But I've been pretty quiet.

I'm on my own now. I have my own dinky lil apartment. It's big enough for me and my needs. Neighbors and neighborhood are nice. I have no intention of leaving unless I can land a 2bed with my mom. She and I are both chronically sick and it would just be easier to live with someone in this condition.

My cats are registered as therapy animals, so I can take them anywhere.

I have my art computer all set up. And I have been working on art when my health permits it. I have an ulcer or two. And sometimes I need to be completely reclined to mitigate the pain it causes me. It's why I've been violently throwing up all this time. I've been to the ER several times this year to get pain meds to stop it from attacking me. I think it also swells sometimes cuz it'll feel weird on top of the pain.

At this point, I honestly hope meds or surgery can cure this cuz idk what I'm supposed to do about it. I probably did this to myself being so frazzled all the time. Then pile on grief on top of that... Jeez.

So idk, I'll try to be around more. It's just been extremely hard. I'm jealous of everyone still able to churn out so much art. I miss being able to do that myself. So I hid.