So, I tried having my account disabled for a while, but it just doesn't feel right. My friend may not care about me anymore, but I can't let it get to me so much that I feel like I have to delete my account. I mean...I wish he still cared about me, but I just have to move on. I think I've done a pretty decent job at trying to move on, so far. Been trying (and failing) to find new friends who might could take his place. But, there probably will never be anyone as good as him. He was my best online friend. We liked almost all of the exact same kinks, so RPing with him was always wonderful, and we could always talk to eachother about our problems and it really helped me get a ot off of my chest. He helped me to escape the depression and anxieties of my real life, for ust a moment, and it meant so much to me. I really hope he knows just how much I will always care for him. And I do genuinely hope he and his boyfriend are happy.

Sorry for the random ournal. Mostly, I just needed to write out my feelings. Not trying to talk to anyone in particular. I hope he might see this journal one day though, even though he has me blocked. I just want him to know that I miss him dearly and I want him to know that I am sorry for not accepting his relationship with his boyfriend. I mean, if he really did still care for me he would still be here, but idk. I'm just rambling now, sorry.

I probably won't ever post anything here again, though. I wish I could, but it just wouldn't feel right, because I have nobody to share my interests with on here :/

I'll probably favorite lots of things, but I have nothing worth sharing here. I was going to make my own fursona, to try and get involved with the furry community, but that was before my friend left me. Sigh. I know I probably sound like a big crybaby right now, and I apologize. Just ignore me guys, sorry.

Hope you are all well.