I turned 30 today! Can't believe I am not in my 20s anymore. And mentally, I always feel like I'm in my early 20s or even 17. As for my physical health, well, I sometimes fell I'm in my 50s due to how many painful days I have.

Well, I hope this day will be better than my other hatchdays. Especially when this is a milestone. My hatchdays never were that special. I always felt like they were like every other day in my life - OK, painful, or very average. But seriously, I want to finally get spoiled. In any way it can. I am bored to the bone! I feel like I don't have friends, or those that have just forget about me because I'm that boring and unimportant. I always try to be humble, but I am HONGREH for some spoiled stuff! Been so alone in the last year. I lost 2 "friends" in the last 365 days. I'm honestly afraid another one is on the way. I NEED some spoiling! 🤤🤤🤤

As for some info stuff, well, happy to say that my derg model is going pretty good. Once I finish textures, gonna have fun doing the rigging (texturing is not as fun) and then DONE. Hopefully, by the end of the year, she is finished and can be presented to the world and another derg into my collection. And then, give free renders to all that guessed correctly!

Also, annual 8/8 piece is on the way too. Wasn't that successful as last year, which is a shame.

Well, I guess that's it. I hope I didn't bore ou with that text and rant, heh...

Happy Hatchday to MEEEEEEEEEE!🥳🥳🥳

Wow, it took almost half a year to get to this point. I remember it started pretty quickly from 1300, but then slowed down. Or it's just my feeling, IDK. Glad to see a familiar face from Twitter giving me that 1400th watch ;)

This journal is gonna be a little longer since it's been almost 6 months. I gotta sum up a lot of things that happened, so here we go!

A lot has happened since December. Only about a week after my last milestone, I started working on another model. Those that watch me on Twitter and Bluesky know, but for those that don't, I am making another dragon. And only 3 days ago, I revealed it's a female dragoness. So Alexstrasza will have a good friend (hopefully). They have some things in common, so I believe they will be friends ;)

Progress is going pretty well, but I did crash into some obstacles. Yesterday I finally finished adding every single part on her body, but the biggest obstacle is how I should connect them all! I mean spikes, gums and those kind of things. I will find the way eventually, but it will take some time. Especially with creating mesh. With Alexstrasza, it took from June 2023 to February 2024, and since June is approaching, at least I can measure which one will take longer. But I hope now I'll be much quicker. Model may not be done this year, but I'll do what I can to finish this dragoness! Feeling really good about her. I even had forms open for people who want to guess who that dragon is. I already closed them and had 5 winners, who will get free render when revealed!

I did unfortunately experience social problems with 2 friends I cared about. They still persist, so I'm not gonna be too specific. Let's just say not caring makes me feel better, bc at least then I don't need to think about it.

I started being much more active on Bluesky. In fact, I'd rather get better reach in there than Twitter, but I'm still far from that, so please, give me a follow there if you can. I stopped being that much involved in politics bc it just didn't do that good to me mentally, but make no mistake. I am still supporting Ukraine! I just see no point in retweeting stuff since MOST of the people that follow me are on the same side as me. I retweet and post art stuff for the MOST part. And that makes it a little easier for me. At least politics are not in my head all the time.

Got some plans in my head. I am slowly preparing to launch my own Patreon, hopefully making much more stuff and feel motivated to do so. I do have some doubts as I did that in 2018 and have very dark memories of it. So, it would change my life completely if I was successful now and finally got steady income since I have pretty much none. It's very very weak. I have Ko-Fi, but that's not very regular either. haven't had a donation in about a year now. I am prepraring a new, longer animation with Alexstrasza and hopefully more animations to come with it, trying to remake Momma's model, making a brand new dragoness model, some fine renders with Vixen (female anthro fox), that I am now allowed to use commercially and of course, I am also preparing my regular 8/8 auction with Lissie. Coming soon! ;)

Also, I am almost 30! Until July 11th, I live my last moments of my life being in my 20s. Honestly sad to me. I loved 20s. It's fun! But that's how life is - we all get older and hopefully wiser! I still feel like in my 10s though. At least mentally. Or at least early 20s. Anyway, I hope it will be a good day. Really wish, but I don't have high expectations anymore.

