I kept thinking I was going to post everything as an ebook on Amazon. "Erotica sells," they said. "Create a big back catalog," they said.

Well, the two books I posted do actually save my ass every now and then, so I'm sure all the stuff I've done would net me some welcome pocket change. Dare I say it--I know I'm good at what I do. It's just... I haven't really had it in me to sell this stuff for profit. I've had plenty of time to work on it. I have plenty of works written, and could write yet more. I just... don't... want to. I'm so tired of turning my passions into rackets. I just want to write when I feel like writing, goddammit. I don't have lots of time, so when I DO get it, I'd rather work on original and fan works (most of which have no fuckery in them at all, lol).

I am going back and forth how to approach this. Post them for both free and on e-booksellers at once? There are three that are commissions that I should probably just post partials of, and only offer for sale, as that was part of the "deal," but...

Idk. I don't even know if anyone actively watches here anymore. It's something that bothers me, anyway. Just feeling gross about everything being for money all the goddamn time and not really wanting to be part of that and yet also needing it to live, lol.