Hi everyone. I’m writing this because I owe you honesty and an explanation, and because I want to do this the right way.

Five days ago I had a mental health crisis and I attempted to end my life at 4am by walking in oncoming traffic. A car hit me and I ended up in the hospital. I had a little internal bleeding (fixed) and a broken foot, and I’m still here while I recover.

I’m feeling a lot right now: shame, fear, exhaustion… and also gratitude. A lot of you were worried about me, and I’m sorry for putting that weight on you. You didn’t “fail” me, and you didn’t do anything wrong. My brain just broke under the pressure and I made a terrible choice.

A big part of what crushed me is money stress and responsibility. I’m in the red, I’m dealing with medical bills, and I also help take care of my mother (she’s 82). I hit a point where everything felt impossible, and I tried to take the shortcut out. That was not okay, and I’m taking it seriously.

Here’s what I’m doing now: I’m cooperating with medical care, I’m going to take steps for my mental health, and I’m going to set up real supports so I don’t end up in that place again. I may be slow to reply for a while, but I’m not disappearing.

I may be slow to reply, but I’m here. If you’d like to help me (only if you can) CLICK HERE.

Thank you for caring, seriously. I’m sorry I scared you

PS: If you’re reading this and you’re struggling too: please reach out to someone immediately. You deserve help before you’re at the edge.