i feel like shit, maybe i am...
i really want to go to my bed, cry as hard as i can and punch my face until i faint...

this was the worse day of my life
first, i wake up, it’s late for an appointment i have.
Then, my mother calls me and tells me that one of my cousins died...
i go to high school cause i’m not registered yet.
That delays six hours since 10 am to now, and i haven't even had breakfast...
and it results that i almost lose my first semester because i don't hav a stupid photo...
now i’m looking at my knife, thinking in cutting my throat open...

i want to do more requests but just a few ask for them, so i ask you
could you please spead the word about my artwork?
i wanna do other people OC’s or dragons (maybe furries, i’m still on practice)
please, i would really appreciate it...

i ask you something watcher, just curious...
why did you watch me?
i mean, i don’t wanna sound rude but, what’s the reason you watch this talentless little ugly idiot?
for friendship? just because you wanna watch someone? for lame? because you clicked accidentally `+watch´ in my page and you don’t wanna hurt my feelings unwatching me?
i’m very curious to know your answer...

yeah, Shadow turned in a furry, he would be or a leopard or a wolf...
could someone make me the honor of turn Shadow in a furry?

P.S: i’m on vacations yay! so i’ll be online mostly of the time and someone wants to play GTA V? i’m playing now

yup, i report myself to FA, from now until sunday ’cause i haven't get on vacations yet...
sorry if i’m a little turned off but, damn, i dunno why i feel like shit...

damn i was so nervious!
but the exam wasn't hard at all, it was mostly maths, i love maths! (somethimes)
and here i am...

somone wanna talk?
i feel lonely, and i’m having an art block so i can't draw...
i’m basically out of ideas that i can made, i got unfinished art trades caue i’m practicing furries...
i feel a little useless so...
*sigh* i think i’m a useless little asshole...

damn i’m stuck, i can't pass a fight, they are simply a lot and i can't kill them, it’s soo annoying

proposed by:  syll

1. Tell you what animal/creature you remind me of.
2. Tell you what color I think fits you.
3. Tell you how I feel about you.
4. Insult you.
5. Tell you my favorite OC of yours. (If you have one...)
6. Tell you what season you remind me of.
7. Tell you what food you smell like in my head.
8. Think of a random nickname for you.
9. Tell you what element you remind me of.
10. Order you to put this in your journal without using the words 'tag', 'dare' or 'propose'

i just want to say hi and thank all who cares about me...
sometimes i get a bit busy or simply i don´t got internet, but almost always i´m connected in weekends, i know i don´t post journals but i think it´s better for you ´cause you don´t get a message that says a new journal has been written, but you may just get pissed saying ''ahh, this dude post a stupid journal about nothing important, that´s soo dumb'' soo, well thanks...

i just want to fucking yell!!!
AAAHH!!
i’m fucking pissed right now!!!
fucking heat!!!
Fucking pain!!!
fucking shit!!!
Fucking need for fucking attention!!!
fucking feelings!!!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH!!!
i would fucking love to kill myself!!!
but i can’t for my family!!!
i would fucking love to cut myself!!!
but i don’t do it cause i have no knifes!!!
AAAAAHHHH!!!

i’m back for this weekend...

yup,i’ll start putting photos of me in my scraps, cause i feel good, ugly but good...
i’m a litte crazy so probably there will be photos of me doing stupid faces that make me look more ugly and pathetic than usual...
so, for the ones who care about me, you’ll see how am i maybe doing today, and you’ll see the crazy litte asshole you're worrying about...

who wants to see my real face and age?

sometimes i feel like i draw like shit...
i mean, they look cool but i don’t seem to find them good...
i always feel (and most probably know) that the other artists are a lot better than me...
i need a hug..
and in other point..
i never post photos of me cause i feel ugly, small and dumb...

finally, 2 weeks without thinking in school...
so, i think i’ll be bored as well, without having something to do and...
WAIT...
sure, maybe my friends here in FA maybe have some request to give me happiness doing what their minds think in paper...
but...
someone would like a request?
i don’t know...

what do you say my FA friends?

i think...
i almost never post journals, i´m always adding pics but no one knows my feelings, in the notes i´m always speak gently ´cause i want friends but...
sometimes i feel the happiest dude in the world and others i feel like shit...
but then i remember...
that people never see my journals, practically never comment them, i feel sad about that...
i think now...
looks like more watchers = less people to talk to...
now that i said somethin i ask again...
¿SHOULD I WRITE MORE JOURNALS?
¿SHOULD I KEEP HIDDING MY FEELINGS?
¿WOULD PEOPLE SEE THEM?
and most importantly...
¿DOES SOMEONE HERE CARES ABOUT ME?

i let this to you to answer...

Who wants to join the team?
Tecno-Crushers for stallions
Ciber-Valkiries for Mares
i’ll make suits for the ones who want to join...
just put your ref sheet

Tecno-Crushers:
001: The Two-Bladed Shadow
002:  wili9811
003 midnightsparkle
004 ryan-music-box-pony

Ciber-Valkiries:
001: Sharpened Darkness
002:  ForsakenSpitfire

if you want it can be a request or an art trade
Can someone do my Ponysona?
i would like to see him in other artists gallery...
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/12909250/

i feel too cold, even with a big coat, i have cough, all my body, and my head hurt a damn lot and my forehead is hot...

i’m back (it’s part of a roleplay where everypony except for luna, pinkie and William, hate Shadow)

(and looks like all of you too...)

well i kinda feel like that cause i can’t find ideas to draw...
i’m low on watchers and requests...
no one wants to talk with me...
my self-esteem is going down...
and i just feel stupid...

do you know of somebody who does free icons?

TODAY´S MY BIRTHDAY!!!
YAY!!