Well, that was a lot to unpack! There's probably much more, but I just don't remember. Main things are dragon model, 8/8 auction, Bluesky and future plans!

Thank you for 1400 watchers. See you next time at 1500! We are getting to halfway to 2000!!!

Sooooo, we got to 1300 watchers and it took 4 months this time! Quite a few things happened!

I got the most successful 8/8 since I started drawing. I don't think I dreamed of it being so successful! Not only I sold all the slots, 2 of which were AB, but I also sold Alexstrasza rig the same day! Not only that, I sold another one later that same month. I honestly couldn't believe it. Especially after my experience with Momma. I hope that those that bought her, you enjoy it and that it was worth. It was incredible amount of work, time and passion spent on that model! Thank you for your interest.

There was another thing that happened - I finally finished Tiny's rig - after 2 years. It was a long break. After all, at the time I finished his rig in December 2022, I already started working on Alexstrasza! It was such a long time, but I finally finished him. I wish I knew some good tricks on making it better back then, but it is what it is! It's not too bad! And as I said, I do plan on remaking my old Meet the Robinsons edit in 3D. I have edited it so many times from 2015 to 2020, and I haven't uploaded many of those edits, but I still won't do it. When I make 3D remake of it, I will upload it, but that will take some time since I don't have Wilbur's model. I mean, I have one, but it's terrible and pretty much useless, even for a one second clip, so IDK when that happens. I need to rethink that.

There was one more thing associated with it. After posting 3D render with Tiny and that horrible T-posing model on Twitter, I found out who my real friends are. Those who know, know what I mean. That's all I can say to it. It was difficult, but I somehow got over it, thanks to my real friends!

Anyway, Christmas is coming in a few weeks, so I guess Merry Christmas to ya all. I hope you get what you want and happy New Year 2025!

Thank you and see ya at another milestone!

I'm very I glad I got to this number just day before 8/8. I have a pretty complex art ready for this day. I mean, it was a YCH auction, so everyone knows what it is about, but I'm very happy I used new technique of shading a friend taught me and it's working pretty good so far. I really wish he showed me more because I really want to learn, but it kinda seems he forgot about me. I really don't want to ping people to remind them. The fact they forget is strong sign to me. And not just that. I've felt pretty lonely lately. I haven't had almost any chatting with many of my friends, one of them I just WANT to forget about and never talk to again.

Then I had b-day. Now I'm not demanding, I really am not, but it is really sad to me that it keeps happening that some of them just don't write a word. Happened last year, happened this year. Well, at least I got some really nice wishes from other people here and on twitter. But still, I wish my closest friends were a little more consistent. They mean a lot to me and I don't want to forget another one. Especially when they did help me a lot in past. It's safe to say I'm a very sensitive Rex. And currently feel very lonely. I still feel pain one year after hernia surgery and that's bothering me a lot. I hope it leaves sooner rather than later. And with some of the friends, I wish I chatted more with. Doesn't happen that often. And I'm aware some of them may see this journal here, so let's just say I'm expressing my feelings. Mental and physical.

As for other stuff, starting tomorrow, I'm selling Alexstrasza's rig! I guess I'll do it same way I did with Momma (here on FA via notes), but I don't rule out the possibility of selling it on gumroad, turbosquid, sketchfab, kofi or something else. For now, I'll do it like this. I'll reveal prices tomorrow. Spoiler- it's slightly cheaper than Momma (even though Alexstrasza was much harder to make). However, I'm not holding my breath very much even though I did get comments from people supposedly wanting the model. I got same messages for Momma and almost noone bought her. It is fact I spent WAYYYYYY too long making her. Passion is absolutely there, a lot of it, so my prices are not gonna change with passing time. Once I set price, I'll most likely not change it. Just wanna say one thing - if you ever want to make me feel happy with comments like "I would but (insert reason why not...)", then don't do it. I got a bunch of them during 8/8 auction and I made it pretty clear that I don't want to know reasons why I failed selling it to someone. They thought they'd make me happy, but in fact, these kind of comments make it MUCH worse because they remind me how close I was but nothing was sold. No offense, just if you can't afford something from me, it's absolutely OK, just don't remind me this. I'm better not knowing circumstances. It really gets annoying after time.

