mind lost, applied for...
in the event someone finds true clinical head cases interesting, you found one
since my teens i have identified nearly perfectly with the condition in this wiki article: Avoidant personality disorder
i share this information about myself for intellectual purposes only, so if for some reason you feel compelled to return fear/ignorance/disdain for what i am
as you might have read, it's a wasted effort on all counts as i am already harder on myself than any critical remark could ever be
i rarely smile and am admittedly cynical, but i'm not miserable and i don't place a blanket of hate on everyone anymore than i can one of unconditional love
i do have goals in life, i have a sense of humor and would consider myself to be very reliable, even if chronically tardy, my word is my bond
my philosophical views align best with agnostic atheism, which basically means that when it comes to the existence of gods, i'm not certain, but i don't think so
however, i am convinced that by and large, organized religion is a cancer of the mind that we'd all be better off without, but even given that i'd never deny someone their own beliefs
artistically, my tools of choice are in traditional pencil medium, faber-castell polychromos (120pc.) & pentel graphgear 1000s (.3/.5mm) on 8.5x11in. manga paper/4x6in. index cards