Ten Things You Want To Say To Ten Different People:

1. You helped me realize things about myself that no other could. I still feel bad about the way I ended things, though, and you still have a place in my heart.

2. We have an odd past, but I'm glad I met you, and I'm glad we're such close friends now. But somehow you still make me feel out of the loop, and as if I annoy you.

3. You sicken me. You're manipulative, you're a bitch, and you're a poser. I'm much more than you ever thought I was, and I am strong, very strong. You can't bring me down.

4. You mean the world to me. You're my everything. There is nothing I wouldn't do for you, I'd take a bullet for you. I love you with my entire heart, body, and soul. I can just never get enough of you. I wish things didn't happen the way they did, but I know we always will have a future.

5. You, without you I don't know what I'd do. In so many ways I have needed you and still need you. I love you, and this confuses me. (As I know it confuses you, as well) You'll always be one of my best friends.

6. I'm supposed to feel something, some connection with you, but all I feel is hate and contempt. It sucks, I know, but there's nothing I can do to change the way I feel about you. Hopefully time can fix things.

7. I will never care how much you suffer. Becoming aware of your existence was a mistake, and the real tragedy is that you'll never even know this, know why. I hate you and fuck it, I still love you at the same time. You destroyed my world when all I was trying to do was save yours. I basically killed myself for you. But you didn't deserve it.

8. You and I have explored many things, my friend, and its funny to teach you new things as well. I always have so much fun with your reactions. You are extremely naive but I'm slowly getting you to open up your eyes to the world.

9. You confuse me, to be honest. We're pretty good friends, I'd like to think at least, but you're so flaky. I never know your real reactions to things and it really unnerves me.

10. I owe you a lot. You're always there at the times I need it most, you are what I can call a true friend. Without you I'd basically still be in a lot more pain than I am now. It's also just kinda fun to hear about what shit you're up to, it makes me cringe and laugh at the same time.

Nine Things About Yourself:

1. I have obsessive tendencies, such as loving the color purple so much my hair was purple, by bed is purple, most of my clothes are purple. Its not bad, really. Its just fun!

2. I love to cook, and I find entertainment in reading cookbooks. I'd actually love to spend money on an all new set of cookware. xD

3. I'm smarter and more mature than most people think. Underneath my clumsiness, hyperactive, crazy, perverted personality is someone who understands and learns from life, and knows when enough is enough.

4. I don't believe in your god, I don't believe in your spirits; I believe anything can happen, and I believe most truly in love.

5. I hate hate HATE being alone, just about anywhere. I'm so deathly scared about being by myself, relationship wise and literal wise.

6. I HATE drugs, alcohol, anything that can alter your mind or leave you not in control of yourself. I think its stupid, there are so many other things that you can do to relieve stress and have fun, why do something that overall hurts your body?

7. I'm such an emotional person. When I have to cry, I'll cry, its that simple. Everyone knows my feelings, I'm an open book. I'm probably the most honest person you'll ever meet.

8. Recently, I've been going healthy. I've been trying to exercise, eating healthier things. People confuse this with dieting, which it's not, because I really don't need that. Its just so I can have more energy and be happier!

9. My grades mean a shitload to me. I NEED to get into a good college, with hopefully a full scholarship. I need to get off this island, I refuse to live here any longer than I have to. I hate it here. People are so full of themselves and are so closed-minded about so many things that are important to me and part of me.

Eight Ways To Win My Heart:

1. Don't forget about me. If we have plans, if you said you'd call: Do not forget. I take it personally.

2. Smell nice. I love scents, and its just more enjoyable to be around someone who smells nice, and not like they just jumped into a dumpster.

3. Be trustworthy and honest. Trust is one of the most important things to me.

4. Tell me how much I mean to you; I ADORE it, and I do the same thing for you.

5. Tease me, joke with me. I love dry humor. Its easy to make me laugh, so if you can do it constantly, great! xD

6. Actually have a serious conversation with me. I love having philosophical conversations, or helping someone out with a problem. Tell me your view on things, even if I disagree, I'll look at it from your point of view.

7. Be the one to call me, IM me first, send me mail. Anything, really. Don't always make me call you. I like feeling wanted.

8. Be able to be entertained with small things. I love just curling up on someone's lap and watching them play video games, or watching movies and just cuddling all day.

Seven things that cross your mind a lot:

1. "Why am I even bothering?"

2. "I wish you were back here..."

3. "I wish I could be happier."

4. "I'm hungry."

5. "I need to get these A's!"

6. "I need to get out of here."

7. "You are so sickening."

Six Things You Wish You Never Did:

1. Hurt those I love.

2. Decide grades weren't as important as other things, at a time.

3. Been so weak and folded under another's will.

4. Not fought for things I believe in.

5. Believe him.

6. Lost my temper for something that was so silly.

Five Turn Offs:

1. Beings shorter than me. I'm 5'1. That's weird.

2. Body stench.

3. Ignoring me.

4. Disrespect towards me.

5. Arrogance


Four Turn Ons:

1. Bondage

2. Slave&Master

3. Oral sex

4. Rough play


Three Smileys That Describe Your Life:

1. <333

2. :/

3. T-T

Two Things You Want To Do Before You Die:

1. Travel the world with the one I love.

2. Become a psychologist.

One Confession:

1. I know I can be too much sometimes, but its gotten much better. All you have to do is tell me when I'm doing something that bothers you. Its not that hard, and I don't get offended.

Well. This took me a while. XD