself. like i'm a horrible person for not using the only fucking mediocre skill i have to my advantage but -- what sort of advantage is it to spend 4 hours on a piece and only make 10$ for it? i'm 32, i've been doing this for over 17 years. even before deviantart was around probably and i'm
i've had a panic attack already tonight. i've been treated like shit. i just wanted to spend a little time with my boyfriend, go to sleep, and try to enjoy a day off a little bit, but no. no i can't have that. i'm forced to be nothing more than a dogsitting burden by anyone, when i'm the only one who took care of anyone, even at my own health's expense and now...
i don't know what to do.
casual reminder
Posted 6 years agothis is where to find me babes.
🍑 Deviantart - active
🍑 Weasyl - inactive
🍑 Inkbunny - inactive
🍑 Twitter - active
🍑 Tumblr - inactive
🍑 Instagram - active
🍑 Ko-fi - always active
🍑 Toyhou.se Trades - always active
seeing as stuff keeps happening everywhere, if you want to contact me for any reason, or maybe even ask if I might do a commission or two, please contact me via whichever site of your choice. I'm almost always active on the sites listed as such, otherwise all I do for the other sites is use postybirb to post to them so no one else does for me. :D
🍑 Deviantart - active
🍑 Weasyl - inactive
🍑 Inkbunny - inactive
🍑 Twitter - active
🍑 Tumblr - inactive
🍑 Instagram - active
🍑 Ko-fi - always active
🍑 Toyhou.se Trades - always active
seeing as stuff keeps happening everywhere, if you want to contact me for any reason, or maybe even ask if I might do a commission or two, please contact me via whichever site of your choice. I'm almost always active on the sites listed as such, otherwise all I do for the other sites is use postybirb to post to them so no one else does for me. :D
Characters for Trade or Art
Posted 6 years agoThe Folder
This is the folder for all the adopts you can offer art for. Note, I am still very picky about what kind of art I want for these adoptables and I ask that no one get offended if I say I'm not interested. Do not offer me a bust for a full body character, do not offer me a chibi for a character with 4+ pieces of art. Just because I can only sell something for X amount doesn't mean that one piece of art will pay for something with 30 pieces of art attached. If you wouldn't accept that offer in return, don't offer it to me, please.
Update: As of 7/12 I have added several new characters to the art folder. Just please help me trim down my characters folks I mean it. ;; I'll trade multiples for art I love, especially from the folks I follow or if we're mutuals.
Update 2.0: Returned a good chunk of adoptables into the art folder as art offers keep falling through. From now on, don't offer if you're not going to follow through in the end, please. It's really annoying.
I have a ton of adopts for trade, including CS, popufur, etc for swaps or sale, as well here.
There's Cinnadogs, Blobunnies, trancelings, furry, feral, humanoid, etc. Just - just help.
There are a few for swap only, including an official Sushidog, a Kamishiba, and a Yevren.
Ranging from Poofylion, witchpaws, vanillatoxin, LucciolaCrown, kodirge, and more.
What to Offer for Art Folder:
Art (Must be equal to what you're asking for, please be sensible about this)
What To Offer for Other Folders:
USD > HQ/High Quality Adoptables > Art
For Customs I would like :
Humans / Kenomimi High Quality
This means adoptables that are clean, detailed, and interesting / not just boring scene kids
I like galaxy themes, ocean themes, sky themes, and if you check my toyhouse (Especially the primary folders), certain aesthetics.
For established design Trades:
Designs by LucciolaCrown, Poofylion, Swamplily, Citykings, or things that just, y'know, aren't feral. I don't want feral designs and I am only looking for ANTHRO or HUMAN/HUMANOID designs.
What Not to Offer:
Traditional Work (Unless you can ship it) > Points > MYO Slots (I suck at designing okay) > Lowball Offers > Waitress Base
Ferals unless by favorite artists.
Art for adoptables not in the art adopt folder. Seriously I specifically separated them for you, there's no real excuse for that.