Now this is a long journal. Didn't expect it to be this long, but I guess ranting does its job. Well, I'm glad I'm still continuing doing these journals every 100 watchers.

So, as always, thank you for helping me grow! See ya next time!

I have just entered my last 20s year in my life! Oh gosh! I honestly don't have good feeling about this. It feels like yesterday when I celebrated my 18th b-day. And that was 11 years ago. I'm really getting older, and it can be visible since I had 3 surgeries since then, 2 of which happened in the last year and 10 months. And I may need anothe one probably, but I have time for that. Wanna get some rest from the doctors. I visited more doctors than it could be healthy for 26-28 y.o. rexo! And now I'm 29! I really gotta enjoy my last year that starts with 2!

Last time I celebrated birthday, it was 4 days after my hernia surgery, but I was also 7 months into making Alexstrasza (I started in January 2023). Progress has been made and I can't believe how well she turned out. There's gonna be a LOOOT of fun with her, as it already was so far.

Happy birt.... I mean, happy hatchday to ME!

I honestly didn't expect to get to this number this early after getting from 800 to 1000 in almost a year. But I have a very interesting and most likely true theory of why that happened - Alexstrasza! Remember when I posted "Rock, Paper, MAW!" or "Just a Typical Chillin' Day" submissions in January 2023? Well, that's when I started working on her! It just took soooooooo looooooong! It feels like eternity, but it looks it helped me getting a boost, just as I hoped in my "1000 Watchers!!!" journal. And I couldn't be happier for how she turned out. When I first saw her very first untextured render in March, I actually cried, and that's something. I usually don't cry for these things, but that was a result of my hard work.

No worries, the fun is just starting. There will be more of her - more renders, more animations, more NOMS! Technically, 1st noms, because I didn't post any yet, aside form a tease! And hopefully, more watchers more often! I was much more active these days and I think that's what helped too!

Thanks for another milestone! Hopefully, even more people will notice her! And if anyone is asking, YES, I will be selling her in the near future. I have to finish textures for her jewelery first and make an agreement on the price, which could be around the same as Momma, even though Alexstrasza was MUCH harder to make. You will know the details!

Thanks again!!! See ya at 1200 watchers!!!

WE DID IT! FINALLY!

After 7 months when I got to 900 watchers, I FINALLY reached that 4 digit number! THANK YOU THANK YOU!
However, I got 800 watchers almost exactly 1 year ago, so my watcher count is exponentially slowing down. I wish I could do something to stop it and instead boost it. But IDK what. Maybe this is my last milestone for a very long time, and I mean 1100 watchers too. If this is going so slow, IDK how I'll progress...

I would love to continue with the messages every 100 new watchers, however. But as I said, it's going way too slow now. I hope my new dragon model can boost it...

Apparently, it's been almost 7 months since I last got to a milestone here with watchers. Not gonna lie, it is kinda sad. I haven't waited for it this long, especially when I'm close to a 4 digit number. It's been going sooooo slow. And it's not like I'm not uploading things. trying to think about what I'm doing bad. I have a huuuuge model to make, but have also been working on comms, uploading some renders and stuff. Right now, I'm at number 992. Please, spread the word. I wanted to get here by end of last year and now, we're at the end of 1st quarter and still nothing. I don't want it to look like I'm begging for new watchers, but I was trying to be active and patient, but somehow, it's not working out...

For anyone who has a Blue Sky account AND follow me on Twitter, you're free to follow me there as well! I may progressively upload more stuff there too!
My tag: [at]sheryno.bsky.social

This is it. My last hundred to reach that 4-digit number. I'm very close now. I hope I'll reach that number by the end of the year! I really wish it was sooner than that. Gonna upload something for 8/8 soon.

Also, my pain problems are hopefully leaving. I've had 2 surgeries in the past year, one was less than a month ago at the time of writing this. So, still not sure if it's gone for good.

Anyway, I really, REALLY hope I get to a 1000 watchers sooner rather than later. THANKSSSSS!!!

I'm 28. What a shock. I really am feeling I'm getting older. Had 2 surgeries in a year (one of them 4 days ago). And now I really hope it was the last one for at LEAST a few years, if not at all. I'm still in pain, but it's slowly fading away.

Also, I'm hitting 900 watchers here very soon. I'd always appreciate a boost! Can't wait to see that 4 digit number and enter this club!

