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Two years later.
Posted 13 years agoThat last journal I posted was pretty melodramatic, jeez.
Anyways, hi! It's been... A couple of years. How has everybody been?
Done? Awesome.
Right, well. ~~~That being done~~~
The past two years have been pretty alright. I'm 18 now so that's pretty rad. Have since gotten more involved in the local furry community, been on numerous vacations (Ontario, Seattle, BC...), got a full time job at a local telecommunications company, came out to my mom... The list goes on.
But I mean, I've missed this part of my life, too. I made a lot of friends here, and I feel I kinda just... Dumped them. All of them. Shit happened two years ago that yeah, I'm at fault for a lot of it. I'm pretty sure we can all kinda move past it though. I've actually gone to visit some of you guys (
royyy 
-karma- 
vitrex) so that was pretty darn cool.
Anyways, what I said on my previous journal was pretty much true. I'm not going to be frequenting this account anymore. Well, I will for a bit. But yeah, I've got a shiny new (old) account that you can go take a peek at. I'm a noodledragon now!
Don't know what a noodledragon is? ~~~>
targetgrey<~~~ It's this gay thing. Yeah.
All my new contact info is over there if any of y'all want to talk to me. But that's where you can find me!
Anyways, hi! It's been... A couple of years. How has everybody been?
No, I'm serious, go down to the comments and tell how the last two years have treated you.
Done? Awesome.
Right, well. ~~~That being done~~~
The past two years have been pretty alright. I'm 18 now so that's pretty rad. Have since gotten more involved in the local furry community, been on numerous vacations (Ontario, Seattle, BC...), got a full time job at a local telecommunications company, came out to my mom... The list goes on.
But I mean, I've missed this part of my life, too. I made a lot of friends here, and I feel I kinda just... Dumped them. All of them. Shit happened two years ago that yeah, I'm at fault for a lot of it. I'm pretty sure we can all kinda move past it though. I've actually gone to visit some of you guys (
royyy 
-karma- 
vitrex) so that was pretty darn cool.Anyways, what I said on my previous journal was pretty much true. I'm not going to be frequenting this account anymore. Well, I will for a bit. But yeah, I've got a shiny new (old) account that you can go take a peek at. I'm a noodledragon now!
Don't know what a noodledragon is? ~~~>
targetgrey<~~~ It's this gay thing. Yeah. All my new contact info is over there if any of y'all want to talk to me. But that's where you can find me!
My last words.
Posted 15 years agoSo, it's 2:46AM. I'm still awake, because my mind won't go to sleep. So, I decided I would let my mind rest by writing down what I was thinking. And I was thinking about what the last things I would say to everybody who's influenced my life in some way, shape, or form. So, I figured we'd go from here.
Here we go... (In no particular order):
Bryn: You're more than a person could ask for in a friend, and I feel I took you for granted at times, and for that, I want to apologize. And I want to thank you, for everything you've helped me through, through my numerous depressions and other problems, which you stood by and offered advice without complaining or anything. Your friendship is probably one of the things that has kept me along this rough road, and for that, I am eternally grateful.
Dylan: When I met you roughly this time last year, I practically idolized you. But soon, I let my jealousy consume me, and I became a monster. I almost let you die for my own pure selfishness, and I'm sorry. No words can express the guilt I feel for the pain I put you through.
Alex: If you've shown me one thing, it's this: I can't let myself depend on someone for emotional stability. And I don't want you to think I'm stating this in a negative way, you've taught me an important life lesson, one that I needed to learn or I wouldn't have been able to grow into who I am today. I'm glad to hear you've moved on and are happy with life.
Torrey: You're probably the person I've treated the worst. From getting mad at you for worrying, to ignoring you for months at a time, I was really an asshole to you. When you wrote out that thoughtful letter telling me you loved me, I went into a panic. I did what was easiest, turned you down and hid. For that, I'm eternally sorry. There is no excuse for my actions.
Everyone: Thank you so so much for being there for me, dealing with my bullshit. You guys are awesome, but I'm going to move on. This is my last journal, I'm not going to frequent this account or my hotmail anymore. It's just time for me to move on.
Here we go... (In no particular order):
Bryn: You're more than a person could ask for in a friend, and I feel I took you for granted at times, and for that, I want to apologize. And I want to thank you, for everything you've helped me through, through my numerous depressions and other problems, which you stood by and offered advice without complaining or anything. Your friendship is probably one of the things that has kept me along this rough road, and for that, I am eternally grateful.
Dylan: When I met you roughly this time last year, I practically idolized you. But soon, I let my jealousy consume me, and I became a monster. I almost let you die for my own pure selfishness, and I'm sorry. No words can express the guilt I feel for the pain I put you through.
Alex: If you've shown me one thing, it's this: I can't let myself depend on someone for emotional stability. And I don't want you to think I'm stating this in a negative way, you've taught me an important life lesson, one that I needed to learn or I wouldn't have been able to grow into who I am today. I'm glad to hear you've moved on and are happy with life.
Torrey: You're probably the person I've treated the worst. From getting mad at you for worrying, to ignoring you for months at a time, I was really an asshole to you. When you wrote out that thoughtful letter telling me you loved me, I went into a panic. I did what was easiest, turned you down and hid. For that, I'm eternally sorry. There is no excuse for my actions.
Everyone: Thank you so so much for being there for me, dealing with my bullshit. You guys are awesome, but I'm going to move on. This is my last journal, I'm not going to frequent this account or my hotmail anymore. It's just time for me to move on.
