Hello. It’s been such a long time. I’m not dead, I’m here.
I haven’t had internet access for the past 4 years because in a moment of zeal for Jesus I threw away my computer. Dissatisfied with how much time I felt like I was wasting, how much more I wish I could pour into something with real value. I would spend many, many hours playing games, watching YouTube, looking at porn and masturbating. It was just unhealthy and not good. I wanted to be good, and I wanted to show Jesus I really did love Him and wanted Him at the forefront of my heart and life. I don’t regret it, because I’ve done so much beauty after really being serious about living life.

Though, reflecting about how I disappeared without explanation and that to many of you here who sincerely cared about me it was heartless and selfish. I should have at least told you. You knew I had kidney failure and was put on dialysis, so it could’ve been assumed that I passed away. I’m sorry. I’m so sorry. Please forgive me.

I had a lot of hurt from this community. Stupid, childish dramas with individuals. I don’t care about it any more and I’ve forgiven and moved on. But I, myself was very immature and foolish, too. I acted very evil, especially to those still supported me.

I don’t think I’m “back”, as an artist. I still don’t have a computer, so I haven’t been making digital art or music. But this is just to say I’m still here and I’m sorry. I hope we can be friends again.