Happy hatchday to MEEEeeeeeeeeee!

Another hundred reached! Was a little slower than the last one. Guess I should be more active to reach that sweet 4 digit number this year. Only 2 more to go. Was pretty successful this year so far. I'm very happy I got friends and supporters that I never had, or never thought I'd have one day. Or even better, have friends I don't know how I even deserve.

Thank you so much! You're making my painful months (yeah, I'm still in pain sometimes) so much better! <3

Was a pretty long time since I did commissions. Except for one in December/January, I haven't done any since July, more than half a year (surgery and health issues were factors too). But before I maybe get to form, I would really love to try doing 3D commissions with Momma T-Rex - unrendered short animations (40$), unrendered longer animations (100-200$), rendered poses (15$). For now, just 3D comms. I'll wait before I'll get to drawing. I want to try doing these with my Momma T-Rex model. But, whoever would be like to, I can also put Tiny the T-Rex model or even Buck (game ripped model, rigged by me). Tiny doesn't have scales yet, but he is colored.

So, I'll be opening some slots, but again, only for 3D. I'll probably get back to drawing eventually, but for now, 3D comms are open! Again, I'd love to try this new format!

Alriiiiight, so another hundred is here! Well, honestly, I'm a little suprised since I haven't been posting here that much. Might actually be cause of all the uploads of Momma T-Rex renders on Twitter. That's just my theory. But I think that's it. Haven't drawn in some time. Gotta get into it. But, well, that's what happens when I close my commissions due to none coming my way. I've been busy finishing Tiny's rig anyway.

Well, anyway, thank you for another hundred. I seriously HOPE I can get that sweet 4 digit number sooner rather than later ;)

Seems GIFs are not working here after the update. lol I'm not the only one that has this problem, apparently.
That's exactly why I hate changes. They often bring something unpleasant, dumb or worse solution to a problem.
I hope this is just a temporary problem, because I've been uploading GIFs here pretty often. It's like every single website I visit just keeps breaking - Twitter, Youtube, and now FA.
Also, due to that update message on the top, I can't even see the number of views, comments and likes of any submission.

Now, I seriously want to give HUGE thanks to  Zergal101 and  JohnathonDH for buying me a LOT of coffee. I absolutely didn't expect that in the SLIGHTEST. And even though I wasn't asking for money in that tweet (but for tips/ideas), know that I am always EXTREMELY grateful and happy for any support, especially so BIG, wow. That honestly cheered me up a LOT. Made my days a lot brighter despite the pain. It makes me consider reviving my ko-fi page. I always appreciate your support.

I hope I can start earning money via commissions soon, but RN I still don't feel for it. The lack of any interest in commissioning me demotivated me a lot. I need to get my confidence back somehow. There's so much I want to reach. I am getting close to having 1000 followers on Twitter, still a little far (still haven't been at 900 at the time of writing) and on FA as well. My main goal is just having a good stable income in the community, but I learned the hard way that it's difficult, especially with my mentality of freaking out a lot. And one of my BIG goals is also purchasing an animation course with a pro dragon rig and learning to animate dragons. I do hope it can help me get better and grow in the future. I can't wait to the moment when I start doing that, but the course together with rig costs over 1000 dollars, so I guess I gotta wait till I can get to the point when I can afford it. And there’s also problem with my weak PC graphics card. I can't afford to spend money without being sure that it won't hurt me, especially when, again, I can't even work after surgery and I'm not even drawing either and I've been spending some money on medicine, surgery and food. But again, those 2 donations were GOLD! I'm so happy for them. :) Maybe I can get more confident with goals on ko-fi lol.

Anyway, that’s what I wanted to say. Love y’all <3
Orange Rex OUT!

The watcher number's been jumping up and down, but at this moment, it's at 600, so it counts.

So, it took 3 months to get from 500 to 600, faster than before, which I'm glad for.

