!!! I AM NOT ONLINE, I AM UNAVAILABLE TO CONTACT, PLEASE DO NOT ATTEMPT TO CONTACT OR NOTE ME, I AM GONE, I AM AT BCT, THANK YOU. !!!

Hello, this is me, hardhat aka gutsplunker aka stupid dumbass aka that short-ass construction worker.

So to the surprise of many, but not all of you, I'm going to be heading off into Basic Combat Training very, VERY soon... as in less than a week from now, From then on I'll head over to MEPS then be flown out to my Fort where I will Train there for a total of 24 weeks. I have decided to serve my country and enlist with the National Guard. (of my state) This being one of the reasons why I never ended up taking commissions. what kinda blows most about this is that I'll miss out on my birthday around late september. but knowing how army boot camp is gonna be, I'm hoping my DI's never find out lol.

Now I have told this to some of the cool and awesome new friends I've made here, and I appreciate all the kind and motivational words you guys have given me, Thank you. it truly means the most to me. because I'm going to fully admit, I'm scared as hell about going into BCT, this will truly be my most difficult challenge and obstacle of my entire life up to this point. But I know deep down that I have the Mettle to best this and graduate.

Now you may wondering onto why I joined the National Guard? well.. a small bit of it was to prove to myself that I could over come this challenge and prove to myself that I'm stronger than I think (warning incoming gayass sob story) For the longest time I've struggled with confidence and mental fortitude, most of my life I was a shut in loser who barely had the gall to talk to anyone, even to my family. It was alleviated around my Junior to Senior year of high school. but the Feeling still lingered. Not to mention how horribly addicted I was to my vices, Every time I indulged in it I felt a small bit of myself crack and sunder apart, I was ruining myself.

But the biggest reason that I've decided to enlist was for my parents, For the longest time they were, and still are, the most supportive and loving people I've ever had in my entire life, always having my back and always being there for me when life kicked my ass. Now as they approach an older age I simply can't just stand around and let them work themselves into their elder years. My main goal for enlisting is to help and support them financially and hopefully make my parents retire at an even earlier age. They gave me the world, They gave me life, its least I could do in return.

Now as for my job and finishing/graduating BCT, I did choose a combat MOS, Not going into specifics but the total 24 week training period is kind of a dead give away for some. To be honest I'm a bit confused at myself on why I chose an combat job, I got a 54 on my ASVAB, so it made no sense for picking it. But as of now that doesn't really matter. I'm 18, I'm an adult in this world now, I have to man up and take care of my own shit, I can't allow myself to rot into misery and sinful vices because I couldn't finish what I started.

But thankfully since it is National Guard, I will be returning when my time at boot camp is up, so I won't be gone for years haha.
but as of now I'll post as much as I can before I have to leave. and again, I seriously cannot be more grateful for all of the cool people I've met though this site, You guys rock.

also, if you hear anything about me, or any activity of me past September 15th, Its not me.