First and for most, Happy New Year's to everyone!

Next on the agenda, well... time to dust this off and put in what's been going on with me with the past handful of years.

For my mental state, it wasn't in the right spot due to family issues, drama and a handful of things that would come. I was stuck at the same dead end job, anything that I did with drawing or whatever I wanted to do would immediately go to shambles with having to constantly take care of my dad. Over time, I wasn't happy with myself and with the constant drama plastering at me with my folks, I lost complete interest in drawing and called it quits. With the constant strain on my mental health from everything, I felt like my life was at a point to where I was never going to recover. Until...that chance finally came.

Near the end of 2021, there was a trip that was planned on going to upstate New York to see my closest friends and I was given the chance to stay up there to get away from everything. So that's where I started to make those changes, hence why the sona change. From playing so much D&D during Covid with my friends, I was having a lot more fun with my character and he started to get more attached to me. I felt more happier and original so Shaxan it was! My dad managed to get a job and I told my old job that I was leaving in mid June to prepare for this move. A job that I had for 10+ years, I was finally getting away from it. When the time was approaching, I started to feel giddy and funny enough, I left on my 32nd birthday to go to ABQ, Albuquerque to stay at a hotel to catch my flight on over to New York.

The day came, I was nervous because I never have flown on an airplane before but I was also happy at the same time. I was finally leaving the place that was causing me a lot of grief and hell. Sure, I do miss some of my family members that didn't cause any said drama but this time of change was heavily needed. I had to catch 2 flights to get to my destination, which the 1st flight wasn't too bad. Catching the 2nd flight was pretty gnarly because I had to make a bum rush for it since it was my first time ever being in Chicago. I only saw a fraction of the airport but didn't really see on how big it was. As to getting on said flight, I experienced on what turbulence was like. It wasn't too bad but I wasn't a fan of it. The moment that the pilot said that we were getting close to the destination, I was able to look outside and my goodness gracious, upstate New York is beaauutttiffful during the summer time! After I landed, I finally got to see my buds in person and it was an amazing time spending those 10 days with them! It was the best 10 days and after most of them had left, the one that had set up the visit had let me stay with him as a roommate for about a year to get my life back in order, to finally start my mental healing process that I've been nagging for so long.

Although 2023 was a rough year, there was some good things that came out of it. I wound up getting another job and managed to get help on getting my own place too. I got to see my friends again which they wound up staying for 3 weeks here. We got to do a lot more together but started to make it official that I'll have them staying with me here in the summer of 2024! Last month, I went to MFF for the first time with my friends and had a blast there! I got to see peeps in person from VRChat and got to be more of a goofball around them. There was a lot of walking around but the experience there made me feel much more open and welcomed. I will definitely be going again this upcoming year!

So....what's my overall gameplan? For 2024, I'm continuing to focus more on my mental health and overall health in general. I want to keep on going strong and continue this healing process. I have friends that I can call my family. I'm going to be focusing more on 3D based stuff like environments, rigging models, etc. to follow that passion. It's going to take a lot of work but I'm not going to rush myself either. I'm still in the process of revamping this and I find it silly to go make another account but yes, I've deleted a lot of my old stuff. It reminded me a lot of my past that I don't wish to go back to, which it is for the best for my current state. As for my characters, they are still around. I know it was a long long time of being a zard for so long that I had no plans of getting rid of but I felt this change was necessary for myself. You miiiiiight see them around from time to time though!

On that note, you'll be seeing a lot of this big beefy dragonborn around! I will get back to uploading from time to time~

You all be safe out there!~