As some of you may have noticed, I closed my commissions, and for a good reason - nobody wants any, so I see no point in having them open. There have been a few moments when I could have some, but at that point I already felt disgusted about everything and so I just closed them down. I lost any motivation. If noone wants anything and I mean, ANYTHING from me, I just stop wanting it as well, because it's easier to accept failure than fighting for hope in better days. And I was trying, I really was, but if this was the hardest that I tried and still not good enough, it's not getting any better. This is seriously for the 1st time that I'm considering just stopping. I feel like I'm tanking, losing it, and if I can't even get enough money that can at least cover my surgery costs (200 Euro), then I just failed. And I had and still have so much passion in 3D and maybe drawing too, but that's tanking as well. I am still working on Tiny the T-Rex model, but sometimes I just ask "what for?" Why am I actually doing it? What will I achieve? And I can't get the answer. I will make an extremelly accurate model of Tiny, but then what? What will happen? How's that good for me? Aside from my own satisfaction, I don't think there's anything.

I don't know if anything's gonna change by the time when I maybe get to 700 watchers. But if not...

Well, I certainly lack any optimism with this. So apologies if I sound too sad, but I am losing hope and motivation. It will have been 2 years since I rejoined community in november. My ultimate goal is to just rise and continue making good and popular stuff and make some good income. I got so much plans to do. But at this point and time, I don't see it.

Anyway, I can't end without at least saying my regular THANK YOU for watching me. It means a lot to me.

It's that time of the year again. The day when I celebrate the day when I was born/hatched. This happened exactly 27 years ago. Gooosh, I'm starting to feel old with this and some of my health issues. It's also been 1 year, one month and 4 days since I created my twitter account.

Anyway, I hope this will be a good day. Started with me knowing I may need an arm surgery. Well, not really a present I wanted, but if it can help kill the pain, I'm all for it. Happy B-Dayyyyyyyy!

Aaaaaand another BEAUTIFUL milestone. I'm halfway to 1000 watchers, all thanks to you. I'm very very grateful to anyone who's come here a likes my content and supports me/watches me. Getting to this milestone from 400 took 4 months this time, faster by 2 months than before. I'd be very very happy if I could get to that 4 digit number a little faster. Getting to this number from 0 took 1,5 years. I may have to switch to better performace I guess to get there. There is something I got in stock. Something that took more than 8 months to make and I'm still occasionally working on it. I already put out some teasers. Some of you may already know what it is thanks to them. But I'll make a real announcement in less than 2 weeks.

I'm also always open for drawing commissions. I basically never had all slots closed. There was always something free, like right now.

Also, small thing here. After drawing way too many colored comics throughout this time, I realised I made them way cheaper than I realised. Basically, my single colored comm would be around 30-40 euro, while 3 panel comic would be 45-55. Almost the same price. Drawing 3 different panels for almost the same price as the single one was honestly never fun. So I decided to increase the prices of colored comics to basically the same price for one panel of the comic as a price for a single comm. I never like charging way too much for anything, but I also didn't expect that almost 90% of comms that I had would be colored comics. It stopped being fun. On many of them I also spend much more time than on a single one. I'll still try not to charge way too much, I always evaluate how hard it would be, how many characters, how complex etc, but it's definitely not gonna stay at 15-20 per panel, as normal single colored comms are around 35. I'll probably put it to 25-30 per panel. Still less than normal single comm. All other prices stay the same. Only colored comics increase. I really hope you understand.

My current focus is this big project that I have. I seriously can't wait to announce it. Not many people know about it. It was incredibly hard work. So many sleepless nights, long days, nothing but that project, it was nightmarish work. Really looking forward to showing ya.

Thank you. See you at 600 watchers. I hope that will come sooner rather than later and thank you for support y'all. I seriously appreciate it! <3 <3

So, some of you may have noticed my lack of activity on social media, especially discord. I haven't checked my messages there and haven't been there for exactly a month now. I'm not having a great time, ngl. Having some health issues that hurt, sometimes a lot, and rn I cannot do anything about it. It's not life threatening, but it is very painful. It's been like this for months, but it wasn't until last month that due to some more other issues I had, I just had enough and went on a break(down). And even though I have not been on discord, google has decided to message me about incoming dm, which google has not done since summer. And has done it twice. There's probably a lot of them, but I just can't get there, I don't want to. So, if any one of ya that dm'd me there during this period, you can message me either here or on one of my latest tweets, where I also brought this issue up (here: https://mobile.twitter.com/Sheryno1.....40684472868877 ). I don't want anyone to think that I'm ignoring ya, I just don't wanna go there. So, here's your chance to tell me whatever you already did, but just here or on twitter. Thank you. Orange Rex out...

