Some things have changed.

1) I moved out. I now live in a 5 bedroom house somewhere across town.

2) I got a scanner so now i can upload my work.

3) Im getting a puppy soon. idk why thats important, but its a pit and i luvs pits.

This will be my first time going to anything with a mosh-pit.

First stage:

Korn
Rob Zombie
Five Finger Death Punch
Lamb of God



Second stage:

Hatebreed
Chimaira
Shadows Fall
Winds of Plague


Third stage:

Atreyu
Norma Jean
In This Moment
3 Inches of Blood



Its going to be AWESOME! XD

still no place, still no car, still no FUCKING ANYTHING!

damnit, i'll just seclude myself from every person here in this fuckin blackhole of a state in this mangled country!

I cant fuckin believe that it has taken OVER A FUCKIN MONTH just to have my car looked at, WHEN I HAVE THE PART I NEED! i just dont have the fuckin tool, cuz its a fuckin specialty tool that no one has. so therefore, no one can or will help. i finally found someone that knows foreign cars. but im not holding my breath over it.... it was suppose to take place before christmas, but it didnt.

i got so much shit to deal with, i had to break up with my bf. he caused me so much more trouble than i already had to deal with. so at least one thing got fuckin done.

i've let go a lot of friends, but then again, i've made a few friends too. i just got better judgement.

i think i've had my random outburst of "fuck" for the month...

OMG!

me, my bf, and two other friends are all pitching in to buy a house. $500 deposite and $500 a month!

and since i've payed taxes within the last 2 years, we are getting the "first time owner" plan, soooo the house's lease will be in MY NAME! *only damn good thing i've seen Obamah do LOL*

of course, i am planinng on leaving this state still, but whatever i still owe on the house, i can just rent out the rooms and let that pay the rest of it off!

YAY FREEDOM! X3

On August 30th, 2009, around 5-6pm, my dearest friend, Raven, passed away. for a week she was severely ill, and on that day, she was taken to the hospital around noon. right from the start, the doctors said that there wasnt much hope.

Raven was one of the VERY few ppl that i would consider family.

R.I.P. Michell Santiago, aka Raven Darkwing

yeeeaaahhhh....i have been without a scanner for a while now and have been unable to use on that'll upload my pics properly. i have a shit load of new pics but no scanner >.<

but i can do poetry! only thing is that poetry takes a little longer to come up with....or at least it does for me XP

I couldnt resist XP

RULES:
1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Tag 15 friends.
5. Everyone tagged has to do the same thing.
6. Have Fun


01) SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY?
Still Running- Chevelle

02) HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
Almost Easy- Avenged Sevenfold *its not what the title sounds like* lol

03) WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Soldier Side- SOAD

04) HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Inside the Fire- Disturbed *wow... funny how i've had a fever and this happens XD*

05) WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Big Girls Dont Cry- Fergi *damn strait..wait...HOW DID THAT GET IN HERE!*

06) WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?
Killing in the Name- Rage against the Machine *fuck yeah!*

07) WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
There For You- Flyleaf *HA! i wish*

08) WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Criminal-Disturbed *uh-oh...they're on to me lol j/k*

9) DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Toxicity-SOAD *pretty much*

10) WHAT IS 2 + 2?
Darkness Surrounding- Avenged Sevenfold *see kids, the only good type of math is the kind associated with music. so go grow up and become famous rock stars!*

11) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Indestructible-Disturbed *OMG she really is...amlost*

12) WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Breakawa-Kelly Clarkson *W...T...fucking F!*

13) WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
A little Piece of Heaven- Avenged Sevenfold *as much as i hope that doesnt happen...i probably would do that if my bf killed me*

14) WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Bleeding Love- Leona Lewis *another one thats accurate yet creepy*

15) WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Love Story-Taylor Swift

16) WHAT SONG WILL BE PLAYED AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Slipped Away- Avril Lavigne *ok..now im worried that my computer is possessed*

17) WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
In The Ayer- Flo Rida

18) WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
Who Knew- Pink *sounds about right*

19) WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Fuck The System- SOAD

20) WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
Revenga-SOAD

I have about 3 albums of System of a Down in my media player lol.

21) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
I Hate Everything about You- Three Days Grace
*now i dont hate all of my friends. just the annoying ones that constantly buzz around my head with their drama.*

22) WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
So Cold-Breaking Benjamin

So, its been months, and i still cant find an appartment...well i have but nothing within my budget. Jason says that once his dad's friend buys the old Chevrolet dealership, he will have a job in detailing cars and making $400 a week!

so things are kinda looking up, but im not placing any bets yet. *crosses fingers* ;)

Last Friday i bought an 1990 Audi 80. Everything works, no leaks, no major problems, good on gas, good mileage, and its all in MY NAME! the one huge thing im really happy about is that everything all together costed less than the repairs i would need for my old car.

my old car: transmission, transmission leak, oil leak, radiator leak, water leak, water pump & belt, thermostat, window motros, windshield wiper motor, car door key hole on driver side.

sad part is, that may not be all the problems with it.

so i was looking at over $2000 in repairs.

the Audi: $1500

only thing left now is how the hell am i going to break it to my dad. (*cough* bipolar control freak *cough*). he'll tell me to grow up but as soon as i take on adult responsibilities, he blows up. but w/e he can kiss my ass. im about to be 22 on Wednesday, so it doesnt really bother me. XD

Hokay....
so, got my cat a new place, Europe was a bust...for now, infact i dont think i'll be able to move for a while. i think i may have to stay in the states. its shitty eveywhere, so at least i can have some freedom here.

still saving money (as usual) but its not enough. i cant even afford college anymore. *emo tear*

but hey, i still have all my closest friend (well..almost all my closest friend) and a BOYFRIEND! XD

i think i had a New Years resolution... to finally stop being single! *does a little dance*

but my Bruderlien wasnt too happy with it. especially when i was suppose to move in with him and he specifically said not to get into a relationship. but hey, every way i found to make money backfired, so it probably wasnt going to happen anyways. i still want to move, but i dont regret it though. all i did was do my best and prayed that i find peace and happiness...well im happy now, arent i?

i mean, even his family is starting to ask "when is the wedding" and its only been 2 months O.o;
his mom calls me "daughter-in-law" -_-;
talk about being rushed...at least i dont have to worry about him rushing into things LOL.

ok...so the hwole trailor park thing didnt work. Infact, the guy turned into a total ass and backstabbed me, throwing out my cat and such. so I'm back at square one, having my cat stay at the same place that he started out at. -_-;

but after i talked with a few ppl, i found a way to make more money than what i have now. that is to move to Ft. Lauderdale and get a $15 per hour job as well as to secure a job for my friend, Raven. we plan on being roomates there for a few months before our huge leap to Europe. just incase our original plan doesnt fall through, we'd still have the money to get over there with a little leftover.

so the only things i have to worry about now are:
1. passport
2. announcing it to the family
3. saving enough money. :P

ok, so i really dont want to move into a trailor park. my "roomate" isnt the best person to rely on and my friend, Raven, wont hear of it. in fact, she is doing everything in her power to make damn sure i dont move into a trailor park. well i have a few good freinds that are willing to be my roomate incase i get a studio apartment...or w/e
one of them said that he's going to get SSI and give me his check until he's 18...thats 2 months from now. so for 2 months he wants to give me his SSI check. WTF!? im srry, but i have grown too use to being treated like shit to recognize any sort of kind acts. oh, dont get me wrong, i am SO VERY GRATEFUL! and after those 2 months, he'll become my roomate if eveything goes well. damn i wish ppl under 18 can move in...like around 17...but w/e
things are starting to look up, i just hope they fall through.

So a few "friends" of mine have been doing all kinds of bullshit, such as accusing me of being this God-awful person with no respect or reguard for other ppl's feelings. for those of you that do actually know me, you know that im not that kind of person. those ppl have been looking after my cat, Bubu, and now they are threatening to get rid of him if i cant come over and take care of him, when they already agreed to watch him until i can get my own place.
I've been though so much shit in the past month, its driving me insane (i think i am becoming a chain smoker).
so here's what i am planing to do in the near future:
im going to move out of my father's house. there is this place that has studio appartments. so i can move there and take my cat Bubu away from those ppl. as far as friendship is concerned, i want nothing to do with anyone anymore, except for a select few.
after that, i am going to continue to raise money to move the fuck out of this country and relocate to England. i have a few friends that are going there and they want me to go with them. although i was kinda hoping for Spain, England will do just fine. at least i'll be away from this shit-hole.
im done with all the drama and the "temporary situation friends", as Ike has called them.
i dont entirely regret all the shit, cuz it has made me stronger in the end. however, i do regret not seeing it sooner and doing something about it.

HI EVERYONE!
im new here and i just want to say hello! i am looking forward to making more art, seeing new art, and making new friends!