If there is something I learned in my life is that the pit is always deeper than you think. Always.

Oookay now. Let's try to keep the boring unnecessary details away, shall we?

Long history short, my mother sucks as a parent, I suck as a person and I'm a sissy, so my boyfriend hates and loves me at the same time, we broke up and didn't at the same time. I have to move because here I can't grow as a person, but my mother and her well trained dogs my sisters will do their best and worst to keep me here.

That means SCOLD THAT BITCH UNTO SHE IS SUBMISSIVE AGAIN!!

Fuck. Just. Fuck.

I wanted to have a ok job, pay a rent for living here, go visit my man and his parents in my day off, fuck myself like a normal person because life is a bitch but nooo, mommy is there to protect her white, hazel-eyed child from this cold, cruel world while the other two are forced to work for their lives because they are not that cute and daughters of a unsuccessful marriage.

I'm done. I don't want to live a easy life, I never wanted. I want to work for it. I want to have problems that are worth worrying like a normal person. Because you know, you can't run from it forever. I know that. I wish mother knew too.

I just wanted her support and encouragement because I need that to do things. But she rather argue over what I do wrong and ignore the good things I do. She don't take me seriously when I try to be honest with her either.

So, yeah. It will be a hell.
See you later guys.
I hope.

Funny thing is, I wrote a long and annoying public journal to everyone see but it's more like a note in the fridge for two friends here oops.

Sorry.