I can't do it anymore. I can't ''keep on fighting''. I'm tired and I'm weak. I'm sick.. This is too much. I'm hollow and lonely. There's nothing worth living for.

I want to kill myself so bad.

I'm scared.

But who cares. I'm just that weird guy. So... No one would miss me. And nothing would change for others.

My family wouldn't be able to scream at me.
I would be sleeping.
I wouldn't be tired anymore.
I'm seriously considering just taking my bottle of sleeping pills and taking it all at once.

I just don't have the energy to keep doing this over and over again..

It was night time on the Startshit Enterpize, Captun Kock looked at Spirck. How culd a alian lok so prety but so ugly? "Whut iz it Cptn. Klirk?"Spack said in hjis rovotic voice, he was digging throgh hiz man purse, he ws probaly lokking for something furteristic he would usse to find somethig. Kark smiled and said," U need halerp Spaulck? i very good at getting into tight things~ ;))))))" Sperk lookesd at him in cofiusion, "sjir, thats a strang line of wors. i havu nno idea whaat yo mean othar then the obviouz liteeral meanign" And theen kARK realize he just got SPCOCK BLOCKED.

"Tylar steered deelply into Jushes eyes that looked like the most eyeish of eyes. 'Jash- you know you're my best fren...right..?" Tlyer whispered as he leaned towards Jush, smilligg fonledly at hjm. 'T-Tylor..I-I'm-' jawsh becan but was quikly cut off when Tyler put. A fingie on his moth. 'Joss- I juts wanted to tell yuo this bdcause...well...I...' Now it wys jysh's turnt to cut off tylqr. 'Ty- I- I think I knoww what ur going to say...and..well..i- I love u 2.." Jush blushed and smiled shyliy, looking at Tyler through his eye lashqes. Tyluuer drew back aand opened his motuth but made no sound. He claered his throat before saying,'J-Josh... I- I'm Sery.. I was telling u I'm ur best frund..because I'm Gutting marieyed to a bootifeul whoman, hhur name is Jenniah.' Josh quickly stopawd smile, he tinrt white and walke back wards quickly,'I-I- I was making a joking tylear-- it was a funny!' Tyler luaghad loud and sighed,'thank gosh! It was baput to be really akward!' Joush lughed too but it was a sad luagh, his secreat was safer he gues"

meaning im back home. although i am self proclaimed professional homo

10 hour drive? that didnt kill my ass lmao.ahhhh- im tired but i feel like i need to draw but also my art block is being a bitch.im hungy and all we have is custard--- no ice cream >:C

for points cause i'm all about that online money money money

http://falling-for-fall.deviantart.com/

I get this weird feeling some times...

Like- there was a documentary showing some parasites and id feel really uncomfortable in the one spot the documentary was talking about and then in the chyropractic office there's these muscle pain things and if I watch them the muscle they're talking about starts to hurt and all. Then if people talk about a head ache I get one and sometimes people will talk about a feeling (like feeling a feather) and I'll feel it. Or I'll be reading and it will describe like....the texture of a wall and then I feel like my hand is touching said wall?? I think I'm going insane.

"HEATHENS"

https://m.soundcloud.com/aircatcher.....ts-leaked-song

All my friends are heathens
take it slow wait for them to ask you who you know please don't make any sudden moves you don't know the half of the abused

All my friends are heathens
take it slow wait for them to ask you who you know please don't make any sudden moves you don't know the half of the abused

Welcome to the room of people Who have rooms of people that they loved one day
Docked away just because we check the guns at the door
Doesn't mean our brains will change from hand grenades
You never know the psychopath sitting next to you
You never know the murderer sitting next to you
You think I did not get here sitting next to you
And after all I've said please don't forget.

All my friends are heathens
take it slow wait for them to ask you who you know please don't make any sudden moves you don't know the half of the abused

All my friends are heathens
take it slow wait for them to ask you who you know please don't make any sudden moves you don't know the half of the abused

We don't deal with outsiders very well
They say newcomers have a certain smell
You have trust issues, not to mention they say they can smell your intentions
You never know the freakshow sitting next to you
You have some weird people sitting next to you
You think I did not get here sitting next to you.
But after all I've said, please don't forget
(Watch it, watch it)

All my friends are heathens
take it slow
(Watch it)
wait for them to ask you who you know
(Watch it)
All my friends are heathens
take it slow
(Watch it)
wait for them to ask you who you know
(Watch it)

Why did you come, you knew you should have stayed
(It's blasphemy)
I tried to warn you just to stay away
And now they're outside ready to bust
It looks like you might be one of us

If I ever find "the one" they can expect a Halloween spider ring when I propose and we are inviting only the dogs of the family to the wedding. If any real family is there I'm calling it off. Dogs and cats only. I will make an exception for uncle slithers but he better not eat anyone. And if he hisses ONCE I will kill him with a shoebox. DONT ASK HOW. But I will.

I'm so disappointed in my art. no matter what i do it always seems to be getting worse. i'm just frustrated...



i have just about 4000000000000000000000 ideas but i cant out them on page. its killing me. art has always been my productive outlet that isnt going to get me hurt or killed, and now its causing me a lot of stress..

Lmao I need to die.

IM HOME AND I COULDNT POST ANYTHING BECAUSE MY CELULAR BROKE ITS ASSS.

Alright. I'm leaving for Cleveland @9 it's currently 8:36 for me. I won't be back till Sunday! I will try to upload pictures and talk about my stupid romping around.

This is practically my account where I go to die and be my other self. My DA is falling-for-fall. I'm usually more chipper there, I also have more art over there. So yeah..I do have a lot of issues but i promise I'm not always dead inside- or am I?

Tomorrow is my last day of school. Freedom(?) awaits! I'm not looking forwards to this, I've been able to ground myself on school.. On my friends. I'm going to die hahahaa