You are allowed 2-3 weeks to finish art trades for the adoptables, and if you do not complete you will not be humored for offers later (Unless given good reason like death in the family, severe illness, hospitalization, you know, etc. Simply 'I didn't feel like it' is unacceptable and your rights for claim on that adopt will be revoked). must be comfortable with:
- chubby characters (and by chubby i mean fat, don't play me)
- humans and anthros (ferals will get anthro versions at some point, but I'm not looking for feral art)
- fan characters (solo of course but heck maybe coupled with an anime boo heck I dunno)
- female characters (I feel this should be obvious but dang)
- sketches or lineart only acceptable (if you don't mind me coloring it myself, all credits linked back to your art pages) however, I will accept flat colored pieces or non burn-tool abused pieces.
must provide upon offering:
- link to working gallery (deviantart, furaffinity, whatever.)
- which adoptables you would like
- what you would like to offer based on prices listed (if listed)
- traditional or digital work? (traditional is least likely to be accepted as I would want a hard copy and shipping is a bech)
heck it.
Posted 6 years agoah heck it.
Peche
I joined dream -- I made sure I got put on dream because MOST of my followed artists are, in fact, nightmare.
Note I'm going to work on colored sketches only for these things, and I have no feral characters to be drawn so -- yeah.personal thoughts -- no drama please
Posted 6 years agobetcha thought i was going to comment about current events, huh? nah, this is my own personal bullshit i've been fighting for a long time.
i think the hardest part about being an artist is how hard you tried to keep friendships alive that weren't friendships, but people just using you to feel better about themselves, to use you to get free art or free publicity when they were struggling, that sort of thing. it's hard for artists to find friends, and it's a big reason why i haven't really been openly friendly to folks anywhere, not even here, unless i know i can trust them.
i've been hurt by a lot of people, so it's always hard when i'm on art sites and i see them either spamming their art, or other people spamming their drama or anything, it's like... not a trigger because they don't affect me to the point of going into a panic attack, it just makes me sad. i remember the person i thought they were, and then realize it was just a manifestation, my imagination, instead of the reality.
it just goes to show, anyone can be a dick, and i look back to all the art of characters i have, especially ones i paired off with them, and see their character in it, and it makes me sick. especially with how much of it there is for certain characters. like, hours upon hours of time, wasted, drawing things for them instead of making myself happy. or the fact i had to draw in my own character so i felt that i wasn't just, y'know, wasting time. it's why i love pairing characters but lately i've been like... terrified. so terrified to do anything it's insane i know, right?
i can't even draw for myself anymore without feeling like i'm breaking some cardinal rule. the guilt is so heavy on me, even if i'm not doing commissions anymore and i'm saving up for refunds for people for the art i do owe (but it's kinda hard when you're rarely paid for 100's of hours of manual labor monthly) but like... it still makes me feel bad. like i'm not allowed to be happy or draw for myself because i did once. and then people got super upset, attacking me on social media and things like - they didn't understand i'd finished every tiny piece i had posted the same day, but there was just so much of it they didn't believe me since i hadn't streamed it or anything. i could show timestamps and such but it wouldn't do any good. they were looking for reasons to tear me down and make a joke out of me because they were miserable with their own lives and that was what put the final nail in the coffin, like, it was the final straw for me.
i only drew for myself for free advertisement for commission work, and when i stopped doing commissions... i just stopped all together. i don't know how to get back into it, i just can't bring myself to be an artist anymore because of all of the negativity behind it. like, i don't know, i feel like i'm ashamed or something shameful so no one would care about my art even if i posted it except for the few close friends i do have. not to say the folks who do favorite my art, like my art etc aren't worth something of course, but it is sporradic and rare for it to the point like, i forgot how to just... enjoy art. to indulge in shipping work, to make myself feel like something or worth something again.
i don't know what i'm supposed to do anymore and i kinda feel like i've abandoned something i spent 17 years of my life trying to make good. i'm 'okay' now, or at least I was, but i don't feel like i was ever decent enough to keep going or that i should. i'm just... lost. and afraid. is that weird? to like, be scared to post my own artwork or draw anything that's not supposed to be making money? i don't know if that's burnout or commission artist ptsd or what but i just
i miss it, and i'm actually crying now because i want to draw so badly but at the same time it's like everything in me screams to not do it, to not do it ever again. i'm such a loser i swear to god.