OK, so I FINALLY got through another milestone with watchers and got to number 400. FINALLY. Thank you. And thanks to for being the 400th watcher. This milestone took easily the longest time to get to. 6 months! For comparison, previous milestones were achieved in approx. 2 months. This honestly lead me to think - What was I doing wrong? Or was I not doing something good enough? Does my content NOT appeal to many people? Do I upload very rarely? IDK, so I'm giving ya freedom in the comments to express literally ANYTHING that might be improved, because I'm literally doing my best and have no idea on what to do better. I watched that counter a few times during that half a year and it feels like eternity since I last posted a journal with a milestone. So, I'd be very happy to hear your opinion. What can I do better? Should I upload more? Is my art not good enough? Honestly, I'd really want to hear your opinions on this. Don't be afraid to criticise too. Criticism helps to improve.

Thank you, and I hope I'll get to the halfway to 1000 much faster than to 400! :)

Today marks the 1st year of me joining FA. There was a lot that happened. I started with uploading images that I traced, and then I learnt to draw from ground up. It wouldn't have been possible without my green rex pal and more artists that I've met. Thank you so so much.

There were also a lot of cases of burnouts throughout the year. Some of them hit hard, while other were pretty easy to get over. However, the worst one is easily the one that I'm experiencing right now. One of the significant reasons is the fact that my progress has stopped, I got no new watchers here and of course, I haven't had any commissions for weeks now. Last one was in october. And before that, in september. I almost had nothing to draw for weeks now. At least I had time for some other stuff, but honestly, it's not ideal. There's also a case of me not having know-how of what to do. There are many options - YCH stuff, adoption, sketches, but I probably lack confidence and I'm afraid of starting and failing. Wouldn't be the 1st time. IDK if I can ever get over this barrier. Making first steps is always the most difficult part.

After 6 years, I stopped editing clips and focused solely on original art. I view that as a success. It's not like I have a lot of things to edit. I have edited almost everything that I wanted or could, especially from Meet the Robinsons and Ice Age 3. But every single piece took waaayyy too long to make, and I couldn't do anything with it. Arts don't make that much time to make and they actually help expand my creativity and learn so much stuff, even animating. The animation that is my profile here on FA? That was my first serious take on animation. I have made some animations before, but they were either not original, or very primitive. This one was made from ground up and I couldn't be more satisfied with it. But since then, I haven't made any.

I hope that for the next year, it will be much easier for me and that I'll progress in some ways. I was never a fan of asking for shoutouts or anything. I see it as a form of begging. But if anyone is willing to help me with getting some recognition (or watchers), it would be highly appreciated. Like, really. I can never forget the shoutout by back in march. It was an incredible surprise and I can't be thankful enough for that, even if it was like 8 months ago.

IDK if my art and skills deserve any progress or watchers. I can't be critic of myself. So it's up to you to judge my art. Thank you. And I hope I can post something here soon.

Literally a few minutes ago, I reached 300 watchers here on FA. I might sound like a broken record here, but thank you! I really love seeing numbers getting higher! :) Beautiful milestone, I reached it a little faster than 200 (from 100). Here's hopin' I can get to 500 sooner or later...

I just got older by another year. 26th to be exact... I wish I could feel better, but I guess you can't have everything. Not even on birthday. Happy b-day to meee....... :P

I think I'm officially starting doing commissions. One thing is that I need some income, second being that I like drawing, third that I want to improve in art, but I'm kinda out of ideas.

So, if anyone would like to commission me, I'd be very happy. I've just updated my Commissions page and I hope the prices are fair. I'm still at the beginning of this process, but I do hope they are OK and that they aren't too high given my quality of art.

Of course I'm not expecting that I'll have many people wanting me to commission me, but just in case, I'm putting a limit of 4 commisions/slots for now. JUST IN CASE.

I'd be happy if they featured my characters since I know them best, but I'm no stranger to other characters as well, because I can actually improve drawing because of doing something else. So if anything, I'm absolutely OK with other characters as well. Just note that I don't draw nudity/NSFW. Never has been, never will be.

Thanks. I really do hope it will work for us. :)