It's almost christmas dontcha know, and it feels really surreal that it's this week. This is just a bit of a ramble but there is info about Shine in the last paragraph if you wanna jump to that.

I don't want to go into too much detail as I dont wanna bring anyone down by trauma dumping but the last week or so but I basically burnt myself out and accidentally finally kicked off all the grieving I had been putting off from not really addressing my fathers death back in March last year. It's long over due and a bit messy as I thought Id managed to keep a lid on all of that but apparantly not and I guess with my course finally finishing and the diploma finally in my hand my brain has then gone..."right no excuse not to dedicate some of your free time to this big thing you've been ignoring"

Damn you brain.

I mean you're right but doesnt mean its not bloody inconvenient. And I dont want my grief to infect anyones festive cheer so I'm hoping it kinda goes back in the box for a few days. So Ive been a bit low the last week and trying to draw a bunch of art before im AFK for a few days for xmas...

And then there have been some lovely people contacting me saying "Hey star/gem I hope you're taking some time off, give yourself a holiday etc" and just people being considerate in that way really made me feel quite loved and looked after, but I still am drawin pretty much up until I go (which is xmas eve) trying to set stuff up so theres not a huge break in service but folk are right there should be holiday time factored into my life. I'm gonna try and do more of that next year rather than just being glued to my computer drawing.

This is a long winded way of saying

Shine will be updated on Wednesday this week rather than Friday as I wont be able to do that on friday. I cant transport my laptop to my inlaws as I cant close the lid of my laptop anymore (It is so broke I really do need a new one but I cant afford that right now) So I will update Shine on wednesday instead and then normal service will resume next week