i think the hardest part about being an artist is how hard you tried to keep friendships alive that weren't friendships, but people just using you to feel better about themselves, to use you to get free art or free publicity when they were struggling, that sort of thing. it's hard for artists to find friends, and it's a big reason why i haven't really been openly friendly to folks anywhere, not even here, unless i know i can trust them.
i've been hurt by a lot of people, so it's always hard when i'm on art sites and i see them either spamming their art, or other people spamming their drama or anything, it's like... not a trigger because they don't affect me to the point of going into a panic attack, it just makes me sad. i remember the person i thought they were, and then realize it was just a manifestation, my imagination, instead of the reality.
it just goes to show, anyone can be a dick, and i look back to all the art of characters i have, especially ones i paired off with them, and see their character in it, and it makes me sick. especially with how much of it there is for certain characters. like, hours upon hours of time, wasted, drawing things for them instead of making myself happy. or the fact i had to draw in my own character so i felt that i wasn't just, y'know, wasting time. it's why i love pairing characters but lately i've been like... terrified. so terrified to do anything it's insane i know, right?
i can't even draw for myself anymore without feeling like i'm breaking some cardinal rule. the guilt is so heavy on me, even if i'm not doing commissions anymore and i'm saving up for refunds for people for the art i do owe (but it's kinda hard when you're rarely paid for 100's of hours of manual labor monthly) but like... it still makes me feel bad. like i'm not allowed to be happy or draw for myself because i did once. and then people got super upset, attacking me on social media and things like - they didn't understand i'd finished every tiny piece i had posted the same day, but there was just so much of it they didn't believe me since i hadn't streamed it or anything. i could show timestamps and such but it wouldn't do any good. they were looking for reasons to tear me down and make a joke out of me because they were miserable with their own lives and that was what put the final nail in the coffin, like, it was the final straw for me.
i only drew for myself for free advertisement for commission work, and when i stopped doing commissions... i just stopped all together. i don't know how to get back into it, i just can't bring myself to be an artist anymore because of all of the negativity behind it. like, i don't know, i feel like i'm ashamed or something shameful so no one would care about my art even if i posted it except for the few close friends i do have. not to say the folks who do favorite my art, like my art etc aren't worth something of course, but it is sporradic and rare for it to the point like, i forgot how to just... enjoy art. to indulge in shipping work, to make myself feel like something or worth something again.
i don't know what i'm supposed to do anymore and i kinda feel like i've abandoned something i spent 17 years of my life trying to make good. i'm 'okay' now, or at least I was, but i don't feel like i was ever decent enough to keep going or that i should. i'm just... lost. and afraid. is that weird? to like, be scared to post my own artwork or draw anything that's not supposed to be making money? i don't know if that's burnout or commission artist ptsd or what but i just
i miss it, and i'm actually crying now because i want to draw so badly but at the same time it's like everything in me screams to not do it, to not do it ever again. i'm such a loser i swear to god.
Furry Facebook
Posted 6 years agojust kidding
https://furrylife.online/profile/518-pancaked/
i joined furry life. figured i'd go ahead and post it since i don't have anything to lose and i don't want people posting my art elsewhere again.
i'll probably treat it like facebook and stuff considering that's what it is -- seems easier to share feelings and things there than it would to soccermom haven.
https://furrylife.online/profile/518-pancaked/
i joined furry life. figured i'd go ahead and post it since i don't have anything to lose and i don't want people posting my art elsewhere again.
i'll probably treat it like facebook and stuff considering that's what it is -- seems easier to share feelings and things there than it would to soccermom haven.
pride month
Posted 6 years agostay safe my celebrators and supporters.
keep hydrated for all walks, and make sure you stick to your groups for the buddy system.
you have a supporter in me, and i hope you all live it up as hard as you can.
safely of course, this world is still nuggin' futz. 